I have a problem in that I have a really good memory, I can remember the first time I spoke, and the first time I wrote words, my first time walking and falling on the carpet The problem is I cant forge things and it's caused a bad alcoholism problem where i've been drinking up to a litre of vodka or rum a day I lost some great friendships because they said something slightly bad about me and I never stopped playing it in my head And this has gotten worse, like when I see something that reminds me of the past, or a video game or anything it leads me down a path to bad things. Like if I play minecraft, I remember the friends and amazing times I had, and how I lost those friends. Or if for example an obscure song says a word that someone told me and I think about everything bad connected to it. I just want to know how I can forget or move on, I just caught myself thinking about my first ex, because i saw a hunger games video in the corner, and in that they put 3 fingers in the air and she used to hold up 3 fingers when making points, this shit is terrible, and the alcohol has actually made it worse to where i think even harder about these things, and ive got a beer belly. Help anons i cant take it
>>32606486You'd need to change your environment and focus on new stuff.
>>32606494hopefully I can change, its my birthday tommorow and Im getting as hammered as possible but I dont even like drinking anymore, it feels like a chore, I remember when I started drinking I would be crying of laughter on team fortress 2 in private lobbies, but I dont even get close to that level of enjoyment nowadays
>>32606565I suffer from the same curse. I am very sensitive to betrayal and disrespect. The only relief I have found has been to study people and the way they think, their fears, their desires. My experience has been the opposite of pic related. After a year of studying socionics and jungian psychology, I am finally able to understand (and therefore forgive) horrible behavior of people who were once close to me. It's the only thing that has silenced that intrusive voice in my head.
>>32606613Do you have any book recommendations or things I can learn, i found books and reading help me focus and think about whatever I studied throughout the day it might help me But it really is a curse, I used to think the intelligence and memory was a gift since I never really studied or had to practice things, but it's like every single mistake I make, or evil someone does to me is on a constant repeat forever, and gets brought up every couple of months
>>32606645Yes. Every week I have been reading 1-2 books from this list on audible and kindle.https://offers.csjoseph.life/reading
corrective experiences. basically you gotta experience all those things (minecraft, drinking, hunger games) with new friends who are either positive or at least neutral, and then your brain can subconsciously divorce the connection between the thing and the space and <what happened once>
>>32606657Thanks anon I'll check it out I just want to be able to move on like everyone else, it seems like people do things and never care for it again, and I dont know if I want to be like that, but to atleast be able to let the past be the past is something I have to learn
