It's actually kinda funny how fast the guys calling me a man all day lose their minds when I call them a girl.
>>42179677Gotcha. This all sucks shit though and the meds I was given don't seem to be that effective.
"You sound like an emotional woman" is one of my favorite insults. It works them into a seethe every time
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>>42180361god i wish that were me (either)
>>42180361
ugfreak.to1. Would a product containing multiple forms of testosterone (Cypionate, Enanthate, etc) be more effective than just testosterone cypionate alone?2. What are the best resources for understanding different forms of gear such as Tirzepatide, Nandrolone Decanoate, Trenbolone Acetate, etc.?3. is 100mg/mL, 200mg/mL, 300mg/mL describing the strength of a single dose?Thank you
>>42180243also,don't post website links in your post. try going to sst (a search of sst + steroids should lead you to the right place) and look through some of the offerings. there's a lot of overpriced bullshit/dumbass 'testosterone booster' scams out there.
>>42180243God can you imagine anybody being so ugly? Can imagine doesn't even have a penis.
>>42180586off topic, get fuckedelliot page is a great actor and looks kind of funny, i love him>>42180547>>42180564Thank you
>>42180547steroidswiki has been banned now that i have checked and so i will be looking for its offspring on reddit. unfortunate but there are probably youtube videos or threads on other sites out there. will just put in the effort into finding them, thank you for your honest response.
>>42180674no, i meam the wiki on thw steroids subreddit.
is it easily visible if a guy struggles with his gender?like im cis boy but i sometimes have some non cis thoughts. like nothing serious but like sometimes it makes me feel a bit sad. but i think i have been quit subtle about that irl.however my friend said recently that i would make a pretty girl.like it had barely anything to do with the conversation we were having!!!it basically shut me up completely and i wasnt able to say much to him after that.it was awkward. but the thing that troubles me right now is that could he know something.... like i havent told anything to anyone irl about what i feel about this.
>>42181492>>42181505 is right. a good therapist is hard to find but this is a pretty bad place for self-discovery. you don't sound like you're old enough to be here, anyways...no offense......look for someone who deals with queer patients, specifically. i've been through five therapists in my life, none of whom have had any knowledge of this stuff, and it has sucked lol. it is important to have someone who knows how to help you.anyhow, this does sound like gender dysphoria, not that i'm here trying to diagnose you. just something to think about.
>>42181199I think im in a pretty similar situation as you. Ever since i started questioning my gender i have thought back at my life, trying to see if there were "signs". I complaining about people complimenting my voice (rather deep), i remember wanting to wear feminine clothing. Despite this and more, i dont feel like people see this in me. Maybe i am otherwise too repressed. It dissapoints me
>>42181741Even if you were masc growing up, there might be someone. Both of my partners in high school said it made sense for me to be trans. One of them even clocked me when we dated. But I was otherwise just an autistic, masculine boy who was frustrated with gender roles.
>>42181492yeah you need to do something about thisdo you think it's going to be better in 10 years when you're that much older? you'll just be sadder.but fortunately you can change the future and become a girl by then
>>42181199In my experience it depends who's doing the observing. Most cis folks seem to be pretty dumb when it comes to gender, they just accepted the 3rd grade sex ed lesson of penis = boy, vagina = girl at face value without ever needing to give it any more thought. But there are exceptions, and some are more perceptive than others.>but like sometimes it makes me feel a bit sad.That's gender dysphoria for you. It's right in the name, feeling bad about your gender.>it basically shut me up completely and i wasnt able to say much to him after that.Sounds like it affected you a lot. Why is that?>>42181224First post, best post.Really, OP, you should find a healthier place than here to talk this out. It's important to know who you are.
>cis men dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)>cis women dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)>ftms dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)>mtfs dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)There's literally no winning. I rolled the human monster gender
MtFs love twinky boi girl things.Chasers love twinky boi girl things.Poonahs love a near manmoder twinkhon thing.Women love a near manmoder twinkhon thing.Just be lithe and benefit
>>42180936The 2% of chasers don't count im talking about the majorityMost ftms treat us like gross freaks. Most mtfs too. Not even our own people are chill w it
>be me>cis man>looking at a list of the top 25 trans models on OnlyFans >each profile has a face pic of the model that you can click to read about them>ignore 24 mtf faces>my eyes settle on the 1 person my brain finds attractive >ftmEvery single time
>>42180892i think generally trans people are nicer to each other irl. on here its a diff case tho.
>>42180892i am ftm and feel the same way but opposite (i.e. nobody likes ftms). i think almost all trans people feel like this at some point, regardless of their label. fwiw, i prefer the company of mtfs to any other category. especially those who don't pass, as i don't pass either.
>tfw Scorpio Moon, the most malebrained moon sign, so I can never be a real girl
>>42176528Genuinely thank you so much for all the effort u put into this, anon. I’d be happy to repay you with a tarot reading sometime if u wanna drop ur disc :3
>>42176528Also just would be interested in general if any of my placements support the fact that I’m trans/a woman, like is there anything there that makes that obvious
bop
>>42166625all the mtfs talking about astrology in here r gmi that’s like the most fembrained thing to doom about
>>42180764you only think so because you don't know about astrology and therefore don't know how over it can be...
I want to fuck her asshole.
OP here. I want to marry her :(
>>42171153cute art
>>42171270shes a transbian therefore real trans just attracted to different ppl
>>42180797Lesbianism is fucking evil (it denies men the ability to date you) and transbianism is therefore invalid. Little better than straight men
>>42181501OP here that's retarded
I wouldn’t be a chud if I had a hot trans gf who let me suck it you know
>>42181063Do you have a bwc
>>42181083no
>>42181063your day is coming anon. keep the faith and work on yourself too
A tranner to 69 with would fix me
>>42181063catch 22 anon, you're only going to get a cute trans gf if you stop being a chud.
what do you think of the agp vs hsts discourse? do you feel more comfortable with either group? what do you identify as yourself, if you view yourself through this blanchardian lens at all?
>>42180019lol love the attitude (minus the racist bit)
>>42179563>other one does it to appeal to straight men (which no real woman would ever do)youre saying women who get breast implants and wear revealing clothing aren't appealing to men?
>>42180528if you can undersrand agp you can understand wanting to look hot because it makes you feel hot.
I think it's pseudoscience that is internalized by people (usually trans women and girls) who are very isolated and so self-hating as to basically be delusional. It's like extra toxic transphobic astrology.I'm comfortable around whomever. I just feel sad when people believe shit like that.
>>42179237blanchardism is gay nonsense
Is to more fembrained or malebrained to hate your mother? What about your father?
>>42181337Im someone who’s had siblings and doesn’t like my parents and the thing is they basically neglected me my whole life and i was the first born but with my younger siblings my mom gave them a lot more affection and love than she ever gave me growing up and i have different dad from my siblings so he wasn’t in my life very much
>>42181276I don’t hate either of them i just don’t have love for them or even know them very well just indifference
It's more "female brained" to be sensitive to any negative emotions, as a generalization. I think men are more likely than women to have a preference to see their parents in a good light even if they weren't all that good.
>>42181522I agree. Further, I believe it's more female to hate your mother and more male to hate your father, regardless of your own sex
>>42181347how do we know you're not pure evil
so i will never get srs, not because i dont want to but bcuz i cant. im poor so i will never be able to afford it>just get a cheap onei have extremely high standards for myself. i can only see myself with a vagina if its the crème de la crop, aka a high quality beautiful pussy that can be penetrated and is selflubricating and is physically and visually indistinguishable from a cis one. i wont be satified with a low quality cheap ass pussy, i want one of those designer ones. also even if i could afford it i know it wouldnt be worth it; as i am a cursed woman, a cursed being. i am extremely unlucky, if something bad can happen to me it fucking WILL. i know for a fact that even if i got srs it would get infected quick or would close up or my clit would fall off, or it would necrotize or whatever negative technicalities you could imagine will happen. dont try and tell me it wont happen because i know it will. i know myself and my fortune enough to know i would be one of those people on r/TransgenderSurgeries and r/honesttransgender talking about her broken pussies and how i need to get a revision but i already went broke from trying to get one so i wont be able to afford them. ill just use my money for ffs and maybe top surgery
>>42180306No, from that anecdote I read yesterday they DIY'd a cream? That's all I know.Consult Your Local Orthodox Pooner.
>>42180306Oh yeah should also say my view of gender. I don't think people have male or female brains very cleanly. I think our brains have an expected brain body mapping and multiple things can map to it that would make one more or less comfortable. Call this gender incongruence and gender congruence. Gender of course would just be one subset of this relating to sex characteristics mostly. There's an innate level that a person can't shake and a social level one can learn and unlearn. Your sense of self comes from your sensory inputs and it's this construction of self conflicting with the gender that causes issues. Auditorally you may have a more male voice, visually you may appear male, tactilely you may not have breasts on your chest. One big issue is what I call "clustering" someone who's broadly incongruent will imagine being a cluster of traits such as a woman as society presents it, see that it's broadly far more congruent than their current state and learn that as their goal and new social gender. The issue is now there's likely to be some components in there that clash with their innate gender, but if emotionally they don't cause enough dysphoria the person is liable to keep their clustered view. I personally advocate for declustering and breaking down the social gender and trying to find out your innate feelings. I've come to learn there's a large variety of potential forms I could inhabit that would make me euphoric or at least semi comfy that I can't explore given current medicine and technology.
>>42180394idk any pooner personally and also id be too scared to ask. cnan i ask my doctor about it?>>42180489ur very smart and sweet but im too high to understand dsorry
>>42181293I think it's this:https://www.mayoclinic.org/drugs-supplements/testosterone-topical-application-route/description/drg-20073444If you have a doctor who understands HRT then they should understand this too.
>>42181293fyi nona using testosterone on your dick will usually raise testosterone levels in general and can cause masculinisationalso please don't do it unless you genuinely prefer having a working dick, don't just do it because you think you need to top
there just deserves to be one at all timesplease send bwc
>>42183055If you behave I'll give it to you more and for a long time
>>42183063That sounds boring... I want to misbehave even more now if anything... it's not like you're going to do anything right?
>>42183075I'll pound ur little butt as you have a gag in and squeeze u and pull your hair...
>>42183082That's it? Come on you can do better than that... surely
>>42183089Id love to put a shock collar on you as I pound you... I'll whip you, and bruise you. Id love to handcuff you flog you and until you completely break and beg to stop
why r my ribcage and shoulders so big
mogs me
>>42181482even for trannys theyre abnormally big >>42181496estrogen doesnt work
>>42181502>estrogen doesnt workyou're a moron. it takes years
>>42181548you shouldnt be so hostile to someone struggling alrdy
>>42181578kill urself
I'll start. I discovered I was into feederism while reading Gorgeous Princess Creamy Beamy back in the day.
>>42178386feeder stuff has infiltrated my head these last few months; i fell into the fatfur hole and there is something so affectionate about it. i've always loved bigger men but now i can more articulately describe how i want to ram my head into one of my good friend's giant stomach
a bionicle comic i read in 2004 gave me a corruption fetishand i always liked sticking my hands in stinging nettles as far back as i can remember so i guess i was always doomed to be a masochistic freak
Forgot about it until right now but these panels from the Bone prequel comic made me go insane. I'd read it over and over imagining being completely paralyzed like she is in the dream, restrained by all the bugs, and having this weird bug dragon rub his feelers on my face. Only with the gift of hindsight do I realize that was kind of weird
>>42180876Eat up
>>42178386Cheesecake is a delight
Most modern hsts look like this after they're 25. Most of us end up looking like normal masculine men by the time we're 30. It's only you pathetic AGP's, end up crying all the time about being women when you don't look anything like a woman. You're such dipshits
indecipherable take. bump.
>>42180813I don't understand why you're trying to say
>>42180813The person in that pic doesn't look anything like a woman either
>>42180918My interpretation is OP is saying hsts doesn't care about being women and will turn into a guy after 25, gradually turn into full blown masc hairy dudes after 30. It's only AGPs that care about looking like a woman while HSTS all detransition
>>42181395You got it right and everyone else knew it too, just didn't have the guts to admit it. There are no modern hsts who want to be women because it's a passing stage for some feminine gay men. It's a phase; you want to be a woman because she's what attracts men! You don't realize gay men are into gay men. It stems from immaturity
6 years of manmode, and I've had enough. My mental health is worse that's been in years, I've been crashing out almost every day for the last two weeks. I always knew honmode is a viable path for some because I've seen it work (as in, I personally knew some hons and twinkhons), but I always thought I'm better off as a manmoder.Turns out, I'm just a fucking coward. The intensity of my dysphoria in fact 100% justifies a full social transition. I'm just afraid to take the risk, and desu I'm also just v. mentally dysfunctional and can barely keep a job and do the most basic tasks. But time is running out, I'm getting older, and I wanna give a full transition another shot.Yeah, I'll be visibly trans, but at least I'll be able to connect with people on a genuine level without this retarded fucking man LARP. I just don't care anymore about what some stupid transphobic idiot might think about it, and I can handle any practical problem that's caused by not passing.Other manmoders can have fun lying on their death beds, thinking about "it would never have worked, iwnbaw" without ever fully, properly trying. I won't be one of them.
>>42180792Thanks, cishet gazing anon haha.>>42180755I think it's seeping into my normal voice too, but I live such an isolated life and work such a low status/low interaction job that it doesn't really matter. And my family and the few friends I still have all know I'm trans. Thank you for the video, I guess it's time to retvrn to some proper transsexual grind. I'll watch it carefully even though I feel like I've figured out the walk already because it's one of the things you can do while manmoding and maintain plausible deniability lol.>>42180753That's just one of my concerns yeah. There's a big difference between being able to get up, put on a t shirt, and have people be nice and open doors for you at a store ... vs having to actually do things to reasonably communicate you're a trans woman. Again this is just how it is, and it helps to be aware of those things if you want your transition to be taken seriously, right.>>42180686My memory of that night is so fuzzy. I remember a short and pleasant chat with my ex, but she told me I was actually bothering her for 20 minutes. I also remember one dude offering me an open (!) beer and me having enough sense to refuse and walk away. On my way home I chatted with an old security guard who gave me a cigarette.
>>42180964as /fit/cels say, you can't outlift the tismand you can't outprivilege the rep-depression>ignoring that this is 80iq or grifter radfem apex fallacy nonsense in the first place, but victimhood grifters gon grift
>>42181044>I feel like I've figured out the walk already because it's one of the things you can do while manmoding and maintain plausible deniability lolUntil someone does notice. It's how I malefailed among the first times. Someone clocked me as a woman from behind because of long hair and walking.>proper transsexual grindYeah, pretty much.Cis women learn a lot of these things too. We have to learn them too. Every single small thing matters.It's what I tell to the youngshit I recently met in my city. She passes physically slightly better than me. But the second she moves or opens her mouth, she gets clocked as a tranny while I don't. Even when we're together in public. That's how much of a difference the grind makes.>There's a big difference between being able to get up, put on a t shirt, and have people be nice and open doors for you at a storeNow I can almost do that. Mannerisms, confidence (but yes, height and ffs too) do the rest. Normies don't quite clock trannies but rather insecurity.
op this makes me really happy :) infinite happiness to you. i hope everything goes even better than you could possibly imagine.you're pretty, by the way :) i mean that.
>>42181140I'm def keeping my expectations in check as I'm 6 feet tall. But there are levels to passing (or non-passing) like I mentioned before, and you can be feminine and carry yourself in a certain way that actually says "woman" as opposed to some unfortunate (often imaginary but sometimes sadly real) caricature.I watched the video, and it made me remember how most people, regardless of gender or age, are just kinda sloppy when it comes to walking. I see so many walk with their feet angled outwards for example (healthy and non obese ones too).>>42181205Thank you lowercase nona :)). Same to you.
