So to start i was a very young man when i was in this horribly abusive relationship. It started in senior year of high school around 2021. I met this girl and she was great at first she treated me nice. There where definitely redflags about her and me too. Eventually in the relationship it began to sour. Around 3 months, we began to have arguments more and more frequently. She would be the primary aggressor in the arguments starting them because she believed i wanted to go back to my ex or that i didnt actually love her or that i was smoking too much weed or drinking too much or that i didnt call her on the phone enough or that i was never improving myself. We would argue about these things very often and during these arguments she was very frustrating to deal with she was inconsolable i couldnt do anything to make it better. She recognized this said she would make an effort to change but never did. They just kept getting more and more frequent. I didnt feel i could leave do to alot of things and i wash brainwashed by her to stay. She would verbally berate me she would tell me to kill myself she would threaten suicide if i ever left her. She would threaten to damage my property if i left her and got back with my ex. It got to a point where i began abusing drugs. My whole world was different everything felt different reality didnt feel real things changed in me and i ended up choking her during these arguments a couple times. I wasnt trying to hurt her i was trying to scare her. I know it doesnt make it any better but i would like to make the clarification. After a couple times of me doing that she would encourage me to do so then switch and be upset about me doing it. She switched like that on alot of things. Idk im just writing now. No one really seems to care about what i went through and i confessed to a friend maybe a couple of months after the physical stuff started in 2022. He told all my other friends and i was excommunicated by alot of peopl Aaaaa
>>326055362 of the people sided with her and they had seen what i went through because of her. Im scared of her still because people will instantly side with her i think. She saw someone who i know ina post with someone and she texted that person telling them what i had done. I have friends after still i recovered went to therapy and am still in it. I still have some lasting effects from this though. I feel like it will follow me everywhere and it could instantly nuke my social life if we run into eachother or something when im with friends. I apologized to her obviously she forgave me. I still feel bad about it i still feel scared of her.
You're literally describing my current gf. BPDemons are real.
>>32605706You need to cut your losses and get out man. Its not worth it
>>32605536you've been through a lot kingno one deserves that treatment but you need to escape that bitch and the old you
>>32605536Went through the same shit as you. Spent 10 years single and then finally got into a relationship ~28. This time it was *severe* substance abuse problems. The only thing I've learned is that it's not just them. It's us. We choose these people for a reason.
>>32606145Thank you for your kind words. I have been getting away from my old self. Ive made alot of progress in the past 2 - 3 years since i left her.
