How do you deal with lifetime worth of rejecting opportunities, burning bridges and inaction? It's like wherever you go, you ponder how many, many doors have irreversibly closed on you, long before you realized they were ever there. Or how many wrong turns you took in life, either not thinking it through at all, bowing to others or the circumstance, or purely because you never believed in anything at all and picked the path of lowest effort. It just doesn't feel like there's anywhere to go from here on out, with every moment ever more so.
Sounds like living in the past.You have to live in the now.
>>32333811You'll only live once. Enjoy as much as you can.
>>32333822Yeah, that was always one of recurring themes. The Now, however, appears to be kind of barren. Wherever you go, feels like you're isolated, without any way to connect with people, and it's all very much dead-end-y.
>>32333822not OPI actually have a quite active life, I work, I travel a lot, I go to events (competitive pokémon player), I hang with people. My hobbies are nerdy but socially I'm doing fairly well, except I haven't dated anyone in over a decade (that's another discussion)the point is, eventually I return home, go to bed and get introspective, and have the same invasive thoughts as OP as I stare the ceilingI fully agree, you have to live in the now, but it's physically impossible to do that every single second of your existence.
>>32333871Time is a cruel bitch.The now is what you made of it in the past.Does that ring? It's everything, now, that you worked towards. Or didn't.The future? It's where I put all those things I feel I have to work on to get a decent "now".Actually took like decades for me to kinda work.
By simply looking for new opportunities, building new bridges and... action?
>>32333811The more you lose, the easier it becomes to take risks.
Thanks anons. I'm not going to lie, all the answers given itt were really obvious, but then again these are the ones that are the most difficult to really parse and incorporate.
>>32333811Now that it's over, you're free to do whatever you want since nothing matters.
