im 23 and at a point where i just cant decide for shit. ive been unemployed for 3 months doing fuck all except thinking myself into insanity. i think "oh i could do this!" and then immediately find 50 reasons as to why it would suck, or how it wouldnt give me the lifestyle i want. i got sick of being a CDL driver, i want to do something meaningful or something that provides me a very good life. i considered military, to at least force me to stick to something and not quit. i consider being a police officer, but id need a while to bulk up as im short and small. seems like a thankless job and women especially seem to hate cops since they're all liberal.i could go back to college but anything worth doing is gonna be a masters level education, id graduate when im like fucking 30. 6 years behind all my peers with my youth out the fucking window. then id need to spend years to get up to speed in the job market before i have any sense of real security, then i gotta pay off the loans. i dropped out of college out of HS, so im not even sure id be able to stick with it. not an academic issue its a motivation issue.i know this is becoming a blog post but im seriously fucked up right now. i need to get a fucking job but i just want to feel like its actually building me towards an ideal future. i want to salvage my youth. i want to have fun experiences. i also dont want to be a fucking townie bum in 20 years.sometimes i just want to run away and drive somewhere far, and just restart everything. go live in my car and tough it out. maybe itd force me to become something.
Seafarers International Unionyou will get more money and more time off than in the military. You can choose to spend months at sea getting to know each of your shipmates intimately and bonding through the monotony, travel to foreign ports, and do some light studying to get pay increases.Then you can spend months off work with a full wallet traveling cross country and seeing places you've always wanted to see until your next contract.You will have a shit ton of time off but still be progressing in your career
>>32606217How does this compare to the merchant mariners? Thanks for the advice.
>>32606227its the same thing there are just different unions you can join
>>32606171Just do what you want, stop obsessing over minmaxing life.better to go wrong in your own way than right in someone else’s
>>32606171>i could go back to college but anything worth doing is gonna be a masters level education, id graduate when im like fucking 30Guess what, the time is still going to progress anyway. You can sign up and do it and have the degree at 30, or you can reach 30 without the degree and still have it polluting your mind.
>>32607643or you can spend that time doing something else more meaningful/valuable to you. huh guess opportunity cost isn't that simple.
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>>32610127oh wow they made a comic about meI feel like this 95% of the time but it helps because i feel constantly on edge and internal pressure to be ready for the next move so i can stop being a failure
