Hi /adv/ lately I've been remembering past autistic public chimp outs I had. I hate how embarrassed they make me feel and sometimes it makes me want to kms at times. This one in particular I remember was this one that occurred in high school>Be me, designated class chair screamer autist>On meds that really agitated me so I was a bit on edge>Went to inner city school so mostly full of nogs>One small group of nogs were sort of nice to me and encouraged me a lot for some reason>One of them comes up to me asks me to help him with something>"shiiiett itz my girl Tanisha's birfday, cud you push her fo me so I can give her sumthin fo her birfday, issa suprise n shiet">"Ok. Anquaveous.">He points her out and she is a very heavy set black girl>Walk up to her like an idiot>I remember feeling anxious because I was not quite familiar with her>I remember staring at her for a moment>"whachu want whyt boi?">fuckit.jpeg> Shove Mark Henry>For some reason everyone gasps>Somebody screamed something about a "World's Star:" or something like that>Look over to the nig that ordered me to shove her>He's chimping out laughing with the group>Look back at her>She's yelling and cursing at me as she gets up>RiseOfThePlanetOfTheApes.jpeg>She beats my assThis memory burns in the back of my mind constantlyWhat do? How can I rid this from my memory?
>>32570304That sounds handled long ago. What else?
>>32570304>> be op>> embarrassed by actions>> so embarrassed he greentexts the whole thing Your creative writing sucks.
>>32570304Dude thats not even that bad. I got caught storing poop socks at my childhood best friend's house. I'm not joking. Do you know how awful it is to have your mom and your BFF and his mom ask you why you had multiple socks filled with shit hidden in the couch? That was 20 years ago and it still bothers the fuck out of me.Every person has weird or akward shit they did as kids. Its not a big deal anon, stop hyperfocusing on those thoughts.
>>32573468Wow.
>>32573468And look at you now, giving advice to crazy people.
>>32570304Reframe it. What happened here wasn't that you were autistic. It was that Anquaveous played a ruse. Don't associate with yourself when you did that. Forget it, it didn't happen. If someone forces you to remember, either feign ignorance (because you can't remember, because you think about more important shit than Anquaveous in high school) or just go "ohh that, lol, yeah Anq is a literal retard, who asks someone to push someone, he told me he needed it as a favor and wanted to buy her a gift or something.There. Then move on.If you struggle with seeing it from their POV, just know you were an archetype. "There's the guy, we're going to make him push her." They don't even know you. You are just an abstraction and if you improved tomorrow, you'd be a new person to them. They don't care about (You).
>>32570304Don't forget, it's hard and you might relapse.Instead, simply do not have emotions in response to those memories.That way, instead of feeling bad, you just go "Ok. Yes that did happen. Doesn't seem relevant." instead of being upset.That's what I did to fix that problem in me.
