Lifted on and off for a few years but started consistently going for the past 2 months nowWhen does the self loathing and constant suicidal thoughts stop I thought this was supposed to give me confidence and higher self esteem
>>75476959It never stops.You'll get more arrogant tho. It's nice knowing I can overpower all my coworkers
>>75476980Good point, I hate them so maybe I can have that to motivate me betterI’ll be damned if I let the greasy fat fuck that I have to work with all day outlive me
>>75476959The more seriously you lift the smaller you become. Honestly I used to lift quite a bit and looked breddy gud but always felt small and weak because I was always comparing myself to bodybuilders and fitness models and roiders on /fit/ and the biggest dudes in the gym. I stopped lifting for like a couple years and after doing a lot of physical stuff at work for a few months I started getting decent guns and shoulders again, burned off a bit of fat and got a visible 6 pack, I was looking better than I had in years. I decided to go back to the gym and every day I get smaller and smaller, my lifts are going up and my weight is going up and the veins and the muscles pop out more each passing day and people have started to comment on my body and I just keep getting smaller every time I look in the mirror.It never ends. You just tolerate the self-loathing as long as you can and see how far it can push you. All the bodybuilders and influencers and shredded cunts you see are not the ones with the most motivation or discipline, they are the ones who hated themselves so much that even after they left humanity behind they still couldn't stop hating the fucking loser they saw in the mirror every day.
>>75476959Is that your starting body? What did you do for two years?
>>75477042I competitively swam and did track in high school so I got really lean and small from that (160 @ 6’2”) after I graduated I didn’t workout for a semester of college, then I took a class the second semester. Didn’t work out for the summer and first semester of my next year, then I lifted with a buddy for about 3 months and gained 10 lbs. stopped when I graduated and took a somewhat physical job. After this summer I started to go back to the gym and now we’re here
>>75477039Yeah I was hearing this as well, I guess this is just confirmation lolI’ll use spite I guess to keep going and compare myself to my younger years
