I don't know how to fix things. I've been a surgeon for a couple years now. I don't consider myself all that successful but throughout my life i'm often seen that way. Of the little family and ancillary family friends i'm touted about as doing the "right thing". You're "supposed to study" and "make something of yourself". I agree in that I'd be much more miserable without some measure of financial safety but all the training over more than a decade and a half. I never prioritized making friends. I have even less time now. My fiance lives far away since she's doing the doctor thing too. We plan to move in together again once she's graduated (2 years). We've been together 7 years now. This path has taken so much. Sometimes I wish I could have friends, play games with them on discord, go out for beers, or fish. Anything. It's just me and my dog now. My lady visits me and I visit her whenever we can. But I wish we could share the bed each night. It's so lonely sometimes I feel like im dizzy or drunk. No drug or food or drink has been able to make this more tolerable. It's easiest just working more. Work and think at work - but when things get silent when once I stop the sleep catches up the dark covers me and i wake up alone .
>>32606370Do you just not have time for friends?
>>32606370I feel you. Sadly for people like us friends aren't an option either, we're too weird now that we've been out of the loop for so long. If paying the bills ever stops being enough if a reason to stay alive I think it might just end me completely.
>>32606370-Man is a social animal AristotleI think he said thatMaybe
