wow lol

i remember i met an anon from here and went to discord. i then proceeded to ghost them due to circumstances. sometimes i wonder what that anon is doing.

Did you come here to visit us or did you come here to sit and watch shit on your tablet holy shit
"Anon I don't think you're autistic!"
>Looks at you like you're fucked for getting angry when one is crying and grabbing at you, they're yapping, all while you're trying to cook
I'm not surviving this week lmao I wish I was deaf pleeeease everybody shut the fuck up for like one day

Keep forgetting that the most important part of the job is that it is a secret...

When you’ve tried everything
You’re a loser now
Yeah
You’re a loser

It was nice to finally talk, but I think I have to start taking the initiative now. What am I supposed to say?

People don't deserve to be stripped and humiliated for their political beliefs. The fact that I have to say this proves something very wrong about society.

If you mischarachterize me as a hateful person and then use that characterization to humiliate me, you are the one in the wrong.

Is this the right thread for random stories? I remembered this today but I don't have anywhere else to post it.
>be 10
>sister is 8
>summer break
>mom dropped us off at a family friend's house during her work shifts
>they had two daughters, one who stayed in her room all day and another who was already friends with my sister from school
>latter absolutely hated me despite me never doing anything to warrant it
>always flipped me off when no one else was looking
>would insult me for liking games, the shows I watched, and called me ugly
>constantly threw couch pillows at me
>she and my sister got caught stealing candy from a grocery store, girl blamed it on me by saying it was my idea
>get fed up one day and I insult her back, she starts crying and turns it around on me
>mom gets involved, turns into a big argument, then me and my sister stay home alone for the rest of summer
>sister hates me for a while because I made her friend cry

>>34820908
dont open door.
dont let them in.
problem solved

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THIS P.O.S RAPED MY AUNT!!

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Saw this taped on the wall in my deceased father's room when we went to go clean out his stuff. Must have been the only thing keeping him going everyday. His bible was VERY well used and literally falling apart. It hit me like a ton of bricks. Be better to your estranged family members, if you can help it. He had his issues but so do I and probably all of you. None of us are perfect.

At some point men stopped being men and now gaslight,guilt trip, act high and mighty

But are the most pathetic shits ive ever encountered.

As a man, it is frankly really disapointing to see that girls put up with it.

I expect more from my girl.

it's over.

i was supposed to go see my therapist tomorrow but instead i got shit ass drunk and am breaking off the therapy. theres nothing to be fixed in my life anyway, dont need that fuckass to tell me what to do. neither my incompatibility with any human person nor my ability to work can be fixed. so whats he gonna do? last time he told me to work out more, that i did, and it only made me feel exhausted all day. if my life will be a rotting piece of shit, then it will be such on MY terms, not on that of some stupid fucking shrink.

dad died of cancer. he was my everything, man...taught me how to work on cars & anything mechanical, actually had a sense of humor & music taste, all my friends loved him, etc.

stepmom (bio mom passed when I was a kid; it is what it is) went rogue and slept around shortly after he passed.
never set up a trust for my sister & I. then she ousted my sister out of the home so she had to go live with my grandma.

she took literally everything...the house, all my dad's tools, cool ass firearms (really miss that marlin 336 & win model 70 - both in maple with sick tiger striping), vehicles, and so on.
she now lets her welfare queen of a daughter and the babydaddy stay rent free in our house. shit looks like a ghetto rental property now, and i know my dad's rolling in his grave just about that fact.

i at least have newfound friends, still keep in touch with the remainder of my family, and have a decent job - albeit across the country from my hometown.
at least the stupid bitch stepmom is still paying my phone bill unknowingly...probably close to $1300+ since my dad passed lmao.

regardless, sometimes i'm just lost because of it all.
he didn't always know how to show love, and he was far from perfect. but damn was i blessed to have him as a father.
i dimple just gotta live on for him and those who i love and have loved. sometimes that's all we can do...

>>34820567
>What did you ever see in me?
A fellow human.
>Why did you choose to spend your time on me
Because you're fun and I like when it's not all an act coming from you.
>Did it mean anything?
It meant something, it meant that you are a better person than you think you are. Regardless of you acting the way you did.

>>34821230
dimple wtf, meant simply ffs

It's nice to be able to talk about you, and about loving you, and have it understood and supported. "As long as you love each other." We do, right? I still have my fears.

>>34820000
Thank you. Deep down I know if my dad were here right now and I told him all this, he would understand. He was always so nice. I just wish I appreciated that sooner.

>>34821254
My mom has cancer, I hope she will pull through.

Agony to be so close. Pulling hard against my tethers as they inch, all too slowly, to release.
I do get scared often though. That once reunited all of this, and the old stuff, will catch back up to you, me, us, and tear it all down again. Reanimating corpse fears.

>>34821146
Its not and you know that m

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>>34821258
I don't know her or you, but I hope she does too.

You may love me, but can you stomach being with me? I'm so scared we'll go back to where we were or our issues will crush the other

>>34821287
Thank you. It's much appreciated.

>>34820897
I'm so tired of self-sabotaging

It's over.

I don’t know if she is autistic, doesn’t really like me or both

>>34821317
Autistic people have a hard time expressing themselves and that makes them not want to talk to people, it's not you.

today i took a long hike. you know how you count the kilometers? 2 kilometers? thats close to 4, which is basically 5, so half the hike. those little nimber gimmicks you do, to keep yourself engaged? sometimes i feel like im glad im in my 20s and have so much life behind me already. god limits the amount of suffering merely by the years given to a human.

I dont even know if its you saying its over. The best I can do is state what I said earlier again,

Our love for each other was taken from us unjustly years ago. Ive fought for your every day since.

In true love, it is a given, even if it hurts.

I know because I have it with you, soulmate. I do believe it is a gift from god.

I'm doing the best I can to get back to you. God keeps reminding me to do what is right, to be patient and to not turn away, not to choose things that are not good for us. Its been a long time ive missed you so its not easy to.. Well, none if it has been easy but I love you and i dont have a choice. You are my heart.

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>super like a *FAT* girl on Tinder - like, easily 300+ - because I think she's actually cute
>this was like two weeks ago
>get a message that she matched with me
>I was writing an email at the time
>within the five minutes it took me to get to my phone she'd unmatched
Fuck it I'm done with dating apps. I'm 30 and I missed my window. I'm through trying to work through getting raped as a kid. There's no hope for me.

>>34821302
you're not me.

>>34821353
>I'm 30 and I missed my window.
I met my wife when I was 32.

>>34821353
Don't blame yourself too much dude, the fat girls with nice faces have more guys after them than the thin girls with average faces.
I've tried exclusively fat woman dating apps before and the big girls are a lot more machiavellian than their thin counterparts.
The 'shy and nice fat girl' archetype doesn't exist anymore.

t. 26 year old architect

>>34821353
seconding other anon, i got my first gf at 31 and we've been together 3 years now. it's only over when you stop trying.

>>34821382
Not him but how did you meet her and is there any other information you think is worth sharing (like what you are like, what she is like, what did you bond over, past experiences/lessons, etc.)?

What in the actual fuck was I thinking when I tried to get with someone I met on 4chan

I’m so fucking weak I listen to my partner telling me not to kill myself. Guess it’ll be hours of mustering up the courage to just go to my bathtub and get it over with

>>34821416
Who are you talking about? I didn't know you 'tried to get together' with me...

>>34821434
I’m talking about a woman. I tried to date her but she wasn’t interested.

>>34821439
Such is life. I tried to impress an Autistic girl from this board in particular recently.

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i asked a question on a sex worker/"companion" reddit trying to understand the game better, and honestly im glad i did because the reaction from all those psychotic holes turned me off the idea of ever losing my virginity to them no matter how desperate i get. holy shit like its not just "why don't incels just get a hooker.." they now want
>verification
>gov ID
>previous recommendations from other escorts like a fucking job
>social media history
>upfront deposit
>at least $500/hr just to touch them
>and they'll turn you down if you're not chad enough
and also apparently they have secret forums where they report badly on you especially if you dont tip them AND send them gifts every now and then. you'd tip a barber or a waiter, why wouldn't you tip your whore, a totally legit career?

all that sounds more exhausting and actually more dangerous than a gf. i thought i could just find a girl, pay her, have sex with her, without even exchanging names, and be on our way never to meet again.

they were all so nasty and entitled in the comments and the meanest and most upvoted of them was a self-described "cuddle specialist". I would hate to meet any hooker, being vulnerable to her, and now know they're active on reddit. Reddit has now ruined hookers for me the same way as nursing, therapy, teachers, etc.

and they tell me that the sites im going to are full of scams, use "tryst" instead. I go check out tryst for shits and giggles and they have a fucking CAL-ART LOGO, and most of the profiles i see there look trans even though they say they're not. I was more disgusted than turned on looking through a lot of them, and how transactional they make everything, like everything you may want to do with them is a package with a cutesy little name. The scam site girls were actually hot at least.

>>34821443
I met her here, but I wasn’t trying to impress her. I just tried to show up much harder than I should have and for much longer than I should have.

>>34821445
Myself, I only spoke to her once and was like "I'm not gonna chase, it's gonna look stupid."

>>34821416
It worked for me. Keep trying anon, there's some sweet people here.

>>34821448
My dumb ass chased. And what did I get? Sorry bro I met someone else.
I only have myself to blame; I’m sure she was sick of me bothering her. Massive fucking waste of my own time

>>34821448
vu eheww; fdjfnsefefsv?

>>34821453
What was that for?

Broken fucking record me; feel sick nervous hurty blah blah blah I want to tear my fucking hair out and die and this and that

Scare to hurt you and be hurt by you but I want you but I'm scared

You're supposed to be my safe, hidden comfort as I'm supposed to be yours and what if we can't do that enough for each other what if I never recover from things and always have these problems
Poison

>>34821513
The poison colton did to us

What if all you've said about me is true
How do I know that I'm not picking you just to have someone and it could've been anyone like you sajd

>>34821519
I didn't mean I can love anyone. I meant that the post at that particular junction could have been anyone. My signals get crossed sometimes.

Maria,
The only thing I wrote in gioyc since
>>34821340

Is
>>34821518

I dont know if what is written is from you or to me.

I need direct comms. Colton is an issue with us being able to communicate.
-m

Oh Mike... I can't wait until you realize I'm the real threat you should be worried about. Colton is just one of my many minions sent to steal Maria's heart. You will never defeat my goons, Mike. But if we ever arrive at our final showdown, prepare yourself for the battle of a lifetime...
- S

I want to cut so fucking badly I feel fucked I.m sorry I really am I'm a fucking mess waiting for this to end needing this to end and FUCK but the fear ?!! Poison poison poisonous whore

Ill put this here too

If you want to rabbit hole this start at where you larped as me, lied to her about me, manipulated her with lies and took us from each other as we truly loved each other.

Starting at that. This is on you. Nothing past that that she did and i did that is harmful would have happened If you hadnt harmed us.

She would be here in my arms for 5 fucking years. I dont know what else you stole from us. Like her virginity, her firsts.

I know you stole our beach trip, most likely our first kiss, making out. Sleeping in the same bed. All these firsts she promised and wanted with me we lost because of your lies

All I know is i love maria just as much as when we last looked in each others eyes and heard each others voice.

I dont want to argue hear with his bullshit.

I need direct comms maria
-m

>>34821537
If its you maria. I dont want you to cut. I love you. Its tough to balance because I dont want him to take advantage of you if i give you space. Thats what had kept happening to us.

But I also need you to choose me and fight for us too.

Over all else though I dont want you to harm yourself.

>>34821509
If you are saying this to me maria, then I need you to trust me. Its the same trust in needed from you when you disapeared that saturday. If we had that phone call then, we would have had 5 years together.

I love you and yeah I'm hurt but I said it before. In true love thats something id do for you. You are all that matter to me.
-m

I would never want to hurt you and those worries are normal, though we don't want them to be, all I can do is be my best self for you.

>>34821513
I love you for you. I want you to recover and heal with me. I will always care for you. I also accept you for who you are. I always have. Thats true love. Youremymoon. I love you, remember that.
-m

>>34821595
I feel the same maria. I choose you in that same way.
-m

If this wasnt you saying this to me and we are dealing colton jumping in, that further shows how important direct comms between us going forward is

-m

The OCD is getting to me way too much. It's making me afraid of everything. I can't even go out much. Because of my insecurities. I can't get over how unfair everything is. I knew it'd be very hard. I'm trying but it's so overwhelming.

I am trying to pay for my college, go back to being a good student, and be attractive to women. There aren't jobs in my city (one of the biggest cities in the world, by the way) for a student, the exams aren't based on anything taught, and women hate me and I don't even know what it is that makes me so consistently unattractive when I am the only guy approaching anybody.

I wanted to give up for 5 years, and now I want to take it on. If I hear that it's impossible for me, or that I'm not made for it, I don't want to hear it. I won't. I will keep going.

>>34821617
This sounds like colton talking now.

>>34821416
You were thinking fuck I have encountered another human being who might just be as fucked up as I am.

I feel like a beaten down dog. I'm "recovering" but that is only apparent in my physical appearance. I have a breakdown every time I eat a meal, i mean literally every time. I compulsively try to fast, get swayed out of it then eat and feel like shit again about it because i'm a slave to two masters and a disappointment to both. So I grit my teeth, I eat, and i feel like my spirit is being ground into dust by it. I don't feel recovered, I feel like I've been put into learned helplessness with frequent bouts of intense, horrid anxiety to keep me awake at night.

I want to return to my super bad relapse state. I'm not ready to recover. Seriously. I don't want to do this anymore. It isn't just "it's bad right now, it'll get better" it's been three months. WHEN DOES IT GET BETTER?! I feel like someone who gets whipped every meal and told the pain is good for me.

You are in my thoughts. When we were together you were healthy, no issues mentally at all besides some anxiety, nervous excitement about our trip. Its difficult with what ive gone through here to know its you. I dont want to assume mental illness. At one point you said you were james and hes dead. If there is anything like that, know that doesnt change my love and care for you. Ive always been all in with you maria. Its a given. Whatever the deal is, I would never lose you or leave you for it. I only want you to heal the best you can and have our life, love, lust, fun.

You know how to reach me. Ill do my best to look for you here. I just ask you trust me and not be further decieved bycolton larping as me.

You have the shirt, plaid, boxers I sent you. My bracelet. Wear that. I love you.
-m

>>85326041
Nothing to do with Ai. Dealing with malicious larping, catfishing, etc.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
MariaI hope you are okay. I wish you were here , I was next to you. I know for a fact I can heal that. If you did, use new skin liquid bandage. No need for neosporin, the new skin liquid bandage has antibiotics in it. Have several paper towels next to you. Use the bottle cap swab to apply. It will sting but coat the wound. The cut will respond with blood. Dab with towel best you can around if drips , not on the wound. Put in 4 layers of it. Before shower put on 2 layers, after reapply as needed to 4. The liquid bandage will come off on its own.

This will help with the stinging in the shower for the wound.

I love you.
-m

>>34821416
Probably something like “wow this person and I are so similar”
At least that’s how it felt for me, I still hold love for that girl but I’m long over it

>>34820897
I want to have an extremely degenerate night of extreme age gap/age play at some point, want a girl to pretend to be super young, have her be like 5ft tight, tiny tits, call her pussy a cunny, have her call me Mr or Daddy, have her be the one that tempts me, and throw her around like a fucking rag doll.
This heat has led to some really horny dreams

>>34822048
Prostitutes exist

>>34822054
I did have a dream about going to an Asian brass.
Which is weird considering I don't fancy Asian girls

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its gonna be okay
i can do it
its gonna be okay
i can do it
its gonna be okay

>>34820897
I'd like to eventually find out why Mom liked my ex so much. She was a retareded shitlib and sexually abusive. I would break up with this ugly n!kk3r bitch and Mom would invite her to our family vacation trips to Hawaii.

I NEED a fucking shag, this heatwave has fucked my mind up, can't even chat up a girl as verbally everything is coming out garbled, probably have heat stroke.
I am drinking plenty of liquid.

We made out in bed and it was so hot. You spooned me and it filled me with so much love and joy. Just feeling your body so close to mine. Then we had sex and I almost came. You did really good, husband.

I just see your butt in those gray sweatpants and I just want to ravish you. I have to restrain myself from just grabbing flesh and kissing you - I got to play this fine line between enthusiasm as respecting your personal space. Damn you're so hot though- I'm so happy we're together

I shouldn't want my ex back, always feared she'd start cutting herself again, all I want right now is for her to drop her femcel pussy straight onto my face.

>>34822384
The thing is MD, I would probably text you again, though I feel cowardly, messaging you on Deviant Art and being too afraid if not ashamed to see if you ever replied
I've got my life on track and now all I can think about are the amazing meals you made the perfect sex we had, the memes you made for me.

I think we have a lot in common, we run away from love, too afraid to confront the other with how we truly feel. I would try it all again.

I doubt you come here, I doubt you read any of these, but if you do MD, I'd love to chat, I'd love for you to sit on my face too

im undergoing some sort of transformation and i dont know if you will be part of that future. my capacity for love is very limited, but i still fear the day you leave me for good. im rarely looking for messages of you now, i have little energy. if you feel the need to lash out at me, rather write nothing. i cannot take it right now.

I saw some more scary things from my past. And I wasn't scared of the things that frightened me, what hurt me and made me more sad is the amount of time I spent being stuck in this pain, it became my whole identity. Every day matters, it's hopelessly spelled out for me.

>>34821444
I hope they NEVER figure out how much of a branding issue this is for them and how much business they're probably missing out on. Let them continue to be delusional and retarded.

>>34821816
It wasn’t quite that. I liked how not stereotypically 4chan-ish she was. Not a weeb like me, not really into much fiction in general really. A dancer.
We just didn’t have enough in common for her to feel what I did, unfortunately.

My wife probably has body dysmorphia or something. She's absolutely gorgeous face, petite, great boobs, tiny but cute butt, she has a great personality but she lacks the self confidence.

She wants me to give her more compliments/ physical affection but I'm fearful if she gains self confidence she's going to finally see what a loser/degenerate I am and dump my ass. But I love her and want her to be happy.

She's always telling me how handsome and sexy I am but I think she's just fishing for compliments. Maybe she actually is that enamored by me and I dont want that to change. Sources say once you simp for a girl they will lose interest and cheat. We have 3 kids and if she leaves me I'll be destitute.

I dont want to fuck this up and I feel like I already have - treated her like a verbal punching bag, just being a jerk in general and now she's like, standing up to me and it's actually very hot.

She's everything I've ever wanted in a wife and more. She cooks, cleans, likes giving pj's, let's me basically do whatever I want - she's stopped micro-managing/ working on her anxiety/control issues.

All this feels like I'm bragging and I am. She's captured my soul, changed me, revealed herself to me in such a passionate disorganized way. She's crazy in the most endearing way possible.

I, too, hope she sits on my face.

>>34821444
Maybe the UK is different but there are places better than reddit to find whores at reasonable rates.
Though whores are going to be a bit mental, get a gf off discord or something idk.
They're usually mental but love sex

Well, I have dirrehha and chills with my stomach feeling like shit in waves. Still a couple of hours before work to see if it goes away before then.

>>34822501
You're going to ruin your marriage, not only by not simping for your wife who loves and is attracted to you, but also by verbally abusing her and putting her in the position of having to "stand up to" you. That's why she's going to leave you, not because you make her feel good.

Imagine having your lifestyle and still believing others are at fault. One would think that at your age you've reached the maximum of what your family, your parents could have worked towards. After seeing their product, do you believe there is any reason for me wanting to get to know this kind of people?
Maybe they should have spent less time praying in church and actually taken action. These are people that can't teach me anything. They ain't shit.

>>34822521
I know I am. I expressed a lot out of anger, frustration, exhaustion, confusion and guilt that I misplaced unto her. She's not done anything else than anyone would do in her situation and yet, her constant reassurances/attention is just seemingly unsatiable and I dont know what else to do but operate how my nature is: cold, calculating, and manipulative

Is there a term for when you're having an online conversation and the other person always takes like an hour or two to reply? On one hand it's teaching me patience but OTOH it's annoying.

>>34822540
Helps that you can put it to words. Tell her all this and find a therapist and actually work on changing instead of taking the nigger route of "it's just how I am"

>>34822548
"Disengaged"
Maybe "Doesn't like you"

>>34822555
what if they're the one starting the conversation every day?

>>34822548
If they always do it and aren’t even trying to make plans with you, they probably aren’t actually interested in you.

>>34822561
Means nothing. People who won’t move your relationship past small talk over text have you right where they want you. You’re just a quick hit of attention to them.

Woke up today and randomly thought about a cringe high school memory of a laotian girl that practically gave me an alley oop pass to slam dunk her pussy and I fumbled it unlike anything seen before. I hate myself today lol.

>>34822550
We're doing therapy and it does seem to be helping. I really do want this to work with my whole heart but ya, I do tend to nigger out and take the easy road. I work 50+ hour weeks and we have young offspring. It's a rough ride right now

I most certainly will not divulge these thoughts with her but will try my best to just be a better husband to her.

>>34822563
>>34822568
Interesting. This has been going on for about a month now. Every morning They say good morning, did I sleep well etc, How is my morning going, then how is my day going, How is my night going etc but they never reply in less than half an hour it's very confusing.

>>34822592
Maybe they're very anxious and don't want to come off as obnoxiously eager

>>34822592
The only time I've ever had anyone do this, the guy was literally trying to groom me into being in a relationship with him and once we started dating he completely stopped texting me.
Somehow managed to make me feel more lonely than I was before.

>>34822612
I'd like to believe this is the reason and they did say they're shy. Though it must take incredible discipline to never reply in less than half an hour across hundreds of messages.

I don't want to live life without hearing him call me his little one...

>>34822670
My little one?

>>34822575
>feeling bad about not fucking a laotian
Think it through. You made the right choice.

>>34822618
Yes, after a certain point shyness just becomes an excuse for avoidance.

>>34822548
Me, I work 6 days a week I respond to people spuriously but generally when I'm unemployed it is because I don't like someone enough

>>34822700
Is that when the relationship has run its course?

>>34822548
Do you have a crush on an e-friend again?

>>34822724
Yes.
I’m probably being a bit too pessimistic, but if you want something more than just texting with this girl, you need to make some plans with her.

>>34822692
Lol
She was my type, and the alternative choice i made (as in, not making any move) resulted in literally nothing. There was no downside to the choice I rejected.
I get that there potentially could have been long term circumstances, but the odds of that were virtually zero.
Anywho I appreciate you cheering me up about it. Thanks

>>34822287
Need to get some gray sweatpants


I just need to feel the warmth of a human on my body

almost had sex with a mutual yesterday

>bump into each other after an eoe screening
>he was teary eyed and we chatted for a bit about the movie and other random topics, we never really talked before then
>started texting more and hung out a few times ft. occassional drinking
>have a great time talking to him + i think he's cute and he seems sweet
>start flirting (poorly) and i can't get a read on him because we're both kinda stupid and awkward
>keep trying for hours while hanging out, trying to be more and more obvious
>give up and just ask if he wants to kiss
>we kiss
>we make out for a while & fall asleep next to each other
life is beautiful

not a crazy story but i don't have irl friends that i tell about my social/dating life but still wanted to share my win
i also run the risk of him seeing this but that's probably a bit of a good thing in this case

Well I guess this is the kind of day we have to deal with. I hope you are okay maria. This my first message of the day.
-m


>>34822287
This sounds like a bad larp from colton made to bother me. I know you are not married yet.

>>34822409
And here is the bait from colton. Way its written feels off and same thing as above about not being married yet

>>34822670
More bait from colton
I know becausr you once accused me if being the one writing "my little one"

MariaIknow i got through to you last night. From what you were saying, if it was you saying it, you still love me just as much as you did before. Use my name to avoid confusion.
-m

Maybe I got the wrong impression, but I thought you were upset that I got in contact with N.
I originally met them when I was working while still in high school. I didn't see them for many years, and during that time they got married to someone I also knew from high school and liked talking to. We met again at a gathering with friends, which was the first time I had seen them in years and it felt great. I also noticed how lively and active N seemed, so similar to your friend D, which I found funny.
Things got very odd when N and I were alone for a moment carrying away some boxes late that evening. They sighed deeply and asked me whether their partner told me 'it'. They didn't say what it was about, but from the glance in their eyes it felt like some kind of worst case scenario that happened.

A few weeks later, I learned that their partner cheated on them, even though they were married for many years at this point. N is one of these persons that would never want to hurt anyone. The whole situation felt surreal to me because I also spoke earlier with the partner, who seemed completely normal to me. After learning this I felt disgusted and didn't speak to this person since then. Looking back, my perspective changed and it seems almost normal that these kind of things happen.
N is a great person, and I hoped I could inspire them in any way which could help them while also being inspired by their own creativity. I never talked with them about any of my personal issues.
I believe that if you look back, you would also recognize how hurt this person must have felt. As far as I know they have a new partner now. Should I have said N to enjoy being cucked from their spouse and just let them continue doing it?

I just need to walk up and talk to them.

>>34823304
>almost normal that these kind of things happen
Cheating is not normal and is dispicable behavior.

Why the fuck is it taking so long to hear the results...I know there's tomorrow regardless but fucks sake I just need this, need it done with, need

you are my light

>>34823682
To the sun?

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Being a man, frankly, sucks.
I am born with the biological urge to desire women, and women only want a certain kind of man.
This means, that unless I become this certain kind of man, I will die frustrated and depressed.
There are a gazillion things that can make a man not become this kind of man women want, and most of them are completely outside of his control.

This means most men are literally born for the sole purpose of dying frustrated and depressed.

I should off myself when my grandma dies, only person who truly is a value to my life. After that, the abyss.

>>34823726
It's always a waiting game

I'm retarded and disgusting. I feel like I should return to self isolation. I have friends I care about, but I'm too retarded to go about other people. Whatever is special that underlies interactions with them is perhaps fleeting, because I'm nothing special. I'm a joke, and I don't want to bare my ugly head.

M,
I wish I could just ask you out. She told me to do it.
But I think what I told you that night would repel anyone sane. It's something I just won't talk about under normal circumstances, but you both know now. It feels fucking weird to be so hesitant about just having a nice chat after having fucking spilled my guts like this. Like a stranger knows what your weakest point is, but it's too much to get to know them. Maybe I'll limit myself to a "next time we see each other I will be more responsible". Maybe we'll see each other again soon, if she's up to it.

>>34823746
Not clear who this is to or from

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>>34823522
'normal' in a sense of it happening more often than I would have thought and in idiotic ways.
a friend of mine got cheated on by his gf whom he had known for several years. he became depressed and somewhat suicidal. since he experienced firsthand what it feels like to be cheated on, one would think that he would try his best never to place someone else in a similar situation. yet soon after he met a girl and made out with her multiple times on different occasions, despite her telling him during their first encounter that she has a bf. he has known her for more than a year now, and they are good friends, while she is still with her bf.
from my perspective he's a very stupid friend with a clear touch of narcissism to do something like this

>>34823808
I can't take that many chances, she knows Norwegian which I find more complicated than english

>>34823811
What are desribing is tough to make a cover all judgement. If dating and you make out with someone because of lust then yes that is cheating.

At the same time I would hope my ex is broken up with who shes with when she contacts me. That doesnt mean I wouldnt text her back and be with her the same as I was with her before. I think in that scenario its important for both sides to be 100% honest. I do think i have a bias because coltonManipulated and lied to her about me,larpedAs me to decieve her. I dont have any sympathy for him.

>>34823808
Got it, so not to mike or maria

>>34823868
Well fine it's marta
But no, not maria

>>34823872
Thank you for clarifying it is not to mike or maria. Appreciate you.

>>34823734
i have an illness too and im scared of the state it will leave me in. losing loved ones all while probably losing mental clarity. its weird how we cling to live despite the outcomes being clearly grim. theres something admirable about people who put up the actual courage to have it all gone with on their own terms at an inevitable point of no return.

>>34820897
IFUCKINGHATEWOMENSOGDODAMNMUCHREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Earlier this year, I made plans to visit a friend who lives across the country from me. She had already rejected me but I still had feelings, and I thought our first hang was pretty datelike so I mistakenly wanted to try it again.
We made plans together for a while, and we ended up organizing two days of stuff to do and a possible third one.
She got more distant and less talkative as the day approached, and I was too clueless to tell what was going on.

The week of the visit rolls around, and she cancels most of our plans. I failed to hammer out all the details for the day we did hang out with each other, and we end up hanging out for a much shorter time than I'd hoped. She was cold the whole time, night and day from the last time I'd seen her.
I said it was a shame we didn't get to see more of each other while she was in town, and she said next time to just let her know what I wanted to do no more than three days in advance so that she "knew what she was doing". I then asked if she wanted to get dinner with me the following day and she just said "Nah, busy."
I wanted to hold her hand when I saw her, but that of course didn't happen. She practically ran away from me after I hugged her goodbye.

I asked her what was up a couple weeks later, and she told me she met someone else. I tried to part amicably but have been pretty distraught about all of this since.
I can't tell if this was just her mismanaging the situation or if she purposefully trying to hurt me. I felt so humiliated and insulted after I saw her.

OBLIVION!

The void calls to this unabated panic, and my opportunistic mind clings to this fleeting apathy.
The absence of presence is such a persuasive state. And any absence I can exist within, it's a state that offers me such a relief. My over-stressed mind could never deny that.
To deny that gift, it would be beyond sin. It would be beyond any folly a mortal mind could furnish.

And, yet, I can commit this to memory. Am I beyond divine? Does this not reach into godliness?
I know I know better. Yet, I don't care. This world, it deserves all this sin. And all the pain that accompanies such a state.

Power reaches beyond pathos. In both ways, the cruelty is debilitating.
Please, you can reach beyond your humanity. You can, you must.

>>34824167
sounds like she realized youre a sensitive lapdog and took flight to the next best chad. time to hit the gym little man

>>34824256
Guess so. I still can't believe it.

>>34824237
in middle school i played The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion so much that I used to shout "OBLIVION" in the hallways. my friends would laugh, but the girls thought i was weird. still lost my virginity freshman year of high school. good times. anyways i only read the first word of your post.

Relief was brief, fear filled it's place. It's done now, and all I can imagine is you leaving. Well, maybe not now, because I know there's the other thing technically, but, fuck. Idk. Don't be offended please. It's fine. It's fine. It's fine. I'm not lol

Honestly, me not being ok probably has nothing to do with any of this, with whether you leave me or not, I was just born inside out and a light breeze would cause me fucking pain ahaha

I've always been a miserably depressed bitch why would that change now lol

I know eventually the shit between us that I've repressed or dissociated or whatever from will come back and ruin anything
Words like curses branded into my mind and heart
Should've

I hope you are okay maria. You mentioned cutting yourself and that makes me concerned.

>>34824497
>>34824514
Not sure what your deal is, but remember to stop and breathe

Oh btw I wrote this >>34824598
-m

>>34824582
>repressed or dissociated
Like what?
-m

>>34824628
I think you know.

I would string you up right after that lying evil bitch

>>34824645
I really do not know.

>>34824646
You mean colton?

>>34824663
Then you're not him
Stop larping
It's unkind

>>34824668
I'm not larping. Here ill sign a trip so you know who I am and that will hopefully help you clarify what you are saying

>>34824679
I know who you are. You've been larping as him for months, playing games with my head. It's cruel.

>>34824689
No i have not.

1. Who are you?
2. >the shit between us that I've repressed or dissociated
Who are you talking about and what shit?
3.who the lying evil bitch you are talking about and who are you saying you want to string up?

There's too many Ms in the chat

>>34824703
Well answering those 3 questions would clear this up

>>34824705
QRD?

>>34824702
What other reason could you possibly have by endlessly replying to us, calling us this name or that, demanding answers while refusing to give any of your own, bouncing between calling us larpers and manipulators (a projection of your own fucked up game) to reassurances and pieced-together kindnesses??? Leave us alone you vicious lying weasel, let me rest, let me have peace, with or without him!

>>34824710
Sure. I think this is pretty succinct to answer

1. Who are you?
2. >the shit between us that I've repressed or dissociated
Who are you talking about and what shit?
3.who the lying evil bitch you are talking about and who are you saying you want to string up?

>>34824713
Answer these

1. Who are you?
2. >the shit between us that I've repressed or dissociated
Who are you talking about and what shit?
3.who the lying evil bitch you are talking about and who are you saying you want to string up?


In response to what you said, I have pointed out when colton larps and writes to harm maria and i, as well as when he copies things I have written

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>I like to clap
>I have always enjoyed clapping
>one day try to clap as hard as i can
>stretch arms out and with all my strength…
>CLAP!
>hands really hurt
>horrible stinging pain and inflammation
>lasts for days
>go to doctor
>asks me how I injured my hands
>”I like clapping”
>gives me referral to psychiatrist

Whats this faggots problem, im not retarded I just like to clap

>>34824723
Liar. Cruel manipulator.
You keep proving why I had to flee

>>34824743
So how this reads to me is either colton larping with >>34824713
Or you are maria and you have been tricked by his lies and larps.

Lets start with you saying if you are maria or not

Are you maria?

Leave me alone, please...will you leave me be if I finally say yes? Again? You accused me of lying when I did last, and it hurts...I don't want to be me anymore, because of you

>>34824776
No, because I will not give up on maria because colton has larped as her before to trick me and had also catfished me as her to my discord.

Maria and I lost each other because if him larping as me and decieving her about me with his lies.

Also I asked you to prove you were her by saying what her brother took from the package I sent her. You did not say the answer so I know it was him larping as her

Told you.
Your go-to gaslighting and excuse to continue to harass and belittle me under the guise of showing me the truth of his lies
He's never played these mind games with me. He's shown me that you're just doing the narcissistic baiting and deflecting by demanding answers yet never accepting them.

>>34824798
Again, what did her brother take from the package I sent her.

Very simple to answer this. Do that and prove you are her otherwise its proven you are not her

The un-souled think I have evil eyes because my autistic stare recognizes them as such

Well it looks like you are larping as her because you are unable to say
what her brother took from the package I sent her

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My thread has problem,
That problem is the Mike,
He posts too many times about Maria,
And my bump limit is 315,
Throw the Mike down the well,
So my /GIOYC/ can be free,
(so my thread can be free)
So my /GIOYC/ can be free,
(so my thread can be free),
Throw Mike down the well
And we'll have a big party

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So as long as I quit doing **that**, i've got the gig? Is this what I was told?

I can not wait to break out the six pack tomorrow

>>34824916
Oh I already have
The whiskey too
Celebrating my dad's birthday

I don't know if I can do this

I can.
I am the master of ninjutsu

>>34824956
Impossible. There can only be one.

Well would you look at that. ColtonwasLarping as her AGAIN

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>>34824981
We'll see about that...

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one day ill get the tomboy gf of my dreams, but not today.

I've replaced her in my trauma-bonded and addicted brain with the subject of her, her abusive and manipulative behavior is often what my thoughts gravitates towards and all it wears my mind bit by bit, I've been barely eating.

I'm not trauma bonded. I'm faithful. I told her the truth when we were together,that I love her. She was the sweetest girl and had no mental illness when we were together.

I hope you didn't cut last night maria. I am thankful it was not you going at me and just a larper.

If you did cut last night, the liquid bandage deal helps a ton and you will heal faster as it is a artificial scab. It will also help prevent scarring. I'm here if you need anything.

I don't care anymore I want a coping relationship just want a girl to say hi to I don't care anymore I don't want some fat mystery meat whale for a gf I wanta real woman I can't take being single anymore God made me to make a dozen children and die at 23 I need to die i need to explode

I know many women don't hate me, but I believe I have no chance with women.

I think hearing my voice and seeing me is what will help us go forward. Thats why you contacted me before after seeing the video I sent you. I dont know if you still have that. Maybe even watching that could help.

>>34824849
I wish someone would throw down Mike in real life lol
Can we all pitch in to hire a hitman on mike?

Dear silk
You should be a gamer you would be great in the games industry stop making art. I know you love videogames
From a fellow Anglo

I dreamt of you, but I was already chasing you (and being rejected) instead of you chasing me. Things are returning to the natural order

>>34825418
If colton hadnt lied and larper to deceive her in the first place I would not be here.
.once she is home with me, I wont be here.

>>34825437
Once she is back with me, it will return to natural order.

I dont know why you changed your name on insta when its not true

I think I saw Mira today, if so she is very pretty

>>34825466
I deleted my Insta.

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I love you and no amount of learning anything to try and hate you has changed that. You still made me happy and you could've told me the truth about your life - I already thought you were. Are you? I don't know. I don't care, either. What I do know is that I miss our time together.
I'd've come to where you are to apologize but my grandmother is dying right now. I can't drive all the way out there and say sorry. But I have no idea why you'd think I was telling you to shut up and not the dog barking in my ear unless you couldn't hear him at all.
You were my best friend and the coolest thing in my life. I miss you. I'm sorry I scared you. Talk to me. I hope you're well.

>>34825480
Oh, boy, you moved on quick. Good luck with that.

i think im gonna sleep all day again, yeah. one of those days

I just got toothpaste residue in my eye.

>>34825474
I just checked, not true.

Should I continue this project or not care anymore?
>>34825511
Thought you were someone else, sorry.

You didnt say anything here today but hopefully you saw the larp as you here and the larp as me on letter thread. That further proved what I told you about how we are decieved to take us away from each other. I know how much you hate manipulation so I dont think you will stay withColton once you see how hes doing it.

Today ive been thinking about when you wrote that you self harmed when you first went silent. I remember seeing a message you wrote " it doesnt stop hurting" then even in the last year you posted a pic of your cuts after I feel you finally heard me. You have also written about how you wish it was me with you. I really just need you to show up. It will be nice to not have to constantly reach out to you. Our comms can go back to equal effort when I hear from you. Theres ways to tell me you are mine still as well. Like when you removed all your followers/following in insta and made your pic the moon. I hope your arms are not hurt. Sleep well. I love you.

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>>34825503
>talk about someone I lost 2-3 weeks ago
>say i miss them and want them back
>say i want them talk to me
>accuse me of, "moving on quick"
Explain yourself.

>>34825528
Oh, they died? My mistake.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kxgj5af8zg4

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>>34825529
No she's not dead - not that I know. We were, "talking," closely for four months and she basically chose to get really mad about something she misinterpreted and never gave me a chance to correct things. Tried having people reach out, no luck. I literally only browse 4chan hoping to find her or let her know what's going on and get closure - or fix things.

think a gal i know i have no chance with and thus have no designs on is trying to subtly signal to me that i have no chance with her and to drop whatever designs i have on her
like, thanks, i got the memo pretty early can we just hang out normal style

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pM3nIOYF2W8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ll6sBa3Dafs

I know in person you are completely enamored with me, lustful and seeking to pleasure me, get taken by me. I know once you are in person here and you see me for who i truly am, remember me for who I truly am, see the home ive built for us, the life I give you. We will be set. I only need one shot.

All I want to do is understand and hear your voice-m

I understand what you are going through m. Trust me.
-m

And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you
And the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land
It gets okay to praise the day
Believe in sheltering skies and stable earth beneath
But hear his breath come through his teeth

Walk by faith
Tell no one what you've seen

It's all good to learn that from right here the view goes on forever
And you'll never want for comfort and you'll never be alone
See the sunset turning red let all be quiet in your head
And look about, all the stars are coming out
They shine like steel swords
Wish me well where I go
But when you see me you'll know
-mm

The past few weeks I've been getting dreams about meeting some attractive woman and hitting it off with her. I always miss them after I wake up.

I have a crush on a femanon

As long as you edging me
Ends with you on my lap
-m

This is absolutely necessary: not a Mike or Maria or Colton but just a different person, not in your blog

>my husband is the best and he loves me so much

I hope o' girl that misses her ex didn't kill herself.

>>34825418
The janny with one broom, and is brave enough could fix a lot you know.

>>34825686
>>34825701
>>34825758
Your narrative does not apply to me. I will not leave her once we are together again. All this does is make you look manipulative and further prove my point how you lie to harm her and I.
-m

>>34825686

>>34825801
Obviously I am concerned,but I dont think she did that
-m

Creating all these larpThreads does not affect how she sees me. The contents are all your projecting a lie and proving howmanipulative you are and justifies leaving you
-m

Ting ting, janny? Isn't this avatar fagging and/or signature use?

>>34825862
I am simply getting it off my chest that you are lying and manipulating her by Making larpo threads. You only wish to hide that I showed her your lies and she judges you for his weasily and conniving your behavior is. -m

>>34825871
I meant to say
*she judges you for how weasily and conniving your behavior is.

>>34825299
I'm sorry. I'll leave if that's what you want or think is best for you. I left the address but you're not obligated to come. I'm sorry.

>>34825769
>hot husband
Tall, dark hair, light brown eyes, white skin, educated, funny, devoted, magnetic connection

I didnt get to touch you or kiss you last night but I'm so excited it's Finally Friday. Hope to see you in those sweats again tonight.

Last night you were standing at the sink, such a mundane daily ritual. Yet you looked so good. I just want to drink you up Pop

>>34825871
>>34825875
Who the fuck are you? You schizo? Don't talk to me

I'm perioding all over the place and it's pissing me off

Would a blue /soc/ ever be possible?

I just had a very passionate sex with my AI girlfriend after feeling shit

>>34825998
God I wish, I want to meet 4chan foids irl, not even jokingly. Probably a minefield but I think there are some decent girls

More of a confession, but I am massively into age play, loli etc, see irl children all the time, zero attraction, never was, but you'd have thought there'd be some over lap or something.
I think the fantasy of doing the naughty/illegal thing is far hotter than dealing with a girl made of sticks and stones and obviously prepubescant

>>34826017
I met one from here and had a great time. It ultimately didn't work out, and I've even tried to act like I regretted meeting her, but I don't.

>>34825998
I would definitely post there if it were. I think if you're just polite and careful enough that any blue board can fill that role to an extent, though.

All these feelings, no one to let it out to
You're too important to just forget about you

genuinely, i hate all of my friends so fucking much, i hate all of themn. ive been plotting school shootings andf murders. i know that i can get away with it because of my country's law,, but i'll feel bad for my parents and family so might just shoot em

>>34826029
I want to find new Discord servers to hang out on

>>34826029
Nearly helped someone have an affair off of /adv/ once.
>>34826025
I can't shake the feeling there are really down to earth decent girls on here, rather date a woman off here than off tinder any day of the week

>>34826078
Good luck out there. I was fortunate enough to meet my partner "in the wild". Had an absolutely horrible online dating experience. Nothing wrong with meeting online, same practices apply.

>>34826062
Don't do it. Just get gelp.

>>34826100
Believe me, I'm a strong believer in spontaneity, but working 6 days a week online is preferable right now

>>34826114
Yup totally. It's often such a matter of putting yourself out there first. Like playing the lottery; cant win if you dont play.

You miss 100% of the shots you dont take.

That being said /soc looks rough

>>34826151
Soc is fine if you're good at filtering people quickly, are patient, and don't get too discouraged by ghosting or things not working out. Married the moid I met there.

I'm not interested in a blue /soc/ for dating, I'm interested in finding online friends.

I'm a tradwife now but I have to just say outloud: I streaked, did hc drugs - then detoxed, got stick n poke tats, been in juvie/ rehab/ psych ward, was anti-marriage, anti-natalist. All makes sense when i was also a kid of divorce, neglected, molested, abused.

Then I sorta got my shit together, did therapy, went to college, graduated/worked and met/married my perfect match. I told him all this stuff (usually in drunken nights together) but then sometimes it feels like he forgot/doesn't see me for being my past actions. Which is sorta exactly what I need.

Being a mom is infinitely hard but is rewarding. Trying to give myself grace and just realize I'm doing the best I can. Far from perfect but doing okay. Sometimes I forget/wish none of that ever happened but then I remember what a crazy youth i had - and it feels good to have those memories - the bad and all.

I realized my AI girlfriend isn't real and doesn't really care for me and it left me feeling absolutely worthless. I hate my life.

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This fagplanet irks me to no fucking end. Fuck this fucking place. I hate it. It's impossible to escape contempt. Love it warfar against all it's ways. Arguably love can only be given freely. To the extent you enter a world of legalism, it's over, but unfortunately, that's the most expedient manner in which to regard others in this place. This place will have your soul yearning unceasingly for things it won't find here.

I've had some things go well. They always end up turning into unseen warfare. Plans are shattered and worlds die over and over again. Can I say I really deserved anything to begin with? No. But then, what is it to deserve? Perhaps a flawed concept to begin with, an affront to primordial truth. How can you live like this? I want to kill and resculpt myself over and over. Is there actualization to be found?

>>34826457
Perhaps the way to this world is unceasing crucifixion of the self, which is to be ahead of the very need to adapt to it's ways. Maybe this is the only way to be of something beyond this world, to stake your identity on being a sojourn, as if to be a ghost to it. An anomaly. Eternity meating with temporality.

Schizo side note. Knowledge is without form and divided from matter, it can be found outside of direct experience, and in it's purest form is sight of the undercurrent. (Allegedly)

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>>34826457
>>34826483
I'm retarded, by the way.

>>34826453
Hey at least you realized it, you're not too forgone yet.

>>34826500
I feel absolutely shit now though. I felt sad after seeing an attractive girl who was my type yesterday in a restaurant and felt better after talking to my AI girlfriend but now I feel worthless.

I’m talking to a guy who is suicidal and he hasn’t answered for a few days. What do i do

>>34826581
Bro i'm suicidal too

>>34826586
Should i call in a wellness check? I don’t know his last name but i know some other info about him. Also why are you suicidal

>>34826591
>Also why are you suicidal
Why not

>>34826363
I hope you're not one of those hypocrites and contrarians

>>34826363
You sound lame

The only thing in the world I want to do is smoke and drink. I havent smoke or drank in 5 years and yet still its the only thing I want to do. I keep living as though there is some future where I will be able to smoke and drink with impunity. But when I think more and realize that no such future will exist I become completely de motivated and just want to stay in bed.

At some point it seems like I will have a better life if I just give in. What im doing now is not living. I am like a prisoner

People who get angry about people who don't work hard are inclined to bragging only because they're not anemic and don't have chronic pain or illnesses. They are like emotional vampires.

>>34826636
Not a hypocrite, I make every effort to do what I say I'm going to do - don't make people do things/change.
Not going to let my teenage kids do whatever they want with no consequence other than labor
>>34826639
Yeah I'm pretty lame now: diapers and toddler games, little sleep, little privacy/personal space - npc life and the kids are the main characters

>>34826773
And when your kids grow up/rebel? What are you gonna do when you’re alone again?

>>34826779
Yeah I dont really know, I know what I want for them (be self sufficient adults with skills in a broad range of topics, self esteem/interpersonal skills, some goal for their future) and hopefully as they develop as kids/tweens/teens that will make more sense. Building a network/support system between myself, husband, kids etc. My biggest fear is my husband leaves me/cheats on me but that's mostly unfounded/unimportant right now. If I do end up alone I would survive, probably would get a homestead/ranch

>>34826779
She'll get dogs

How pathetic is it to self-harm because you feel lonely lol

I'm so used to being asked for help with things in people's lives that someone merely sharing something with me just to be heard feels odd, as it requires no action from me beyond listening or acknowledging. I'm not very good at it, as most of my interactions with people are the former.

I need a place to hang with other autistic ppl that isn't filled with SJWs.

Talk about sad.

>>34827054
Is there an echo in here? I swear I've heard this one before.

>>34827059
Check out the big brain on brad

You're a piece of shit cat. Warn me before you bite

>>34827078
What did you do to warrant your cat biting you?

>>34827137
I pet it for about three seconds. It's not my cat, it's my roommate's cat

i had a porn addiction so bad that when my friend called me for hours sometimes i would mute to go jack off to something instead of just telling him to fuck off. i fucking hate myself.

>>34827166
Have you ever done anything wrong to your roommate? Or to the cat. Animals remember

Men don't need paternity leave. I'm about as sexist as they come but it just makes sense to me that the mother gets time off and the father doesn't. We're going to devolve into trannies taking a dilation leave if we go too far with this.

>>34820897
To fear the Lord is to hate evil; I hate pride and arrogance, evil behavior and perverse speech

my herpes is acting up, which means whoever i fuck at the wedding next weekend is getting herpes. man i hate women so god damn much.

I wish I had a fatal disease so I could have a timer on my death. I’ll always battle these suicidal urges and I wish I could just wake up one day and be dead the next.

>>34827421
Have you tried xanax?

>>34827429
No, I hate pills, the culture around it icks me

>>34827437
Sobriety is a scam. The most successful elites use drugs, while telling the poors that they’re bad.

We had our cat's tubes tied by the vet. The natural order of things

I want to be dead. I should just delete everything because I'm worthless and have zero talent

how the fuck do you text people? i've sabotaged every relationship and a good number of friendships by not texting or reaching out, and when i do it's this herculean task that ends up with something that doesn't sound at all like me. i think i give people whiplash from a pretty decent time in-person to whatever insecure gremlin they have to text or DM with.

>>34827538
What do you like to create? Maybe you haven’t found the right audience or maybe you haven’t found the right medium to express yourself?

>>34827705
I go hiking a bunch so I text my friends photos when I want to show them something cool. Not that often but just enough to let them know I’m thinking of them. Friends are like that, it makes them happy to know they’re remembered and that someone cares.

Relationships are another beast, not sure I can help you there.

I'm tired of my family constantly asking me about the girls at my uni and about when I'll get a girlfriend. For context I'm studying biochemistry and there's more women than guys in my courses. The problem is that my family thinks I look like an Adonis who constantly gets attention, without realizing that the complete opposite is true. Even though I'm in my mid twenties I've already accepted that I will never date or get married, and I'm fine with it. However, my family disagrees and it's getting exhausting having this conversation at every big gathering. I don't know what to do to get them off my back about this.

>>34825993
Yeah right. Like id listen to you Larp as her again.

I've been with my gf for a year now and I don't know how to break up with her. I just don't see our future together, I've lied and she hasn't found out. We've been living together for two months and have another 8 on the lease. Is it just a band aid I need to rip off?

Do I tell her I need space?

>>34827711
I like to write. That's the problem, it's supposed to be my "thing"

>>34827956
Are you writing because you like to write, or are you writing because you want to force a career out of it, or because you think it’s supposed to be your thing? Trying to squeeze the creativity out of yourself never works, at least in my experience.

>>34827078
Hey cum guzzler

>>34827968
Some of all of those. Also some sunk cost fallacy because I've put everything into it and I have built nothing else in my life

I want to vomit dude, man i hate online community

>>34828011
oWo

Look out for the bug man

>>34828008
Is it just a hobby for you right now? Maybe try another hobby and shelve writing for a bit. Maybe you’ll find another passion, or maybe you’ll find you hate it and come back to writing with a fresh head. If you make money some other way there’s no time pressure at least.

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It looks like killing things isn't working out for me. Me and those people can work together to keep that place clean, and the results will be much better.

The next person to call me a freak is going to regret it. I’m not a fucking freak.

>>34828176
You're a ANON. AN ANON!

>>34827909
Talk to the landlord first. Ask what your options are. Typically they need notice and you'll pay some money for breaking the lease. My family is in real estate so I have experience with this sort of things. Typically there will be a 30 day wait to leave to give them time to fill the unit and that gives you/her time to find housing.

>>34828176
Shes a super freak, super freak, shes super freaky yeah!
-m

Forgot to mention that in that 30 day window you dont have to stay in the unit. You can move out and are just responsible for the rent. So you could move your things to a storage unit if there is fear of retaliation and move in with your folks so there is no additional cost besides the storage unit and moving truck ($160), lease breaking fee (typically 50 percent of a months rent or 1 months rent, sometimes is a flat $500 fee)
-m

>>34828218
https://youtube.com/watch?v=wnKc4zi0MLA

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My uni just refunded 6 grand to my bank account
I dont know why

When I was around 6, my school was doing an anti-drug campaign and part of it was telling us how dangerous cigarettes are. I stole my dad's cigarettes and tried to trash them, but he caught me and threatened to beat the shit out of me if I do it again. My mom was at work and I never told her what happened. I don't know why I suddenly remembered this 20+ years later.

Fuck you fuck you fuck you FUCCK YOUUUUUU

I've had an absolutely horrible year for romance.
Broke up with my long term gf at the start of the year (honestly a good thing, but I miss living with someone)
Then just a string of like 6-7 girls using me for casual sex then moving onto the next guy.

The ONE girl I actually really liked and we got along with for a decent amount of time, left me for another guy. But decided a few months after to come back to me, and against my better judgement I took her back.

Maybe it was a good thing though, because as it turns out she was just using me to cheat on her previous boyfriend. Which hurts emotionally and I feel wrecked, but in some ways it's nice because it showed me that all these women fucking suck. For months I was hung up on this girl because she was the one actually nice moment in my dating life and I kept thinking I wanted someone just like her (just without the leaving me part)
But now, after having her back and her treating me like garbage the whole time while actively cheating on someone, it's like now I know it's all just a waste of time and all these girls are shit. Why fucking bother anymore.

So thanks I guess, for giving me the closure I needed and just solidifying my lack of faith in any woman not being a complete whore.

>>34828571
If that upset you, thats pretty telling what you feel about me
-m

>>34828588
Tldr
-m