I'm autistic, with ADHD. I can't focus on trying to get better at all or even come up with anything to draw without just giving up and going back to looking at my phone and doing something else.I've legitimately never been able to commit myself to any serious hobby and have gotten lazy over the years with my only actual one which is writing and the only reason I'm good at writing is because I wanted people to be able to understand what the fuck I was saying and I wanted to write good stories because I thought I'd never be able to make them in a visual medium, but that's it. I've never been able to commit to a serious routine, schedule, or anything. I just sit in my room online doing basically nothing.Everything I try doing looks so daunting and impossible. I tried learning Source Filmmaker as a teen and I gave up immediately because it looked too complicated. I tried learning how to make my own games in game maker, gave up immediately and never touched it. Even something like drawing just looks so complex and impossible. This is what it's like for everything I try doing.
What would you say are your strengths?No, giving up anything immediately does not count I'm afraid.
>>32333722Please don’t ask me to give you reasons to not kill yourself followed by hobbies. Do you work? Have you any work experience? Do you live off of benefits and charity or are you a contributing member to society?
>>32333806I only work 3 hours a day. >>32333797Writing I guess? I've been writing for a while, but I can't ever bring myself to do it anymore. Last thing I wrote seriously was a year ago. But the only reason I got good at writing was because I thought I'd never be good at any other art form.
>>32333814Do you consume any benefits and/or charity?
>>32333722Take an IQ test. If you score 130 or higher, keep striving until you find something worth pouring your soul into. If not, focus on developing a skill in something mechanical rather than 'artsy,' unless you're prepared to approach it as a 9-to-5 job. While this path might not feel fulfilling, it can still allow you to contribute value to the world before going out.
>>32333839I don't want to work a 9 to 5 job. I can barely handle a 3 hour shift as it is.
>>32333836No, I don't.
>>32333841Then you are a loser, sorry.
>>32333853So much for getting advice I guess.
>>32333851Sounds like you’re a net contributor! I think that’s reason enough to not off yourself.
>>32333863I want to do a hobby. I want advice on how to do a hobby. If I can't do a hobby, then I'm killing myself. It's that simple.
>>32333867Fine, you can have a hobby. Maybe look up a streamer or youtuber who does source or drawing. Maybe it’s easier learn that way rather than reading, guides etc.
>>32333888I can't ever understand the drawing resources and I gave up when they looked too difficult for me. I literally don't know what the fuck I'm doing the moment I start drawing. I can't understand any of the fundamentals. Here's some of the video guides that I've looked at.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9m4Hf_6U4Rchttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wAOldLWIDSMhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=DUldcJRo4cAhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mT9Vbb7WDMoEvery drawing exercise or guide looks flat out incomprehensible and too complicated for me to follow. I try following it, but I can never understand how to do it. I don't know how to apply it to things I want to draw and I flat out can't even complete any of the exercises.I have tried the IC sticky, gave up after fucking up the first upside down sketch and never went back to it. Gave up on one line exercise and never went back to it. Gave up on Loomis once the body construction started. Gave up on Keys to drawing because that looked too complex and I can't even make myself read past a single paragraph because of me being distracted. Whenever I start drawing, I literally can't make sense of something as simple as drawing hair. I can't understand 3D perspective nor make sense of it in my brain.
>>32333901You have any interest drawing with a computer program, graphical design or something like that? Maybe that could have easier to follow guides than hand movement of drawing.
>>32333913I tried FireAlpaca and got a drawing tablet a year ago and barely touched it because I couldn't figure out how to work it. Even with tutorials it looks too complicated for me to figure out.
>>32333914Any interest in stamp collecting?
>>32333935No. I want actual advice.
>>32333946Maybe you need personal tutoring from a drawing person. Maybe arrange that?
>>32333969I don't know. I've never been good with in person meetings, and I get even more nervous with stuff like that.
>>32333973Maybe have the meeting with the drawer online and wear a mask?
>>32333990How would I go about doing meeting someone online to do this?
>>32333998Something like google drawing online tutoring. Fiverr comes up first but it could be another site.
>>32334027I'll try I guess, but I'd really like to be able to do this on my own.
>>32333722Sounds like a good and diverse life, not sure why you're being anal over it
>>32333722https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QT3fOMJdfbc
i won't read howie or howie adjacent threads
>>32334095What is this supposed to do for me,?
>>32333722for adhd get adderallseriously anon.i have adhd. shit is awful, but once i got on meds i could actually focus and do shit. Vyvanse is good too. for autism its difficult because there is no cure but there is hope
reposts this.OP has had many people offer help.OP refuses to consider any advice.OP does not actually want to change.DO NOT ENGAGE.Recent reposts in December alone:I can't keep living like thishttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30464066giving up on everythinghttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30455379I can't live like thishttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30460094I don't want to live like thishttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30446512(No title)https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30424329/Should I just kill myself already?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30388646/How do I learn how to draw?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30384624/How do I get any actual hobby?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30369135/How do I learn to draw at 24?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30351076/Can I still be a visual artist?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30336992/How do I get an actual hobby?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30361438/I literally can't learn or do anythinghttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30351503/I feel like I'm trapped in my own body (ADHD)https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30336926/I literally can't learn or do anything.https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30336792/
>>32334665broooo wtfknew it was a larp
>>32334665Recent reposts in october alone:I can't keep living like thishttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30464066giving up on everythinghttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30455379I can't live like thishttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30460094I don't want to live like thishttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30446512(No title)https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30424329/Should I just kill myself already?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30388646/How do I learn how to draw?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30384624/How do I get any actual hobby?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30369135/How do I learn to draw at 24?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30351076/Can I still be a visual artist?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30336992/How do I get an actual hobby?https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30361438/I literally can't learn or do anythinghttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30351503/I feel like I'm trapped in my own body (ADHD)https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30336926/I literally can't learn or do anything.https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/30336792/
>>32334665>>32334783yup, as soon as I saw the word "drawing" I already knew it was this guy lol
>>32334443I'm on adderall. I've been medicated on stimulants for my entire life and this has never gotten any easier. Was on adderall, it stopped working recently, then switched to Vyvanse, didn't work. Now I'm on Focalin, still doesn't work.A dosage of adderall, SSRIs. My mind and my body locks up and prevents me from actually doing anything. Usually either out of anxiety or my mind and my body simply just locking up and telling me "What the fucks the point"? And just making me look back at my phone again or just stimming and staring at a wall.Legitimately NOTHING has worked. I felt better for a week and then nothing. This has gone back all the way since I was a teenager too. I had thyroid problems that got fixed, but this never got any better.I don't know how to get the motivation to do anything. Even when I do happen to try my hardest in doing something, it's always half as good or even just 2% as good as anybody else doing the same thing, because me being purely retarded and unable to learn or focus. Even when I try, nothing good happens. My entire body feels sore and I rest for the whole day. I've been working out for 2 years and lost 20 pounds as well.
>>32333722bc ur mommy n dadde will be very sad. SADDER than now even. I know, seems impossible. But it'd make dem VERRY very sadd. u no want be mean to momee and daddee right?
>>32333722>> I'm autistic >> why should I keep living No idea. You tell us. We used to just throw your kind off cliffs as babies but that got outlawed because your kind told us you needed to live. So why is that? It's never been clear. You're not people and can't contribute to socjety. Why should we keep you around?
>>32333722Nobody can give you that. You find a reason to live. If it is something cheesy and sappy like those gay movies where it is "love" or "family" then it is that, but you have to decide why you want to live. A couple of retards on 4chan can't figure out your personal crap in a few posts and give you a reason to live. Once you realize you assign that to yourself, then it can't be taken away or given by anyone else, it is all on you.
>>32333722HOWIE THREADHe's been spamming this same text for over a year. Ignore and move on.DO NOT ENGAGE
>>32335549>>32334783>>32334665Thanks friends
>>32334379It's the blessed hope
>>32334379>>32336180https://kingjames.bible/John-1
