I had a group of friends (a girl and a boy, both toxic but it didn't matter), I moved away from my group of friends because of my now ex-boyfriend, who was jealous and insecure Chernobyl level.So, now my ex boyfriend belongs to the group of friends I used to belong to:Turns out he had insecurities with my group of friends, and he always told me that I missed them, that I missed my little friends and that I probably did bad things with them or that we probably hid things, that if I loved those people so much that I should go with them.So (I admit it, it was my mistake and I don't know how to remedy it) to let him bother me with that, I denied my group of friends. I said they were just classmates, that we only got together for school convenience (this was also previously said by the girl in front of my face)Then, He went to my friends and told everything (I don't know if he added or changed things). I was excluded So, the main point here is that I have no one, I have no friends or classmates, I am totally alone, I don't even get out of my room.And I don't know how to live with girls, I have problems with that but I am not and I don't want to be pigeonholed into the "pick me girl", I clarify that I am not that.I was alone for a while and I'm still alive, but I can't afford the "luxury" of being alone again.
>>32592723OPTIONAL (if you want to read it, if not, it doesn't matter. Tertiary information)I had a bad past relating to groups of girls, because it was always a lot of insecurities, competition, lies, seeing who is better than another etc.... For a long time I was alone and I dealt with that, I don't know if being alone for a long time affected me, but now I can't be alone, I have to have contacts and work team for projects and all that, I can't even see my group of friends in the face and I don't know how to start again.Also a problem I have is that I am too "realistic" according to people who have lived with me. They say that I have a very ugly and pessimistic way of seeing the world and life. But I don't know how to stop being like that so that people don't get scared of me.
>>32592723First of all, I'm so sorry that happened to you. That only sounds like the acting of a severely selfish person who wanted to hurt you and got away with itI'm also a femanon and have been excluded all my life, is not easy to live by yourself. I'd advice you to grief as much as you need to, and then find another environment to make friends inAre you in uni atm?
>>32595597I'm sorry for your case, and I appreciate the adviceKeep going through that shit and seeing how everyone can relate to others except me.... I had a hard time joining that shitty group where they didn't even care about each other, and now I don't even have anythingI'd like to get into college to start over, but I still have some time left until I get out of high school.
>>32598007 >I had a hard time joining that shitty group where they didn't even care about each other, and now I don't even have anythingI feel that hard. I spent a lot of time just coping with meaningless relationships and pc rotting because of that feeling. Unfortunately there doesn't seem to be a set solution for this, but you can try to choose some sort of new social environment. I don't know, I'd do something like Tenis or instruments if I was younger, I'm 28 now. Hell, even a part time job can help, I'd recommend something low stress at firstalso>whatsapp imageare you from south america by any chance?
