broke up with the love of my life that was perfect in every way because she couldn't make me cum.

wife material in every way but the sex was boring and every time it was a struggle to get her to do anything.

>>32559914
Couldn't you just keep practicing?

>>32559960
she didn't want to do any of the things i wanted.
>scratch me
"noo i dont wanna hurt you"
>spit on me
"nooo that's demaning"
>tell me how bad you want it
"nuh uhhh can't say that kind of thing"

>>32559984
demeaning*

>>32559987
>>32559984
Try tinder, grinder, hinge, bumble, okcupid,

I took the virginity of a 29 year old girl and i feel really bad about it because we broke up after a year. What do?

>>32560198
If you're compatible can you make it work?

>>32560203
I had a problem with her looks, she was ugly compared to my ex and it kept festering me

>>32560222
How was she ugly?

I ate $130 worth of Taco Bell and drank $60 worth of tequila in the past 4 days.
The good news is I don't crave junk food or alcohol anymore. Now I just need to loose 50lbs.

yeah i made a connection that my name spells out hitler that means i'm not deceased

>>32559647
Why does everything in this world run on money im not a commie it just sucks why do I have to work in a 8000k fluorescent light office and socialize with uppity people, why can't I explore or map out the uncharted regions of the Arctic and share canned food with my buddy?

>>32560542
>why can't I explore or map out the uncharted regions of the Arctic and share canned food with my buddy?
Why can't you?

I don't know. I think I just have to leave. I'm so sick of being a cry baby pussy and having to accept everything without putting up a fight but I guess that is life. I don't know how to make it right. I feel awful but she doesn't want anything to do with me at all. I told myself I was just here to work and nkt make friends, get attached, fall in love and I let my feelings take over again. I can't stand it. She was my shining star in this hell. I just wanted to get to know her, but I guess that's why she's so quite, so she doesn't have shit like this happen. I can't handle it, I don't want it to be this way. I crossed the line and I want to go back so bad. I don't want you to stop saying hi to me in your soft voice. I don't want to avoid you. I made this place in to a high school. I should have known it wouldn't have worked out. I need to leave. I'm sorry. I guess I just am a big child.

Why do I want to break up every time we fight? Fuck. I feel like an insane person. So stupid.

>>32559984
>tell me how bad you want it
Always thought this shit was cringe

>>32560952
Low emotional intelligence and bad conflict coping skills. Don't let your big emotions overwhelm you just let them wash over you then approach things calmly. Feeling emotions and getting heated doesn't mean you are wrong. It means you are human and alive. Pushing past the instinct to run away when things are tough is what a relationship is

I want a job :(

I spent 4 years in state prison and it's amazing how much more respectful and polite people are in prison compared to on the out. In the outside world, people talk shit, cut you off, or step on your toes. People don't do this in prison because they know there are real consequences for that shit. You disrespect someone in prison and you're getting your ass beat.

So many people need to get their fucking faces stomped in it's unreal. They need to learn their fucking place.

Fight!

>>32561095
Where you at..ish?

>>32561130
That's not being polite. That's being scared. You want people to be scared of you. You don't want their courtesy or manners. You want their fear.

4 years wasted. They made you a worse person. An utter failure.

My low self esteem gets in the way of everything. I have a good thing going with a guy right now and I’m worried I’m going to fuck it up constantly because I think I’m worthless. I can’t see how anyone would find me attractive but I still want love. I’ve learned how to hide it well but still sometimes I worry people can tell. I’ve been this way since I was a kid no clue why and no clue how to change it. I always just feel like a creature walking among humans.

>>32561223
You are proving my point exactly. You wouldn't say any of that shit to my face because it's disrespectful. You feel safe to be a fucktard because you're out of reach, just like people feel safe being fucktards in society because it's "incorrect" to discipline them.

Talk shit, get hit. You seem like the type to get hit.

Sometimes I think about that “u pay for the sins of your ancestors” philosophy and wonder if u renamed yourself after my Grandpa.

I wondered that the first time I read your philosophy

>>32561223
>I can be a dick because if you do anything I'll call my mom.

My boss from 2014-2016 used to tell that same joke from the third page of your book.

>>32561284
I think this is extremely sad. You are a perfect example of how the justice system is an abject failure. No, anon, I am not scared of you or your little prison sentence. I would tell you the same thing to your face. I am sorry that the truth is so wounding to you, but it would be much better for you and the people around you if you simply accepted that I told you the truth and adjusted your behavior accordingly before you end up back in prison where everyone is just like you.

>>32561297
>I can be a dick because if you do anything I'll beat you up

Look, felon trash, if you try to fight me on the outside I will simply pull my gun out and shoot you dead. I'm not going to make you suck my dick like you wish I would. You aren't scary, you're just broken and pathetic.

>>32560293
I know this feel but wine and whiskey instead of tequila.

>>32561323
Again, you're proving my point even more. You wouldn't say any of this in person. You wouldn't last a day in prison acting like that. I've seen little faggot zoomers talk shit like "I'll shoot you gramps" to an old man and get their shit absolutely wrecked. You're dumb enough to not understand the amount of shit you would get yourself in. Thinking you're a fucking cowboy with a quickdraw before your teeth get knocked out.

I can say this because I know this. I've lived it. You're just a larping little faggot that doesn't know how shit works and one day you'll learn the hard way if you act anything like you do online.

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>>32561323
Based.

>>32561407
Thinking a gun makes you tough is a great way to get your ass killed.

>>32561430
That's ego carrying for you. No smarts, just insecurity.

I think I might be too insecure for relationships

The job application process takes forever. It must really suck for higher end shit where it probably takes over a month before getting any confirmation.

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19m
This site is making me more and more schizo.
I haven't left my house for 4 months
Currently a NEET (plan on changing soon)
Have no friends / lost them all
Am generally hated by most people I know
I won't ever find a gf
I doubt I'll be able to make friends again
I have no social skills
I have no money (retirement looks bleak)
Feel constant shame
I want to kill steinbergwitz people (allegedly)
i fear NWO
I don't see a future of me having what I want or being happy

I've always considered myself a "good person" I went to get a property of a beach view and they wanted an obscene amount of money that would take 34 plus years to pay off. I noticed accross the road from the house there was land for sale for 1/10th of the price. I bought the land but felt really bad because the land was bigger than the houses accross the road. My consciousness got the best of me and I went to the houses to find where the best placement of my build should be so I don't disrupt their view. I was met with hostility and informed that putting any sort of structure would be an eye sore for them. I'm slowly negotiating for a tiny house but they have gotten onto the council about the legalities and that it would be different from every house on the street. I don't want to impact these people and their view/house price but at the same time the only option is right now is that or selling my land and I might not break even. I hate being a people pleaser. Serves me right for trying to take a short cut in price.

>>32561802
would they let you use the land as some form of chicken coop and you build some little house to live in right next? Mark the land as farm land or a market and say that you have no where else to live

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>>32561430
>Thinking a gun makes you tough
"It's always better to be a warrior in a garden, than a gardner in a war."
>>32561452
>insecurity
I'm very secure ;)

>>32561700
The ends don't justify the means.

Holy fuck I can't stand that she doesn't live on her phone all day and text me all the time. It's driving me crazy. I want her to text me all day I don't care that her job makes it impossible and that she tells me her availability in advance

>>32561430
A gun doesn't make me tough. It just makes me feel safe knowing no matter how much effort you try a single twitch of my finger can end your life. I can be a 90 year old granny and I ain't gonna take shit from some felon nigger like you if I'm armed. But animals like you want people unarmed cause you want a "fair fight". There is nothing fair about you fighting someone six weight classes under you gordito.

>>32561802
>any sort of structure would be an eye sore
fuck them. is there a hoa? if not, fuck them in the ass. put a huge fucking dick shaped house there and a billboard with a huge fucking dick directed at them. it's your land, you paid for it, they have exactly zero say in whatever you do with. now, if there is a hoa, you're fucked and you deserve it for buying into this bullshit

Her life is either trash and she misses me or it's going great and she's fine
Either way it doesn't really affect me from a day to day perspective
I just need to stop thinking about her

>>32561700
read 48 laws of power and atomic habits to get started. find things you like to do with other people wether it's gaming, music, martial arts, exercise.
you are going schizo because this shirt hole is the only thing you interact with and you are alone. you have lost you sense of proportion with the outside world. the first book I mentioned will give you a lot of insight especially if you are kinda slow in regards to social matters

Punkin won.

>>32559647
honestly it's all so tiresome, there's no one I can really trust or have a real heart to heart with, I despise everyone that surrounds me, their incompetent lack of self awareness repulses me.yet Its not like I can just live on my own since I have no real income, I've never had a formal job, I'm trying to figure stuff out and learn things but the information is so large it feels like it will take ages to get anything done. and I feel sick of my self, I don't want to worry anymore about this daily bullshit about doing things right. I just want to rot away and peacefully (but most likely, no most certainly regrettably) fade away. fear doesn't motivate me it's the only thing I felt for a long time now. I'm just drained, I just want to burry my head into the blossom of a warm void and just sleep.

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>best friend of 5 years that I talked with daily and hung out with all of the time gets enlisted for some military thing
>can’t even tell me if/when they’ll be back bc it’s so private
>the emotions hit 2 weeks after they’re gone

Fuck man. I am thankful for the people I do have in my life, there’s still some very good friends I have, but it feels like I lost a mental pillar of myself and have had unhinged thoughts lately. I guess this is the part where I “improve myself” or sink into the abyss

I went to the mall in hometown for the first time in the better part of a decade and God was it depressing.

The place has really gone downhill. They managed to keep the anchors filled, even the Yonkers got replaced with a furniture store and the Sears with an arcade/bowling alley. The interior was awful. Half the storefronts were empty. Most of the national chains, jewelry stores, and other nice places had pulled out. A lot of what was left was stuff like some guy who barely speaks English selling cell phone cases.

A placed I used to spend time at when I was kid, went to with my friends. It be one thing if was changing and evolving or even torn down and replaced with something new. It's just withering and dying, slowing turning a dump. If I was the main character in a movie it'd be a representative of something.

>>32562036
>I'm very secure ;)
Lmao fair enough

I forgot my turn signal earlier I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry DUCK D’x

I really love this guy, but we barely interact anymore and I feel isolated, unloved. I'm lucky to get a one-word reply anymore. Idk what to do

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My mom had a mental breakdown a few months ago, she couldn't sleep so she was pretty much a zombie all day. We had her committed to a psych ward and she managed to get some sleep and was getting back to normal, but it seems like the combination of meds is just making her devolve back to not sleeping again. She paces around like a mental patient in one of those old 50s wards, and has severe episodes where she hyperventilates and says she's hallucinating or that "she's not here".
Me and my dad are trying our best to get her back to normal, we can manage without her for some time but she makes half the money in the house, I don't live with them but often have to sneak out of work to check on her, my dad started a new job and is super stressed between providing care and company to her and working a full time job.
Starting next month, her medical leave runs out and we cannot afford to have her quit or be fired, we can't afford help to care for her, nor we can spare any more time without risking our jobs.
Sometimes I feel like shaking her and yelling "JUST FUCKING BE NORMAL AND COME BACK TO REALITY", but of course I have to pretend all is well. Also, during one of her episodes, she looked just like my grandfather on his death bed, and had to keep myself from losing it from the flashbacks
I pray every day that she recovers, we can't deal with it anymore

>>32559647
>>32559647
Its not her per se but its all of it combined. Ive never been someones first choice. The best women in my life have exited with frankly the stupidest fucking reasons. Maybe im just ugly. These women have burnt up part of me. I have to keep trying. I really dont want to though. Love is all that I could ever want. I need to learn to go through live without love but idk how to do that when Its the only reason i keep going. Without love i have nothing. Only a single woman said i love you and she didnt mean it. Today one of my female friends is going on a date. Today the girl i used to talk to appears to have fully moved on and has a crush. Today i got rejected.

What am i supposed to do. How much am i meant to fail and emotionally suffer. Its not her per se but the fact that I cant even get a gf.

>>32559647
I fucked one of my best friends while she had a long term bf and I was separated from my wife. Was going well for a few months until I Convinced her to leave the bf, and be mine. She said repeatedly how she wanted this. I’m so much more successful than her or her bf. So much more ambitious and masculine than him. I have a PhD and he’s a dropout. Taller, hotter, more dominant. I fuck her in ways that would make him faint. She did it for month, 3 weeks of which was fucking perfect. The last week she said she was riddled with guilt about cheating on him and breaking up my marriage (she didn’t) so she left me to go back to him. We were phenomenally emotionally and sexually compatible. We did all the hardcore bdsm stuff she always complained he was too pussy to do, and she told me she knew I was about it from our first conversation. She said she started planning how to break up with him the second we met. She learned new hobbies to spend time with me. Got close to my kids. She wore a collar and obeyed every single thing I said (this started when they were still together originally lmao). Was totally mine. I know she’s a cheater and not worth my time but our time together was perfect and she made me feel invincible.

Apparently she told him everything, and he still took her back??? What a bitch holy shit. She stopped fucking him when I told her to. Broke up with him on my whim. I Did the dirtiest stuff to her and she went home to kiss him after laughing with me about how much of a cuck he was. How is he ok with this? Why do I miss her so much when I have so many simpler and hotter options? She blocked me everywhere at his request, and I feel so intimately betrayed. I’ve never shared myself so entirely before and I feel so rejected. I don’t know how to get over this.

I got into an argument with a guy online and a few months later I looked up his username on breachdirectory (website for leaked password hashes), entered the password hash into a password cracker, got his password, logged into several of his online accounts and messaged his friends pretending to be him and coming out as trans

i have nothing on my mind today.
i just needed to post something so that the session cookie would be retained for whenever i do.

>>32562794
>I don’t know how to get over this
Praying for u, anon.

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I finally went to the doctor about the breast lump I've had for ~5 years because it got a bit bigger in the past 6 months.
>it looks like a fibroadenoma, it'll be fine, you won't even need to get it removed, it'll be a-okay
I just got a message about a Grade 1 emergency appointment for outpatient surgery.

My dog just died right before Christmas and now I have titty cancer, and the only people I have to talk to about it are fucking 4chan.

Women being whores is like the common link in the chain that is always broken. U can always count on it but nothing is done about it. It’s encouraged. Imagine how much better society would be if they just waited until marriage but they have to be whores instead. Oh well.

>>32562754
I went through a period of not sleeping for 6-8 months before I started chaining panic attacks and experiencing intense derealization/depersonalization. One day I had a particularly bad attack, slept that night and came out of it immediately after. (I have a pre-existing sleep disorder due to mass displacement in my brain from a benign tumor, though.)
I can only imagine how fucked it must be for you as someone who loves and relies on her, but please try to keep in mind that it's a neurological malfunction, not airy fairy psychological 'bad feels' and it's definitely not her fault.

Good luck, anon.

>>32562317
She's thinking of you too

>>32562880
Thanks man. I hope time heals. It’s been a week and idk if I’ve stopped thinking of her for 10 straight minutes

I am grateful for the new source that is keeping my narc ex preoccupied so I don't have to deal with her again

>>32562949
I hope u get an std

>>32562960
Wtf did I do to you? I’ve been tested clean but thanks for asking?

It’s actually funny how nature has a way of dealing with people enslaved to their genitals.

>>32562976
Nothing. You’re Chad, bro

>>32562950
Meds take them

Women are crazy for weiners don't ever let their demeanor lead you to believe otherwise

>>32563045
They want what they want

>>32560198
lmao. I’ve been the girl in this situation. At least you gave her the experience, man. She won’t die an unloved virgin, just another woman left by a man who didn’t want her enough.

Honestly, depending on how you broke up her, she should be fine. Were you an asshole about it?

Did you cast a spell on me yesterday?

>>32561130
They do not know what you are saying without having had learned that lesson. It was like that in the sticks, back in the day.

>>32563077
That depends on who you are.

Some bitch from a cult who keeps a vial of semen from the cult leader to intercept pregnancy and have someone raise the cult leader’s kid and then they fuck your life after u commit with psychological warfare and take your shit after ruining your head.

>>32562885
Damn, that sucks :(

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>>32563077
Damn, u sound like a victim.

>>32562885
You will recover, you survive and you will heal. Please get a good doctor.

I don't believe in relationships, like there's so many people out there, what's the big FUCKING deal about one guy or gal? People are replaceable

A close female friend of mine, who I've hooked up with in the past, sent me a picture of her ass in yoga pants with literally the text "look how fat my ass looks tonight".

She then got a little upset at me trying to escalate at all from there, saying she just wanted to show me and leave it at that, and that she didn't mean to "get me wound up".

I have the social awareness and self-control to take it in stride and casually change the topic, but inside I was absolutely fuming. I've dealt with some silly shit from women, but god damn.

>>32562794
Whores will be whores. She idealized you and praised you because being fucked by you made her “special”. She went back to him because she doesn’t feel good enough to be with you, and she doesn’t want to have to lower you off that pedestal to actually deal with you as a man.

>>32563101
U sound sexy

>>32563129
Can I piss on u?

Really want to sell my new home for a farm. New neighbors keep sending their vicious guard dogs down the street unless a homosexual is outside roaming the neighborhood. Does not help that my home is still un developed due to a lack of funds. It’s depressing to know that you should be well on your way to being rich but instead have to decide which credit card to max out.

>>32563129
Don’t answer that. I’m going for it.

>>32563129
I just peed on u. You’re welcome.

>>32563129
U just going to sit there dirty or are u going to get in the fucking shower?

>>32563126
This makes sense based on a lot of things she has said and helps. Thanks man

I don’t give a shit. Just help me out with this Lego set, would u?

>>32563116
How did this friendship come to be?

>>32562902
Thank you. Yes, I'm aware it's a very real thing, and I cannot even imagine how she feels, the confusion, being exhausted, feeling like a burden, I just wish we could do more so she can be healthy, and herself, again.

She doesn’t want to go on a piss date with me bros. I think it’s over

>>32563108
My heart belongs to one women

>>32562833
kek

I can never have a normal relationship with anyone. There’s something fundamentally wrong with me. The thing about him that made me feel safe was that he never ignored me and I never questioned whether he liked me or was interested and I really liked him and trusted him enough to be vulnerable with him in a way that I had never been with anyone else but now he’s ignoring me and I feel so upset that I can’t focus on anything else because the uncertainty is so unbearable

>>32559647
I'M UGLY AND I'M PROUD

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Shordy I… I’m throbbing.

Idgaf anymore

>>32563230
met in college

Shordy sobbin on my blog

>>32561095
Remember. It's WHO you know. Not what you know. Ask all your friends/family to get you in any of their jobs and you'll be golden

>>32561130
Earth is a prison! We are all stuck here with no way out!

>>32563371
It's also what you know as long as you can talk a big game and back it up. I basically cheesed my way into tech without a degree or previous job experience by knowing a lot and demonstrating competency.

>>32561346
What yard/level were u in

>>32561430
>imagine believing you're deadliest then a gun

>>32563376
Yeah but if you don't know it's really who you know. I didn't know shit about my job bit my friends dad got me in

without revealing too much, I am mentally disturbed (now less than before because I have dedicated some time to face the issue, but the pain is still there) by the possibility that a person I loved a lot had a heart attack (he was already quite sick, mind) triggered by that person thinking that he failed me and in life (he didn't, but he did pay the ultimate price for a bad habit he had).

>>32562317
you need the spot she occupies within you to be occupied by someone else.

i don't want to sound like some poetic cunt, but loneliness does adore depressing musings about ex-girlfriends.

I still want him. It’s a mixture of idealization and frustration. I felt awake for the first time. I liked how wanting him made me feel, and the intense intuition that came with it. Even now when he walks by without looking at me - there’s this pull.

If I’d been less of a coward, or had better standards, it might’ve been okay.

It was an astonishing lesson. It’s not that he was perfect — it was that I could see his flaws so clearly, and I knew that all I’d done was encourage the worst side of him.

>get rejected
>feeling down, watch YT videos of 4chan greentext stories
>one brings up how he works suicide lines and an old man read him Animal Farm
>decide to call suicide line trying to do the same thing
"Anon, this is a suicide line, I am not sure reading a story would be helpful, are you alright?"
>"Aah, nevermind, have a good day"
>immediately hang up
Well, that wasn't as fun as I hoped.

>>32562794

the thing about having a relationship with someone who's with you because she cheated on another dude is that it depends on what your relatioship is based on. if it's sex, you're fucked. if it's the fact that both of you like to be around each other and are easily entertained by each other's tastes, doings, and so on, it can work.

bro, she used you for sex. you can't build a relationship with someone because the sex is good.
you just can't.

if the girl wants to leave her bf, she'll just do it. she doesn't need encouragement from anybody, nor does she need to announce that she's gonna do it.
women don't need encouragement to tell some fuck to bugger off because he's no longer what they want.

>>32562754
good luck, anon. mental problems are terrible.

>>32559647
I am nothing like most people
Life is deeply disatisfying
I am socially dysfunctional and hide when I can
I distract myself with projects which I hope will succeed but never do so

>>32561223
You aren't being polite
Not helping your case

>>32563533
that anon's right, though. the former inmate is bemoaning the fact that he can't use out of jail the methods he would use in jail.
that's a fucked up way of looking at things.

i mean, if i were to walk around with my gun and with a document stating that I was a paratrooper, I'm sure that the men who are envious of my looks would think twice before looking askance at me.

i bet he'd avoid any disrespect if he wore something that identitied him as a former inmate.
but does he want to parade the fact that he was in prison? for what? to tame some useless cunts he's never gonna met again?

life's tough for everyone.
people, most of them at least, are more often than not either total pricks or really, really nice.

If you betray me, everyone you know will die or be ruined (like what happened to Rich). I don't make the rules, it's not me killing people. I'm warning you, you don't have to believe me but I warned you so I have a clear conscience.

I’m still drinking that same half gallon of milk from last night. Straight from the container actually. Just thinking of u I guess. Idk.

>>32563703
>container
Carton. U know how I talk all weird when I get nervous around u.

My wife is a bully.

Yesterday she told me “I hope you die alone. I really mean it.” because she was upset that I left the table during dinner to deal with something.

What kind of wife says that?

Thinking about divorce but feel bad because I want my son (almost 3) to grow up in a stable home.

How do i stop wanting to kill myself anons? Alcohol?

>>32563402
For sure. I would have done the same in a heartbeat.

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I've given up completely tb h, I'll never be enough. I'm genuinely a mentalcel, there's very clearly something up with me. I don't operate under the same rules, hell, under the same world as like 99.99% of people.
I think that every woman detects this detail about me. Subconsciously, atleast. But everyone that has known me for even a little bit knows. And that makes them write me off instantaneously.
Now for the e-relationship I'm in this is brutal. It's brutal knowing just how much more successful other people would EASILY be at something you struggle so fucking much to do. Something that she likes. I can't do it. I'm legitimately mentally incapable. There's a mental block somewhere that I can't get rid of. It's why I'm so introverted.
That's why I think I'm gonna just give up. I wasn't meant for this. It's okay to accept that.

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You're probably reading this. Remember it's not your fault. I'm not trying to complain about you or anything. I'm mad and sad at myself.
Something about how things lined up in my childhood could've been the cause, too. Everything socialization-related to me just feels like a game in a way. Sometimes a fun one I can play for a while, but very, very often, just a boring and tedious process that I had already seen millions of times.
I never wanted to be jaded. I think everyone can just sense it in me. I wish I was more fun and entertaining.

It really is just me living on a whole different world. I wish I could change that.

I always regret the posts I type here. I guess that's the point of putting them here, though...

Part 1 of 2

I would like to make it very clear that I am not currently experiencing any thoughts or feelings about ending my life. I am on antidepressants and I have been in therapy consistently for around 4 years.

I often fantasize about being the victim of some random tragedy. Something like a car crash or an unavoidable accident. I think about the impact on my body, the pain, the recovery, but mostly I think about my family and friends around my hospital bed. I think about all the worry and sympathy and care that I’d receive. I want to know just how deeply those around me care for me even if it means that they have to watch me suffer. The thought of the attention outweighs the possibility of life long pain.

That’s another thing. Recently my therapist told me that I love pain. She’s not wrong. Most of my friends assume that it’s purely sexual, but it’s not. I was never a cutter but I did self harm a few times in my early teens. I use to scratch at my hip or thigh till it would create a big welt, kinda like the eraser challenge. After I was done scratching I would pick at the scabs and rip them off until all that was left was a scar. I do still pick at scabs.

Part 2 of 2

At some point the desire to hurt myself stopped being something I did out of sadness and became something of fascination and excitement. The same jitters you get before a piercing or a tattoo. I don’t even feel that shameful about it, especially if I’m about to justify it to myself. For example a few months ago I took a scalpel to a piercing below my collarbone that was rejecting. Everything was sterile and I was already on antibiotics so I didn’t see the harm. I even filmed it so I could rewatch it and show it off like some stupid hardcore jackass type stunt. I like the pain, I like to see how long it lasts. It’s cathartic. I even like the scars I’ve gotten from doing things like this.

I’m coming to terms with all of this and it’s confusing. I know I should want to change but I don’t. I’m able to justify it all to myself because I never take it too far. I make sure there are little to no consequences before I commit to doing something harmful. If I can’t care for the hypothetical injury without medical attention I don’t inflict it. But part of me is afraid that someday I’ll stop caring about the consequences. 4chan is there something seriously wrong with me?

I don’t know why my brain always makes me dream of me cheating on my boyfriend. It’s not a recent thing, either. We’ve been together for a bit over 5 years, but I’ve had frequent dreams about having sex with other men. Obviously I would never act on it, but I wake up wondering with the regret of already sleeping with a man. Sometimes wishing it was real

>>32563724
Staying together purely for the kid won’t provide a stable environment for him either tho. Something has to change in your marriage it’s not something you should just shove under the rug.

Fucking hell. All I want is to chain her up, beat her senseless, fuck her unconscious, and lovingly stroke her awake to repeat the process. Why does life have to be so fucking complicated?

>>32563291
Damn anon sounds like you’re no longer his number 1 priority in the world. Must mean that he fucking HATES you. Unironically though Ive felt the same way about people who get close to me throughout my life, sometimes. Best advice I can give is think back about everything they’ve done for you, and if you can still say that they hate you, then sure, maybe they do. Though it also depends on how long you’re being ignored for

Honestly if ur reading this, don't even hold back at this point unless you seriously do not want to do it.(for yourself I mean) Go ahead and do whatever. Even if it means cucking me, etc. I might really just end up somehow enjoying it at this point

>>32563928
This sounds like bait, but if it isn’t then why not ask your boyfriend how he feels about it? Cuckoldry is very popular these days

>turn up volume to hear dialogue
>get ear raped by deafening sound effects
whether it's movies, tv or youtube videos, it's awful how bad sound mixing is now

>>32563524
same

There's this girl I met and we began texting. Before that, she said she would like to get together some time for ice cream or something. However, after she began texting me she becomes busy.
She has been busy for the past three months. At this point I have asked her to get together for a total of four, maybe five times. Fine, whatever. I can read between the lines. I know what that really means.
And yet, she still entertain me and text about other things.
I am not and will not be expecting much out of this.

I feel in love for the first time in my late 20s, with a friend
I was rejected
We stayed friends
One night we got drunk together but she can't handle alchool
She confessed there is someone she likes but doesn't think he reciprocates and she's afraid
I knew the dude had just given up with her
I conviced her to ask him out
Now they have a date scheduled

I just want to see her happy
Now I'm a bit more dead and can't even cry anymore

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>>32561130
Ex con here as well, I commend this statement. CDOC medium custody 5 years.
>>32561223
>That's being scared
You know... fear is (or used to be) the same motivating factor which drove the respectful behavior of people in the community, even if it wasn't the fear of direct and swift violence. You might fear tarnishing your reputation, losing your job or friends, losing access to opportunities, or being labeled an asshole. You maintained a respectful attitude because you feared being ostracized from your society in general. In prison it works just the same, but due to the nature of your inescapable and often tightly confined environment that you share with other men who have nothing much to do besides lift weights and walk the yard, violence is much quicker to find you.

I'm sick and tired of everyone typing shorter messages than the ones I send them. At first I thought I was long in the tooth but that shit is deliberate. Like your time is so much more valuable than mine.

>>32559647
i ruined my life. had a shot achieving what i wanted, but instead i loathed around in fear o living and its likely passed on. or at least under the circumstances necessary for it to be something i want to do under the conditions OF MY schizoid and ocd riddled peon brain

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I AM COOM
I MUST COOM
I AM EMPTY WITHOUT COOM
I AM EMPTY AFTER COOM
COOM TO THE DEATH
COOM TO THE COOM GODS
COOM FOREVER
I WILL

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I am becoming somewhat borderline. But this is a phase in my healing. I am truning the light beck on

>>32564307
People are weird and there's no way to k own their heads pace at the time. It's probably worth just giving people room to do stuff if you really wanna hang out with them.

>>32563651
Something happened to who what now? People don't tell me this stuff.

Idgaf : )

>>32564605
(-:

I wish you asked me years ago. I would've said yes. I'm thankful we talk almost everyday. I can never tell you this though. I'm sorry, I was terrified of losing you as a friend. I'm a horrible person.

>>32564314
please help

>>32564057
I don’t think he hates me, but it’s just a shitty feeling to confide in someone about a bunch of really personal things and then have the first sexual experience of your life together only to be ignored the next day. I feel like maybe he doesn’t care.

I'm so afraid of losing you

Speaking of losing people, I think I have lost myself

>>32564909
You won't

>>32563921
You might eventually take it too far and seriously harm yourself through, you should stop acting on it as much as possible.

>>32565021
I know it’s not you, but thank you anyway

I hope I'm not getting sick

>>32565095
I was hoping you wouldn't be in here today. Fuck.

I'm still waiting for him to come up and talk to me. It's been a month and we see each other everyday. I miss him. How do I stop thinking about him? Do I go up to him first and talk our business out?

>>32565160
I don't know who you are anon, I'm just some random person who wants to give advice. It's good that you are seeing someone about it though instead of suffering alone.

>>32565164
What happened between you two?

>>32565164
Do it, at least you'll have closure.

>>32564314
Are you seeing someone for this? If not, get an appointment now. No excuses.

I’m so fucking paranoid. How the fuck am I supposed to stop when I’ve been betrayed by everyone in my life?

Zuckerberg is all about free speech now, demonstrating that he will change his opinions to match the administration and corporations exist at the pleasure of the gov.

Maria was also meant to be my bride and mother of my children.

Taking them strong cold meds for a week probably launched me into a mania
That's why I was believing all this spiritual stuff and thinking about her so much
It's just weird in the end and kind of tiring
I need to move on

I hope the heater stuff won't be expensive

>>32563973
We’ve done couples counseling two years ago.

I looked up my old notes, and both a year ago and two years ago I was bringing up the same thing: name calling and insults.

It seems like wherever I bring this up she tries to explain it away: not enough affection, you’ve gained weight, you’re not helpful enough.

When in reality she’s just mean.

I don’t want to give the ultimatum of divorce if I can’t back it up.

Divorce would really make life worse for everyone: we live in a high cost of living city. I’m the primary breadwinner. So we’d each move to a worse part of the city, or out of the city. We’d eat worse foods. My kid would be pulled out of his school because it’s too expensive, can’t afford that when we’re paying two rents.

Tried to broke up with my girlfriend last weekend. She's obnoxious and I don't feel anything for her since last summer. She came to my place after vacations and she said she had 3 gift for me.
First one, she strips naked and she showed me her pussy, fully shaved for the first time. Ok, nice.
Second gift, she ask me to get naked, spread my legs and proceeded to eat my ass (I did it to her plenty of times but she never did it to me before).
Third gift, she climb on me and slide my dick in her pussy, no condom. She show me a blister pack and open it, put a pill on my tongue then kiss me and swallowed the pill. I asked what was that. She start riding me, she tells me that's THE pill and she wants me to cum inside of her. I didn't disappointed her.
She's been good, I'll give that to her.
I think I won't leave her right now.

I need to clean the house when I come back from this thing
Don't let me skip out on it anons

>>32565520
Next time she gets uppity, just give her a spanking

I can’t stop fucking up

>see yuri art of the lesbophobic girl in madoka magica having gay sex with the other madoka girls
Way hotter than I thought it would be..

Mike, you're a real piece of shit
I should've beat you to death for the things you said after the funeral
he was ten times the man you are, and so much more of a father than you were to me
I so deeply regret letting your shitty attitude get between us

>>32564065
I don’t think confessions of dreams about cheating would help

Tonight is going to be difficult. I'm trying to take things slower and just live in the moment. It's hard when your brain doesn't want to. I hope you have the night you deserve. I hope I do too.

>>32566819
What’s happening tonight?

>>32563724
Jesus Christ

>>32563724
Love how you conveniently leave out the context. We all know you deserved it.

Been sober for a week, all I need is a fucking drink

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anons I'm being lazy instead of cleaning like I was supposed to
someone motivate me

>>32566971
Femcel detected

>>32566996
Fuck cleaning, be a slob who lives in a sty.

I love how arabs try to bend the quran into something it's not. Like, it literally says to kill nonbelievers but then faggots try to qualify it with "what they meant was kill the non believers in self defense." It doesn't say that, now does it? It says kill non believers. It doesn't say "Kill them only in self defense." and even if it did, muslims are constantly fucking starting wars and then claim that they did it in self defense. And the shit way they try to defend the pedophilia aspects. Like their prophets 6 year old wife was a "special" girl so it was ok. Also, they believe when a child is "mature" enough it's ok. Like a 9 year old is mature enough to get pounded by some filthy fucking goat fucker.

Islam is a shitty, violent, rape religion. The worst the bible has is that "to lie with another man is an abomination" against gays but there are only like 4 verses against homosexuality in the bible. Meanwhile, there are hundreds of verses about jesus loving you and accepting you no matter what sins you have committed, so it's a non issue. I was browsing the islam board on reddit and it's full of fucking retarded arabs trying to explain how islam isn't that bad. Meanwhile there are dozens of islamic terrorist organizations and the worst christrian group is the westboro baptist church and they are more annoying than they are dangerous. They aren't blowing up trucks and beheading people on wikileaks.

(and don't even start with the crusades. That shit was like 800 years ago. Everyone was shitty 800 years ago, you just need to get over it already. Christianity lost it's fangs a long time ago. You might get the occasional psycho that believes God tells him to kill people but they lone crazy people and not organized state funded terrorist organizations)

>>32566819
*hugs you*

I feel bad for doing what I did but I think it was necessary. I like you too much, it’s not okay.

>>32567059
The only dangerous Muslims are funded by Jews

>>32566397
I didn’t say to do that, it’s more like, “dear husban, how do you feel about cuck porn? Ever watch it?”

>>32566973
I'm at 7 days too
my sleep is all fucked up and I'm struggling to think straight

social support feels weird but it's keeping me going
don't kick the problem down the road

I have gender issues

Haha losers, im gonna buy myself a beer in an hour or so to forget about my failing relationships

>>32567143
You are mentally ill.
The "gender" brainrot, is a political trick to sterilize you

>>32559914
Sounds like you made a grave mistake lmao

>>32567146
Is that how beer works?

>>32567170
No, but I like to think it is because I have no other way to cope!

>>32563651
Not unless I kill you first

>>32567099
What did you do?

i fucking hate this shit. every women hates me, i can see it on the way they talk to me on the way they see me, godfuckingdamit, i've been trying to talk to them, trying to be friends, hoping that that would help me, but no, im a fucking shadow, a maggot. forget having a girlfriend, i cant even get a girl-friend, no wonder no girl have ever tried to flirt with me. if i try to talk to them im a nuisance, if i dont i look like a creep. i make no progress trying, i just end up humilianting myself. i just dont want to be alone anymore, i wish i could cut off the piece of my brain that makes me have this stupid need for affection, for intimacy, so i could just crawl into a hole and be alone, thats what i deserve.
i should have been a miscarriage

>>32564307
My time is more valuable then yours or anyone because it's MY time. Not yours.MINE! go cry somewhere else

>>32564908
He got what he wanted and bounced. Your the retard for giving it up so easy

>>32565844
What thing?

>>32567207
You are ahead of the curve.
At least you can see.

>>32567212
You don't save any time with short messages.

>>32567269
I dont want to just see it, i want to do something about it, i cant go another year feeling miserable and alone, i want it to stop.

I'm gonna let it be man I'm gonna let it be

>>32567296
Sorry man, it will never stop

If you wonder what was the song, there was no "the" song, I was going to post something based on your answer.

>>32567305
Then how do i stop craving it. If theres nothing that i can do, how can i stop wanting it?

>>32567351
Does it have to be girls?

>>32567351
You don't stop wanting it.
Best you can do are fleeting distractions.

>>32567384
I'm attracted to them, so yes.

>>32566892
Distancing myself from people I should really be talking to in order to keep myself safe. I know I'm burdening them every day now and I really shouldn't be. Realized I have access to something I shouldn't and just fixating on it today. Trying to distract my mind and just wondering where it all fell apart.

>>32567112
So the houthis, hezbollah, taliban, al qaeda, ISIL, Hamas... all who are funded by Iran, are actually funded by jews?

/pol/tards are so fucking stupid that I can never tell if they are being serious or not.

>>32567468
They are not dangerous to anyone but Isreal.
Israel's existence gives them power and justification.
You wouldn't know about them, and they wouldn't be a threat without Isreal

Funny you ignored Saudi Arabia, Isis, and western sunni immigrants. The ones you've actually been attacked by.

That big smile lol weirdo. what's up with you.

Last year was a really good year for me, man I basically did a complete 180 thanks to some key moments at the end of 2023... just gonna try to keep this up.

>can you come in early?
>can you work x day?
>can you come in early tomorrow?
>can you cover the weekend?
>can you come in early again?
>can you cover this weekend too?
The only time anyone who isn't me gets these calls/texts is when I call out or request time off. I'm always the one they go to. So often in fact that I'm scheduled far below 40 hours each week just to make sure the extra hours don't put me at overtime.
I woke up this morning with unbelievable pain in my tailbone. I have no idea what caused it, but it hasn't gotten any better since I woke up. But I can't call out because no one can cover my position. Correction: No one is willing to cover my position. Closing shift lead. We have ... Six other people at shift lead or above who are capable and experienced in closing. One of them even jumps up my ass to tell me how to do my job all the time.
I'm so fed up with this fucking job. But I need money to live and this is all I can do.

Fumbling that girl was like the best thing that happened to me in a long time. looking back I'm really thankful for the experience as weird as it sounds.

As I get older
*adjusts rolex*
I only get colder.
*Shit eating grin*

I am doing zero planning for my future because the future is going to be terrible for everyone as the climate and civilization collapses and my retirement plan is to die of starvation due to climate crisis. Instead, I'm working a super easy dead end job that let's me browse the web all day and then go home for video games/YouTube.

I fully believe I will have the last laugh in the end because I'll have lived a simple and easy life that brings me joy and comfort while others tried their hardest to make good money and we will all end up dying in a mass die-off anyway.

>>32567173
That triple pack of Steele Reserve will do it. It is chap AF too.

>>32567143
We all do naow.

>>32567112
This.

>>32567508
>>32567783
>They are not dangerous to anyone but Isreal.
Millions of people in afghanistan are starving under the taliban's rule. The houthis have hit ships belonging to multiple countries, even china and eygpt. The Houthis have attacked US ships as well. If you haven't been paying attention to the news recently, an american born ARAB killed a bunch of people in new orleans in the name of ISIS. Syrian terrorists are fucking up Russians. hezbollah has been using lebanon christians as human shields. Through out the 70s and 90s, palestinians attempted to genocide all christians in lebanon.

None of these involved jews you fucking retards. Just arabs being the goat fuckers that they are.

I wonder what kind of excuses the police will make when I show them that those are not my real parents with proof by paternity test.

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>>32567884
We created all those problems.

>>32567952
That could just mean that your mom was fucking the mailman.

pro tip: all governments are trash and do not give a single fuck about the common person
taking sides in this shit is retard tier
this isn't a fuckin video game

>>32567508
They fight each other all the time and would do so if Israel didn't exist. They are barbarians as can be seen from the very inception of Islam. You know absolutely NOTHING about the region or its history.

>>32567983
No, it's not, you're just too stupid to play them against each other.

>>32567981
The female is the person I am getting a test with u dumb nigger

>>32567995
Well paternity is related to the word “father.”

>>32567983
Stop being blind.

>>32568005
My bad

Yeah I need a maternity test.

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>>32561598
>>32561598
>>32561598
Guy from this thread, that day she was defending her abusive brother and considering to date him because " I cannot deny anything of what he told me in his proposal and he also has a place to live and he's 181cm(im not kidding she actually mentioned her height)" and "she didn't wanna make me feel bad but she can be objective about her man of choice" she was literally typing to me scared that her brother tried to touch her and was afraid of his harassement the next day, I told her she lied about that if shes considering it but she said "its okay I understand him he couldnt hold back!" and that "his brother is not a bad person and told me he wont force me to have children if I dont want to" most of the conversation was her pretending to feel bad and defending him so I was just very upfront and dissapointed and didnt talk to her more. It's been 2 days since that.
I probably had a lot of typos but this mindfucked me some
What's the best way to get over an incestuos lying backstabbing european woman is what im asking now

>>32568019
It’s alright.

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This girl is my forever crush. She's an 11/10 forever. It doesn't matter what other girl I get with, it's her I'll want.

>>32567980
No, we didn't. They are all funded by Iran. And arabs have an average iq of 75, which makes them literally borderline retarded. As a people, they are incapable of civilization. They are inbred as fuck, 30% of arabs are married to their first cousins. They are literally too stupid to negotiate with. They truly believe they will die and get their virgins. Even the Japs knew they were defeated. Meanwhile, Hamas fights on despite losing the war within a couple days. They use their own people as shields and the fucked up thing is that the people support this. They enjoy being used as shields. 70% of palestinians are proud of the oct7th attack. Even though they are living in their own shit and filth surrounded by rubble, they sit there and think "Man, I'm sure glad we killed all those innocent civilians and took hundreds hostage. It was totally worth it."

And their government, Hamas, would rather keep up their pointless fight and prolonging the suffering of their own people than surrender with some dignity intact. It's like they want their entire race of people to die. Like, Hitler wanted germans to fight to the very end too but the german generals weren't retarded and actually cared for their own soldiers so they surrendered rather than die for no reason. Arabs are too fucking stupid to do this. They lack empathy completely. They don't give a fuck that their children are dying because they are just subhuman. They would rather strap bombs on their children and send them to kill innocent civilians than to just live peacefully.

>>32568274
>we

I suddenly almost have as many friends as Jesus did

>>32568159
that picture is quite old
how does she look like now?

>>32559647
i'm sad

>>32568338
Thar sucks. Internet hug

>>32559647
>be me
>12 years old
>kind of reaching puberty
>got this interest in porn
>there were a lot of internet-cafe sites near school
>went there to look at porn after school
>made this list on paper of every porn site I considered "nice" (like a favorites list)
>tell a friend about it
>other dudes ask for this list too
>make this "club" to search for "nice sites"
>got like 3 notebook shets full of porn sites urls with everybody efforts
>this becomes like a "secret for the boys"
>suddenly the girls also know (some faggot must have told them)
>one of them somehow gets the list
>doesn't wants to give it back
>she says she'll give it back to me if I invite her to the movies
>I say "fuck off, I'll just start another one"
>felt a bit sad for losing that list
>years later I realize she may had an interest in me

>>32568297
Hope they are better than his were.

>>32567984
Ok? And?
Let them fight each other.

The only reason we know about them is jews own us and keep trying to make us fight the sand niggers in jewish interest.

>>32568445
Nope but they're fun

>>32568274
Stop repeating jewish propaganda.

You don't have to be the direct funder, to be responsible for a things existance. Muslims mught be retarded, but you're right there with them.

Make Greenland green again

>>32568327
I met her when she was 17 and she was the by far the prettiest girl I had ever seen. She's 32 now and she's still an 11/10. She uploads pictures on her instagram but then deletes them after a week for some reason so I don't want to post any out of respect. She's just so god damn pretty it's unbelievable. She also has the cutest accent in the world.

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>>32568590
>jewish propaganda.
You're a retarded arab aren't you. Literally everything I said was true. The morons actually fully support the same government that uses their children as human shields. They wish death on their own kids just so they can play the victim.

Retarded terrorists are pretty well known for using their kids as bait or soldiers. I watched a short documentary about an ISIS attack in morroco where french soldiers had to kill a 13 year old kid, some woman, and two adults in a market place. They seriously don't give a shit about their own people. It has nothing to do with jews you fucking idiot, which I've pointed out over and over again you're just obsessed with them.

>>32568054
How well do they know each other?

>>32567783
You people are retarded. You will believe anything with no evidence.

>>32568495
You're extremely low IQ if you don't think your country is in danger of being invaded by Islam. Also, you idiots all think you're Alex Jones 2.0... you just believe stupid conspiracy theories, with absolutely no evidence, because you hate Jews and you're dumb af. I bet you believe the earth is flat too.

Ok then

>>32568780
Either a retarded Muslim or a retarded Alex Jones/Candace Owens type Christian.

You WILL die if you betray me, your offspring will die if you betray me. It's NOT MY FAULT. They kill people that betray me.

I tried to give men another chance but they are just disappointing. Time to focus on other things.

I'm gonna let it be

>>32569052
Let what be?

>>32568928
>no evidence
Like how there is no evidence of the exodus?

>>32569062
>criticizing the bible
Wow, you're edgy. You realize that if jews were capable of half the conspiracy shit you believe they've done, you're pretty much admitting that they are the superior race and the chosen people. If they could pull that kind of shit off they would have to be a race of 200IQ super geniuses. You have no idea how retarded you make yourself look when you basically kneel to the jews that apparently run the entire world and your life personally. Worse, you even admit that you're completely powerless to stop them. All you can do is say they have big noses and cry about it.

>>32569091
I wouldn’t consider questioning the legitimacy of Old Testament to be edgy. The average iq and leverage that Ashkenazi’s have in this world doesn’t really add that much to superiority when their morality is severely compromised. Sure they can rule over people but what good is it when the rule is dirty and maladjusted?

I understand now
He was the one she wanted to have the happy family life with and love
I was just a placeholder to use while she waited for him to get his shit together
She never loved me

>>32569121
I was being sarcastic. Criticizing the bible is about the most midwit thing you can do. If you want to truly be edgy, then start making satire of the Quran and see how fast your publication office gets shot up by muslims. Jews say "fuck palestine" and take down one fucking flag in Amsterdam and arabs absolutely lose their shit and start brutally assaulting people. Meanwhile, palestinians cheered and sang songs during 9/11. They burned the french flag during the charlie hebdo attacks. They constantly burn israeli flags and no one touches them. They actively celebrate terrorism and people think they are some kind of hippie peaceful, courageous people.

The rest of the world is civilized and don't act like a bunch of fucking violent apes when their religion get's criticized.

As for the super genius jews, my point is that they would have to be in order to pull off some of the conspiracy shit /pol/tards believe in. Like, if they were capable of even half of what /pol/ believes then they fucking deserve that power. They would have to be hyper competent and super geniuses that bow to no one. (and no, I don't think the jews are capable of doing any of this shit. I'm not a retard).

>>32569197
How did he get his shit together?

>>32569205
>They would have to be hyper competent and super geniuses that bow to no one.
If hyper competent means leveraging victimhood backed by lies with the whole world falling for it by manipulation and propaganda from the general media then yeah I guess they are hyper competent? Or maybe their power is backed by people’s reluctancy to be the bad guy and let them get away with anything. It’s not about “belief” from pol it’s about them addressing the very obvious fact of the matter. It’s all conspiracy without any form of theory at this point. It’s factual.

>>32569205
>>32569240
A small portion of population that achieved leverage and privilege over the world because of sympathy backed by lies. They take full advantage of this and they will never stop doing so.

>>32569091
>you're pretty much admitting
Yep.

It’s just sons of Japeth (cro magnon) being taken advantage of by sons of Shem (Neanderthal) while sons of Ham (black people) are used as pawns. In my strong opinion.

I love erasing tranny graffiti or peeling off their stickers. I really enjoy hiking and disc golf and for some reason trannies can't help themselves but put their graffiti everywhere. There are nice wooden bulletin boards completely defaced and covered in furry and trans graffiti. I'm going to the park with painters tape and matte white spray paint tomorrow to fix it. Might even print and tape up a map of the disc golf course behind a piece of plastic

I think Europeans and northern Asians are dominantly ancestors of Japeth. I think the windy turndra of Asia caused them to have to adapt in a way that made their eyes look as they do now. They have ancient masks that indicate how much of a struggle it was. Europeans developed with a wet climate where these masks would be futile. Perhaps the reason why both of our skin is white but our eyes are blue is because we lived in severely cold environments however they had eye protection that would be useful while we didn’t. Not sure. Just a theory.

When I disregard Old Testament my intuition leads me to strongly believe that Africans derived of apes and southeast Asians come from orangutans, North Asians from frogs and Europeans from salamander and deer. I don’t know why I think this. Just a strange hunch that probably isn’t accurate. I’m seeing more people mixed in society who look like they have cat dna as well. U see it very much in the eye and the lid included. They could even be implementing insect dna within people from vaccines. Never know.

There’s an old primate similar to a lemur that I think fits in with the dna of Aztecs as well. Research the shape of their skulls and u might come close to agreement.

>>32569240
>leveraging victimhood
The shit posted here is how you become a professional victim >>32568780 Jews have to deal with literal retards that will try to sacrifice their own children just so they can "JEW BAD". What kind of psychopath wants their child to die just so you can get sympathy? And the jews are the manipulative ones in this scenario to you.
>A small portion of population that achieved leverage and privilege over the world
So they are hyper intelligent and can manipulate all the dumb people like you then. At that point, they deserve all the power because they've shown they are considerably smarter than you are. You are admitting that you're a midwit and so are the rest of your people. (which you're probably an arab muslim seeing how butthurt you are by the jews)

Right now palestinians are trying the same thing you say the jews succeed at. But they are failing, hard. Gaza is in rubble, they live in tents and have buckets to shit in. No one with any intelligence feels bad for them because they did it to themselves. Again, 70% of palestinians thought the oct7th attack was a good idea. What the fuck did they expect would happen after that? Despite getting their land absolutely pulverized and their way of life completely destroyed, retarded arabs still see Sinwar as a hero martyr.

Hezbollah got absolutely wrecked by 200iq move with explosive beepers, taking out the most active militants of the organization. And israeli intel is so good they wiped out their leadership in a week.

Arabs started this war and now they are crying about "muh genocide" like they didn't do anything wrong. They are trying to play the victim card so fucking hard. The only reason they have had any traction with it at all is because there are 2 billion muslims in the world and they stick together like flies on shit. No matter what a muslim does, every other muslim will support them. They live in complete denial that all their problems are of their own making.

>>32559914
I had to leave my ex for this reason. Begged him to show some passion towards me and he took it as a personal attack and was so whiny. He simply wasn't man enough for me

>>32569458
Jews have a prominent history of child sacrifice as they mingled in Canaan. Jews control entertainment and sacrifice is still quite prominent in their industry directly in reference to the exposure to drugs and downfall by sexual gluttony. As far as Judaic cult practices go I think Orthodox Jews are quite literally looking for a sympathy grab just in the way they choose to cut their hair, which isn’t a racial thing but they like to blur the difference (for leverage). Could u enlighten me in your counter example?

>>32569540
I’m probably a legitimate example of child sacrifice by Jews but it hasn’t went as planned yet.

>>32569342
I was just thinking about Japheth too. Strange.

>>32569205
Everyone knows the Koran is bull shit. The problem is that everyone does not know that the Torah is too.

I think cats were the original schizophrenics because they could communicate with their bacteria and parasites way before the government started relaying 5g signals to the fillings in your teeth and hyper transmitted through your cell phone u sleep next to. Toxoplasmosis may very well be a massive or ultimate link to true schizophrenia.

>>32569121

I think the funniest part of this is YOU writing this

"when their morality is severely compromised"

You are one of the most unbearable, awful lowlifes I've ever come across online. This is so typical of losers, with no morality WHATSOEVER, to say something like this. It is YOU that is the problem, not Jews. YOU are low morality loser ruining the world.

>>32569603
Am I really thaaaaaat bad? >.< come on

>>32569598
>the government
Perhaps not

But if the government watches it happen surely they are reasonably complicit, right?

>>32569540
God I would do so many drugs and sexual degenerate shit with Kat Dennings you have no idea. I want a dark haired, pale skinned absolutely stacked jewess girlfriend so badly.

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After getting burnt out and fired from my last job (oct 2023), I'm finally doing a job interview tomorrow. I used to be a logistics coordinator. This is mainly a forklift driver position, so hopefully I'mnot seen as overemployed or something. I'm just praying it works out.

I said that the only guy I know with a Tesla is fat, divorced and lives with his parents and got kicked out of the feminist server I joined for being mean or something. Since when are fat divorced dudes living at home a protected class? A man was one of the mods so I guess it explains it

Lol our world hegemony is so funny lmao

>mfw I posted a Youtube comment about IQ tests and someone came to ask if I'm from a cognitive testing Discord
Hey guys are you from the /adv/ Discord? (don't answer I know some of you faggots probably are)

>>32569789
Discord is for faggots and pedophiles

Growing up is googling boo bees instead of boobies

If shordy ain’t laying eggs I don’t want her

I hope she breaks your heart. You don't deserve to be happy.

That friend of mine that’s always dismissive and with which I can’t have a normal conversation with asked to hang out
I hate how he thinks he can manipulate and control people (me included)
I even made a thread about him and some told me they couldn’t be friends with someone like him, ever (only 3 replies, so I’ll take that most that have read the thread agreed with them)
Probably the last time I’ll hang out with him
I’ve always been the third wheel friend for him in favor of another common friend that constantly says thinks about him to his own gf
Now he tries to keep tabs on me or something because “I know too much”. His words when I made him realize what a scum the other guy is
Because we don’t talk aside from sending reels every now and then, and I don’t care anout opening up to him in any way anymore
It does more harm to me to talk about semi-personal things with him than to have no friendship with him (essentially being alone)
I’d rather not tell him anything good that happens in my life as I’m 99% sure he’s still close friends with the other guy I said is a scum, and he’s told me before he tells him everything, and I don’t want him to know shit as the other guy always has something bad to say about anyone, especially about former “friends” (he never considered me a friend), just so he can start justifying his actions and make himself look better
I hate the third guy’s guts
I’d send him in a parallel society

You aren't permitted any hope and I hate you and you only deserve bad things and misery forever

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>>32569875
Kill yourself already you faggot namefag.

It’s not fair that you hurt me and emotionally brutalised me and dehumanised me and traumatised me and feel no remorse about any of it and yet you get to go on to be happy with someone else I hate you and I want bad things to happen to you forever I fucking hate you I hate you I hate you

>>32568274
Jidf kike. No one likes the jews because of how obnoxious they are wherever they go. Like you, for example, are being obnoxious as fuck arguing with some other retard in a thread where you're supposed to anonymously vent, yet here you are announcing to the entire thread that you're a fucking jew. THIS IS WHY PEOPLE DONT LIKE JEWS. THIS IS WHY HITLER WANTED TO DELETE YOUR KIND FROM THE WORLD. THIS IS WHY I SIDE WITH PALESTINE. FUCK JEWS. FUCKING BIG NOSE RAT FUCKS. I PRAY THAT THE HOLOCAUST WAS ACTUALLY REAL BECAUSE THAT TELLS ME AND THE REST OF THE WORLD THAT HATES JEWS THAT IT CAN (and will) HAPPEN AGAIN. Fucking kike *spit*.

Jesus referenced Old Testament in the book of John as well as Matthew as he spoke to the Devil in the wilderness. Regardless if Jesus had faith in the Old Testament he still referred to it as thought other people did. Jesus referred to his father as our father as well. In reference to Luke 11:13 we can dictate that the Bible says that Jesus says that the Heavenly Father who is also referenced as the creator of heaven and earth will provide the Holy Spirit indicating That the Holy Spirit is a blessing of God rather than God themself and Jesus spoke about himself as well as God’s only begotten son as separate is it wrong of me to wonder if every child is born of the Holy Ghost and Jesus was using Adam as the reference to God’s only begotten son? Was the point to understand that Adam knew not what he was doing? Just as u don’t.

>>32568274
Also funny how you mention how arabs are inbred... mother fucker have you seen the average jew? You mother fuckers look like rats that have been inbreeding since the beginning of time. It makes sense as to why, you kikes are so god damn ugly that after decades of pent up sexual frustration you lash out by raping your family members, or little kids. Disgusting.

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>>32569927
32569779 Wasn’t me

The angel in Joseph’s dream didn’t say that their child was the only one from the Holy Ghost.

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https://youtu.be/FAP_-jkx854?si=m3Vl02I2L7CKzy3q

https://youtu.be/Man4Xw8Xypo?si=fXSwT-iX74QRd4zZ
I like this song

For the first time ever I had real chemistry with someone else. It was the first time I could say with confidence that I enjoyed spending time with someone.
But I will never see her again.

did SHE fumble me? or did I fumble her?
I sent her my ig and waited for so long for her to add me but nothing. it was also on omegle so i couldn’t do anything until she responded

>>32559647
The suicidal thoughts just keep getting stronger.

>>32569948
There is no average Jew. Various kinds of them. They prominently lived among Arabs during ancient times so originally I think they’re more similar to them than anyone.

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>>32570138

I've reached the conclusion the Universe will never let me be happy or healthy or even die or kill myself to get rid of the suffering.

I've concluded the only reason for my existence is to be an utter piece of shit who's only ever useful to make absolutely everyone else in the world feel better about themselves.

I'm just gonna bedrot until either the Universe can't fight its own rules as to keep me under constant suffering anymore (in other words, until I finally manage to die), or until it finally decides to stop keeping me as a chew toy and suddenly makes my life improve (never will happen, dying is more likely; maybe there's even an afterlife and the only possible place for me to go is and has always been Hell; I'm damn sure God, if He exists, will never want me nearby, or He wouldn't treat me like I'm the worst thing He has ever created).

Whatever. I don't care anymore. a piece of shit like me will never get anywhere in life anyway. Might as well wait for Hell to come.

P.S.: Doesn't help matters any that I'm an autistic piece of shit who lives in the worst Hellhole on Earth (Rio de Janeiro). Sometimes I just wish Trump, Putin or Kim Jong-Un (or all three at once) nuked the shit out of this place.

>>32569760
>feminism
>men

Classic TERF shit, they call trans women men and say all men should die but as soon as they see some conservative tradmale, they're down for sucking his dick.

>>32569367
Brazilians (and, in turn, the Portuguese) descend from mutts.

he'll never like me back in that way and i guess I am coming to terms and at peace with it now, I'd never make him happy and he could never really be there for me. one day i won't reach out anymore and hopefully my soul mate is out there somewhere looking for me too

There's a friend of mine who fell in love with some famous musician and I, to not make her sad, didn't say it was impossible for her to be with him or anything that could be discouraging; instead, I told her that if she practices to become a musician herself, her chances to be with him will increase.

Did I do it right? I did it so out of the thought that even if they never actually spoke to each other in her lifetime, at least she would have a cool hobby, or, at the very best, a badass skill that could help her out in hard times.

>>32570166
Literally any of those so get more sex than you ever will. But you choose the life of a retarded antisemite and inceldom comes with it. Truly a pathetic existence.

I'm about to have the worst performance review I think I've ever had.

One of my best friends is an autistic Jewish girl. She gets very sad when she sees antisemitism because, to put it simply, she's not part of a powerful genocidal cabal or anything like that, but simply an autistic woman trying to do her best in a world that seems to be against autistic people, Jewish people AND lesbians.

Which is why I get pissed off at the antisemitic morons of this website: not every Jew is a cabal-controlling wizard, darnit!

(Though, I'm glad she copes with it by making "powerful wizard cabal" jokes and saying it'd be badass as fuck if she had magic powers like antisemites think she does; at least she's been learning to take it humorously.)

>>32570399
>the jew rat can't come up with anything witty so he talks about sex
you were better off just not posting kike boy

The cats know I don't want them on the kitchen counter so they wait until my back is turned to jump on it. They know what not to do yet do it anyways. The shelter awaits.

>>32569941
I've seen Arabs defend Hitler, saddam, Gaddafi, sinwar, and claim that women mourned the death of the Iranian president. Muslims are fucking retarded that praise mass murderers just because they are one of their own. They have no moral compass. Their iq is literally that low, just Google it. And yeah, they are inbred. Palestinians marry their cousins, which is probably a factor in their incredibly low iqs. They constantly start shit wherever they go which is why not even eygpt will take them in. They are known Islamic extremists and no one can tolerate them.

And then the Arabs leave their shit countries to invade Europe where it's better because there use to be no stupid fucking Arabs. Europe was a place to live precisely because it was white, but now even the French hate Paris because of how many Arabs have shit the place up. And the shitty thing is how proud these retarded Muslims are for being so disgusting and dumb. No one likes them and them they sit there and try to pretend to be better than jews (who have an average iq of 110 btw].

I'm a white germanic descent American. Fucking hate Arabs and Muslims with a passion. Their religion is rooted in violence and pedophilia and rape. No one wants them in their country. They are just so fucking stupid that they have added literally nothing to civilization ever. There are no Arab engineers, scientists. Mathematicians, anything. They are too fucking stupid to even do jumping jacks. Did I mention that they are just violent fucks? There are over 50 Islamic terrorists organizations. The worst Christian group out there is the westBoro Baptist church and all they do is harass gay people. They won't try to suicide bomb you or shoot up your office if you remotely criticize their religion like barbaric retarded Arabs. Jews take down one flag and Arabs show their true colors by violently and brutally assaulting innocent people. And God knows how many flags Arabs burn, so the hypocrisy is palpable.

>>32570520
>blah blah blah i need to write more propaganda about the people against us kikes
not reading any of that jew boy

I just want to eat tasty food but my societal worth is tied to my bmi.

>>32570472
The incel admits to being a pathetic incel. Woman are disgusted by your kind. And I'm white, so I'm the preferred race of women. You'll always be a disgusting goat fucker durka durka that everyone wishes you would just go back to your dirty desert and leave the first world alone.

Muslims are just the dumbest group of people. Your religion is incomparable with the west, so why do you insist on coming here? No one wants you here. You're pedophiles, violent animals that believe in a book that tells you to kill as many people as possible while treating women as slaves (which is the only way you fucks breed, strictly through rape and forcing women into marriages they don't want to be in). It's absolutely hilarious watching you retards try to bend the wording of your holy book to make it sound like it wasn't written by a violent pedophile. Religion of peace my ass.

Seriously, fucking leave. White people fucking hate you. This is why we are ok with giving jews billions to kill your retarded asses.

>>32570520
I am tied of your racism, Jew. Why do you not just destroy all the little children and their mothers so they cannot grow up to be scary adversaries?

>>32570078
That's bullshit. I refuse to believe youve lived your whole life and never felt chemistry with anyone but this unavailable girl. Get therapy. Your life is not a romcom

>>32570520
>>32570543
You're both mentally ill (not a choice) and stupid (a choice)

>>32570543
Your reading comprehension is shit, probably because of your borderline retarded IQ. The fact you call me racist while bitching about jews show how fucking stupid you are.

And because you're so fucking stupid, you must have missed the video that was posted in this thread where a Palestinian literally tries to get his own child killed by IDF just so he could play the victim. Your retarded kind put children in harms way on purpose so that they die and you can be the professional victim. You murder your own kids for propaganda. This is a known fact and why no one cares when it happens. Because people know you low life's use children as human shields. You would rather make your own people suffer and murder your own children than admit defeat. Youre so fucking stupid and full of hate of jews that you love your children less than you hate jews. You dumb fucks commit atrocity after atrocity with decades of terrorist attacks and have the audacity to say you're the victim. No one is buying it except other Arabs. Meanwhile the US will continue to fund the war on terrorism and so will the rest of the world.

I hope Iran really starts shit so the US can truly test out the f35 and b21. Just glass those useless fucks back to the stone age.

>>32570554
And your a moron that supports literal terrorists. Probably a faggot Zoomed born after 9/11.

>>32570554
You must have some baby penises to mutilate and suck off. You already lost the propaganda war when the international court of justice has had it. America has been under mass formation psychosis, like Nazi germany was. It is easier to cope than to realise that the whole country has been compromised by outside influence that we pay for. Too many have woken up. Back to the shadows with you.

Why have the jannies not removed the scitzo and the jew?

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>>32570593
Do you have a problem with free speech in a schizo containment thread? That makes you a bad guy, you know? Neutrality is immoral.

>>32570531
Same and my health

>>32569933
Many such cases anon

When a narcissist returns it's not because they love you. It's to own you and harass you in a worse way.

>>32570993
So avoid them?

>Virgin.
>Never had a boyfriend.
>Works out.
>Is in uni to become an engineer.
>Is Japanese.
>Is super cute and sweet.
>Finds me very attractive.
You may win at life, but you'll never win as hard as me.

>>32571022
Good for you. But you're probably not a virgin

>>32571069
I got head when I was a teenager but that's it.

>>32571072
Don't give her herpes

>>32571093
I don't intent to.

yeah bluey is a bbc masterpiece

>>32571148
You should be put on a list if you watch Bluey over the age of 7. I called it a pedo cartoon on /co/ once and got a 3 day vacation.

>>32569933
How do you know you didnt fuck up the other person or that they're happy?

>>32570593
Why don't they remove you for being a faggot?

Why is life just one big relentless chore of things you don't want to do?
>hate school, but you have to do it to get an education
>hate university, but you have to do it get a job
>hate your job, but you have to do it to not starve
There simply has to be more to life then forcing yourself to do these stupid fucking things all day

>>32570542
Just because you have pasty skin doesnt mean you're actually white, jew. Also, jewish women love black cocks... what does that say about jewish men?

You're scared of me, aren't you? I didn't understand it until now.

>>32572544
What made you understand?

>>32572683
I wasn't tired for once and I thought about it, I'd be scared of me too.

>>32572234
You're obsessed with jews. You let them run your life and there's nothing you can do to stop it. This makes you inferior to them. You sit there all day seething about jews and how lonely you are but neither the jew or women think of you at all.

I don't know what it is about incels but they are always obsessed with jews. There are only like 15 million jews and yet you think they run the world. You're also obsessed with black cock, so you're either a pajeet or an arab. You are actually subhuman.

>>32572744
Why would you be scared?