Scream into the void with me, /lgbt/MTF/31/PNWI truly deserve death and forced detransition.Transition has been an attempt at escape from my karmic debt - to live as though the years from 17-27 never happened. It’s been toxic positivity and an attempt to hide. I haven’t ever even fully committed to it. One foot in the coping habits developed in my repping years and one foot in the mindset outside of those years. It’s why I can never let love in, why I bristle at compliments. I am a liar and a fraud playing demure and innocent while I neglect my community. I fetishize care, nurturing, and community because it feels like it offers atonement but then never do the work. Endless cycle. At the end of the day I’m just a lazy, entitled faggot who won the passing lottery and is a silent poison in my community. My life has been falling apart every day since starting HRT 4 years ago. More distant, more shallow, more obsessed with men and stupid pleasure. Yet so disgustingly masculine in my tastes, habits, and karma. Just shit. Detransition has been heavy on the mind. Not out of want for masculinity, but for necessity of honesty and a refusal of something that feels undeserved, the acceptance of a pain, a sacrifice.Maybe it’s time I donate all of my belongings, clothes, HRT and just go be a woodland firefighter and die for my home. It’s all I’m good for. My energy never disappears. I’ve worked a physical job the last year and went from a little femboy to a top-heavy monstrosity with no ass. My body has turned to that of a whole-ass man with the face of a 23 year old girl. I’m so fucking stupid and gross and a complete drag on society. I had a chance when I was 15 to DIY and I wussied out and repped for 12 years. Waste.I do sometimes fantasize about meeting an abusive man who locks me in a cage and forces me to stop eating and be a good maid so at least my stupid biological estrogen urges could finally be put to good use. Fuck this shit.
>>43132909Do you think it’s really likely that you’re truly in the wrong here?
>>43132778Eug
I know for a fact that I'm cute af.
i wish i never met you, squiggles
>>43134950scribbles?
What do you think of hazel?
>>43132650Sounds good to me. Perfect mental image of her in the corner, ashamed and her use on display. Will always be happy to discuss how hot she is whenever these threads come up, haha.
one last image that came to me in bed: hazel in a japanese school gym uniform, including buruma
God, I wish someone thought about me the way these two nerds think about a youtuber
I think I would give her a big kiss on the lips
20 year old femboy here. i have a huge fetish for bimbofication and ill probably troon out because of it. id rather be forcefemmed but i'll do it on my own if i have to.if ur a chaser who dreams about owning a caged sissy bimbo and making her get implants and shit, add my discord: polka_dot1or you can add me if you want to talk about the author ottessa moshfegh. im so bored of my life.
>>43134827not her but that's when you whore me out to collect more money
>>43134855Hot
>>43134827No, I'd be yours and loyal and forever grateful to you for saving me.
>>43134915Also hot... much to think on
>>43134923What are you thinking of? Tell me.
can someone make me kill myselflike say something really mean and hurtful or just make me feel more awful in general i need to kill myself but i'm having trouble finding the motivation to go through with it
>>43134767they usually have a policy present somewhere on the sites
>>43134751this board: noo dont do it, you barely know the guy, you have your life ahead of youhealth professionals: we are going to put you in cuffs and strip you naked and put you in a facility, and not in a hot kinky way, where you see a psych for an hour once a week.
>>43132835>jumpingoh no it's retarded
>>43132806I love you fren and it's going to get better. Don't give up skeleton
>>43132806your are stupid poopoo head >:D
old thread died>ASL (biological sex, or gender)>letter(s)>primary interest>other interests>looking for>not looking for>discord/contactqott: have you met any nice people from here?
>>43134585Youre right but what did you expect
my interests:animation memesmy mental illness:all of them
>>43134585onions
>>43134068nice headcanons retard we're all so proud of you for being an insufferable cuck on friengen
>>43130817A beautiful hsts trans girl added me and she's so amazing
what the h*ck is tboy swag anyway
>>43134681I need a bf with a tiny dick
>>43134692psyche dude my dick is huge (i'm still gay tho)
>>431324889/10 its looking like a butch lesbian trying to be a faggot... oh wait
I knew this Tboy(really just a young man) maybe 8 years ago, who I would describe as a well educated pirate, style on point without any sense insecurity in his masculinity, could get along with anyone and fucked 4 different women a week. I think that is the pinnacle of "tboy swag"
>>43132488Isn’t that the guy from cumtown?
Mithra says it is time to medically detransition.
>>43134032thanks i bought them for him haha
>>43134055The subtle sissyfication of Guan Yu
>>43133515Mithras would never say that wtf stop lying
I dont listen to mancave figures. Dont care that youre an ancient elder mystical god. I have tits now anyway.
I’ve read the liturgies. I’ve seen the sacred graffiti in the lodges. Mithras slayed the bull. Bull. Rhymes with BALLS. Balls. Orchi. The sacred orchid. Cut your balls off to attain the final step of the mysteries. Testosterone is a poison that obscures the way to enlightenment. The prophets wrote about this.
Are you a tranny who wants to voice train?Do you want a place you can practice without having to speak in person?Are you just a cisoid who wants to have fun?Welcome to Azumanga Tranoh!ITT: The goal is too go through the show azumanga daioh, and redub episodes as we go.This is not meant to be more than a creative outlet / fun community project so you don't need to feel pressured to commit! You can do a single scene and you won't be sneered for never posting again. There are no deadlines or schedules. Simply post when you can!If you are interested, simply pick a character and scene from episode one, and redub it in your own voice! Post the vocaroo here and I will add it to the episode. Try to do all the lines a character has in a scene at once, don't worry about fx if you don't want to, or fine tuned timing. As long as the lines are the same length.It's meant to be a mostly serious/faithful attempt, but this is not a product and you can feel free to be silly as well.If you would like to regularly voice a character, let me know and I'll make sure you get dibs on their scenes.Here is the current WIP of the audio of the first EP:https://litter catbox.moe/tm1unw.mp4We currently have six active participants in this project though there are spots open for some of the main cast still that I'll put in a reply.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Bump for quality thread
Best thing this board has made in awhile
>>43130947https://voca.ro/1d3iQSngAUoN
>>43130965I think it would be funnier if like Chiyo was like a full bass low rumbling male voice
BUMP FOR HEAVEN
helps my mental a lot, but makes my hair thin and dry. any advice on dealing with it anons? already tried various leave in conditioners and curl creams
Zinc + Selenium SupplementDO NOT fuck around with the selenium supplement, it can really fuck you up if you take too muchGo and gets your bloods done and get them to check if you have hypothyroidism, if they aren't already, which they should be.
>>43134835have you asked a doctor
I'm neither capable of genuinely wanting nor actively being anythingI wish I could bring myself to truly want to be a womanI don't even know why I wish that, but my mind still has latched onto it
>>43134182You're a tranny
>>43134639But why am i so uncertain of wanting to be a woman then. A trans woman would be sure of that and im just like not, eventho i kinda wish i was.Instead im just constantly overthinking and questioning it without actually coming to a conclusion that sticks :c.Or did u just see im on E and then stopped reading -_-?
>>43134799Nah, I've seen and read all your threads
>>43134821Oh ffs i guess i have to get better at actually using this anonymous image board anonymously lol. Ig my writing style is just too easily clocked (and also bc i like to yap ig lol)>>43134639Yeah sure ig im a tranny, thats what almost everyone, online and offline, keeps telling me when i complain about my doubts and stuff. I just wish i could believe it too and stop worrying about it all the time but i just cant it seems.Whatever ig ill prob stay on E for like a month longer to get to my next Endo appointment to see how my levels are (shit prob but i still kinda wanna know). Also so i can get another stash of prescribed E since im too scared for DIY + apparently the DIY market is a lil fucked in Europe rn.Bc even if i stop, id want an E stash so i can start back up immediately in case the tranny thoughts come back again. Dont wanna wait almost a year again like i had to for my first Endo appointment.Maybe even ask the Endo about ralox/SERMS or mention ive been unsure (in general/about breast growth)? But idk i dont think theyd ever prescribe that (and prob cant even if they wanted), might not even give me info on that lol. Plus i dont wanna risk not getting more prescribed E/them just kicking me out or sth.Then after the appointment mayb ill consider like stopping for a month or two to see if i feel worse on T again. If that happens hopfeully itll solidify my decision to transition. Tho if it doesnt make me feel worse then idk anymore lol.Or i wont try going off of E. idfk anymore what i am what i want or what to do or what my future is gonna look like :C.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>43130720I hate myself for wanting to be a woman. It sucks. It ruined my life.
estrogen made my balls really soft. did estrogen make your balls soft too?
>>43134103opposed to being raspy, rough and calloused? that's just how balls are unless you're using them to open cans or something
I don't think my balls were ever 'hard'? Is that a post puberty thing?
>>43134103i never really thought about it until now but yeah maybe
>>43134218t. battler
>>43134896Battler would however say that.
(I've seen a thread about this before so for some of you this may be redundant.)But I am so fascinated that a considerable number (not all) of completely straight men decide to transition, start HRT, and then gradually or quickly become attracted to men as a woman.I've been thinking about this phenomenon for a while and have a few theories:1. They were attracted to men all along, and were repressing their romantic desires to fit the mold of the "normal" cis-het man.2. Societal expectations demand that a woman be with a man. They're going against norms to transition, but benefit most in a world that favors het women.3. It is simply easier to find romance as a woman who is desired by straight men--they're the horniest and most populous demographic of romantic partner.4. I've heard some transwomen say that they became attracted to men after starting estrogen. Does HRT reorient attraction? Or is it simply a placebo effect?I'm sure some of you have recognized this pattern of straight men becoming straight women. What do you guys think is the cause?
>>43134614Pretty sure lots of AGP would relate to this
There is 100% some kind of HRT effect. Like the smell of guys alone becomes kinda intoxicating. Thats the most clear and obvious thing but there is probably some smaller and subtler effects.I was never attracted to guys but will reluctantly admit now that the thought of laying on a dudes chest sounds comfy af
>>43134630There had to have been some amount of attraction beforehand, like "only being into dick, but not guys"Basically 1. in the OP
>>43134646that makes some sense but i think it's probably an organizational-activational thing and you can't just give estrogen to a man and expect him to be aroused by boy smells
>>43134682Yeah, meta attraction.
What is your opinon on the prominent transgender artist Ethel Cain posting cock and balls on instagram on transgender visibility day?
>>43134740She likes having them slapped.
God I need her so bad
>>43134814Unironically part of why I’m unsure about orchi. I like cbt too much, and just aesthetically I like balls. Can you get like prosthetic ones? I imagine you don’t feel anything anymore so what’s the point.
>>43134740it's been 16 years hrt and still have my little nuts you mad gay ass niggaaaaa?
>>43133973She needs to post more
Transgender day of visibility edition >QOTT1: remind us why you rep?>QOTT2: would you be more distressed ig your mother or father discovering your troonish nature ?
>>43133181your repstrat seems to be working for you keep it up thx for your serviceyou should definitely transition if you're trans though
>>43133463how can someone be a repper but not trans
I wish I was dead
I missed out on living and it drives me crazy
>>43133808>>43133821yeah
Every person I've been with, trans or cis, has said that I'm very attractive and rate me pretty high, anywhere from 8-9.5/10. Where can I meet a pretty trans girl who's also around that rating? I'm not socially awkward or weird or anything of that nature, so its not like im fumbling. i just can't find a cute trans girl irl is basically impossible. but looking online on dating apps is also quite difficult since trans people in general dont seem to use those sorts of apps. I'm guessing most trans girls just stay indoors mostly or stick to hobbies / interests that dont have them interact with a lot of people? which places do i look in online and in person. I dont mind putting myself out there i just dont know what places to put myself in to let a cute trans girl know that i am available and interested in getting to know her better.
>>43134656>but surely there's a point where your focus becomes too granular and the returns on such a fixated investment are minuscule, if anything at all, no?Sure, but it's a very cultural thing and I can't peer into other's minds. So gauging how passing I am is non-trivial lol>but from what I've read, aren't there certain hormones you can take that are more biased towards breast development than other hormones?Not that I'm aware of. Might just be local restrictions tho, including regulations...>I know East Asians barely grow facial hair as it is, but someone who's Middle Eastern or Hispanic, it must be very, very difficult for them to maintain that clean look without developing a 5 o'clock shadow.I consider myself very lucky wrt my genes. I can't imagine having to deal with side burns of chest & back hair. The amount of time it would take... how would I even take care of my back by myself? Plus, the older you are, the more "damage" hormones have done. It's much easier to pass if you've started HRT in your teens or young adulthood.
>>43134656>but from what I've read, aren't there certain hormones you can take that are more biased towards breast development than other hormones?you are probably thinking about progesterone.
>>43132626yeah finding pretty trannies to date is hard. no wonder since we are like 0,05% of the population. id love to date a hot transbian who tops and bottoms>>43132652i advertise it to avoid wasting my time with people who arent cool with it
>>43132841>lots and lots of wordsbro you can just say it that you find it hot when a girl has a pp
have i somehow ended up on reddit right now or what am i going insane something fuckin smells in here
