I've been trying to figure out my identity for years by now and every step I take in doing so only uncovers that I completely and utterly lack one.There's no desires, no beliefs, no sociability, no preferences, no sexuality, no gender, no sense of self. All I am is just a collection of happenstances, and the meek attempt at reducing harm towards others.I recognize the person in the mirror, but he's just as much a stranger to me as everybody else is. The world feels stagnant, disjointed, and nothing that ever happens actually feels like it has any substance.There's still hope that I'm just missing something which will make the world make sense, but it all just feels like a deluded pipedream. I hope at least that some people can relate to this, and are able to feel seen and commiserate.
>>41498205I guess I can see how feeling a certain estrangement to one's own reflection or from many identity categories can be considered rational, but that doesn't change the fact that said estrangement is an overbearing burden in my life. I feel like I'm carrying a corpse and navigating social situation as a faceless entity just feels uncanny. I've also tried my best to expose myself to as many varied experiences as a I could, and it would be a lie to say that some of them didn't actually feel worth my time, but all in all it has always felt draining to simply exist, no matter the momentary enjoyment. That doesn't really leave me with many other options but to keep trying without abandon, so I guess I'll just keep trudging forward aimlessly. Thanks for the advice though
>>41497683How would transitioning fill that void, if the void is my single defining trait? Attempting to fill the void with another personality will just be performative, and I really doubt that anything would ever feel authentic. There never was a "girl", so why would there be one now?
>>41498299It is a burden and most of it we can't control. Can't change the categories in social situations so I avoid them. I do enough to sustain a career and leave everything else to others. That is the route I prefer. Some people like to be really engaged and sociable but that comes with its own set of problems like being exposed to too much of other's issues and losing touch with yourself that way. No matter what you have to compromise and deal with it. Can life ever truly be an effortless joyful ride, or is that just a marketable image some people learned to buy and sell while pushing off the problems on others? Whenever things get unbearable you have to get selfish and assertive in one way or another and that's where you'd find it.
>>41498183Same goes for me. Tried transitioning, but deep down I always knew it was just a cope, so I detransed before the effects became too apparent. I guess that means I was never trans to begin with, but it still deeply hurts to know that not even this helped in the slightest. I just wanted to have an identity
"I" love everyone in this threadEven if my heart is black and hollowThere is no self, it is a recursive construction: "you" only exist to other people as a continent object-construction to facilitate social relations, and that is then recursively applied by ones consciousness apparatus to oneself to allow one to exist in a social environment.This is not a useful truth. If you feel this way its probably because you are extremely isolated and introspective; a deadly combination.Theres nothing to say, but be the self that your constituent personalities and mechanisms are most content in and try to have fun
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>>41496938she used to be so cute. too bad she completely gave up on the masc/tomboy thing later.
Damn, hope yall are as busy as I am. I been out raiding candy for ToTs in a few days. I got tons already, but more is always good. Give it out by the handful to the late kids; as is tradition.
>>41494937at that point just let it die. cis women don't come to /tttt/
Crazy how guys have been saying>there are no women on the internet lolfor over 30 years now. You'd think they would have moved on to a different joke by now or something.
>>41498852there's women on the internet. just not here for the most part.
yaoi4yaoi editionold >>41392194
>>41498132fuck my shitty snoy life
>>41498158help i live in nyc and i don't know where to find them
>>41498648>cycle your way around..I dont think thats a phrase thats used.. unless you mean it in a punny way in which case its actually very clever but i doubt ur that clever tbHON
>>41498820it is because I meant it in both ways so I am quadruaple high iq. tbHON
>>41498825ZAMNNNNN she is smart... wtf
>was straight NFL player before>hooks up with other male cops for meta attraction validation>gets a boner when making out with Ace but won't act on it (she probably jacks off after he leaves)>anger issues>when getting revealed to be Ray Finkle she just kind of gives up>has the same facial expression as post nut clarity AGPs after they take a real dick for the first time and think "omg what have I done" >kept her dick which is by all means ginormous based on how it's tucked if we pretend it's real like it is in the movie worldLois Einhorn is AGP representation
>>41496214>>didn't tuck (known when kissing Ace)Oh she did tuck -- it's just too big for it to be effective.
>>41497083massive dong from years of AGP-induced priapisms
Lois Einhorn also has AGP coomer symptoms>Social isolationsee Ray's bedroom>emotional distress very short fuse, gets mad very easily>uncontrolled sexual urgesapparently made out with the entire force. almost let roger podacter smash because of meta-attraction but he found out. very reckless with her sexual advances. she used him for info but still could have played it much smoother by not putting herself in a situation where she felt the need to kill him.
agps are valid if they look like peak sean young
>>41484189I like her panties
did you fall for it?
I liked the way I looked before transition, so the results were more like a cherry on the milkshake.
I pass though, I just look dumb
>>41498097yeah, no regrets tho i look better than i did before.
>>41498097Idk. I'm happy with how I look now with transitioning but even girlmoding I've only been gendered female 3, maybe 4, times and that's ignoring all the harassment I receive for just looking visibly trans. I keep telling myself I can improve more but it seems the consensus from people on here and elsewhere online is that I'm a massive tryhard and should just be happy with what I've got. I don't think I'm horrendously unpassing just I miss the mark, I only wish to pass for safety outside and so I can maybe finally be supported by my friends and family all of which are still against my transition after many years.
>>41498097i mean, the reason i repressed as a kid was because i had contact with tranny porn, those V bodies those round separate tits, those weird big asses, they were so off putting i never wanted that for mehrt helped me enough tho, what i have is better than those aberrations
>be trans>get srs>go on grindr>men message me>i ask them if they're ok with dick>they enthusiastically say yes>tell them i have a vagina and i dont date gay men>they go into meltdown modeWhy are gay men so fragile?
>>41494741>anythjng with vagina is not a manEven this bikie looking fuck?
>>41496920Straight men like vagina Gay men like penisHope this helps
>>41497042Funny that you choose Buck Angel, who is a transphobe and calls himself a woman
>>41493931kekbest post on this board in a LONG time
>>41497042varbies are still women.
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>>41488088This is pretty romantic
>>41488088This is pretty natural behavior for women. Men are masters and women are servile
>>41488088I wish I could find a cum deposit box like you.
>>41495640Honestly, I don't understand why FtMs try to deny that they crave cock and impregnation like every other afab.
Whilst browsing the "clown pussy" thread on /gif/ the other night, I came across a post with a lady in my exact costume for Halloween. Ha! Nice
>be me>transbian>decide to get cis gf pregnant>plap plap plap plap plap>shoot girlmilk deep inside her womb>millions of swimmers racing to her egg>one lucky guy makes it>egg gets fertilized>zygote starts its journey to her uterus>implants in the uterine lining>starts dividing like crazy>turns into an embryo>embryo growing tiny organs and a heartbeat>placenta forms to keep embryo fed>fetus starts to look like a tiny humanComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41498592op here, i'm extremely bottom dysphoric and i wrote this for self-harm and catharisis. dont worry about it
>>41498617based
>>41498642i'm into women though
>>41498617Ok that loops around to being funny then ur excused
I want to do this with an ftm
Honestly, how can ftms unironically think thst they are men? I can understand attractive passing mtfs that they consider themselves as women, but pooners?Even when they "pass" they look like caricatures of cismen.
Do you know how you can tell ftms are men? Because nobody cares about them or pays attention to them or even remembers they exist.
>>41498503Id by ftm you mean disgusting mutilated hairy woman, then yes.
>>41498503Truth Nukem
Estrogen induced retardation is terminal. Pooners can be men only if they get on T pre puberty. Witch does not get perscribed to 12 year olds.
>>41498380The problem to me is they always seem completely unwilling to submit themselves to all the rough and tumble shit.Like if mtfs all wanted to be buch lesbian tops, it would raise some eyebrows. When pooners happily say they just want to be effeminate gay men, it has exactly the same effect. Ftms, grow a fucking beard. Go do tough guy shit. Force yourself through adversity. Earn the respect of male firefighters, policemen, military, outdoorsmen, construction workers. Objectively get yourself tough enough that you can hang with these people. Being an actual male is harrowing, your safety, your health, your appearance, keeping your outfit clean is secondary to the task at hand. Actual men do not respect city faggots as men. So stop striving to be city faggots.
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>>41498897Do christians call their partner heathens during sex?
OH YOU FILTHY HEATHEN Prepare to be granted clemency and receive my seed!
>>41498934Goy is a term more in the realm of race and ethnicity than religion
>>41498929This one is true
what do cuckservative christians call their bull during sex?
butt mogger general editionqott: do you exercise regularly? what are your fitness goals?i’ll link to the previous if i can find it in the archives
Are these boymoder or manmoder measurements? My face sucks but will be okay eventually with filler and FFS.Height: 164 cm / 5'4 ½Neck girth (larynx): 34Neck girth (base): 36Foot girth: 24Shoulder width (biocromial): 40Shoulder width (bideltoid): 42Bitragion-menton arc: 31Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41497378those are schizomoder measurements for sure
>>41488204>qott: do you exercise regularly? what are your fitness goals?i dont.i really should start but i just cant get to itim too much of a lazymoder
i worked out just now but im anemic (not because of low iron) so i'm basically sore for the whole week after just 1 intense workout. Also not really super stringent with it, as i'm loosing weight rn and have no energy. Stuck at 72kg for 2 weeks now which kinda sucks
>>41488204>qott: do you exercise regularly? what are your fitness goals?not really. but im losing weight and my waist is getting smaller :D
Why does latex specifically trigger my AGP so hard?
>>41492967Latex can be pretty hot tho i never understood the full on catsuit outfits that cover your entire body (+ the hood). Picrel looks way better to me
>>41492967How do you even get into those suits?
>>41497582ew wtf. only full body ones look good
I knew of owners of a goth club who wore latex suits like this. A man and women but the man had boob inserts. Thought it was weird at the time.
>>41492967what a waste of money, they clearly should've replaced that 30yr old ac before buying those hideous "clothes"
I think anons who have useless/unsuccessful fathers will end up to be losers too. A father should raide their young to be winnere, but they cannot do that if they are losers themselves.Most if not all children of loser fathers will go on to become losers
>>41497514You would be a winner if you sucked your dad's dick.
this is only true for male heirs
>>41497514my father owns three businesses :3
Will any amount of e be able to save Erin? Why is she so unattractive?
no, erin had her chance but she let it slip by so she could rep and get the inheritence from her homophobic dads farm.she essentially chose money over being her true self and now she is mega chopped
She's got a great body though. Would.
>>41497824Erin?
>>41497717twinkhon with passing body post-ffs and filler. her voice is already good. it will be a painful journey but she'll be okay
>>41497640porn addiction and childhood traumaand almost every relationship is a disaster anyway because they're incredibly mentally ill
do trannies like romantic walks on dim riverside trails?im a chud who like raping trannies on them. any takers?
>>41498500im std free. dont worry about it babe. it'll feel good after you tire yourself out struggling against me. it feels best if you relax a bit.
>>41498524as awful as this is it sounds hot
>>41498431oh to be romantically bent over a river walk railing and railed in public when the sun sets in a secluded wooden area. bf who calls me a good girl and says he needs my tight warm hole now and it can’t wait
>>41498431what the fuck. i got a bit hard reading this.
You guys are so fucking porn-brained it's unreal
