My old friend from hs and middle school did some extremely fucked up shit on a regular basis, and basically I wasn’t stable enough at that age to handle it and it snowballed all the way until the age of 22 where I would send him death threats and harassment.So… what gives? No police visit? Nothing? The threats were specific and shocking in nature. Why the hell would someone take mercy on this, if thats what it was?I outed him to his friend group, nothing. No retaliation. In my delusional state I gave my address to him so he could show up and “try it again”.He never did anything, no messing with me no response nada.It didn’t even prevent me from continuing to screech hate into the void, which was certainly delivered to the recipient. Why would someone resist the urge to fight back? Especially someone who was once a close friend who must have felt betrayed, as I did earlier in life.Q. You deserve happiness, and honestly better than the friends you had who would judge you for the lies as well as truths I told about you. Do not harm yourself. I didn’t want this. They tell me I have PTSD but it isn’t all because of the old days like I blamed you for. It goes back further and I took it out on the world as the memories replayed in my head.If that even makes sense. I know you browse here, so maybe just maybe you can read and have peace.Take care Q,- J
