How? Seriously, fucking how? I don't think a single day has gone by that I haven't thought of her at least once. I miss her so much. I miss her more than I thought was possible, and I was prepared to miss her a lot. About 2 or 3 years ago, she suddenly deleted all of her social media. I have no clue why, but now I can't even make sure she's okay. I realize I sound like a stalker, and I guess i was stalking her social media. I don't know.. I just wanted to know that she was okay.. Whatever your first thought was when you read my question, I've done it man. >Time heals all wounds anonNext year, it will have been a decade since we broke up. Ten. Fucking. Years. And sometimes it feels like it happened last week. The pain is so sharp and blinding, I curl up in a ball and suddenly im 13 again and screaming into my pillow. >Find someone else!I did. My 6 year anniversary is next month. At first, I thought she was the one, I thought I liked her more than the my past crush, and my feelings for my crush really did subside. But they're back. And I dont think they ever really left. >Stop being a fucking loser Anon this is so weirdI know. I know it is. I'm so ashamed. I wish i could press a button and never have met her. But I did. I did meet her, and now I can't unmeet her, but I also can't meet her again. It feels like I was accepted to Harvard, and then they rescinded the offer. I regret everything that I did that led to our break up, but I was fucking 13. I was so stupid, and now I have to deal with the consequences of that for the rest of my life. Please help me anons. Most of the time this is just in the back of my mind, but it flares up in times of stress and i can't deal with the agony. I miss her so much.
>Move on and do something with your life, loserI was first in my class in high school. Went to college. I'm halfway through law school now. billions of people would kill to be living my life right now, but if someone told me I could trade it all to be with her again, I would need to really, really think about it. I'm so grateful for my life. I've gotten lucky again, and again, and again, it's been insane. I understand logically that I am doing very well in life. But late at night, I'll close my eyes and dream of her.. and I never feel happier than when im in those dreams
