Word dump ahead, advice appreciatedMy dad died five days ago. He was a drunk who hadn't worked for years and lived with his mom. He was also very abusive towards my mom while drunk (which was always), and my mom finally split from him shortly after I was born. In my entire life I only saw him about 100 times (would sometimes visit my grandma's as a kid), and we never really had a real conversation. Even when he wasn't actively drunk, the alcohol had ruined him and he didn't have a lot to say. Even if he did, I wouldn't have talked much myself; I was only ever being polite because I was frightened of what I'd been told of him. There were a few times when he really got sober for a few weeks. Once he began dating a woman, and it was nice. I visited them a few times and he was fun to be around. He also got back together with my mom for a few months when I was 13 or so. Both times, the relationships fell apart when he began drinking again.Really makes me think. For the longest time I dehumanized him, but as I've matured I had begun to pity him as a human. A human that did shitty things and who had shitty issues. He probably hated his shit life and hated himself for not being able to raise his own children. In the back of my mind I hoped that maybe we really would have a real conversation one day, and he would tell me everything. I hoped that I could get some kind of closure or something, some inkling of who he was as a man. Now it's all gone. He died of colon cancer, and he only learned that he had it about two weeks before dying. My grandma never called me to tell me. She never called me when he began dying for certain. The last time I saw him was maybe three years ago, and now he's just gone. I went to the funeral yesterday, but it didn't really make me feel better.I just don't know how to get past this. Have any anons been through similar before? Any advice?
Sorry for your loss, anon.That sculpture in the picture is a great piece of art. Who made it?Have you talked to your grandma at all at the funeral? Probably she knew him best. She didn't want to burden you or herself or him with the emotional trouble in his dying days. Perhaps you should try to and talk to her?
>>32605248Not sure who made it, but I agree that it's a great sculpture.I spoke with her, but I didn't bring up that she never told me. It didn't seem appropriate to ask something like that when she was grieving. I'll probably give it a month or so until I bring it up.
>>32605287sounds reasonable
>>32605170>He died of colon cancerLearn about the wormpill and chlorine dioxide (MMS1, CDS). Cancer is caused by parasites and is curable. Don't lose another.
>>32605170Get over it, hit the gym, lawyer up.
