WHEN I SAY SLAVERY YOU SAY SORRYSLAVERY!
>>42168827You're welcome
>>42168827this board really has been the new /b/ lately
>>42169081Sybau honky
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>>42168827No now apologize for yelling
Why are autistic boys so friggen adorable?! I can't take it!!!
>>42169197They look like my former roommate probably looked before trooning out.
>spending the night on the couch hanging out with roommates>making jokes that would probably get us fired>laughing our asses off>one joke makes me laugh so much I reel back and kick my feet off the couch>roommate catches a glimpse of me and realizes, that in that moment (especially with all the estrogen i’ve been covertly taking) that I kind of look like a girl>realizes that I’m happy and feel safe around people I love>realizes that if I had a womb he would try to get me pregnant and raise a happy family>our relationship changes foreverHow likely is this? Because I’m only transitioning if this is possible
>>42168786i mean i've definitely had boys try to impregnate me but it hasn't worked..
i been thinking about transitioning ,but i think i am too old for HRT
>>42167102>Imagine yourself in your 50slol 12.something years for me and I'm just now showing signs of starting to fix my life (nta btw), shit's wild
I am crying because of this thread I fucking hate myself and nobody will love me, and if they do, they'll expect me to act like a man.
>>42168895lmao i caused this
I started at 31, I use over the counter estrogen creams and herbal t blockers and I’ve gotten small boobs and curves and I wonder if it’s worth getting a diagnosis and a prescription but I also don’t want to become impossible to hide (neverpasser manmoder) or have to deal with them passing more laws saying if you have gender dysphoria you are prohibited from xyz
>>42163721I am not trans, but before I was medicated for the like 500 different physical and mental maladies that God blighted me with, I would often fantasize about a medication that would fix my body and brain in exchange for 15, 30, hell 50 years of my life. I wanted to taste normalcy at any cost -- in my eyes, I was broken and my life wasn't worth even a fraction of a functional one. Then I got treatment and realized I could have both. I am still kind of a loser but I'm not wishing my life away over nothing. It wasn't really worth all of the suffering but it was worth getting better.
I’m sad and I wish I was happy
>>42167381U killed a thread for this
Oh i was worried about you nona since i hadn't seen this pic in 12 hours, excited for the next one
>>42167381you look like a woman, but an ugly one. Seeing your face with your droopy eyes and fetal alcohol syndrome nose makes my day just a little bit worse and I'd rather you quit shitting up the board with it.
>>42167381When are you going to stop pretending to be this person? You have been exposed as a fake countless times. You even made a fake discord called Crystal Sunshine to continue to pretend to be the person in the pic. That person has never posted her. Your obsession with them is creepy as hell.
Like, for instance, when I see someone like picrel (I know it has been posted here already), my mind goes like: "if you really want to be a woman, why tf are you keeping that beard?". I would assume that a closeted trans woman would use every opportunity she has to be more feminine, even with stupid things like facial hair. I'm saying this as someone who had long hair, wore things like cardigans and t-shirts with flowers and shaved obsessively before I ever thought I might be trans. Especially after one has realised they're trans and has decided to troon, you would expect this person to shave off any facial hair immediately. I'm not trying to be some kind of ultratrutrans grifter here, because i'm AGP myself, but like... people like picrel really do seem not to know what they're doing.
>>42167309for me at least i had an actual "beard" at one point (probably like half a cm after a month of growth) when i was still repping. my rationale was that i had to be a normal man and participate in normal man things but either way i still didn't like it. i shave more often now (at least twice a week) but depression and adhd make it hard for me to do it daily.not sure why you would come out while still having a full beard and short hair though. even when i was still repping i grew my hair out at least
>>42167309>if you really want to be a woman, why tf are you keeping that beard?Because despise wanting to be a woman, I'm not one and shaving my beard or taking hrt won't magically turn me into one.
>>42167309millennials were a mistake
>>42168801Also, it's not like I'm keeping my beard, I just don't bother shaving. The body horror of being a man is neverending so might as well wallow in my own shit and play vidya all day long. Fuck pretending to be the sex I am not, that's cringe and fake.
>>42167703psyop
How does a manmoder/HRTrepper fix their self image to no longer see oneself as a dysphoric male and instead see oneself as a tranny, let alone a woman?I can't ever make the leap seem to stick and just see myself as a broken, failed male or some weird creature with both autoandrophobia and autogynephobia.
>>42167891Govt contractor. I have swung between manmoding and kinda fagmoding since I started early last year, with more fagmoding since the beginning of this year. The closet is glass for me, but lately I feel much more pressure to manmode.
>>42168564Why do you feel pressure to manmode? Has anyone said anything or changed how they interact with you or anything? I would assume the vibe would be different between people you work with regularly, and people you work with sparingly or just meet for a particular job.
>>42168881It's all internal. Doubt, self hatred, guilt, dysphoria, fear. I am a monster and it's easier to pretend that I'm not than to try and live with what I've done to myself sometimes.
>>42168906Damn.I'm a repper probing manmoding next year. It sounds like would be pretty similar.
>>42168983I literally wore a dress for the Halloween work party but because I'm a retard I'm not fully out. It's dumb. It's so fucking dumb. But I am a dysphoric shoulderhon/ribhon never passer I don't know why I was deluded enough in the OP to say I would pass with FFS just because I've male failed before.
>>42164633What do you love about Asian guys?
>>42169190>>42169213>>42169233You're all faggots and NEED to get a education.
>>42169206Sorry about your stds or whatever then
Who is the ugliest name fag and why is it Timur?
>>42169260NEED to fit this dick in your ass
>>42169299Sorry, there's a Brazilian I'm thirsting over for the time being.>t. snow white European
Week 23 day 1 of posting about getting a loving bf to kill me with love challenge impossible.
>>42168691can i ask you something
>>42168722nah
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it's messed up how taking estrogen sublingually is actually super confusing and impossible and nobody explains how it works
i'm scared i'll accidentally hondose myself if i take it sublingually, which would defeat the purpose
it makes me rlly sad hrtgen isnt more active. for allll the slop on this board, i wish there was more here </3
>>42166297on the bottom side of your tongue, you should see two blue veins (the lingual veins) and a piece of flesh in the center (the frenulum.) break your pill in half, lift your tongue halfway up, and place one half on each side under your tongue. the goal is for each half of the pill to literally be making contact with the lingual veins when you lower your tongue back down, but without touching your sublingual salivary glands. otherwise your mouth will quickly pool with salivia and you end up getting the dose orally. it helps to press each piece of the pill down for a few seconds so the dampness of your mouth adheres to it, otherwise it might move when you put your tongue down. keep your tongue comfortably lowered for 5 minutes minimum, 10 ideally. picrel also shows bucal adminisitration but i dont recommend it because it takes annoyingly longer to absorb & feels more leaky/wasteful, though it's up to you>>42166310do the above method, 6-8mg, and you should be good. divide it into 3 doses every 8 hours apart. also, you absolutely need to be taking a blocker. ive seen a few people (mostly third worlders with limited access) try to monotherapy it and they always end up with the most fucked levels & physical outcomes.
I have enanthate and needles on the way but it might be a week before I see them, though I also have estradiol valerate and bicalutamide leftover, should I just take the valerate/bica as normal in the meantime until it arrives or is there any risk of danger with taking such a big boost as enanthate while still under the effects of bica?
why does my body look different every time i take a photo?
bdd
>>42168046sometimes my hips are so much wider than other times.
yeah the type of mirror, distance from mirror, time of day, lighting, how you're holding yourself at any particular moment, feels like i'm a different person each time i look in the mirror sometimes it's fucked i hate iti think this is bdd friend
>>42168523>All the stuff they mentioned>the tightness of your pants/how high they're riding (this is actually huge, look how hard picrel is frauding with his belly button pants)>angle/position of camera
>>42168638what is he frauding sxactly? are you saying that my pants arenmaking my hips wider?
>MTF who exclusively topsWhy even transition then?
>>42168266Yeah but why do trans girls do that? Are they AGP chasers who transitioned to make themselves into what they could never find?
>>42168238cus femdom is peak
>>42168293I am not the usual mty agp or hsts stereotype at all. I love to please and that includes topping and bottoming. I need either something semi-open-ish or a versatile partner to get all my desires fulfilled.the never-passers that """"transition""""" to invade lesbian spaces are the same sort of men that scam each other with similar bullshit
>>42168238I like lesbian porn and sex with women (female), and I'm sexually aroused by making my body resemble women's bodies more. Not that complicated or deep.
>>42168545>or a versatile partner to get all my desires fulfilled.damn you're the dream, your partner is/will be a very lucky guy/gal/nonbinary pal
Repressors, ever struggled between like picking a side ? One day you’ll say fuck it I’m a woman but next day you’ll be like nahh I’m a man, only to remember later the consequences of not taking HRT and becoming an ugly bald man and then swap back in thought ? All of which before getting HRT
>>42164482reppers be like: but what if i regret it!meanwhile existing in a life they actively regret
>>42167885Two things can be bad simultaneously. It's about chosing the least bad optiont. hrt repper
>>42164482yes and yesi inject once a week so i can just listen to the ups and downs and write it all down between injectionsit's interesting to look back on how much my feelings about it all fluctuate day to day, week to weekit still feels right overall and so i stay on hrt
>>42164482Yes.t.HRTrepper
>>42164482yes i eventually gave up choosing and just castrated myself and stop thinking about it
my body is gross and masculine
>>42168755actually i cut it off and its regrowing a lot better rn ^^>>42168761no it isnt
>>42168816y cut ur hair?>no it isntim glad u atleast acknowledge reality maybe try passing b4 getting mad ur a hon tho
>>42168835bc i wanted smaller sizes and better sectioning
>>42168869but your face is really wide. wont it make it worse?
>>42168891my face isnt wide i just havent debloated yet so actually itll look better in a year or smth
Ftms are insanely chill for the amount of vitriol they get on here I'm ngl
>>42163080>>42163041I don't think that's fair. It's angry mtf repressors, chasers, and raiders who come here to say that mean stuff and those same people say a lot of mean things about trans women too.
>>42167548ur soo handsome :3
>>42168541oh god i feel so seen
>>42166599waitaminute this is nothing like the pooner mspaints, this guy looks like he got bitchesmirin jawline and face in general btw>t. cishetfag
Not the one I knew but maybe she (she went by she/her) was just an outlier
