Copes for male BPD?>fake and gay personality, dozens of personas melded for max social benefits at lowest effort. Still the most boring person in any room >pulling off hobby bullshit, athletic bullshit, academic bullshit, and career bullshit doesn't fill the void for longer than a day. Literally need to be on a day of being on top of the world, which takes me weeks to months to achieve each time, and I finally get relaxed, but merely for a day. Ultimately I'm just feeling hollow>skills, knowledge, and experience deteriorate as if I'm on Alzheimer's or dementia. Have to rely on extensive notes I'm making. Not doing something for just a week turns me into a wreck when I return to it >all spiritual, mindfulness, therapy stuff only made me despair more>people make me disturbed but also I get mad from how easily I get lonely AND how easily I get tired from people >have to force myself to stay calm 24/7 or else I become a burnout low-key melting wreck
>>32604683deworm
>>32604687I've been like this even when I had fad phases where I maxxed on baking soda, garlic, chilli peppers, black pepper, and separated bouts activated charcoal. I was around when parasite schizo memes started
>>32604683My wife Chino is so cute
>>32604696Have you tried dewormers that flood entire body and not just the digestive tract? They might be hiding in lungs and brain. Turpentine is said to be the best full body dewormer.
>>32606283Yes because garlic passes even BBB without risks to the brain. Do you even worm killin bro I'm not an unwashed third-worlder eating off the floor btw
>>32604683It's just a personality disorder so maybe make an attempt at having a positive personality?
>>32606322I do but it doesn't matter for the horrors of life that get to me and most people don't care about desu desu. Which is to say I always feel detached from any mindset, ends the sameIt's like people smell the fraud in me or don't bother at all
bump. no shame so nothing to lose by being a crappy retard on the internet
>>32604683Have you tried antipsychotic medication? Not antidepressants or antianxiety meds, I mean real antipsychotics? What they do is they turn down intensity of emotions, all emotions. For normies this would make them feel like ghosts. For a BPD it could make them feel peace since BPDs emotions are all at 300% volume lol. Even boredom is at 300% for a BPD and max volume boredom will feel like vacuous emptiness to the point it makes you wanna die. You're experiencing boredom, but your BPD cranks it up to a thousand just like all your other emotions. A good antipsychotic will turn down the volume bro.Good luck I hope you find peace bro
>>32608689So I'll need to get a prescription for the kind of antipsychotics that make the overactive BPD amygdala less active, but I'll risk making my existing OCS worsehttps://d-nb.info/1179695437/34I'll think about it, thank
bump I'm still around.
