>22>mystery mental disorder, never diagnosed but trying to function>takes a year of talking therapy plus four years of exposure therapy to get me to be confident driving on the road>finally take the driving exam>pass first try>cry like a woman because im so surprised>this was years in the making and one of my biggest challenges, conquered>next day>i feel the same as i did beforewhy should i even consider accomplishing any of my goals when life won't feel any different? This has happened with other goals too btw. i dont know why i put effort into living a good life when i'd feel the exact same living a particularly shitty one. wtf
>>32603563are you male BPD perhaps?
>>32603563Same thing happens to me. All stimulus evens out quickly. I'm always chasing the next thing. You may be someone who is understimulated. Maybe you need more and more of whatever it is to make you happy - you may need to move on to the next thing quickly. I think this can also be a sign of an addictive personality, so be careful about vices.There are thrills and activities you can do that are big enough to lead to a lasting high. Just keep pushing yourself really hard. You may live a more interesting life than anybody you know because of this, if you allow yourself to pursue happiness and satisfaction.
