Every now and then, I get this sort of over whelming feeling of dread. I just get sad, feel really lonely, and get into this headspace of not seeing the point in doing anything. I will think about maybe taking a vacation trip somewhere or going out, but then I figure whats the point. I play out the reality of that in my head and figure I would just waste vacation time, waste money on travel expenses, and then go somewhere and not really know what to do there and just feel lonely there instead and it would just be a big stupid waste of time and money. I think about maybe dating again, but dont see the point. Like it would just be awkward first date stuff with a girl who wouldnt be attracted to me and it wouldnt lead to anything. Im not some shut in NEET or anything either. I currently work two jobs, take great care of my health through diet and working out (no drugs or smoking either) and tend to be active throughout my days. But I just get these "spells" Is this what depression is?
>>32601689that does sound like depression. You mentioned a lot of things but not a lot of people, how are your relationships? are the fullfiling?
>>32601689That's just perfectly normal mental clarity. It happens sometimes. Just put up with it and eventually it'll go away and the regular comforting numbness will return.
>>32601736>how are your relationships? are the fullfiling?not the best. Family is kinda fucked. Get along well with my mom, but my dad is a horrible alcholic in and out of rehab who I basically stopped talking too and my sister is a loser NEET who just takes money from my retired parents. Friends are for the most part doing their own things in life. All are married now and the few times we get together a month, its really boring. None of them want to do anything or go anywhere, they just want to "go chill" at someones place and shoot the shit. This is fine, but I dont want this is to be the sum total of my freetime either. currently single and have been for a year and a half now. Have dated on and off again and the last few times really werent good. The dates were very dry, they werent interested in me it seemed from early on, and its just kinda awkward and dull. I dont know what it is, its feels like within the first literal minute of the date, they figure out they dont like me and shut down and then it feels like a weird job interview or something. Its just not fun. I've always had an issue connecting with people I guess though.
>>32601689>>32601782Sounds like you're depressed and you're trapped in your rumination. Have you considered therapy/counselling?Regardless, I think one of the best things you can do is to say "fuck it" and actually DO something rather than just think about it. Currently you're thinking yourself out of everything. You are currently your own biggest roadblock to doing anything.
>>32601846>Have you considered therapy/counselling?Actually tried this a while back, but I talked to a few therapist in the area and tried to set up meetings but it never worked out. The only ones are like an hour away and they have insane schedules. Its like Tuesday -Friday, 9:00 Am-4:00PM, I could never make it. So I just said fuck it and kinda told myself therapy would be a gay waste of time anyway that would make it worse. Maybe its just a cope but whatever. Overthinking has Definity been an issue in my past, to the point where I would think myself into a state of inaction. I feel like what Im going through now is NOT that, but somehow related to it and tied to the same root issue I have. This is why I wanted to see a therapist, to figure out this kinda stuff. Im not at all interested in crying about my daddy not hugging me or anything like that.
>>32601868Go back to therapy. You are clearly willing to go, and you're clear on what you want to talk about. No bullshit excuses why it's difficult or can't be done this time. Do this for yourself to let you take control of your life and start actually living.Good luck, anon.
>>32601868Therapy was pretty helpful for me. It also seems like you just need to meet more interesting people. Do you have any hobbies that make you socialize? board games, foreign language class, some sport
>>32601689yeah same situation. It's just the time we live in. It's a nightmare. Humans are not supposed to live like this
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>>32601689You seem to be stuck in a cycle to keep yourself healthy. I suggest you make new friends, it will make you feel good. If life and everything in it seems meaningless, it means you have been away from endorphin and serotonin for a while. Listen to upbeat songs (e.g. Miyagi-i got love) and lose yourself until you realize you are dancing like an idiot. No matter how satanic it is, dopamine, serotonin and endorphin are very important for the brain. When they are secreted insufficiently, this is what happens. >>>
