I’ve had enough, anons. I’ve been in a lull for too long. I went to sleep very early last night. Woke up at 4am EST. Couldn’t go back to sleep because I had slept for about 8 hours. And I just sat there and thought about everything in my life for the past 6 years. I’ve wasted so much time when I could have been learning how to draw better and I could have been pursuing the projects that have been blossoming in my mind. Instead all I did after school and later work was just mostly play video games or shitpost. And then there’s the fact that I’ve just grown further and further away from all of my loved ones in life and how I have treated them. I don’t even have a job at the moment because I got let go recently. I am not proud of myself in the slightest and my life feels so meaningless. I could go into more but the gist of this is that I have woken up this morning and I’m just SO TIRED of it all. I have my whole life ahead of me and I don’t want to waste it anymore. Life can be short and the economy isn’t being kind anyway… so I better as well just get my shit together, get a new job before my savings run out, lock in creatively and just practice and create what I’ve envisioned for years, I don’t care if it makes me money or not. I want to be proud of myself for once, and maybe for others to be proud of me.
>>147132631I know I’m on an emotional high right now and I’ll probably plummet later today, tomorrow, a few days from now, but I’m putting together a plan to set healthier habits to keep me on track to reorganize my life as a contingency. I’m saving anti-depressants for a last resort. I don’t want to go back again, not this time. I’m tired of wasting time and my life. For those that are also struggling, I hope you find a spark of your own soon because I know your pain. It’s not going to be easy but I want to be free, and I want you all to be free as well. I rise today and will be going on a run once I’m finished with some drawing exercises I found, and I hope that you all may rise with me as well. Our dreams don’t have to be dead. I don’t want to believe in that voice anymore.
welcome to life as a grown man in the USA between the ages of 19 and 35set goals, be realistic, don't be too hard on yourself, and take it ez baby
>>147132635Remember that every step matters because without taking it, you can't take the next one.We tend to get tunnel vision and become convinced that every moment we haven't achieved our goals is a wasted moment.But that's not how it works, and it's never been how it works.We just fucking DO shit. Take actions. Take nebulous concepts out of our heads and put them out there in any way, shape or form.Our heads do get full, and we need to empty them sometimes.
>>147132631>Woke up at 4am EST.Why doxx yourself like that
>>147132631>>147132635If it's any consolation, January is one of the worst times to be alive, so don't let your perspective from a low point dictate your life.
>>147132644Thank you!>>147132697I realize that this also applies to to just day to day things. Becoming idle is easy. Just doing things does help when I actually do them. I just need to set patterns again. I do want to unleash my ideas very soon though, and improve as I go. Thank you. >>147132975I’ll screencap this for future reference, thank you. >>147133108Anon, this site is not actually anonymous either way. >>147133123Yeah, January has always sucked now that I think about it. It’s cold, comes with gloomy clouds. Used to always loathe going back to school. Nowadays it’s a reminder that I have to start the whole year routine and dread being the same again. With all of this said, maybe I should start making threads every now and then to encourage other anons with their day to day goals… kinda like the “Just Draw” threads but not just for drawing.
>>147132631i havent read a single word but i get the feeling you are a faggot and this thread should be deleted
Can I get a tldr on this retarts wall of text?
