what even is the point. Every time I try to pursue a dream (cooking, writing, game design), some defect of my brain or body prevents me from chasing it no matter how hard I push myself. I'm convinced god designed me to experience unending frustration, shame and disappointment as my peers surpass me and then gang up to mock me.I hate my brain, my body, and everyone around me. I even hate my parents for creating me, and for using suicide threats to prevent me from freeing myself. I just want it all to end.
>>32606599It happens. Don't be hard on yourself. You can still make the effort to try. It will all end but make an effort. It's not easy.
Stop chasing the goal and simply do the thing.Like cooking. Just cook stuff. What dream do you need in order to do the action. You'll eventually get sorta good at it or at least capable with experience.
