Flunked a semester of college for reasons posted here: https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/31074086/#q31074086 and here https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/31973257/#q31973257. At (well past really) the age where if and when this gets out, I'll be kicked out of the house (fair enough and I deserve it). I'd brain myself a week max into that, and I've been "planning" (i.e. planning but not going through with) doing so ever since the later archived post. What do I do? My family actually gives two shits about me, so ending it feels wrong. But I've tried to get my life together as much as someone who doesn't give two fucks about it like myself could, but I couldn't get myself to care. I wish something would just rewrite my fucking brain, but I know reality doesn't work like that. But at this point, I have no faith that I'll pull myself together, I've simply tried and failed way too much to have any. Fuck man, do I need a shrink?
>>32594654Missed the re-register date btw (forgot to put that in OP). Currently pretending to go to class.
Tell your parents and get a job. That's what I did, and they didn't kick me out. Things were really shit at home for a while and they felt betrayed that I hadn't told them how bad things were and had just pretended they were OK. Eventually they got over it.
>>32594783Did you tell them that you wanted to kill yourself and why? Because besides that bit, I've done this before. Not trying to be rude, but how do I come clean with something I know (I mean I guess I know) will get be put out the house?
>>32594861You literally just tell them.
>get job>don't be homeless>don't be useless burden to those around you>dont be a drug addicted criminalthis is literally all you need to accomplish. everything else is just window dressing. flunked out of college? doesn't matter, there's tons of jobs that barely require a high-school education and pay enough to support a single person
you'll be okie if you stick at it fren
>>32594861by not being a coward, telling the truth and accepting the consequences of your actions. literally just get a job and stop worrying about weather or not mommy and daddy will continue to wipe your ass for you or notim a 9th grade droppout with no ged and even still i make $30/hour to run a cnc plasma table and have my own house. collage these days is just a scam banks use to fuck the general population out of money. collage is a waste of time for 80% of people so stop being such a fag and start acting like an adult
>>32594902>>32594937>Stop being a useless fuck upFair enough advice, but if I had that in me, I wouldn't be in this position. How do I make myself not be one? It's not like I've held a job before, it's that flunking out of college and getting a job is a cycle I've done that hasn't worked. I guess it's pointless to ask other people "How do I start giving a damn?" or "How do I find a will to live?" etc, but that's basically what I'm asking here.
I don't feel entitled to anyone's time or money or good grace or any of that, and I'm well aware that I'm being a useless piece of garbarge. Any and everything you would try to say to me on that front, I have said to myself and far worse. It just quite literally that if I get kicked out I'll kill myself because there'd be nothing preventing me from doing so. I don't have the spark required to get myself out of the hole I have dug for myself.I'm not trying to be rude. It's just that I want to know how I get that spark. Saying "Hey man, just stop being useless." Doesn't work because I've tried that and just don't have the will to live or make something of myself required to not. I want to know how I can get that spark or whatever so that way I don't brain myself since killing myself would hurt the people I care about.
I don't want anyone to affirm my uselesness either. I don't want a damn pity party. It's literally just that I feel like ever bit off "Pull yourself up by your bootstraps" is talking past me rather than addressing me. I know I need to do that, I've TRIED to do that, but nothing can make me stick to it despite the fact that I know I should. I am simply incapable.Sorry for ranting. I appreciate the help, even from the people who called me a whiny faggot; I agree honestly. It's just I have no damn hope left. I know there are people would kill to be where I'm at, but that doesn't make me worth a damn. I wish I was, I've lost hope of ever being so.
>>32594963you've been getting a job as a "backup" after you failed college. this is not the same as getting a job because there IS NO back up. forget about college worry about getting a job with upward mobility that you will learn something that you can be payed for later. you wanna make bank with no college? learn how to troubleshoot and fix cnc machines. the dude who services our plasma table makes stupid money for the work he does simply because fab shops cant afford to have the plasma table down for a week
>>32594654I flunked uni. Then returned for my degree. Get a job, move out, get back into college.
>>32595095>nothing can make me stick to it despite the fact that I know I shouldthats because you've never faced real consequences for not going to work. every time you give up mommy and daddy are there to catch you and wipe your shitty ass. showing up to work is a lot less difficult if the consequences for not showing up is you living in a cardboard box and eating stale bagels from the dumpster
>>32595510If you believe that I'd actually put forth any effort when faced with this rather than kill myself, you have more faith in me than I do. Thanks, but genuinely doubt that would be enough to make me change. Why do you have faith that I'd work hard to avoid ending up in a cardboard box rather than just shoot myself? Genuine question. From you're sitting, you're probably just chiding an annoying faggot, but from where I'm sitting, if you genuinely believe what you are saying, that constitutes more faith in me than I could ever have in myself.
>>32595789shut the fuck up you fucking goober if you had the balls to kill yourself you'd be dead instead of here bitching about it. that tells me the only thing wrong with you is you've never been in a situation that mommy and daddy weren't right behind you with a wetwipe ready to catch your infantile ass
>>32596455You know what, fuck it. I'm gonna man up and tell them. Btw, the reason why I think they were might kick me out isn't over the college shit, I've been harboring something from them for my entire adult life. But you're right, not telling them has gotten me nowhere and it's time I do it. Even if they kick me out, it's better than me killing myself. They don't deserve that.Thanks man.
>>32594937>misspells college when he says education is a scam
