Tranners, I need to be typed. Medically transitioning for a year and a half at this point for reference.
>>42395608She absolutely does want to grow up first too. She's been starved, hurt, and confined her entire life and causes me to cry very easily now. The issue is, she can't grow up until I accomplish several things which I lack the energy and ambition for. I have to change that, somehow, but it feels harder every passing day. >I let her out at the wrong times around the wrong peopleI'm afraid there's no one I can let her out to irl, and it hurts.
>>42395699I’m sorry Nona for calling you autopedo I just feel ashamed for my stunted emotions and compartmentalization personalities that are drifting farther away from each other. Browsing this hellhole is not helping obviously.
>>42395893I forgive you. Most people wouldn't have apologized. >I just feel ashamed for my stunted emotions and compartmentalization personalities that are drifting farther away from each other.I think Internal Family Systems therapy would be very helpful for us trans girls who have suffered this level of fundamental deprivation. I hope I can afford it one day. >Browsing this hellhole is not helping obviously.This hellhole exists to make us worse. When I was less acutely depressed, I used to try to sustain her by watching shows like Ruby Gloom, Growing Up Creepie, Totally Spies, etc.
>>42396030I need to go back to therapy. We were working through this exact IFS stuff but I don’t think she liked me, I’m too emotionally fragile sometimesAnd I understand… I usually use music to make her feel better like Gregory and the Hawk or Oklou. But as far as shows, did you ever like Making Fiends(the web series, I never saw the TV version), Hamtaro, or Hilda? Ruby Gloom looks so good… I really want to watch that, exactly the kind of cartoon I would have loved at that age. Idk I feel like neocities or an artist-based mmo would be a better space for lots of folks, this place lures you in with its “honesty” but most of it is just edgy people trying to connect but trying not to feel too vulnerable except as controlled self-harm
>>42396873Gregory and the Hawk sounds really good. I haven't listened to music in forever. I haven't seen any of those shows, there are a lot of cartoons I would have loved to watch as a child that I never got to. I feel as if I would have been more fembrained if I did, but better now than never I guess. They're nourishing for her, even if it is just the equivalent of a few grains of rice. This place is beyond horrendous, but I'm getting better at avoiding it. I suggest r/4tran4 for people that get it. I'm going to bed, take care of yourself nona.
It's a boy, /tttt/!
>>42387318how do i get a gf with a body shape like picrel?
>>42390470you dont
>>42387318absolutely disgusting. hope you get shot by ICE fucking hog
>>42388105Nooo you can't hold me accountable for cutting my finger off and for doxing and harassing my friends for no reason it was my 15 yo alter named Malice who raped her not me :(
>>42396987>>42388105Lolcow farms type posts
I think LGBT only social events are bad because they discriminate against people that are in the closet and it makes normies think people identify as gay or trans just so they can get access to those spaces when in reality being trans is something that just kinda happens to you like it or not.Same thing with employers asking people what gender they identify as. Fuck off it's not your business lol.
Am I Q if I like trans women?
>>42396859Should had mention that I was a repper
>>42396943But if you are already at the LGBT function and openly admit to liking trans girls how are you closeted?
>>42396859>I shouldn't have to be visibly queer to attend pride and you're making me feel unsafe by forcing me to out myself to a stranger use their own language against them and you'll short circuit their brains. they'll end up apologizing to you and leave you be
>>42396970Because it's st8. I'm closted for having trans feelings and living as a man
I was banned for some reason when the pony thread was up. I will not have drawn it for no reason, here's my little poony. Mods don't ban me for valid reasons this time, I spoilered it
>>42392244what the fuck kek this board truly does not talk to anyone irl
>>42392234It's memetic, there's no way of knowing why the original pooner art person drew it that way. People make speculative claims about it, but the person was mentally unwell and they don't post anymore. Poons are pink for the the same reason feds glow in the dark
>>42392279>but the person was mentally unwell and they don't post anymoreWho were they?
>>42392976They were u/phalloplasties on reddit
>>42392244is true my tfab went from white to pink after upping his T dose
Hey, I'm the 1% of people who are fake trans and realised that I was just being retarded and skitzo from other conditions (Or maybe I'm just scared of my parents not liking me)I'm pretty far along, how do I de troon well?
>>42395073Why are you detrooning?
Depends how far didja get in?
>>42395073What specifically made you realize that you're faketrans?
>>42395073>i dont have gender dysphoria but actually maybe i do and i detrooned for other reasonsits not every time. but its every time
>>42395073The framing of this thread reeks of fake detransitioner who'll just retransition once the horrors of male biology set in again.
https://skribbl.io/?yZCa0bGz
chat with normalfags
>>42396483They all left :-( Room is kill
>>42396498players just moved to the next normal thing, like discord or whatever
Link is broken is it dead D:
>>42396786it’s dead
How come pooners feel like manly dudes while being 5’2 with breeding hips while 5'6 cis men with broad shoulders feel like sissy little girls?
>>423956345'6 is manlet height and 5'2 is like around average height for women.
>>42395634>15% of the male population is sissiesBold claim anon
>>42395895Like 40% of the male population is under 5'6
>>42395634I am not manly, I am a loser. I just don't care. If I liked women maybe I would care since it would get in the way of me having a partner and having sex, but I don't. Also I am 5'6 and my shoulder to hip ratio isn't bad.
>>42395634>Why do successful business owners feel more legitimate than mid nepo babies?
i know when my planet doesnt want me! i'm blowing my brains out first chance i get, as soon as im not needed anymore. being a tranny, being gay/asexual/straight/bi/i dont know nor have i ever known, being a faaaaaaaggotttttt i dont care anymore! i dont need to find "stable employment", i have enough income to save for a gun!
>>42392074That's a good start, do you talk to them about your issues? What is it that really makes your life miserable? Like OP the dogshit environment?
Crazy, I've never considered guns having a price, just never entered my mind before. How much is your average pistol?t. ukfag
>>42392196I talk to them about my problems sometimes. Not sure what's causing them, just feels inescapable like they're an unchanging part of me.>>42392226I wouldn't try using a pistol. I saw a list of success rates and even rifles were only 90% with shotguns at 99%. If you do use a pistol make sure to research where to aim (e.g. not at your prefrontal cortex), and get very accustomed to pulling the trigger so you don't flinch and throw off the trajectory.Also a pistol might be harder to get.Use hollow point or ballistic tip ammunition to ensure proper expansion and minimize risk of overpenetration.
>>42388972picrel is me
>>42393050What's your life like, Anon? Surely you can think of issues
I prosper as a tranny siscon qott: Do you love your sister?
>>42397530Blanchard is a repper. That's all you need to know. I don't personally hate Jews. I just think that if you're going to go around being all agro at least be coherent and not just start mixing shit up like it's Facebook or something. Though to be fair one of the 5HT-2B receptor functions is related to the feeling of significance. This is why everything feels super deep on weed and LSD. As the receptors are found most densely in the region of the brain associated with schizophrenia, it is theorised that this is why they tend to link a lot of things together that aren't even correlated, think gangstalking, or picrel.
>>42397680you might be mixing me up with someone else. also why do people bring up schizophrenia every time i post in ausnzgen
this thread fell off
>>42397710yes, it reached the bump limit and is falling off the catalogue. also went into weird jew shit.
girl from brisbane, brisbane girl save me
>tfw 31 and still havent trooned outhow cooked am i?
>>42396263You gonna wait until 40? Do it now or STFU
>>42396490it's not just old, it's abyssmal old and hopeless and kind of meaningless. what's the point of babushkamoding, females age terribly, unless you're agree to larp as a based old evil witch
>>42396518Nowadays as long as you don't smoke cigarettes, aren't an alcoholic, and don't spend time in sunlight you can look pretty good even in your 60s.Most boomers just took awful care of themselves.
>>42396373>Natalie Mars didn’t troon out until 31>Same with Contrapointshopefuel, i started at 30 and have thin frame, short height genetic luck, hoping that's enough to at least make up for being a stupid fucking repper and waiting 10+ years longer than i should have.>>42396263please for the love of god take your pills. you still have time, and in the worst case scenario you can just boy mode, there is literally no downside to trying
>>42396373Neither of them pass though, especially not Natalie Mars.
Where do you find a monogamous healthy t4t relationship? Are we doomed to Discord LDRs until we eventually u-haul together? Do we have to start out with one of poly or unhealthy until things improve and we mature? Any feedback appreciated.
>>42396285to be clear this is a funny statistical anomaly, not serious advice. my real answer is go to bars or ganing groups or wherever else troons go irl
>>42396297*gaming, obv
>>42396297Don't worry, I'm not that desperate.Yet.I do intend on trying to meet people IRL more, but finding someone monogamous, age appropriate, somewhat well-adjusted, and compatible with me feels like a borderline impossible task.
>>42396157I've been asking myself this same question recently. I think step 1 is probably finding irl trans friends who aren't polyamorous or basement dwellers desu, it's easier to make connections from there and it means you won't end up on some codependent bullshit. Beyond that idk. Luck? Going to local queer events or bars? Uni if you're able? I've had two gfs before, met the first one on a /tttt/ adjacent server and she was over a border from me but we made it work for a while (ended horribly) and the other I met on grindr, we eventually moved in together, then broke up a while later. I think both of those methods kinda suck and are awful but idk what else there is. Odds are looking bleak, I think for me personally the best bet is long distance best friend liminal situationship unfortunately
>>42396157idk ive been hoping for a relationship for a while. i thought it might be cute to do t4t but idk anymore. Everytime I try dating I get insulted in some way. I think the only way you can find a healthy relationship is to just be really cautious and get lucky. i havent been so lucky so im at the point of considering myself unlovable. I feel like I shouldve stayed in my abusive relationship because it at least meant I was loved.
girlfriend broke up with me, decided to go out to girl mode because that was one of her biggest problems with me is that I hardly did it. went out and the cashier went “sir-ma’am”
transbians
how old are all you people getting siri dont think i ever got called sir until after i was at least 30
>>42394958Are you sure the cashier said "sir"? they could've said "ser" and they just misheard.
>>42395508I might’ve just been in my head who knows but it sounded like they corrected the self
>>42395332I was getting called sir when I was 16 and I wasn't even particularly masculine
How am i evil?
Evil narcissistic trannies*The evil narcissistic faggots are over in gaygen
>>42394142i unironically am a narcissistic faggot
>>42394142ur not supposed to say the quiet parts out loud :P
I went on my first date as a woman today. She's not a chaser and has never been with a trans woman. Her parting words to me were "I hope you feel as beautiful as you look." I'm levitating bros.
:')
Yaaaay extremely happy for you Nona!!! :3
5+ years hrt and I'm tired of being ashamed of my sexuality and what is and isn't "fembrained"i don't believe in the blanchard dichotomy but for lack of a better word is it so bad to just embrace AGP or whatever
>>42395217the whole idea of transitioning revolves around "unboxing" oneself and becoming more authentici think femalebrained memes are tragic and not funny cuz they reflect both internal struggle and external social pressure
>>42394156What’s interesting are the trans who claim they never experienced gender dysphoria during sex while cis, but transitioned anyway and now experience it
>>42394156i kinda dislike AGPs who are so up their own ass believing themselves to be so called trutrans for always wanting to be the object of their sexual attraction, but honestly being just an unrepentant AGP gooner is socially and mentally much better. good on you, nona.
>>42394286they kind of do talk about this tho, they talk about perceiving themselves through their internalised male gaze at times and its kinda cringy.
>>42395405>>42395217based anons. I've always felt like a second hand cringe from a lot of transgirls who talk about sexual stuff a lot, but I feel like I've been through too much transitioning to just constantly be ashamed of myself.>>42396166its true but idfk enough about feminist theory or whatever to try and break that
