I'll take some oj. About to head to a funeral.

>>77175807

im a leaf and i desperately want to leave this shithole. 5 months of winter getting me depressed as fuck.

i have 2 options: 1. i can get australian citizenship by descent ezpz because my dad was born there. from what ive heard aussieland has a lot of the same problems are my shithole (sky high cost of living, too many browns) but at least theres nice weather and aussie cunts seem pretty chill to me. or 2. both my paternal grandparents are from slovenia and i have a pretty strong likelihood of getting citizenship there and from that point i can move anywhere in the EU

what is the right move bros? either way i dont want to live in this depressing ass fucking country anymore

>>77175840
Leaf here

I'm just waiting for the US to annex us so I can finally live in Utah. That's basically my plan for the future

>>77175856
The salt lake is really smelly but Mormons are cool as hell

>>77175856
I became a latter-day saint for a virgin tradwife, but now I'm just known amongst the YSA as the creep who joined the church for a virgin tradwife.

>>77175840
My younger sister moved to slovania from the US 6 years or so ago
She likes it but she is a shitlib and the country is a socialist shithole with no culture. At least it's cheap to live in

T. Visited her a few years ago and wasn't impressed

>>77175840
>>77175856
The leaf dream has always been escaping to America, even before Trudeau obliterated the country over ten years. All our rich, celebrities, athletes, all wind up moving to America. America is the Canadian dream, only poors and boomers have some romantic version of CBC's Canada in their brain where they nobly think they're better than America while we sit in the 11th year of marked decline.

>>77175840
>leave
dont want to burst your people but the rest of the world pretty much suffers from the same problems. mostly immigration and sky high costs of living especially when it comes to rent. I am from the eu (germany) and unironically cant tell if its better or worse here than it is in canada. from my limited knowledge about canada I would say its pretty much equally bad. you would pretty much have the same problems and top of being an immigrant (new problems).

>health
I’m doing so so. Effortless to just eat the right way, view food as fuel again. So that’s a plus. Easily OMAD and then just potato & ground beef or rice & tuna for dinner every night. Sometimes will have fruit and yogurt. Losing 2-3lbs a week. Exercise is just walks every morning and spamming whatever movements I feel like a few days a week.
A grocery manager I hate from my old job got moved to my local store and now I have to see him. I wrote an essay in the Monday improvement thread this morning but I no longer care as much, it’s just an annoyance knowing this fat bitch is always going to have some passive aggressive pussy shit to say under his breath in passing. He was like this from day 1 of that job. Genuinely hate seeing his face. Not like I’m going to drive further to avoid him though it’s just I guess irritating knowing I have to grin and bear it and if I respond to his bitchiness that makes me a bitch too. This is minor in the grand scheme of life though, like stubbing my toe this morning was a bigger deal tbqh.
>classes
I find it absurd how easily I can do math on my own. Outside of classes, just teaching myself calculus in preparation for classes and its easy. I don’t get it. I don’t even really struggle, I may hit a bump but then I figure it out and it’s easy enough and even fun. But in classes I feel so lost. I entirely think its just the setting and the person teaching though.
>other
Apartment is coming along. Having trouble finding a good entryway table that’s the right dimensions. May just go for a basic one the right size and color and call it a day. Would like to be able to put a small fish tank on it but may go without. Also considering getting a cat, landlord said no dogs. Got 3 girls interested, really just not in the mood the idea of any of them becoming a thing just overwhelms me right now. I kind of just want to keep my head down and focus on my shit get my degree get my body and health and worry about bitches later

>>77175807
I think I'm at the point where I get a mire (an actual one, not "she looked at me for 2 seconds!") and instead of making me feel confident like it did in the past it now bounces off me. I know I should feel good but I don't because it doesn't really make my life better in any actual way.

>>77175807
Whisky neat and an ice water on the side.
My work week's been overall pretty shit. Nothing new in the wagecage and lifts haven't been progressing as well as I've hoped. I used to train every day but got lazy lately, need to get back into the old rhythm.

On the positive side, I plan to go to a party this evening (official event at a place, not a house party). Hopefully it goes well.

Not gonna lie I lowkey hope this girl rejects me.

>>77176203
sounds like city problems

It really feels like every single day I'm finding out new reasons to hate women. I really don't want to but they just keep making me.

>>77175807
Based track OP. Bill Evans is GOAT

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Hung out with a female for a second time, didn't ever see a good time to make a move so I didn't. Now I'm kinda worried I fumbled it. I'll probably just give up on it for another decade again.

>>77176225
This will continue the more you interact with them.

>>77175807
who was in the wrong?
>gf, autisticly shy, monotone, emotes in terror whenever a stranger approaches her
>boomer neighbor, overly extroverted and always saying hi and trying to make small talk
>gf and me say hi back but not in a vocal fry or overly cheerful extroverted way
>gf sees neighbor more than me
>i had one engagement in the elevator and made small talk which i thought was polite enough
>neighbor approaches gf one day and confronts her
>says gf and i are both rude, unfriendly, impolite, and nieghbor accuses us of hating her
>literally wtf
>we just go about our day and say hi back whenever she forces interaction
>we both try to minimize our social engagement with neighbor whenever we bump into her because why be friendly if you're going to move soon?
how do we deal with his situation? i feel like i can't step outside of my apartment now because she might blow up on one of us again.

>>77175883
>>77175840
my brother's fiancee moved from germany and escaped to canada. she stated there were way too many muslims getting free handouts in germany. grass is always greener.

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>>77175807
Filtered rocket fuel, add a splash of suicide juice too.

>be at a tech conference for entire week
>do between 20k and 25k steps every day
>don't count calories, but skip meals and overall eat less than the skinny colleagues you're with
>get protein whenever you can
>come home
>hop on scale
>117kg from 115kg
WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
It feels like I am in a twilight zone episode. What is my basal metabolic rate then, 1000kcal? I am 183cm 115kg and I only seem to lose weight when I eat fuck all in a day, like shit in 600-1200 kcal range. I do strength training, I have some muscle (visible), this shit should be impossible.

It really makes me feel hopeless. Like I am trapped in a unsolvable situation. It took me a bigger part of last year to get to 104kg, got really depressed started binge eating while smoking weed and now I am back to 115kg, 117kg even.

I've been a fat khv all my life, and it feels crippling nowadays. Mentally I can't get around women when looking like this. Its an unscalable mental barrier for me. Despite this, at 33, I am so lonely its breaking my brain, every living moment is suffering. One could say that self improvement should not be centred around chasing women, and that its my own ruminations that got me on this track, but the satiated will never understand the hungry. To me, Its a boon even, years back I was so mentally ill and self hating I couldn't even comprehend being in a relationship with someone and any women that liked me I was hostile to, I deemed them crazy, Man I wish I was joking right now.

It took years of introspection to get to the point that the idea of accepting oneself becomes comprehensible, but now when my plans don't progress and I failed again, I feel like a trapped animal. Its the same kind of dread you feel being uneducated and stuck in a hard labour factory job, its overwhelming. Walls are closing in, the water is pouring and there is no way out. All you can do, is hope, swim, but I am tired bros.

>>77176332
Just tell her youre shut in autists and that you are trying to be polite, but are generally shy reserved people

>>77176332
I would just keep things the same and if she blows up again simply pretend she doesn’t exist, walk away continue where you were going. Then later, without the GF, go knock on her door and explain you are both autistic and don’t get social interaction like “normal” people but mean no offense and despite that you’re doing the best you can purely because you wanted to try to be friendly, if she doesn’t spaz then ask that she apologizes to your gf next time she sees her.


Unfortunately this probably won’t work. People are retarded. This lady will see it as a challenge I can just tell what type she is. Probably a pill popping former house wife who cannot take any perceived critique. I had a friend with a mom like that. Bitch was nuts. Her oldest son got his younger brothers into some shit like skipping school smoking weed and the dumb cunt blamed me instead of admitting she fucked up with the older one despite me just being a quiet autist. Just smile nod and keep going and if she blows up keep going like you never even saw her, maybe film it.

>>77176332
next time you see her tell her "I dont know who you are, please leave us alone or I am forced to call the authorities." act like she is the insane one (which she is)

>>77175807
I think I’m losing my mind. Really impulsive last half a year. Idk if I’ve been kicked too much had too much shit thrown on me or what. I keep getting into this cycle of extreme highs, where I swear I’m the luckiest man alive. Everything seems to go well. Small shit just works out for me, like I was at the gas pump and said I’m gonna release it and get $27.77 and first fucking try without even slowing down I got it. Traffic shit works for me, like caught an abnormally long light said fuck it took a chance and took a random turn ended up finding a short cut I didn’t know existed and passed the light before it changed. Stuff like that constantly happens. And people seem to love me.
Then I’ll hit massive lows and feel like shit and things seem to go bad, people seem to all hate me for existing.
And in either case I’m super impulsive and ready to totally blow up on anyone being a dickhead. This isn’t me bros. Idk what’s going on.
I don’t want to go to a “professional” because they’ll just have me admitted or pumped full of some mind numbing pill that fucks with hormones and makes things worse.
Idk if I’m manic depressive or if this is all just normal highs and lows of life where when I’m feeling good I’m more daring and able to enjoy small wins and when I’m feeling crappy I just feel horrible. Idk. I miss where I was at age 19, such a simpler time.

>>77176456
For fucks sake I reported an influencer to my local fish and game last week who was posting videos of him littering s ton of trash off his balcony right next to a protected area where I live because I recognized a single tree in the background. What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Who the fuck recognizes a tree? I literally pulled up satellite view maps and confirmed his exact location based on that before sending the report. Who the fuck does that? Just no hesitation I reported this fucker. Not saying I was wrong to do that, fuck I’m for littering. But in the past I at most would have thought “wow what an asshole” and kept scrolling and forgotten about it. I feel fucking unhinged.

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Hi frens. I’m getting back into lifting seriously for the first time in over a year due to life. But it’s insanely discouraging how weak I’ve become. I can still bench 2pl8 for at least 5 reps, but once upon a time I benched 2.5pl8 for a rep. Do you have any advice on what mentality to adopt?

>>77176476
the one you had before

>>77176471
The worst thing about your post was worshipping a celebrity

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>>77175807
Got diagnosed with avpd this week. Im fucked, arent I?

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>>77176496
I’m weak but I need to get stronger. My past doesn’t matter. All that matters is improving every week

>>77176507
>avpd
had to google that crap. how can you be diagnosed with something that every human being has?

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I need a whisky on the rocks

getting one step closer to everyday

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I cannot fucking stand going to the gym. Even trying to follow a routine, I make fuck all progress. "The average person should be able to achieve 1/2/3/4", MY ASS. I've made fuck all progress on the big 3 in months. It takes 20 fucking minutes to drive to the gym, 20 minutes to get home. Fuck me, this stupid gay-ass fucking hobby. Stuffing my face with over 3k calories when I don't want to each, at all.

I read casual posts here about how people fall out of it for a month or two, and then have to spend two or three months again to achieve what they lost. Are you out of your fucking mind? In 90 days I can and have done Couch-to-10k, and still lose that without just sitting on my ass. I could do it again in the same time period, but Christ, what's the fucking point?

Maybe I'm just older and bitter, but I just straight fucking hate this. All of it. All the nuance to it. All the faggy little things you have to do. All of it.

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Been around any wagies/normies lately?
They are 100% DONE.

Completely and totally blackpilled, they make /pol/tards look like hyper motivated Supermen. The average wagecuck is a zombified corpse shuffling through life and just waiting to die, it's wild. The funniest part is what miniscule amount of energy they have left is used exclusively to hyper aggressively cope with other normalfags.

They all go through this weird dance where they "flex" on each other and put up a fabricated front that they are "doing well" while they all circle the toilet drain together. It makes it impossible to feel sorry for them as they continue to rack up debt and live miserable atomized lives.

Game over goyim

>>77176651
the most annoying thing about this hobby is the commute especially long term. I dont think I would to lifting without a ghetto home gym. also yes you can lose a lot of gains in a very short time frame especially once you achieved some solid advanced numbers. the human body is not made to sustain additional weight/muscles he doesnt need.

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>>77176644
>Another week has passed, take a seat and relax, what would you like to drink?

Next I want a vodka martini

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I'm 33 and a KHV and i just want to meet a woman who wants to love me. All the other guys in work or people i know just effortlessly go in and out of relationships, meeting people all the time like it's nothing and dating. What is wrong with me? Am i broken? Why can't i find ONE woman who is interested in me.

>>77176657
>>77176203

>>77176794
I don't care, i just want a woman who is interested in me. I'm so fucking lonely.

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>>77175807
Water for me barkeep
>Layed off last year
>Ran through unemployment
>Kinda in a fucked position because my job sector is shut the fuck down and keeps shitting out layoffs in the tens of thousand every month
Not sure where I'm at but I've been able to read and get back into my hobbies and think about my life in the past few months. Got serious about being an artist for my own sake and reading again so I have that going for me. Been fighting to date through the modern dating market too but it is hell so I'm thinking about dropping my standards and plowing mids off of tinder and get more experience with/around women.
Fighting to get consulting gigs and thankfully a few trickle through but my ass is 30 and unmarried and I don't know if I'll ever own a home.

Oh, also
>Hit goal weight finally
I could lose a bit more but going into slight surplus and wanting to hit 220lbs for reps on the pullover machine by June.

>>77176817
The attention feels so good but when they lose interest or play games you'll feel worse than you feel now

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>>77176750
how about a manhattan now

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>>77176857
i wanna a shot of tequila

>>77176030
>But in classes I feel so lost. I entirely think its just the setting and the person teaching though.
when I first started uni they put a lot of emphasis on note taking. Covid saved as watching videos or reading lectures notes is 10x more effective for me, so I almost never went to lectures. Lectures notes don't work it's 5 slides with 3 keywords on each

All of a sudden I can't get comfortable in bed when going to sleep. I'm a side sleeper and it always feels like the side of my neck that isn't in contact with the bed is being slightly stretched. I can't just melt into the bed and fully relax. Been getting like 6 hours of sleep and even that is dogshit waking up 2-3 times tossing and turning. It's been going on a week and I have no idea how to fix it. I've tried different pillows and nothing. It's starting to affect my general quality of life and my gym performance. Really miserable atm.

Was doing really well with weight loss but had a massive, massive hedonistic week of high carbs, high calories, alcohol and no exercise
Just gotta get back to normal but the unending tedious grind is getting to me

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I'm down to 171 from 180 at the beginning of this year. The thing is, I haven't been trying to lose weight. I guess maybe cutting out booze entirely might have helped but I never really drank that much to begin with

>>77176353
Track weight changes over multi week periods rather than laser focusing on one week. Odds are you burned a bit of fat and your body is making up for it with water weight, but you probably also didn't burn as much as you think you did if all you did was walk more.

>>77176651
What's your routine? Height/weight?
If you're adding reps to your sets at the same weight from session to session, or adding weight and doing the same amount of reps, then you're making progress, even if it's not as visible as you'd like. Stick to what you've been doing rather than quitting or program hopping and it will show.
>what's the point
Do you like your physique or physical abilities as they are? No? Then you know what the point is already. Do you want to be decrepit and immobile in your old age? No? Then you know why you're doing this. Don't let your feelings over a short time period cheat you out of long term benefits.

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Give me enough whiskey to either numb me happy or finally give me the balls to swallow a hollow point.

i don't know how to fix self loathing. ever since I was a kid i've taken myself way too seriously and have this personality schism because of it. I carried so much anxiety growing up because i was afraid of being seen as a bad kid, and I've just been numbing it when i got old enough to cope. I've been living a fucking lie for over 2 decades. I still remember freezing with fear hearing the landline ring because i thought it was someone calling to tell on me for being slightly rude. I burned recordings of me being a goofy kid with a camcorder because they went against my narrative of being the good kid. I never used social media and forced people who took pictures of me to delete them as i did not want the boy-scout narrative out of my direct control. I'm a fucking narcissist who thinks he's a good, selfless person.

I'm getting old and I can't handle it. Everyone I love is slowly dying.

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>>77177041
It doesn't really matter if I'm doing sets of reps to exhaustion, does it? And frankly, I'm not suddenly going to start doing different lifts or routines when I just fucking hate all of this. I've been at this for over a year, and I haven't made enough progress to care, let alone do maintenance. The effort isn't anywhere near worthwhile. I'm literally so mad in the gym that I almost cannot contain it, and I'm sure I'm visibly pissed. If the new gym opening up isn't 24/7 and with new machines, I'm probably done doing any of this.

I in like 86 days training running went from never running a mile, running barely a quarter mile, to running for over 3 miles or for an hour straight without stopping. Lifting weights doesn't have fucking anything comparable to that. I was told at the gym that in three months I should be able to go from 135 on the bar, benching, to 185, and I'm still only benching 1-plate. I don't give a fuck about all these faggot fucking exercises. I wanna do a handful of lifts and make progress, and if I can't do that then this shit is mogged by running and is fucking pointless.

I am going to sporadically die in a ditch one day by cop. I won't be getting old. There is no end goal in this life. If I wasn't such a coward, I'd slit my fucking throat.

I appreciate the thought, but this shit is excruciatingly stupid. This hasn't been worth 400 days of my life. Life hasn't been worth my life.

>>77177129
>It doesn't really matter if I'm doing sets of reps to exhaustion, does it?
That's exactly what matters. If you're just grabbing random weights and going til failure every single day you're going to exhaust yourself while also making it very difficult to track or gauge progress. The specific exercises you do affect which muscles receive a stimulus and your rep/set scheme determines what that stimulus is.
Progress in lifting is not like progress in running. Whether you are physically changing can be measured in many ways, from your body fat percentage to the size of your muscles to your range of motion to the actual numbers of reps or poundages you lift. If you're looking at it like "im lifting so why dont i get stronger" you're not thinking about it with the granularity it requires.
I don't care how emotional this makes you. Your body doesn't care either. If you stimulate it the right way, it will respond.
Post your actual routine if you want genuine help. If you're just looking for someone to validate your decision to quit lifting because your expectations of progress and the reality have led to disappointment and frustration, then look elsewhere.

>>77177149
I don't need validation. The validation will be the money in my wallet from what I won't be spending on food or a membership. This is pointless, and for all intents and purposes, I am done. This shit is just vanity, and if you don't actually care what people think, it really doesn't serve any purpose at all.

>>77177155
But you yourself are frustrated by your lack of progress. You want to get stronger. Otherwise you wouldn't feel so strongly about this. And as I said, the point of lifting isn't external validation from others, but rather the lifelong health benefits it unlocks - increased bone density, lower body fat, better mobility, greater resilience to injury, much higher chances of staying independent and pain-free into middle and old age.
To put it another way: you're looking at the time you have spent in the gym as if it's a payment for a product that was not delivered. This mindset is what causes your frustration, and it also robs you of the satisfaction you may feel at incremental progress. This is doubly true because it seems your programming does not have a great built-in method for gauging or tracking progress other than "can I lift 2pl8 right now" or "do I look good in pictures."
If you are going to make drastic changes to your routine or programming, try this instead of quitting: switch to a double progression scheme. For each exercise, pick a weight you can do about 6 reps of, then do 3 sets. Next time you do that exercise, aim to add reps to each set until you can do 3x10. Then, add weight and go back down to 6. This scheme lets you continue to make steady progress for a very long time before plateauing, while also letting you track exactly where you are at strength wise, as you will know exactly which rep/weight combo you did last when you walk into the gym.

>30 years old
>KHV
>Chance to have sex with a 49 year old woman
Do i do it?

>>77177529
If you want to

>>77177529
Only if you marry her first.

>>77175807
How the hell do I begin tackling this list of shit I’m overdue on?
>dermatologist appointment
>eye doctor
>see about getting surgery for lazy eye
>find and go to general doctor
>see about getting medicated for ADHD, see if non stimulant options I don’t have to take daily exist
>quit caffeine and nicotine
>paint apartment
>replace couch
>sell old gym equipment from parents house, get adjustable dumbbells and weighted vest
>get first gun and CC (probably Glock x43)
>learn to drive motorcycle get license and first bike
>get tattoo removed
>go back to school once adhd is sorted out
>learn to code
>get into woodworking
It just keeps going on but those are the brunt of what I want to get done

>>77175807
Ill have a beer. Most things in my life are perfect. Stable job, healthy (except manlet and a tooth im gonna have removed) with many friends and family that love me. The only thing i am unable to get is a girlfriend/intimacy. A crippling porn addiction has tanked all my love interests since age 15. Almost kisless and virgin at age 28. All attempts I make i get shut down. Im not ugly i just have a mental block. Im thinking of going to a psychologist. I feel very alone. Sorry for the rant

>>77177604
Make an appointment and then have your appointment repeat in your phone calender yearly so you can see it coming up a month in advance.

Everything else is the old saying
>how do you eat an elephant
>one bite at a time
You will always have shit on your plate and it will never end but id you keep up with it one bite at a time you will rarely get overwhelmed.

>>77177604
Find a general doctor, get meds so your goofy ass can concentrate on doing things, and then do the rest

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>>77177604

Just start doing them, man.

I have issues with executive function as well; here's what I do.

Get a little pocket agenda/notebook and carry it with you at all times. Make lists of what you need to do each day and check them off as you accomplish them. Don't overload yourself; tomorrow's checklist shouldn't have 19 items, it should have your daily routine and one or two of the items on your list.
For the bigger goals, break them down into smaller steps; stuff like "make appointment" is easy, just call, but "paint ypur apartment is too big of a chunk at once. You are going to 1) pick a paint colour 2) buy paint 3) prepare space 4) paint.

I get pic related in pocket size.

>>77177669
Bro I have 4 different journals. I’ve gone through so many. I’ve tried having multiples of the same one, I’ve tried having different for different things. Look up Dominic Harts productivity journal that was the last thing I tried. I FORGET to use my journal. My last attempt I had a big one and a pocket one that was identical so I literally had it on me at all times.


Writing shit down used to be the only way I could function now even that fails me. I’m failing me and idk how or why. I used to just do the stuff I wanted or had to do. I would write it down, do some research take notes if needed and then do the thing. I couldn’t be stopped. And I wasn’t even always like that I was like this before that I just decided one day I would be productive and it wasn’t even small steps like I try for now it was 0-100 day 1. Which also doesn’t work.
>dopamine
This is why quitting nicotine and caffeine are on there. What I want to do is delete all social media build a buy a wifi only device dedicated to like 2 potential business social media pages and then get a Nokia brick phone so I can only call and text when out of my house. I swear I’ve fried my brain on cheap dopamine. Even 10 years ago with unmedicated adhd I could sit down and focus in my unorthodox ways

Getting older is a curse

>>77175807
Is this depression or just depressive?
>realize most people are inherently “shitty” and that their moral compass is guided by written rule/law rather than by righteousness or what they know to be right vs wrong
I really believe most people would kill if it were legal and they weren’t worried about the persons friends or family seeking revenge. Like even the random little old lady who greets you at Walmart. Maybe I’m wrong to say most people, but definitely far more people than we realize have morals only guided by an authority of some sort rather than an internal or innate feeling of good vs evil. Like I do think many are inherently “good” it’s just that I also think we underestimate just how many people are “not good”. But I also don’t think it’s an easy thing to judge? All the variables that would go into that. Like the same righteous man may be more open to fucking someone over if he was starving enough for example.

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>>77177715
>Writing shit down used to be the only way I could function now even that fails me.
>Nokia brick phone so I can only call and text when out of my house.
literally me

I want to return to 2008 when the internet was desktop only and smartphones were for nerds and looked like the HP iPAQ. I know it's copium because I was still addicted to forums and youtube in 2008 but at least I could walk out of the room.

I'm debating a cheap mp3 player to load up and fall asleep to until I can just raw dog my thoughts and leave my phone in my gym bag (I have to use an app to sign in). I gotta cut out constantly multitasking, or at the very least drown out thoughts with music instead of video essay slop.

>>77177861
Reducing internet time is the best thing you can do.

>>77177669
>legendary notebook
>legendary
>notebook
>legendary
lol, lmao even

>>77177861
I can remember a time when all I had to do while shitting was play pokemon yellow on a gameboy color. I can remember taking dumps without it, I remember when I first realized I could play while pooping the exact moment. That was never even an issue, the doom scrolling started around 2016 for me. Got way worse the next few years after. Been downhill since. Back pre smart phone I just had a flip phone or a blackberry and then an iPod touch. Social media was boring, normal, nothing I ever spent more than 10 minutes on. The only issue I had was video games and stuff like Skyrim or pokemon was so easy to get bored with and not touch for years if I wanted.
Yeah back when I decided to be productive I literally stopped playing video games altogether. Stopped going on this place, at most posted an instagram pic once a year. I was out and about either hanging out in nature or I was with friends.
Idk what to do. No friends these days. So much shit I wanna do but I’m stuck in this loop. Ain’t much to really do outside of work. Like when I’m home it’s enough time to unwind eat dinner maybe exercise and sleep. On my weekends I get bored being outside past a few hours. At home there’s not much to do, cleaning takes all of 30 minutes. I just wanna improve again and be my old self

>>77177861
2008 was all about mirc/forums and other online communities desu. shit even back in 2002 that stuff already started popping off. not much different than it is today. forums/mirc got replaced by discord and its soon going to be replaced by something else.

>>77175807
I think I’m a sociopath but not in a bad way. Like, I moved into this place and the HOA manager was constantly up my ass so whenever I saw him I would talk to him. I did this on purpose, if he just got home if I saw him with his family at a store just whenever I saw him I went up to tap his ear off with the intent of annoying him so he avoids me. It worked. Having a similar issue at work now, a manager is micromanaging me for no reason. Up to date on all my work I do everything perfectly he felt like he had to win when I proved him wrong on his claim that I didn’t finish shit from February so he’s making me show him proof of when I finish things. So now every time I finish stuff I go cram the paper work in his face when he’s on break. He’s already getting annoyed and I’m not going to stop. He’s tried this when I started this job and I interrupted a meeting he was in with his boss to do it and he changed his mind after that. This is literally what he asked for it’s only a matter of time until he says I can stop. And yeah you read that right he wrongfully accused me of not doing work and after I showed him he was wrong and he doubled down to make the guy who gets all his stuff done on time and does it right the first time do extra work and confirm everything’s done and correct. I hardly care if I am a sociopath but this does not seem like normal behavior to me, it’s harmless and effective but kind of strange my brain realized it was the best move

>>77177914
based anon, literally the best response to those degenerates, keep up the aggressive compliance

>>77177914
I am sure you will go places with that attitude. Who wouldn`t write a letter of recommendation for someone like that? Reality is your boss just wants to get his shit done and go home, you dont appear to be trustworthy or mentally stable so he forces you to show proof.

>>77177914
>I do everything right all the time and everything is everyone else's faulty
lmao

>>77177914
self professed sociopaths are cringe, psychopaths are based however

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>32
>Good job - £60k a year
>Own my own home
>In the best shape of my life
>Should be happy but
>No friends
>No social life
>No gf
>Just spend every weekend alone in my house
>Feel no direction or ambition in life
I need to find my purpose

I'll have one of everything, barman.
The norwood reaper's finally got me. But not from the front, from the back.
Hairline is good from the front and I look normal in selfies, but from the top... holy shit. Looks awful, bald spot at the crown has gotten quite large. I look like a defeated dad in his late-40s and I'm mid-20s.
One of these months I'll just take the L and shave it. A transplant is too much money and frauding with a wig for the rest of my life is not something I want.
I will now go do pullups, have a good rest of your afternoon bros.

>>77176353
kys loser

>>77176353
>I've been a fat khv all my life
Could have fooled me

>>77177952
I’m not even being outwardly aggressive or weird I’m just doing what was asked of me. The HOA guy kept approaching me first before I started leaning into it so that was the only difference there, this manager at work was dumb enough to not realize he takes his breaks around the time my shift ends so it’s working out that his break gets interrupted lmfao
>>77177963
I already have better letters of recommendations from “higher up” people in the company and from more skilled more respected people from past jobs where I excelled and was recognized as a top performer just by being myself, get fucked faggot
>>77177978
>I never occasionally have issues with an individual
Shut the computer down for a bit and go on a walk, socialize
>>77177999
Truth

>>77176353
My morning shit is heavier than 2kg, stop whining

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let's go with a shot of JD and an IPA chaser

>>77176651
Buy kettlebell

>>77176118
>I plan to go to a party this evening
sounds great, enjoy yourself

>>77176225
Don't go down that road man. This is not women specifically but people in general. But that doesn't mean that there are loving, intelligent people out there, you have to find them. That only happens with an open attitude

>>77177629
>I feel very alone.
But you have friends, try to be grateful for that :) Not all have that

>>77178009
Almost the same for me. I try online dating, although it may be hard or cringe at some points but I think it's a way to get out of this cycle.
>Should be happy
I can speak from experience it won't happen without a certain amount of people you love and they love you

Yesterday I was playing some wow and I met a girl there who was helping me with a quest and she added me on discord and we were vibing for 3 hours and she literally wouldn’t let me leave (some bpd vibes aswell), and she literally ghosted me the next day

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>>77175807
>broke up with ex in november
>drawn out breakup
>was fine for a few months
>rebounded with random sluts, felt nothing and stopped
>now alone and have been thinking about ex nonstop for a month
i really want to reach out but i want to maintain self respect too. she’s on my mind all day and it’s eating me alive.

>>77178263
>>77178263
Don’t do it man. Learn from my mistakes it’s never the same. It never will be the same. Even just a few months later that girl no longer exists. You’ll never have the same version of her you’ll never have the same relationship that bond is gone. It’s over when it’s over. I say this last thing as softly as I can but I mean it firmly, you made your choice and you must move forward with it. I didn’t, and I regret it.

>>77178274
Why not rip the band aid off and kill the false hope? I’ve proven to myself I can get another girl but when I was out with them I felt totally empty inside.
I’m not even sure if I want her back. I just want clarity more than anything.

>>77178274
>Learn from my mistakes it’s never the same. It never will be the same

It really depends, second time I got back with my ex in 2022, it was one, if not the best times of my life. He might have got stronger and being able to deal with her and that will result the girl making more effort, at least that’s what happened to me.

>>77178285
Because it’s a waste of time. There’s no bandaid to pull off. You will be far happier and more proud of yourself if you can maintain the self respect not to go digging in the trash. Life ain’t a Disney movie, it’s not going to magically workout the second go unless you’re willing to shrink and feel emasculated by going back. The gay part of your brain is trying to justify reasons to get back with her. Embrace the discomfort. Be alone. Yeah most bitches suck. Very few we get that weird spark with, but when it fades it’s gone. There will be other sparks sometimes even better ones but you ain’t gonna find them by dwelling on this other bitch. But do what you want who am I to judge having done it myself with your exact mindset.

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>>77177914
Mum's gonna freak.

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i need a macallan 12 neet

Ghost an old friend a year ago and sometimes feel like shit about it. I should've just told him hey its not working out and just gone from there but I know him, and I know he'd just gaslight the shit out of me. Anyways:
>had a huge problem with booze, blacking out 3-4 nights a week
>get sober, say its for my health
>friends fiancee calls it a gay little experiment (might have been a joke)
>i made a joke that at 100 days sober Ill drink again, friends are fucking excited to see me get shit faced again
>stay on the wagon
>friend starts bailing on me, 4th of july and halloween forgot him and his fiancee have plans
>randomly gaslit me things that didnt matter
>his finacee posts videos of me being a drunk dipshit in the group chat, shit I dont want to be reminded of after being sober a year at this point
>friend wants to play videos of me drunk at his wedding to his fiancee, I ask him not to and they both vehemently say no
>at that point I just slowly realize I need other friends
>got mad at me again when I wanted to go on a hike on my bday instead of watching him get drunk on his couch while we play video games

>>77178259
kek

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>>77177858
This is how humanity has always been. Humans are not intrinsically good unless there is something forcing them to be, such as religion or law, which is why it is important to have them in our society.

You might think that in the past everybody was an evil racist, but I think it is more along the lines that abusing blacks was socially acceptable. Now the tables have turned and it is socially acceptable to go after "racists" and assault or destroy their lives if they dare say the magic nigger word or some stupid shit. If you transported all these bleeding heart libtards a hundred years ago they would gladly partake in the lynch mobs without a second thought.

Other examples are nazis, especially in goyslop cinema, or pedophiles, where every internet tough guy will brag about how they would "totally put them in woodchippers bro".

Of course if you try to talk to a normie about this they would just say "are you defending nazis and pedophiles???? that means you are one!". Hopefully you guys aren't so retarded to see that's not what I'm doing.

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>>77177054
hello me. you will find that if your self worth relies on the perception of others, it will always be under threat of crumbling at a moment's notice. this will either turn you into a manic psycho who is constantly policing others' behavior in a vain attempt to prevent them from uncovering the real you, or a complete doormat who is constantly policing your own behavior to prevent the unforgivable sin of you making someone else slightly uncomfortable. the error lies in your reliance on perception.

the more you force a mask upon yourself, the more you will lose your true self, and thus, paradoxically, will make people more wary and less trusting of you. since everything you do is just an act to influence others' opinion of you, and not a genuine act of your own will, no matter how "close" you get to other people, it will never feel close enough because they aren't interacting with you you, they're interacting with the masked you. this will in turn feed into your shitty aforementioned defense mechanisms to prevent this illusion from shattering. but that's all it is. an illusion. you can never control what other people think of you, no matter how hard you try. so do you want to actually BE a good person, or only perceived as one? is this idea of being good person a compensatory mechanism for a fundamental lack or shame you feel within you that needs to be covered up or atoned for?

only thing i've found that really helps the self loathing is getting good/better at something. a skill, lifting more weight, running faster, trying something or going somewhere new. confidence comes from competence after all. if you have a core competency that you can always fall back on to derive your worth from, it doesn't matter if someone else dismantles your whole identity based on what they perceive of you, because their perception of you is not the real you.

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>>77175807
I kind of hate my friend sometimes. All he does is brag about how tall he is. Either that or that he has a girlfriend. He argues with people online, and if he doesn't like them he's like well I heightmog you. He also makes fun of me for being short (5'11) but I also do that sometimes so that parts on me. Man I sound like a woman...look I just get pissed off he thinks he's the shit when he didn't do anything...nah still sounds gay...man I need more motion in my life...

>>77175807
I realize now the creature I had in my nightmares was my father. Idunno we get along well now, but he was such an ass growing up. He'd do things like cuss me out or like there was a time he was like there are no rules grow your hair out stop going to school I don't care. Oh and he broke the wndow throwing a chili bowl out of it once. I got hit a fair amount, once I got slapped in front of my grandma for not eating over my plate, but that eventually stopped. At it's worst, I had to tell my parents every secret I ever had, because I had nightmares so often, and they figured I was getting molested lo. Anyway his plan to get this confession was to lock me outside in the backyard and tell me there were plenty of the nightmare creatures I dreamed about outside. I got bailed out by my mom like after an hour of crying, (I was like 8) and then lied that some kid at school told me about the creatures. This also backfired at me, as he went to the principal and then I had to point out which kid it was. Eventually they asked if I lied and I was like yeah and that was the end of that.
The creature by the way was this giant towering cloaked figure with a grandfather clock as a head. The dream would start with me begging my mom to save me, and her ignoring me, and then big bird would throw me in a closet and then I would wake up in my bed, and look at the entrance to the house and then the clock head figure would kill me when I looked at it. Idk my mind was on, but I had this dream like 4 times a week as a kid.
My dad is fine now, but he had a temper like no other, He said it was his job. My mom wasn't much better, he once told me that he thought about kiling himself, and she just said "that's unfortunate". They almost got divorced when I was 13 but it didn't really happen. He like found God or something and has been nice to for a good like 5 years so I kind of let it go. I

>>77178915
My parents did call me a disappointment when I was 16, and my dad was always ranting to my sister and I about how we are not special. I don't really think we are either, but I don' know, I have like no self esteem sometimes I feel like. Anyway I'm 23 and I graduated with a 3.8 college business gpa in the world's shittiest economy, so I study for my cfp all day now. I got the business degree because my parents told me it was good and nothing else really sounded appealing. When I was in highschool I wanted to join the marines so I could die what I thought would be a meaningful death, or become a fireman so I would either be a hero or sacfifice my life for someone. Dramatic 18 year old stuff or something. Anyway now I study for a cfp because my dad said it would be good. I think with college I heard the quote "If you don't have passion for something you'll never graduate" as some kind of challenge I wanted to prove wrong. I've never been in a relationship, I turned a girl down because I didn't think she could handle me. I don't know if any girl can, I'm probably just projecting my mother onto them however. While were at it, I once ran away from a prostitue after jacking off myself off at a massage parlor. I think it was like a oh you not cop test, cause she was touching muh balls at the end, and then invited me to the "bath" area but I ran away and cried in the car like a bitch. It felt so hollow and I hated how she told me I was beautiful. I wish she didn't lie. Anyway with that established, I sometimes think about how Freud says you look for your mom in other women. If that is the case, then I look for women who would be utterly disgusted by me and wouldn't give me a second chance for my actions. This weights heavy on my mind often. Thanks for reading my vlog

My Tenga Flip Zero White arrives tomorrow. Ready to fix my fapmaxxed cock!

Bummed she hasn't texted me back since yesterday 5pm. She said she had a fun date with me.

>>77179492
Sounds like you dodged a bullet

>>77175807
Riesling for me, Barkeep.
Reading the sticky again after like 10 years. Signing up for classes later in the fall to finish my degree. Girlfriend motivated me to make the effort, one thing at a time seems to be working for me. Little tasks make the big task small, or something like that. Change is good, I do want to move on from where im at in life.

Been thinking about death a lot more recently. Seeing all these people die in the news around the same age as my father, and feels like im already mourning him. Just trying to make the most out of these days with him.
>>77177127
I feel this. I looked at myself in the mirror and found myself counting the moles or beauty marks on my skin. Its not something i would have thoughtabout 10 years ago. I wonder how hard it is to get medical insurance in the US.

>>77179645
She just texted me back lol
Saved

>>77180152
All of this started because I asked if there was a way to keep my ground beef from going bad.

>>77180152
>lives rent free in wife's mommy's house
>cries to mommy when power goes out
>grown man doesn't know what to do
>disobeys 50 times before finally doing what was asked the first time
>too stupid to look outside so see if other buildings have power
>too much of a pussy to ask my neighbor in the same building if they have power
>brave the outdoors for the first time in months to go ask another grown man what to do
You
Are
A
Fucking
Nigger
Faggot

>>77175807
I'd like a tall glass of "perfect body exactly the way I always wanted" please

>>77180152
I entirely get what you mean about family going frantic over the smallest of things
>>77180183
Lol this illiterate pussyboy is malding because anons doing better for himself than he is

>>77180156
how do you?

>>77175807
I fucked a fat girl recently. It was gross. I hit bottom though which was nice. She’s probably like 5’2”.

>>77175807
I’m really fucking pissed off and at my wits end
>4 months ago move into apartment
It’s owned by MIL, sister and her husband have lived there for like 8 years they married and bought their first place so I was next in line to move in. I got a deal on rent. Since I’m family as written in the contracts I didn’t need to submit an application.
>yesterday hear all kinds of banging assume it’s neighbors all pissy at someone for making noise think nothing of it continue playing vidya because it’s my day off
>go to start cleaning bathroom is flooded and it goes all the way to kitchen
>panic call landlord (MIL) clean everything up disinfect my floors it immediately floods again
It’s coming from the sink.
>meet up with MIL (she has experience with this stuff) and we try to figure it out, talk to my friend who has plumbing experience we’re very sure it’s the main and not my unit
>shut off valve to sink, call it a night, pick her up early AM to go to Home Depot and get a new P trap and some other supplies
>meet with HOA manager/president
This is why I’m pissed. First thing he says is that my BIL hasn’t been paying the association fee. The set up is he will inherit this condo so I’m paying him rent he’s paying the association fee with my payment and handling everything for his mom. Either I stay in it and get a good deal for life or if I move he will rent it to someone else for passive income. He 100% has been paying the fee. He tried to make my MIL sweet old lady pay a second fee. We caught him in his BS and he took it back.

>>77180231
You don’t. That was the only thing about that situation I was worried about, $150 worth of food was going to have to be tossed out. Which ain’t the end of the world but it’s not good either. There was just no info readily available like how you can normally go on the power companies website and find outages. I’m all good now though

>>77180238
We tell him it’s the main. THEN he says all in the same breath he doesn’t know jackshit nothin about plumbing but we’re wrong it’s our fault, it’s just my unit, and my MIL is responsible for all repairs and costs. Then he claims a P trap is a major fix and he doesn’t want us changing it because we will break other shit. Then later on the phone he says he’s scheduling a plumber to fix it, that my MIL has to pay for it all, and that he will come in a week. A FUCKING WEEK WITH A FLOODING APARTMENT ANY TIME ANOTHER UNIT USES WATER. He also said any water damage to my unit or other units has to be paid for by my MIL.
The issue is with the main. It has nothing to do with my unit. This fuckhead piece of maggot shit prick tried to say the sink and my toilet are interconnected, not at the main he tried to say they have pipes running back and forth to each other. The fuck does he think, I take a piss then wash my hands with my own piss?
We were able to witness multiple times how we would hear another unit use water and then it would back up through my sink. I’ve had this happen in old houses, I had and ex plumber friend say 99% chance it’s the main and has nothing to do with anything I did, my father who has experienced this multiple times says it’s the main, I even had the few actually competent Home Depot employees say it’s probably the main.
Every time another unit flushes, showers, etc I get flooded and this faggot wants me to wait a week. I can’t get a plumber out to fix it because this fucking greedy coward has to give him access to the main, and that would prove it’s a building issue which means it has to come out of the association. Wtf is the point of an HOA if it’s not doing its job?

>>77180238
I lol’d hard at this. You can’t actually give that much of a shit over this

>>77180239
how long was it?
where i live (power outages are often) if its out for four hours, insurance writes me a $500 check no questions asked

>>77180242
BIL is pissed, I’m pissed, MIL is concerned (she’s a sweet old lady).
At one point this fuckface says I have to submit an application to continue living here because he decided in laws don’t count. He wants his $50 fee. But I’m also worried he’s just gonna use that to have me kicked out. I’m heated. I’ve been repairing the shit I know how to fix for the last 4 months, I make no noise I don’t bother anyone my rent is always paid on time meanwhile there’s multiple people smoking pot in their units, blasting music, someone broke the communal laundry and left it a fucking mess.
We changed the P trap anyways because fuck this corrupt shmuck and so far no issues, but I can tell there’s water in the P trap and I may wake up to a small flood again.


I’m worried and pissed off. I got the next week off paid from work and this is the bullshit I have to deal with. This evil cuckatron720 should have on the spot had a plumber come out, paid for it out of the association (you know because that’s his fucking job and that’s why an HOA exists) and had this fixed hours ago. He’s turning a small but extremely impactful issue into a much bigger deal, trying to fuck my MIL over, and making me be the one to suffer for it.

>>77178009
>list three positive things about yourself
>two are just related to money
>one is about fitness
>the rest of your negatives are what give you a completely meaningless life

>i should be happy i dont get it i mean i make money and have a home!!!!

Someone tell me this

Why should I not look at anyone who dies young or commits suicide in today's society as not being an extremely lucky person? It's completely obvious to anyone with half a brain cell that modern society is a god awful unfathomable shithole, everyone is miserable, and that the future is going to be almost as dystopian of a technocratic hellhole as has ever been predicted in fiction. The tech industry has completely ruined the world, it's going to ruin it even more in the future, jobs will be gone, money is fake, relationships will be gone, the leaders are pedophiles who are above the law, there is literally nothing at all to look at in the future and think that it's going to be better than how we are now, which is already horrific.

It's completely obvious that the next 20, 30, 40 years of life on this planet is going to be a steaming pile of absolute fucking shit. What reason is there for me to have hope for the future or to care?

>>77180658
>£
The writing was on the wall

I've decided to just bite the bullet and go on SNRIs. I'm not really all that suicidal, but there's been a pervasive general malaise the last few months, complete lack of motivation to do the little daily things that breed success.

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>>77180660
>>77180634

>>77180670
i should definitely be on antidepressants. the problem is that i should have gone on them 15, maybe even 20 years ago when i was in my mid teens. if i had done that, maybe my life could have been salvaged. as it is, im in my mid 30s and have not accomplished even the most basic accomplishments or experiences of life. ive missed out on everything. im more than a decade behind where i should be in life right now. i see constantly all the normal people who are on drugs and ask myself if these people ahve good normal lives and need drugs to cope, what chance do i have?

as things are now, i dont even see a point in trying to do something to improve. im so far gone. mid 30s and have never experienced sex or a relationship, never got a decent career, never moved from my parents house, very few social experiences and development in my life. maybe i go to therapy and/or get on medications and actually get somewhat happy and get motivated to want to change. but where does that leave the three and a half decades of waste?

>>77180679
I'm 31, so not much younger, in a similar boat, but all I can say is it leaves the 3.5 decades of waste in the past. All you can concern yourself with is the present and the future, which is a lot easier said than done. But yeah, they might help you set up better for the future.

>>77180689
>>77180679
Also, go to church.

32 manlet
A relationship is basically the only thing im missing in my life
I've got health, decent income good friends and family

But, this modern world is built to make relationships practically impossible

For example, even the most fit, "chads" don't even have them
Thye have girls who they fuck but they truly do not even have a relationship

When you see, oh my friend is short ugly dude and he bangs dimes
What they really mean is
My short friend gets lucky because he tries really hard
But he still doesn't have a relationship or anything that lasts more than a couple days

So, I have taken the path of nietzche suggests, although this world is unforgiving, and is set up for relationships to not exist, I will keep going

>>77180689
>>77180690
do you honestly think that youll be able to just forget wasting three decades of your life, and what are basically the most improtant formative years of your life? even if you can form a successful life now to look at the present and future, i know that i will literally never be able to forget going through my teens and 20s and early 30s with no memories, no accomplishments, no sexual experiences, no good career development, no experiences, nothing to look back fondly on.

>>77180748
Yes.

>>77180753
wiped his ass

>>77175807
>would you like to drink?
I'm an alcoholic you fucking asshole.

>>77180660
Life is what you make of it man. Yeah the best time to be alive in all of human existence was the boomers generation (Inb4 wars). The whole all you need is love generation where getting laid was easy, all the bitches we’re hot even the ugly ones, things were affordable, wages made sense, people were friendlier, you could easily enough find that virgin trad wife if you wanted to, the American dream was still alive etc.
Yeah it’s crappy that today it’s slave away never own anything and if you complain you’ll be attacked and called a bitch just for being right.
But it’s what you make of it. Okay fine, nothing matters. Why is that a bad thing? It’s true. Nothing matters. And that’s a good thing. That means you can go do whatever you want. You need to understand what this means though. I realized it and took it to mean I can just beat someone’s ass for being disrespectful. It doesn’t matter lol. I don’t give a fuck if I damn near maim a coworker for getting uppity with me in front of everyone and I’m seen as a loose cannon now, it doesn’t matter. It also means “I can’t buy a house… but it doesn’t matter I’m going to go on a walk in the woods with a gallon of shum pulp orange juice and piss all over the place so thats my woods today instead of worrying about this”
Retardmaxx dude. Stop thinking. Just do what you want to do.

All of you aimless unhappy fucks need to stop feeling sorry for yourselves. You created the situation you’re in. Do something about it.

/fit/ I have never been much of a writer. Can you help proofread my suicide note to my parents if it makes sense or is rambling or whatever. Thanks.

To my parents

I am sorry for being a failure.
I am sorry for being angry and miserable for my entire life.
I am sorry for hardly interacting with you two and with the rest of the family.
I am sorry for never having accomplished anything and for not giving you anything to be proud of as parents.
I know that if you would have known that my life would be your only experience as parents, you would have instead chosen to not have a child at all.

I am sorry for the potential pain this may cause, but this is the only way for me to remedy my complete failure of a life.

Please allow the release of the burden of my existence to help you enjoy the remaining years of your lives in peace.

I am sorry.
Goodbye.

>>77181031
Go to church.
Get an 18 year old gf.
Giving up is for pansies.

>>77180773
So order a water stupid

>>77181056
Oh look another “haha go to church to be a good Christian and btw get a barely legal girl to have premarital sex with there haha” fake born again Christian on 4chan

>>77181088
*tips fedora and scratches neckbeard

>>77181088
>to have premarital sex
Absolutely not.
I went for the babes, I stay for The Christ.

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>>77178070
>get 4 (you)s
>its all negative bullshit
what a harsh audience

>>77181031
Its pretty good anon. Perhaps make it a bit more personal and explain your reasons better? Go into detail more?
I mean its your last letter on earth, so why not put some effort into it, to make it perfect.
I know you must be extremely tired, and its going to be hard to do. But If you feel you're a failure that never accomplished anything, then at the end at least, you can make this one thing into something you did thoroughly.
doesn't matter if you're a writer. Its not about writing skill but about the effort.

>>77181088
You can get a barely legal girl to have premartial (actually martial would be fine too) sex with, if you become Christian?
WTF I LOVE JESUS CHRIST, HE'S MY SAVIOR NOW

>>77181095
>what a harsh audience
Yeah, reading the scribbles of a whiney bitch gets old.

>>77181098
That's the spirit. Just read your scriptures daily, go to church weekly, pray fervently, attend the temple when you can, get baptised, obey your baptismal covenants, and pay your tithing and you're set.

Honestly I think I'm too insecure to deal with women. I'm just constantly worried about fucking up and fumbling it, or her getting bored and just going to find somebody else. I'm so inexperienced it's completely emasculating. I know everybody says have an abundance mindset but how can you when you've never experienced abundance?

>>77176471
This is great. Report more influences, they suck

>>77181031
Have a glass of orange juice dude. Just trust me.

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Embracing the hermit lifestyle more and more everyday.

So i have been going to a new gym for the last 2 months and it was great, yesterday i renewed for 6 more months.

So i go for a pull day today (like an hour ago) and as i was finishing my workout i noticed my ex gf being on a bike doing cardio. She looked at me suprised and she came and talked to me and we talked for 5 mins. The reason i left her 2 years ago was because she was lying about shit constantly and kept contacts with her ex, i blocked her everywhere and for a year she was trying to reach my by email and even travelled from switzerland to visit me (5h flight).

After i talked to her i went and did some abs and she came there aswell and then i just left. Also a girl i like from there saw me talking to her and now she is gonna think im dating her or something.

What should i do? She will be here for a month

>>77181297
Keep ignoring her

>>77181306
Ok

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>>77177861
I thought originally phone addiction was the main problem. I go to work and come home and it’s easy to not be on my phone because I’m able to fuck off on the internet and procstinate all day to the point where I don’t want to look at or do anything because I’m just so completely drained. I have to make a change fast otherwise there will be nothing left of my soul

>>77175807
cyanide

>>77181031
I truly honestly dont think your parents view you as a complete failure like you view yourself. Just straight up tell them in person these things you have written and they will comfort you and tell you its not true. Then obviously proceed to live your life, not killing yourself. I dont think your parents would be happy at all, or relieved if you offed yourself, i think they would be in much greater pain.
Dont do it anon. Talk to me if you need to

>>77181091
It’s not a fedora neckbeard thing. It’s that 4chan is doing this contrarian “hehe no one is religious now so we are all going to act like born again Christians” schtick. But then of course the ulterior motive is actually just using it for their own personal benefit (getting an 18 year old girlfriend who they can have premarital sex with, which goes against the Christian doctrine they now want to be part of)

I'm pretty sure its over for me bros
https://youtu.be/M6o1SEj02t0

>>77181516
My version
https://youtu.be/-Jm3Tq_q4yU?si=wFOA7IasiLve4Ic8

>>77181031
Don’t do it. There is always a way out that doesn’t involve suicide. I understand how you feel cause I’ve been there thinking that I’ll never be able to get out of this hole I’m stuck in. But trust me, you can. You just need to tackle things one at a time. It may take some time but you’ll eventually get there. Make a list of things you wish you could change about your life and write down potential solutions for each item on your list. Then start by going for the easiest to do solutions. Please give this a try before you give up entirely. If you feel comfortable doing so, also tell your parents how you really feel and that you would really like help in getting your life back on track. Parents aren’t mind readers. While they may know that you’re struggling, they probs don’t understand why exactly you’re struggling and how they can help you overcome your issues. You need to be honest with them about why you’re stuck in this hole. If you won’t do this for yourself, at least do it for them.

>>77181588
>>77181031
Also to continue on, depending where you live. You may be able to get some mental health services for free as well as employment services that help people with finding jobs (if that’s an area you’re struggling in). I can try to help you find these services if you tell me the country you live in. But seriously, don’t go down this path until you’ve truly exhausted all options.

I WANT TO SEX A WOMAN IN WORK BUT I ALSO DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY JOB AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

>>77181031
https://www.biblegateway.com/
Read the entire Bible first, hell is a very real place

>>77181095
I had written a much more detailed one before but realized it was just long stupid rambling.

>>77181484
Believe me. If I detailed the current state of my life, you would have no reservations in calling me a loser and asking how it’s possible for someone to let themselves get to the point I’ve gotten to. Doing the whole “you’re not a loser!” routine will not work for me.

And a little over 6 months ago I did have a mental breakdown to my parents. My mother was somewhat upset and just repeated “you need to get help”, while my father didn’t really care that much.

>>77181588
>>77181596
At this point it doesn’t even matter if I manage to improve myself. Three and a half decades of doing basically nothing is never going to leave my mind. Never having a relationship or sex, hardly any friends, no experiences, no career, I’ve completely and utterly wasted my entire life. Every day my brain is completely crippled by the regret, shame, and insecurity I feel of how insanely far behind I am and how much happier and more successful everyone I ever see is than I am. I’m pretty much a subhuman

>>77181630
>And a little over 6 months ago I did have a mental breakdown to my parents. My mother was somewhat upset and just repeated “you need to get help”, while my father didn’t really care that much.
I see, so your parents aren’t going to be much help. I have a friend who lives with similar parents. When he moved in with his sister for a few months (with little contact with his parents), his mental health improved by a lot. Sometimes it’s also about your environment. You need to find a way to get out of there. That should be your new goal: finding a way to get out of there. You could try moving to a whole other city or country even if possible. I had a friend who did a year of teaching English in Central America. Look at your options. Alternatively, you could also look at volunteering somewhere near you. So instead of being home all the time in the presence of your parents, you have the opportunity to be away from them while also doing an activity that’s meant to help others in some way.

>>77181630
>Every day my brain is completely crippled by the regret, shame, and insecurity I feel of how insanely far behind I am and how much happier and more successful everyone I ever see is than I am. I’m pretty much a subhuman
I totally understand this feeling. But also what can you do? You can either keep wasting time feeling bad for yourself or move on and try to improve your life. It does suck when you realize that everyone your age is seemingly doing well for themselves. But you’re still young and still able bodied. Make it a goal to build a life for yourself by the time you turn 40. Also stop comparing yourself to others. I know that’s easier said than done but you gotta train yourself to stop doing that. Teach yourself to live for yourself and not for the approval of society or others. I’ve found that self love is actually super helpful. Once I’ve learned to love myself more, I’ve learned to care less about other people’s opinions of me. I live for myself, not for others. I may be a late bloomer compared to others my age but who cares? I’m happy with myself and like where my life is heading. No one pays more attention to you and your life than you do desu. Everyone is too worried about themselves to care about whether you’ve met life milestones at a normal pace compared to others lol.

>>77181652
I can barely even take care of myself. It’s not my parents fault that I am like this. Of curse I should have Ben out of here 10-15 years ago. But leaving won’t change my life at all, just like when I was in college living on my own for 4 years and still made no social development. I leave, I’ll just go to another place where I spend most of my free time sitting in my room.

>>77181669
It’s impossible to love myself when I despise myself so much for how much of a failure I am and how I could let myself get to this point. There’s not even anything I want from life. I hate living and I hate waking up every morning. The thought of suffering through this existence for 40-50 years fills me with complete dread.

I know my responses are just defeatist but defeat and failure are literally all my entire life has been. It’s literally all I think about from waking up until going to sleep. All I think about is how I’ve wasted my entire life. There’s no reason for anyone to want me as a friend, as a partner, as a worthwhile employee, nothing. My brain is complete slop, I have no skills, I’m angry and miserable all the time. There’s just no point anymore.

>>77181507
Who cares man

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>ex gf abandoned me while I went to see dying grandpa
>try to find new bitch
>feel absolutely nothing and incapable of loving anyone who isn't a blood relative or childhood friend
worst part is i still miss her despite what she did to me

I have absolutely no job prospects unless I decide to just take minimum wage doing security.
I thought I'd try building a start-up but that's a bust.
I tried getting qualifications to go into cybersecurity, but I don't have 5 years experience in general IT to get a job.
I've got hope that it'll all work out somehow, but I'm not really seeing the route.

>>77182073
Good luck.

>>77181095
>"track weight changes in a reasonable manner and accept that weight loss does not always mean fat loss"
>negative bullshit
k

>>77182073
I'll pray for you brother, we're all going to make it.

>>77181630
Being a loser isn't a reason to off yourself. I dont care how much of a loser you are, it's just not conforming on society's expectations on how you should live your life. Live your life how you want to. Be free. You got nothing to prove by being married etc. Do it if it's something that you want to do.
Do with your life what you've always wanted to do but "didn't have time for", or "didn't dare to do". You're not a subhuman just because you haven't had a girlfriend, that's extremely limited thinking.
Go after your interests, and do them for yourself and no one else. Fuck suicide.

So apparently Pure dating app is like grindr but for straight people, you just match for sex. Tried it, it's almost entirely 18-year-olds that look sus. Matched with one girl, we'll see how that goes.

>>77182787
Keep us posted

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pull up/dip tower that i wanted is on sale but im too weak to do any pull ups yet
should i just buy it and consider it an investment
>inb4 just use furniture
I unironically only have a bed and chair with one arm in my flat

>>77182844
Still don't know what to text... Fuck. I wish I had that jeet chutzpah where they just ask for bob and vagene or whatever.

I have no friends or social life but i want to sex a woman. Online dating is also aids. Do i unironically go out to clubs and bars alone and try to pull?

>day 30 nofap
>hot ex back in town
>saw her at the gym
>know she is still into me after 3 years
>she turned 30 this year
>horny as ever.

Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me the sinner

>>77183130
>Nofap
lmao

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>>77181630
Imagine lying there with her warm body so close, I can feel the gentle pressure of her weight as she hovers above me. Her smile is soft, playful, filled with tenderness as she holds the makeup brush near my face. I can scent her feminine fragrance and clean skin and clothing. Every stroke is light, delicate, but it’s her presence that melts the world around us. I close my eyes and feel the warmth radiating from her skin, the way her breath brushes my face in rhythm with her movements. It’s not just the makeup she’s painting on me, it’s the quiet intimacy, the love in every detail. When I open my eyes she’s still there, her smile brighter than anything she could ever put on my skin.

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Been looking for a job for the past couple of weeks. The job market is so cooked in my european shithole that nobody who is not from here can comprehend it. There are absolutely no entry level offers, and I need to grab anything, as I need to move out from my home asap. I feel like alien here, as I live with my mother whom is pretty much a stranger for me. She never cared about me or my future.
I'm 26 and last days of my youth are passing me by due to poor finances. There even aren't any prostitutes here, that's how cooked I am. Not even saying anything about meeting someone, as girls in 99,9% cases instantly relocate to big cities after finishing mandatory education.
Lately I sleep 4-5h per day due to constant stress related to being stuck here, being a poorfag (the eastern european kind) is a curse.
I don't know. My life really went to shit after covid and it's like all prospects disappeared. I don't have any hope for future and it's eating me from inside.

>>77183309
>being a poorfag (the eastern european kind) is a curse.
How much do you have in the bank?

As someone who wants kill himself I wish that I could do something to make a difference if my life is going to be wasted anyway. Like taking out certain people like Luigi did and becoming world famous and hailed as a hero

>>77183314
Equivalent of 400 usd atm. Minimum wage is ~975 usd. If I manage to find work here somehow I plan on saving 3 salaries and looking for different job in city with prospects in the meantime.

>>77180247
Good grief what insurance do you have??

>>77181597
Do it and don't get caught. Simple

>>77183116
Go to a bar or club alone. Find a place that has a square bar like Cheers rather than just a straight bar facing the wall. It invites interaction. You'll strike up a conversation with someone, almost guaranteed. Even if it's a dude, just be friendly and you'll have a good time. If you're really embarrassed to be alone say you're waiting to meet people who then don't show up (canceled on you, went to the wrong bar, whatever). But really busy go alone. I do that when I go out of town for work or vacation and I'm alone and I always end up having a good time.

>>77183353
>unironically telling a friendless probably virgin 4chan user to “bro just go to a bar alone you’ll totally meet people”
You cant be serious. Solo men are the worst to go to bars alone, let alone a 4chan autist one

>>77183324
Good luck bro i hope you find a job

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Is there any point in seeing if you can get diagnosed with some mental disorder? Pretty sure I have autismo or avoidant personality disorder, but going through all the rigamarole to get a label seems annoying. At the end of the day I'm still gonna be retarded

>>77181588
>understand how you feel cause I’ve been there
NTA, but how old are you

>>77183612
If you want the drugs they'll try giving you then yeah

>>77182073
Security can be lucrative. Take the security job. Stack bread for a few months. Then get the next level security license. Then get new job that requires that license. Then do it again. I think a G class can pay like $40/ hour iirc
This is your route. It sounds respectable to most people if you word it right. “I escort and work as security for high profile people” even if that’s not true that’s basically what you say. But more importantly than what other people think, you will have a mostly chill job making comfort money. That’s modest comfort. It’s not a bad deal. Your job depends on you staying fit and practicing shooting for fun. Start with the dogshit min wage security get the next license levels. Dont think about just min wage security being the end all be all. If you do that the idea is to move up.
T. Similar position.

>>77183612
try getting a job faggot

>>77183701
I'm in Aus, I've looked at pay scales and it seems to top out at about $40/hr too, which is not even a living wage.

>>77183741
>$40/hr
>not even a living wage
you kangaroos have such silly dollars.

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0 friends, obviously 0 women attracted to me (can't even blame them, they all have infinitely better options), 0 motivation, 0 things I truly enjoy doing (besides vidya ofc), impossible to get back in this fucked job market and don't even really want to return to slavery but money's slowly running out
shit just feels pointless; the grind is no longer enjoyable and the goals are clearly no longer attainable (they never were t b completely desu)

on the plus side I've been getting back into cardio, spending more time with my family and somewhat maintaining some of my "just improove bro just get a hobby bro" hobbies

>>77183737
I work 365 days a year and will have a paid off house by next year, fag

>>77183767
lmao

Two people complimented my weight loss today. Two people complimented my drip today.
They were all men, but it's still a victory of sorts.

>>77183612
You might learn how to manage your condition better (both with and without medicine).

>>77183767
Wow I wish I was an autist with avoidant personality disorder yet have no problem getting jobs, and that that allow me to pay off a house at a young age. You’re totally such an avoidant autist man.

I'm in my 30s and seeing my parents life in their late 60s-early 70s who "did everything right" is showing that I definitely need to kill myself. What I mean is that outwardly it seems like my parents have a life most people nowadays would want and seems to be hard or almost impossible to attain.

They got married. They had a child. Good educations and had good careers. Million dollar home and bought a second home in other state they rent and will move into. They also have retirement accounts, they go on a vacation every year, they were able to retire at a proper age but still work "consulting" when they want to. So everything looks good right?

Well besides the external things, their lives are pretty useless. They have never had any friends. They don't have hobbies. They still work quite a bit despite being retired because if they didn't they would literally do nothing. Pretty much all their free time, weekends, evenings, they are sitting at home in front of the TV, usually in separate rooms. My father who is really the one who busted his ass to be financially well off has been on heart meds for years and was hours away from dying of a massive heart attack last year. And the cherry on top is that the child they had, me, turned out to be a complete fucking loser, a child so pathetic that you would be embarrassed to even bring him up to people.

Pretty much, why I say their lives make me need to kill myself is that I couldn't even hope to attain most of the things they have achieved, and yet it still feels like their lives are pretty meaningless because they didn't form social connections or have a worthwhile child. What chance in hell do I have as someone over 30 with no friends, no relationships, no career, to actually develop a life worth living? My old ages of life will still be alone like theirs, just without all the other external factors.

>>77184055
Age is a curse

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>>77181031
Anon, suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.
If you feel they despise you for the way you act, would taking the coward's way out and turning 18 years of pain and work on their part into nothing only confirm what you suspect in that tiny negative portion of your mind?
If you truly have nothing left to lose, go enlist, go join the merchant marine, go live. You're shrouded in your own bullshit and negativity and trying something new- since there's nothing left to lose, is the only way.

>>77184784
>been a loser for three and a half decades, missing the most impotent years of my life with nothing to show for them
>bro it’s just a temporary problem don’t be silly

>>77184922
>anon gives a solution
>faggot whiner ignores it for more self loathing
Many such cases.

>>77181031
at least kill a bunch of homeless people or drug dealers before you sewerslide.

>>77181031
dubs and you're reincarnated as an indian woman

>>77181908
I hope you're still here, anon. I don't know that I can say anything that'll change your mind, but I just want you to know that I really want you to not kill yourself. I probably would have been you, if not for the smallest and tiniest blessings that ended up steering me in a different direction at certain times. I let myself drift from my friends and family, and was caught by a guy who I now consider my brother. We didn't know each other before we were both adults, and now I'm the godfather of his 2 year old son. My brother and his girlfriend have taught their son to call me uncle, and he's genuinely excited to see me every time. They made me promise that I would raise him and take care of him, if anything should ever happen to them. This is the greatest pride of my life. All of this is to say that things CAN change unexpectedly if you let them. Because this one dude popped into my life and made me care just a tiny bit about living, I got out of my slump to learn a trade (metalworking). Through this trade I got some connections, which landed me a job where I have great co-workers and good assignments. Things have slowly become all right for me, because some tiny part of me allowed them to. I never thought in a million years it would, but it did. And I think it could for you too. So please don't give up, anon.

I will never be loved by a woman, i am too autistic.

My life is a total wreck. From the last decade I've been out of neetdom during 8 months. They were supposed to rehire me but they didn't. I didn't get the only other job i had on view, learned it this week. I could go on and on about all the things I'm unhappy with. Yet I'm not depressed. It's strange. As if I could eventually be ok. Incredible.

>>77185147
Tell us more anon

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>>77175807
Had the most herculean shit of my life yesterday. Legitimately worried I might die, luckily a pharmacist gave me some suppository thing that helped, but it was still a nightmare.

>>77185207
Congrats on coming out, Anon.

>>77185176
Turns out sorting out the mess of my early life eventually did bear its fruits. I have all the reasons to be depressed (and have been for most of my life). Hell, I still am from times to times, but it doesn't last long anymore since recently. I've felt delusionally happy before, but in the meantime I would drink like a fish. Yesterday I had two beers and called it a night. Would have been unthinkable a few years back. There's a lot to be concerned about in my life. A lot to be dissatisfied with. Angry, even. There are also some nice things. I've come to believe that mindset is more important than actual life content. To be fair, I don't really feel great: I feel ok. Even meh is way better than awfully desperate. I wish I had plans other than making ends meet but it doesn't stop me to enjoy what's to enjoy. Which is easier to do when minor inconveniences don't throw you on weeks long ruminations.

Everything i do and say feels like a lie. I am so unhappy i can barely think straight and i have no time to do anything but depressively rot in bed or constantly fulfill my responsibilities and obligations.

I'm starting a new job in 2 weeks and terrified that I'm very under qualified for the position and I'm going to regret leaving my current job. But pay is nice and there's a gym in the basement. Basic, but it's free to use

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Videogame abstinence anon here. 9 months sober soon, can't wait to make it a year. I was thinking of relapsing today because I had nothing to do since I have a bad cramp on my trapezius.

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>>77185388
Why would you quit videogames?

>>77185407
Because they are shit and a waste of time

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>>77185441
Imagine hating videogames.
What a pitiful existence.

>>77185467
>imagine liking video games
It's just shit propaganda of extremely low quality for ludicrously high prices and has been for like 15 years. Every game that comes out is a husk of whatever came before it and only exists as a form of key jingling in front of underage b&s

>>77175840
Just wait for us to annex you.

>>77185475
I wouldn't know since I only play old games and pirate them, since I'm not retarded.

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>>77185505

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I wanna an hero, so gimme the good stuff, johnny blue and macallan 18, 2 fingers of each

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I need 2 shots of vodka and a beer, i miss her broskis

I desperately need a job to pay off next month's gym expenses, supplements and food. Feels bad man.

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>>77185571

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>>77175807
Company had a huge setback and several jobs, mine included, are in danger.
Oh well, at least I have a good curriculum if things really get sour.

>>77175864
Did you get the virgin wife tho?

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hit me up with 5 absolute vodka shots

>>77184055
Try and separate things you can change from things that you can't and hold yourself responsible for what you can and never hurt yourself over what you can't. Good luck anon and don't kill yourself

>>77185031
Yeah it's not a surprise to hear that having a good friend and now a child to live for has given you motivation to better yourself.

>>77184055
>a child
They fucked up.

>>77185654
what are you antinatlist or sometjing

>>77185655
Deliberately having an only child is fucked up. By all means, procreate. Not all should, though. But if you do, don't intentionally set up your kid to be an outcast weirdo.

>>77185664
I dunno, I've heard countless negative things about being an only child, but I don't want to attribute my complete failure in life to that. Is my utter failure basically due to my social retardation? Yeah, I can link pretty much every failure in my life to it. Have people said that "it makes so much sense" when i say I'm an only child? Yeah. But at some point, probably early 20s, it became my fault. Can't just blame everything on parents or childhood. Being in my mid 30s and trying to blame being a loser on not having a brother or sister is pathetic.

>>77185682
>But at some point, probably early 20s, it became my fault. Can't just blame everything on parents or childhood. Being in my mid 30s and trying to blame being a loser on not having a brother or sister is pathetic.
Oh yeah, you were screwed out the gate socially in your adolescence and development, as evident as the "that makes sense." But you have an honest introspective, unlike most /fit/izens, to realize that past 21, you can't blame mommy and daddy anymore. You are fully aware of this, which means you're not a complete loss cause.

>>77185692
no im definitely a lost cause. but the foundation of being a loser was built from the social isolation in my childhood and teens.

How do you cope with a meaningless office job? I do like 2-3 hours of work a day and then just sit there and have to look busy. It's hollowing me out slowly.

Can’t even get likes from landwhales on dating apps

There is a good chance I die alone

It’s so fucking over

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>>77185407
Because I'm 36 soon and I find it to be incredibly time wasting. The only entertainment I consume are stuff that can be done while lifting, cycling, doing yoga, or doing chores - so audiobooks and videos.

>>77185650
I was hoping the take-away would be that sometimes good things, things worth living for, CAN fall into your lap. Of course you'll have to work for it once they do, but man is it worth it.

>>77185740
Learn to cope and listen to podcasts while being idle

I feel like i'm just lost in life. I have no direction or ambitions at all. It has never been so over.....

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>>77185810
Nigger, you have about 30+ more years on this earth. You have time to waste.
Even if you're married and have kids, eventually you'll have time to yourself and you'll yearn for anything fun to pass the time.
Just sit back and enjoy a good movie or a good game with good food, without multitasking every damn minute, and you'll enjoy life again.

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>>77186019
I had fun for over a decade in my 20s and I feel like I wasted so much time. All the time spent on sexo and videogames are gone, like tears in rain. Sure some memories remain, but do I remember every single time I had sex or every single hour I spent playing? Would I be worse off if I spent 50% less time on those things? I feel like pleasure should be had, but only in minimal or essential amounts. Pleasure should not be the goal, but one of many means towards the goal.
At the end of the day, we're all gonna ACK one day, and it literally won't matter how we spent our lives. There's no highscore of total dopamine showing up when you die.
I'm not trying to live like a monk. I'm just trying to find pleasure in productive things. Maybe when I'll have a kid I will occasionally play games with him, that's one good use for videogames.

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>>77186120
>At the end of the day, we're all gonna ACK one day, and it literally won't matter how we spent our lives.
And that's why you should try to enjoy yourself first and foremost. Not in a hedonistic way, but if you're punishing yourself for being productive, instead of rewarding yourself for it, then you're setting yourself up for misery.

If being /fit/ and having children are you goals in order to achieve happiness, then reward yourself an hour of playing your favorite videogame after a productive day at the gym, or watch your favorite movie to comfort yourself after a long day of getting rejections from girls.
Then do it all over again the next day with an eased and relaxed mind from the simple, unproductive comforts in life.

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>>77186134
But I would feel the same way without the daily hour wasted on videogames. I don't feel like I'm maintaining some happiness reservoir from each hour I spent on videogames. Maybe if there was an occasion where I get to play with real life friends so it becomes memorable then yeah it might be worth it. But all alone in a single player slop? Or the multiplayer faggotry against nolife toxic idiots?
I must admit that I didn't completely fill the void left by the videogames with productive shit. If I used to spend 6 hours a day on average playing, I maybe filled only 2 to 4 hours with productive shit. The rest I just converted to more internet browsing (4chan and youtube) and stock trading (mostly research before stock trading). I am aiming for 100% productivity on those 6 hours, and again I do get entertainment during those hours by listening to audiobooks (which I find boring 90% of the time...)

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>>77186143
You could try older games like the Castlevania or Mega man series. Modern games tend to be over complicated and boring, meant to stretch slim content over countless hours. Old games tend to be simple, short and have a challenge that's satisfying to beat.
At least for me, just playing a half an hour before work greatly improves my mood. But if you don't enjoy even those, then yeah, I'd recommend finding another hobby you might be passionate about.
Not even something productive, just something that energizes you for when you have to be productive.

Besides, multitasking with audiobooks can potentially just make you less productive (You're less focused on the task at hand, and you're not even paying full attention to the book being read). Instead I'd recommend music when you're working out or doing chores, then instead of internet browsing, sit down, get a cup of coffee or tea, maybe add some low volume instrumental jazz, and read a physical book.

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The more nonchalant I am with life, the better it ends up working out for me. Yet, ironically I am a very chalant man.

I am getting bored. I thought life would be more "fun" once you start min/maxxing all the things you ever wanted but you end up with a boring life with nothing left to strive for. Not trying to sound like a bitch here because I know for a fact majority of people have it FAR worse than me but still...

>>77186143
>I don't feel like I'm maintaining some happiness reservoir from each hour I spent on videogames
Playing music in bands does it for me. Live, especially. Pretty sure team sports would do too but I have crippled legs and feet so I never played them.

Online dating is a curse on this world

>>77181630
>>77181669
>>77185650
>>77184922
Yo anon, you're still alive?

>>77186433
No, i'm dead.

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>>77183764
https://youtu.be/lqZehFAwoTM?t=32

It's over as soon as you turn 18 and leave the school system without a well established social circle. You go to work, but you won't make any friends, just coworkers. You join a sports club, same deal. It's over, because everyone already has their social circles locked in since childhood. You'll be nothing more than a coworker, destined to be alone for life. Social life and relationships are like trains you have to catch at the quay, a race against time that takes place during adolescence. And by extension, logically of course, no social life and no women.
But normies don't understand this because they are clueless normies who think you can walk into a bar full of strangers and magically form a social life like in The Sims. Only women can start from scratch and create a social life and get a boyfriend from scratch because of their status as women.

Whether you're 30 or not it doesn't change anything, maybe for the normies, but for you and me Chud, a year is like any other, the sands of time flowing towards nothingness, nothing more.. nothing less.

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>>77186143
>I don't feel like I'm maintaining some happiness reservoir from each hour I spent on videogames.
I think I do. Obviously some games (or activities) are better than others for this.
I have great memories of playing certain games with friends. I would give anything to have screen capture replays of my gaming days in the early 2010s like we do now on PC.
Other games like csgo or lol are comparatively light on "memory highlights" despite playing thousands of hours. But I still have nostalgia for those old times. I remember the routine I would have back then and they also help frame time. I remember when a hailstorm hit as I was cozily playing Metro on a summer afternoon. Or some cs games in a apartment by the beach on some crappy laptop my father had.

Sure, sometimes I wonder what would've happen if I had done programming, gamedev, videoediting instead of gaming when growing, I picked up all kinds of creative compute stuff but gave up quickly ended up gaming most of the time on the puter. But I wouldn't call it regret, I was a kid and had no notion of time or priorities or anything really.

Nowadays I barely game, because I've lost interest and spend to much time browsing the internet. I do watch music and movies, and these help me frame time too. There's albums that are barely 3 years old that take me back to the place I was. I remember my routine at the time, the palce I was staying in, etc.

The most precious thing as a kid is your innocence, and more specifically regarding time. I would live life in the moment without the awareness that everything I ever knew would one day be gone.
Now it feels like I can't escape this fact. My hope is to one day get as close as possible to that state of being. Maybe simple living in a cabin inna woods, once I'm old and have seen what I had to see.

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TGIF bros what are we doing this weekend?

daughter entered into an art competition last weekend and is getting an honorable mention today

Friends that I have not seen in a month want to grab a beer and bullshit about the new labels being passed in my state

>>77186520
>Wife
>Daughter
>Friends
REEEEEEEEEE GO AWAY NORMIE FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

ill just have water. my dad died on april 2nd. he lasted about 8 years being a high functioning crack head. working crazy hours in the oil fields plus crack on off days destroys the heart.
haven't talked to him in a year because he would always call me at random times, for like a minute high as fuck, talking super fast, telling me about his day and then saying he will come and visit before hanging up.
i guess you can remember the good or bad when someone dies. he was definitely a good guy for all his life until the crack addiction but god damn the last years left a sour taste in my mouth.
going to workout extra hard this month cause he was always /fit/ even into his 50's.

>>77186442
It doesn't rain like that anymore........

>>77186766
seek mental help

>>77178550
you did the right thing anon

>>77178688
thanks anon

>>77177054
>i don't know how to fix self loathing. ever since I was a kid i've taken myself way too seriously and have this personality schism because of it.
BRO this is literally me, whenever i'm around people in work they just banter and joke around and i'm just too uptight to join in. I wish i wasn't such a sperg.

>>77182849
You could try doing pushups off the chair.

>>77175807
Just water thanks.
>36 yo boomer
>marriage is going down the chute in slow time
>3 weeks sober
On the shit side, my marriage is pretty much dead, she has so much closely guarded insecurity that its causing issues with family and makes her just miserable to be around and am now coming around to accept that I just don't love her anymore.
On the upside, I'm once again sober, fitness is improving and my knee injury is almost healed after 2 months of physio and chiro. I'll be ready for a half marathon in a 6 weeks even if I don't get the time I trained for all fall/winter.
Have a happy easter anons.

Getting raped multiple times at 14 ruined my self esteem. Not talking about it made me deal with the guilt shame and hate on my own. School was a failure, I couldn’t be with my friends anymore. I didn’t get much support from my family. When my grades got bad my mom became so frustrated that she told me she wished I was dead. Using drugs was only thing that gave me some relief from my mind even it was just for a few hours. It’s been 10 years and I still feel so dirty. I would have bashed my 14 year old head for not being able to defend myself if I had the chance. Lifts are going well I started a month ago after I quit for years so let’s go !

My biggest goal in life is to have kids. But i am starting to think i might never find a wife. And i think at this point i am fine with it. I just gave up. But now i am wondering, why am i even working anymore? I earn decent money, but for what if i will never have a wife and kids anyway? And for what am i even lifting anymore?

>>77186834
>>77186834
>>77186834
Thanks man. Every time him and I would get into a fight it was just him gas lighting me so I just didnt want to bother. Wanting to play videos of your alcoholic friend drunk at your wedding is fucking insane. 2 and a half years sober btw

>>77187098
I am pretty much in the same situation (but gave up for different reasons). Financially all thats left is to save/invest enough to at least escape the eternal wage grind. Its not much but it gives one a finish line, something to strive for. What comes after that I dont know. We will find out when we are there.

>>77187098
be a passport bro
start a company
create an organizaton
you are like a female

>>77187127
Not him but Honestly I don’t even care about having money to escape wageslavery. I escape wageslavery and for what, to then spend my time alone as an old useless fuck doing jack shit? I know it’s crazy to say who cares about finances and not working because that’s everyone’s life goal but I don’t even give a shit. And also you hear about all the old people who retire and then die not long after because they completely lose purpose not working. That would be me anyway.

>>77187146
I mean I get you but with money you still the option to go back into the workforce if you really miss out on the social aspects. Its not uncommon, the money would just but your mind at ease. Having said that dont you have hobbies or interests outside your work? That sounds more like the cose issue here.

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>>77186766

Anything mixed with pineapple juice
My best friend ghosted me after I moved. I'm realizing how much I miss him

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I don't exercise consistently and have abandoned my boxing gym for months at a time over the years. Every time I come back, I'm fatter (currently ~200lbs at 5'9, cardio and strength atrophied). I know that I have a lot of other issues in my life and training again won't fix everything. And I'm ashamed of my weight gain and guilty because of inconsistent behavior. Everyone else has kept training and fighting, getting better, and my past goals in the sport have faded as I get older, almost 30. Is there a point in going back if my life is still a mess? Or am I just using it as an excuse to be miserable

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>>77187259
>Is there a point in going back if my life is still a mess? Or am I just using it as an excuse to be miserable
it's an excuse. you're already miserable. not going back is just going to leave you wallowing in the same rut you're in now, except a few months from now you'll even more miserable than you already are and have nothing to show for it. time will keep marching forward regardless of your decision.

that said, if there's a particular reason why you keep falling out of it (work? an addiction? relationship issues?), you'll have to address that problem too, and that should probably take priority.

>>77187272
>that said, if there's a particular reason why you keep falling out of it
Yes, lack of focus, of trust in the process and discipline. Also, the idea that I still need to establish a career outside of martial arts, but that's a lifelong thing. I just hate myself for getting fat and looking incompetent in front of everyone

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Water. Hard.
>Be me
>5'11
>Start classic telling I'm people I'm 5'7 /fit/ bit
>6'3 friend tells everyone I'm 5'8 now constantly as a joke
>Bragged to me that he gaslit his gf into believing I was 5'8 because she didn't believe him
I'm gonna tell him he can't be doing this shit around the huzz, it's on me for starting it, but this is screwing my hoenomical gains if she ever has a cute friend

>>77187513
TELLING PEOPLE. FUCK I MADE A TYPO

Went to have lunch with this chick and she paid for our meal.
What that mean?

>>77187588
That you're a bitch cuck

>>77182844
Well, finally managed to text a few matches. Invited three to coffee, all agreed and then unmatched when setting time.
Still good progress, I've never texted a match on any dating app before, feeling proud of myself.
It's mostly expats which is good as local eastern euro women are awful and not attractive at all. Lots of thicc latians on the app surprisingly, didn't know there were so many here.

I wish i could just be a normal person, i hate my sperg brain.

>>77187588
It means you'll never see her again

>>77187588
It means you're her bitch now

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Unironically how do you know when to ask a woman out? I'm 30 and a KHV and i'm always convinced no one is interested in me so i never make a move. Only to find out at a later date someone liked me in my friend group or a work colleague etc do i just stop being an autistic fuck who is terrified of them not being interested and ask them out regardless?

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>>77187649
>>77187835
>>77187839

>>77175807
I’m having sex problems if anyone can help.
>can’t find bed that’s high enough
This is both just general comfort for me, I like to be at a certain height when sleeping and I like the comfort of getting in and out of bed at that height. But doggy is a pain in the ass when I have to essentially hold a squat or lunge to be at the right level. Even missionary is better when at that level but not as big a deal. It’s mostly for doggy.
>thin walls
How the fuck do I have sex without bothering my neighbors? I like to fuck hard and loud. Some women like to be louder than me. I’ve made hoes cum so hard they were shrieking. This is a problem.

>>77188476
I'll take things that never happened for $300 Alex

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Everything I do in life is half-assed. My routine is completely half-assed too, I do 3 or 4 exercises a day at most and don't train legs.
Give me honest answers about my two day routine that I just keep repeating
day 1: chest and tricep day
bench
inclined bench
tricep extensions
day 2 back and biceps
pullups
dumbbell rows
curls
all until failure
Should I just stop working out altogether? Because this routine is complete ass and I need to add more exercises to it but I can't be bothered to. And as if that wasn't enough, I don't eat enough food for me to actually get big either, so there's almost no point to exercising at all. And I have a knee injury which makes it so that I can't do squats or deadlift. Seriously, I have to be retarded or something if I expect any kind of result from this routine, which I do and I get upset when I don't.

>>77188536
Doing something is always better than doing nothing my guy

>>77188536
nothing wrong other than missing out on legs and shoulders, add a legs+shoulder day and you have pretty much the generic ppl bro split everyone else is using. the routine is basic back works as long as you use progressive overload and enough volume. you are not a professional bodybuilder, you dont need to hit all muscles from different angles or whatever.

>>77188545
I'm actually surprised that you're saying it isn't terrible, I thought it was god awful. I might consider adding leg and shoulder to it. I was just under the impression that I was doing everything completely wrong and that I shouldn't even bother exercising the way that I do because it's not correct. I guess it's not too bad, then? I might add a shoulder and leg day together and see where it gets me. Thanks for the input, bro. It would suck ass having put so much time into working out with this routine if I was doing it horribly, I was kinda afraid of that being the case.

>>77188476
Idk I'm a 34 year old virgin

>>77188653
Heh 33 year old virgin here. How did it go so wrong bro?

Only good thing about this war is that my TFSA is mostly Enbridge, TC Energy and Southbow (from when it spun off). Being a 'Burtafag aint so bad huh

>>77188476
nigga get a higher bed frame wtf?
foam mattress are terrible for fucking anyway
move to a place where u dont share bedroom walls with neighbors
choke them hoes while they screamin

>>77188653
>>77188697
also 34 year old virgin. went wrong by being socially avoidant which has ruined every aspect of my life including sexually

>>77188743
Truth, i hate going out and doing social stuff. I'd rather just sit inside. But then of course i can never meet women. Fuck.

>>77175807
Do you guys remember when this thread was for good feels and the occasional sad faggot post was met with actual advice and motivation? Now it’s just actually bitching and moaning without even at least mentioning the good or it’s the same fat geek bitch posting in response. Oh well, im gregging my doucette

>>77188779
Post something good then

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Redownloading hinge. Sometimes I make a profile to get hearts and then delete it. I don't really heart any of these women. They are exaggerations of real women. I feel like an incel wrote the women on hinge. It's all rave be 6'7 blah blah blah.

>>77188779
I felt some titties yeterday, that was cool

Think I'm going to start doing some cardio, maybe some farmer carries also.
Had to carry my dad into the hospital (he wouldn't hear of us calling an ambulance) because fat people took all the ER parking so they wouldn't have to walk to the hospital front doors. He wasn't heavy but the notion that I was able to but what if it was further/harder would I be able to has been on my mind all week since.

>>77187856
precisely
you never know with these girls unless you ask them out
their answer is what will tell you everything

same thing with hand holding, kissing, sex, etc etc
you just have to go for it eventually