is it genuinely over for me? So much of my body has been messed up during my early life. Before I even had the chance to process it all and knew about DIY, T and DHT wrecked so many parts of my body. I feel like a cursed abomination with so many flaws and yet somehow my boyfriend still loves me and accepts exactly as I am rn. Don't get me wrong, he would like some things to change too (SRS mostly), but he always reassures me that my appearance, my voice etc. are all fine and normal and that he likes them, thinks they are cute or pretty etc. Yet I've heard different views about those things coming from people online and my own inner critic. It all messes with my head, I don’t know what to think anymore. Maybe I have to go through some kind of ego death to process all of this and be more kind to myself. I don’t know, yknow?
>>42327584It's just so ingrained and normal and the issue is that the negative views online and my inner critic align :/ but I will really try to change my outlook and try to get some inner peace
it's soooo obvious how I always get replies when I post pics of myself but when I don‘t the thread is dead :x
>>42327967The board is infested with chasers so no shit
>>42327999I guess so
>>42327351hiiii
Share your kinks, ask people about their kinks, ask people to explain the appeal behind kinks you don't understand, and generally be freaky
I have a wide array of kinks but the most prominent are >military uniforms and riot gear >sadomasochism>politics play Lately I've been on a huge Russia and Ukraine kick. I truly fucking hate the war but I do want to be beaten up and called a zigger while being roughly facefucked, or to do the equivalent to someone else. I also enjoy Nazi uniforms. Again, not a Nazi.>>42326935Speaking of medfet I used to volunteer to be an "examination model" for a med school class and having them prod and palpate my organs felt so nice...
>>42328242>The helplessness? The loss of control?Yeah basically. And I think the stumps are hot. And she would fall in love with me out of a Stockholm sort of dynamic.
>>42325908I like seeing people of similar or higher status than me piss themselves. I really like the shame and embarrassing aspect of it. Honestly anything that makes someone uncomfortable, i love seeing the expressions people make when disgust and lust overlap
>>42325940My mother made me massage her feet growing up, it was somehow the closest i had been to another girl until i reached highschool.
>>42325908Humiliating someone for not having a penis, not being able to penetrate me etc.Getting raped and being mocked by the rapist as he laugh at me being frustrated because I don't have a penis and will never get revenge by raping him back.>that one pooner gave me the idea of making fun of a tguy for being dickless as he desperately humps my leg with his head in my chestNot just tguys, any vagina-haver honestly. Even cis women.
Is fucking a pooner in the ass considered boyremoving or girlremoving?
>>42328651Who cares
>>42328679op caresnow tell him the answer or shut the fuck up
>your letter>grossest thing you doI'll go first:transbianI like to use bobby pins to scoop ear wax out of my ears. It causes my ears to over produce wax, similar to when you shampoo your scalp too often creating more sebum production. However for my ears it feels like I good thing because I love the sensation of cleaning them out. People turn into basedjaks and go nooooooo you'll poke your heckin ear out noooooo but it has never happened. I sometimes fantasize about collecting the wax and making a candle like shrek did but I think I'll have to wait until I'm an old lonely widow to do something so disgusting.
>>42328586That's genuinely incredible, and I'm going to get high and whack it to the thought, thanks. Just post about how you're over 30 in 3 minutes and I'll probably finish.
>>42328351>bi mtf>i pick my nose and eat the snot when i'm alone, i don't even like consciously do it really, it's a habit i'll probably always have. i've done it my whole life and i've never been able to stop.>also i pick and bite the skin off my fickers, often until i bleed. unfortunately, i unconsciously do this around other people. i think i eventually can get to a point where i stop doing it if i try really hard, i managed to stop biting my nails so i think i can manage to stop this too.>>42328518when i get sick it usually lasts a few hours tbdesu, i must have a great immune system from eating snot and biting my skin
>>42328630>also i pick and bite the skin off my fickers, often until i bleed. unfortunately, i unconsciously do this around other people.Kind of relatable. Since I was a little kid I've stimmed by picking at my toenails and I wittle away at them until it's just skin. An ex asked me to stop and so I used willpower to quit, when we broke up I fell back into it.
>>42328612sorry babes im only 27
>>42328351>bi mtf. agp for women, hsts for menI bite my fingernails and clip my toenails to the point of blood bc i feel dysphoric having them on my body. No idea why, but I end up leaving them around. I had to clean up a lot off my desk.
Anybody else see something conceptually wrong with cosmetic surgery despite having to go through with it? I 100% will get it at some point but I always thought that there was something innately wrong with it. The body isn't meant to be shaped biologically for cosmetic reasons and that's obvious when you look at bad plastic surgery and how it gets worse as you get older.
>>42328362>The body isn't meant to be shaped biologicallyi believe that most if not all human evolution is based on us doing something that we "weren't meant to do" if we really commit to the idea that there's any meaning in us existing at all. maybe we weren't meant to live in houses, eat processed food and change our environment, but i doubt there's any going back. personally, i think it's wonderful that we aren't doomed to live in the bodies we hate. yes, some people go too far and ruin themselves physically and mentally with surgeries, but they can also improve one's quality of life
>>42328502>personally, i think it's wonderful that we aren't doomed to live in the bodies we hate. yes, some people go too far and ruin themselves physically and mentally with surgeries, but they can also improve one's quality of lifeNot OP but I had a sarcastic thought about this. Maybe we only allow cosmetic alteration for trans people, burn victims, that sort of person who need it to have an ordinary life. But we ban it for normal looking people who just want to be more beautiful.
>>42328502Where are these imaginary people that have been saved by cosmetic surgery? It seems like most of them still hate themselves immensely.
>>42328533i've realized that i actually don't have statistics to back up my statistics so i decided to google and found an article about regret after gender affirming surgery. https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0002961024002381 and full on sci-hub https://sci-net.ru/10.1016/j.amjsurg.2024.04.021it seems that the regret rate for cosmetic surgery is indeed high, up to 47.1%, with the gender affirming surgery regret being significantly less common. 47.1 includes all regret from mild to moderate and strong.i agree that people often undergo surgeries because of their low self esteem and body dysmorphia, and in those cases surgeries won't fix anything, but the amount of people who at least don't regret having them is high too. i think no type of surgeries should be banned and the problem is mainly in the society and beauty standards
>>42328663to back up my claim*
what sexuality is it when you're a black guy with a big butt and you're only attracted to skinny Asian and Russian women who want to worship your ass
Hererosexual cisgender man
>>42327904oh
how big are your tits, tranny?
>>42327717how would this help at allthis is stupidyoure stupidshut up
>>42327773>how would this help at allyou seem to be genuinely confused as hell at what is even happening and what you are looking atbye
>>42327790good riddance, vaguefag "help" needs to die in 2026contribute to the convo or stfu <3
>>42321791I desperately need these tits in my life
>>42317957I've gotten milkers now but idk the size. I'm still wearing the same cheap Amazon bras I bought in my first year hrt. A cis fem friend who used to work as a bra fitter has offered to size me but I'm neurotic so I've declined.
If you want to hurt a chud talk to him about his relationship with his mother. It’s like asking you guys what is your relationship with your mother. Trust me it works
>>42327224Okay that makes sense. Do you can hate your mom and be a mamas boy
>>42327214FrfrHe yearns for a daddy but looks in the wrong kind of bedding
>>42327502Thank god I don’t have daddy issues. They seem rough. Most people with daddy issues are very odd desu. I just want to suck a tit while getting head pats
>>42327540Frfr I just wish to be dominated for other reasons instead
im a chudette and my mom loves me. my dad hates me tho
Any other trannies who can't function alone? Self-development, hobbies, self-care, all flies out the window without someone else
>>42328599but which sonic character is your favorite
>>42328565I just haven't found anyone. Im a transbian so its a lot harder to find the kind of person who likes this. Men like it more>>42328608I dont have a personality on my own. So getting to adopt my partners is amazing.. and it does help me want to pursue my own stuff i guess
>>42328315genuinely this is me
>>42328608I did this one single time and we dated for 3 years. After breaking up I had no idea who I was anymore and had to find myself. It was quite terrifying. Now when I am in a relationship I cherish and protect my individuality at all costs
>>42328626well i mean how do you know you're gonna be functioning in a relationship if you haven't had one?personally i'm a mega c-ptsd superloser who thought i had no utility to anyone or anything and literally couldn't walk to a mailbox alone without crying (yes really and for years)... BUT THEN!!! my bff moved in and now we've been living together for like 12 years and she has a decent job and we both are living better than any other point in our lives and make art and music and stuff together and it's great most of the time.
Breasts are such a crapshoot that it guarantees I could never get on e. It's at best an overcorrection. I could never risk a situation like picrel because trust I am irreversibly male in face. My dysphoria's bad enough to be severely depressing. I just want to be an androgynous twink like in the sad cartoons I watch but that won't happen. I don't think there's a realistic solution and if there is it'll take too long to get to it. I'm 75% on just ending it before any hrt desu.
>>42328554>estrogen would never guarantee thatThere are no guarantees in life, jesus fucking christ.Even roping is no guarantee (though it is guaranteed that if you survive you will not attempt again).Nobody is guaranteed to get anything. But one thing is guaranteed: You get absolutely nothing if you don't try.You miss 100% of the chances you don't take.
>>42328561>>42328575Man I'm trying to work up to it. Would you tell a slave living through genocide to continue trying? If you knew 100% that you were destined to spend the rest of your life in slavery would you continue doing it? It's been hard to work myself up to it. If I had just an instant death button like a father's gun it would've been done by now. I don't even have the right pills. I tried walking to a sufficiently high bridge near me but I turned around. The pussy I am. No sound was made once again nobody cared lol. I have no sanctity in myself, I never get what I want. All this because I looked at some gay porn when I was 15 lol.
>>42328601BPDemon post
This is the OP. I am going to bed now and this thread will probably not survive the night. I feel like I have gotten people interested in my suicidal thoughts, I have seen posts like this before where the OP stops posting and you become anxious about what the hell happened to them? Did they finally do it? That type of shit. So I'm telling you that I didn't. I would like to tell you that I'd get better but I have promised and said that a thousand times to loved ones and friends but they never did. I'll probably wake up as anxious and miserable as I did the day before, but I won't be dead. Sorry again. Goodnight.
>>42328601>All this because I looked at some gay porn when I was 15 lol.Nm, keep living little nigga this is the funniest shit youu could have ever said lol
>QOTT: What's your breakfast beverage?I'm now strictly black coffee in the morning. I don't eat breakfast until late morning so I can intermittent fast. Hopefully I'll either lose weight so I feel less disgusted by myself or be in better shape for when I inevitably troon out as a disgusting lateshit.Previous thread: >>42285773
>>42328161Yeah it isn't really a reason to put it off. I think my actual biggest reason to rep is that I live with my parents still.I'm planning to move out next year so I was thinking maybe start hrt this summer or fall and then I'll be in my own place once the changes start showing.
>>42328260Just don't tell them.Let the chips fall where they may.I didn't tell anyone lol. They just noticed when I kinda sorta malefailed.Now I have the problem of how to finally live as a woman. I'll probably do the same and avoid all the cringy "coming out" shit. I have the hearing for name and ID change on the 26th. I guess that's the cutoff date for me being a repper in any meaningful capacity.
>>42328266Thank you. I've been putting it off for so long because I was scared of how my family would react.I should start living for myself yk.I'm really happy for you, I hope everything goes well.
>>42328326>I hope everything goes well.The hearing will go well. I fulfill all of the legal criteria. It's a mere formality.Learning how to dress my age is going to be the nightmare, lol.Also figuring out what kind of ffs I need.It's all a process. I didn't even expect to have these problems. I started with the "let's see if this works" mentality. Then I was at the psychiatrist for an attention related issue (one year into hrt) and casually mentioned the troon stuff and he was like "let's write you a prescription for that so you don't have to bother with the black market shit"One thing led to another and now, 4yrs later, I'm testing dresses and skirts lol. It's surreal.
Honestly I'm doing great. Glad I detrooned. I'm glad I don't have to be a weird faggot and can be normal.
>have AGP since a young age since before even knowing what it was>crossdress since young age>knew I was different so never told friends>rep hard>date girls>awkward around them, unable to initiate anything>have a few girlfriends over the years but AGP thoughts always come back and dominate>can now only get hard to the idea of being a tranny bottoming for my friend>crossdress more as adult>get make up done>go out and get fucked by guy for first time>omg felt amazing>no pnc after I came with him still inside mewhat does this mean? is this just a fetish? these thoughts/desires always come back. a lot of times purely sexual but sometimes I think it would be so cool to be a goth looking tranny guitarist in a shoegaze band or you know just being taken care of by a man
>>42327450Shoegaze is easy. But I can actually play stuff that’s much more difficult. >>42327512Omg you are living my dream
>>42326710>is this just a fetish?read this https://medium.com/@kemenatan/its-just-a-fetish-right-91cb0a4e261
>>42327870I mean I think if I knew it would go well for me I would definitely do it
>>42326710Anon you are probably trans and your horny teen brain in puberty linked women to sexuality so you got aroused. Don't fall for the trap of calling yourself AGP instead of just transitioning like you should. Have some self-respect and do it right
>>42328625>if I knew it would go well for meThere are no guarantees in life, nona.But you miss 100% of the chances you don't take.You're setting yourself up for failure by avoiding anything that isn't fully guaranteed.
/lesgen/ is the lesbian general for all cis women and trans women (MtF) to discuss lesbian relationships and topics.Be kind to each other and report/ignore trolls who attempt to divide trans mtf lesbians and cis lesbians as a community. This includes transphobic bigotry, femmephobia, butchphobia, racism, and anti-c4t/t4t slop. This is nice thread. :)QOTT>Favorite fast food slop meal of choice?>Do you keep any secrets from your gf?>Would you want to know if your gf was being unfaithful?>Have you introduced your gf to your parents?tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Flesgen%2Fdiscord: https://discord.gg/bAnVMAGPNRold thread: >>42279925
how bad is it if i have 89 iq
>>42327359I hereby declare Jordan ...INNOCENT OF ALL CHARGESshe is innocent i say!!That is my final word on this
>>42326759I mean didn't they ban her from the server and not the other way around
There are people in this thread that would happily torture you forever because you said Nigger as a joke
Cant but feel like my declarations are ignored here >_>I guess im really not valued here....sigh.... ill take my talents elsewhere
What should be done about trans girls who have a micropenis?
>>42326934um rape? next question?
>>42326947what should be done about trans girls who have a giant dick?
>>42326956refer to>>42326947
>>42326947I concur!
I went to a eastern European shop, a shop that caters to eastern europeans.. it was nice... they have nice turkish delights and baklava.. I thought, id try some borek... so i boughta cheese borek.. and i thought id try buying some meat, so i bought a lamb heart because they had no liver... then i arrived home, and bit into my borek...it had beef... i do not eat cows or pigs.. i have been defiled... now i wonder... how can i even know i truly bought a lamm heart? Maybe its a pig heart. This is whu i prefer shops that cater to western europeans, we value honesty, we value ingredients. We value everything. In fact, the whole worlds wants to be like us.So now an ambiguous heart .. not surr to eat it or not.....I learnee my lesson, to never buy baked goods from eastern shops, or meat. Ill simply make my OWN borek. They even sell the borek sheets.. it cant be that hard... it probably tastes better freshly made anyway...tsk
okay i’m actually leaving this thread for good now genuinely be nice to office lady and sorry for drama and continuing to respond when i shouldn’t have i wish everyone well i really do
>>42327619be well
>>42327569i don’t think she meant it like that
a fun thread to read in 2025! wow!
>>42327569Is there non slop abuse yuri?
