>QOTT #1: Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?>QOTT #2: What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings about?Previous thread: >>35433393Tagmap:https://tagmap.io/tag//bigen/FAQ:>Am I bi if I like women and femboys/traps?>Am I bi if there's this one member of the same-sex I'm desiring, but normally I like the opposite sex?>Am I bi if I sexually like both sexes, but only interested in romance with one of them?Yes, sexual attraction to both sexes is bisexuality.>Do you love me, OP?It's just you and me against the world, babe.>What's the difference between bisexual and pansexual?Only difference is that our flag is prettier.>Am I bi if i have periods where I feel only attracted to women and others where I feel only attracted to men?This is known as the bi-cycle and many bisexuals experience it.>Am I bi or am I 'prison gay' or porn addicted?'Prison gay' is not a real thing and porn addiction does not alter your sexual orientation. You are bi.>Am I bi or pan if I like trans people?Both are able to be attracted to trans people.>I think I might be bi but I can't tell. How can I be certain?Just make a point to check out memebers of the sex you think you might be attracted to and see if anyone grabs your attention.Resource for Bisexuals:https://biresource.org/
>>35495057Would you love me if I was a cyborg with a robocock?
my mom wrote "this pig is trying to kill my son" on the package of bacon in the fridge. i guess she thought that sounded funny and clever instead of like a line cut from "beau is afraid". i'm 6 foot, 180 pounds, and exercise regularly. i have never been overweight. later, there was lockdown at my old highschool so she texted me asking if i was shooting the place up.
mfw no cock or pussy
>>35495220is it an actual horse cock, taken from a horse and grafted to your body? that'd be pretty gross.
Qott1 yeah sounds metalQott2 kanye wests music been a big fan since I was kid because I didnt fuck with gangsta and kanye allowed me as a black kid to not feel out of plac but now with everything going on with, how he treats women, contemporaries, etc. Hes just not that person I grew up with and his music has suffered because of it. Guys the internal homophobia acting up again
>>35495350Its a robot cock with a horsecock skin(humanely sourced)
>>35495057>QOTT #1: Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?idrgaf abt sports>QOTT #2: What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings about?lady gagas discography everything pre joanne was great but within the recent years her image has gotten to sanitized and mature for my liking im not too fond of the whole big pharma/silicon valley ceo image that shes been sporting and dont even get me started on the fillers and the botox
>>35495057>6'6>in shape>face isnt completely fucked>openly bi since I was 15 (double the options)>still never even kissed someoneSocial anxiety is the true black pill, I would happily give up a foot of height just to be able to interact normally with the world around me.
>>35495549iktf unfortunately alcohol is the only way to get me to be more comfortable with socializing otherwise ill just sound like thishttps://youtu.be/ceFKD3H_zfk?si=qKZdU-SfWEcGZydG
>>QOTT #1: Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?I enjoy spectating the occasional combat sport, but — and this may come as a shock — the prospect of adding cybernetic augmentation would likely act as a detriment to said enjoyment.>>QOTT #2: What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings about?This new Judas Priest album, to which I am currently listening. It's certainly not bad, but it's also certainly not Firepower...>>35495350From where did you derive the implication that the penis was equine in origin?
>>35495549Just out of curiosity Im also tall bi handsome. Do you feel like since youre the way youre there is a lot of pressure on you to take charge? But you dont really know how to (and you don't want to make your partner uncomfortable)?
>>35495350
>>35496027>>35495549now kiss (or fuck nasty)
>>35495057>mixed fwelingsOk so>AnimeEvangelion>TvGame of thrones>MoviesTaxi driver>BooksGreen mile>MusicAnything by coldplay honestly >>35495580Ive started to make my own alcohol but the results taste like sprite. Idk how i got to this.
>>35496165I dont bottom sorry
I have decided I am afraid of men now. how do I trick myself into being bi?
>>35496234twinks
>>35496287I like men already tho?
>>35495780huh. i guess i was just skimming over the post.
>>35495057>QOTT #1: Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?Considering I've never been into watching normal sports, but used to love watching re-runs of robot competitions as a kid, probably more.>QOTT #2: What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings about?Berserk. The golden age arc on its own is one of my absolute all time favorite tragedies in manga. The plot in the rest of the manga, however, suffers from the pressure of having been published in a magazine. Breathtaking artwork in later chapters though, and I do like Guts a lot.>>35495220Only idiots and cowards would say no>>35495358Kanye has changed a lot, for sure. It's sad to see. He may be a dick now, but it also seems like he's not even having fun anymore/should be getting help for his bipolar disorder.
>>35495057>It's just you and me against the world, babe.I knew you loved me, come here and smooch me
salvia is incredibly fun. i just wish the high lasted longer than like, five minutes.
>>35497576I wish I could find shrooms again or LSD. Those were some good times
>>35497590Shrooms are fun as hell (disregarding the nausea and tummy ache for the first hour )
>>35497639That's never really happened to me, have you tried some of the editables? Maybe they could help with that. One of my former co-workers sold me a bar of chocolate once and it was pretty good, although weak compared to the raw thing
>>35497698I just munched on em raw
>>35497932You don't have to raw dog this one. Also as a more general aside for the thread: I made some chicken and rice so now I'm all full and comfy
>>35496027Not that anon, but I’m 6’4 and a top, and I find that socialising and interacting with people is a pain. Most of my hobbies are solitary hobbies too. The girl I’m pursuing currently is one I’m pursuing because I feel she’s one of the few people who really “gets” me (and she’s also bi too and into similar kinks as me).
>>35495349same, anon
>>35495349>>35498396
>>35495057>QOTT #1: Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?I've been saying for a while that more sports should have a separate league or division that allows PEDs. The old Japanese MMA organisation Pride explicitly stated in their contracts that they weren't testing for PEDs, and it was wild. I guess cyborgs are an extension of that.>QOTT #2: What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings about?Quite a few, but right now the one that springs to mind is Grimes. I like her first weird Dune concept album, and her second album too but then nothing after that really does it for me. It would be hard to say I like her as an artist given how much of her work I'm not especially interested in, but I do REALLY like those first two albums.
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>>35498247>You don't have to raw dog this oneNeat> I made some chicken and rice so now I'm all full and comfySame, prepped meals for the whole week
>>35498494What have you peeped? Im trying to get more into cooking my own food
>>35498732I made some kind of abominationRice, kidney beans, corn, bell pepper, onions and chicken I used what my store calls "taco spices" for seasoning (chili, oregano, cumin, salt and a dash of sugar) as well as some black pepperServe with a lil bit of sour cream (optional), I put it in tortillas if I feel like it
>>35495057>Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?I'd be less interested if the cybernetics took over human training and probably equally interested if cybernetics and skill went hand in hand. There's also the problem of who can afford said cybernetics and how but that's a whole other can of worms.>What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings?BL kangas and anime. On one hand, I recognise it is mostly trashy, exploitative and dumb. On the other hand I keep chasing that incredibly fluffy feelings only a great BL can give me. So I am in a bit of a bind really.
>>35498915>BL mangas and anime.Yeah a lot of GL and BL is garbage, but every once in a while some of it just hits so right. Usually I prefer the plot heavier ones.>t. GL BL fan who also writes
Bisexual bass players rise up! We have been under appreciated in music and in LGBTQ spaces! The revolution has begun!
>>35498915>>35498999I mostly blame the fact young people and the general audience like really trashy smut for some reason. Hell I mean even with books and hey the general population likes the poorly write trashy smut.
PICK A SIDE
>>35499397No?
>>35499397Already told you yesterday, we picked the winning side you mono loser
>>35499420You might not like it but I will ship it.
no gender dysphoria, i love being a man, but i’ve started taking pueraria mirifica and thinking about painting my nails and trying shapewear, am i losing it? is this just a massive cope tfw no gf/bf? i want to feel cute and fem and pretty but i think i’m flying dangerously close to the sun
>>35500959Tell me more about pueraria mirifica
>>35500968it’s apparently the best way to get a little bit of estrogen without going too crazy full HRT, i just started it tho so i can’t say if it actually does anything
>meet a guy I sort of know through mutual friends>hot as hell despite living in hoodies and track pants>people think he's a NEET until they realize he's a hyper competent programmer with a well-paying job>his main hobbies are archery and video games>find out we play some of the same games>offer to play with him>he keeps stealing my killsI desire him carnally.
I'm scared of what will happen when I holiday with my coworker again.He likes me and I know this but we will be clubbing every night. I feel bad for wanting to score with a girl on those nights.If I don't get with a woman, I feel as though I've failed at life. My world belongs to a woman.
>>35499390I wanna play bass so bad, I have never played an instrument in my life, and have no more free time to spend. This is why I will never be hot.>>35499392That is... Sadly very true lol. I mean at some level I understand: if they just wanna jerk off to something once and then forget about it, it works. It's just so fucking boring after a while. Cliché archetypes as characters feel so lazy and half-hearted.>>35500959Nah, explore yourself however you want. Painted nails is for everyone.
how bad of an idea is it to let my friends dad who has been hitting on me think he has a chance with me so i can get free drinks
>>35500959Do whatever you want and what you feel is right for you, we'll always support you <3
>>35501178probably pretty bad but I'd still do it for the small adrenaline kick desu
>>35501178Probably inadvisable and likely to lead to some soap opera shit, but you do you.
>>35500959You be exactly as pretty as you want to be, Anon.
>>35501164>>35501235>>35501332aww thank you guys :)
>>35500981I’m gay and I like bisexuals with painted nails
>>35501357no problem man! Self-expression is healthy. I'm sure you'll have fun with it :)
>>35495057>QOTT #1: Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?id watch soccer if they crawled around like insidious demons but i guess it depends on how much chrome is in the athleteslike i want new sports not enhanced old ones>QOTT #2: What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings about?on one hand i really enjoy playing american truck sim its the only game i can play with my wheel controller (which is a hassle to set up and put away) so its less about the media but the object around a certain piece of media i deffos need another game to play thoughconsidering selling it>>35500981>>35500968took pueraria mirifica for 2 years straightthe effects are slim to noneyou will need additional supplements to achieve the effects you're looking for like collegen and biotin for hair, nails and skin but desu hrt is probably you're best bet for looking fem honestly but the gen is right you should express yourself in anyway you feel comfy>>35501178babe nothere was a ring store inside of a club i went tothis ugly ass old dude came up "hey pretty, i just got divorced, if i buy you that ring will you be my wife" knowing full well im about to leave i go "oh yeah that sounds good" trying to score a free ring he told me to get drinks i got $3 shots bc fuck what he asked for and by the time i came back he was broke i bought it as soon as i could and tried to leave embarrassed and $69 poorer
>>35495057>>QOTT #1: Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?I've actually thought about this a lot and I think it would be fun in the beginning when people were figuring it out, but eventually it would be kinda bland and about optimizing for the rules.Like you know a car will beat a human in a mile race, so what counts as a car vs just being a cyborg?So then you get into weight restrictions and component restrictions.So you have a robot competition league.But take something like battlebots and robot wars. They were fun in the beginning, but then people figured out, based on the rules, that spinning disk robots pretty much beat everything, and they all kinda merged together.I think the equivalent would eventually happen in cyborg sports.
>>35502235>took pueraria mirifica for 2 years straightdo u think pueraria mirifica would work for someone like moi? i take multi vitamins every day and ive been on hrt for almost 4 yrs now and id like to have some bigger boobs desu
>>35502235>there was a ring store inside of a club i went toimagining a regular pub with an entire jewelery department store stand in the middle right now
>>35499390No bisexual bass player wants to date me, so whatever.
>>35502622i'd say no, i experienced no breast developmentim 4 mo on hrt and barely have a handfuli think progesterone helps in boob growth but i only have experience with estrodial and spironalactone
>>35501064Sir, you described my whole circle of friends.
>>35501178Fucking do it and report for us later the results.
>>35502670esentially thats the case, they were selling dildos, earrings, paddles, leather gear etc. in the hallway between the dancefloors its like if etsy had a brick and mortar store
>>35502807im trying to drop some hints but i dont think hes picking up on it
>>35502927Are you into him too? What would you do if he escalated more blatantly/
>>35502970hell no
Would it be wrong to focus on short term relationships with men in my 20s and then settle down with a women after? Dating men seems much more fun than women honestly, feels enjoyable to the degree that even if nothing comes of it, it's still fun. Dating women is a chore, feels like I'm barely tolerated and constantly have to drag them to do anything not boring.
>>35502927>>35502982Post pics of your friend's dad. We need to judge how daddy material he is.
>>35503207It's not wrong to keep it casual, but I suspect you should try to learn to like women if you want to then settle into a happy relationship with a woman.
>tfw friend is switching teams>tfw cute senior developer is looking to change jobs>tfw it will only be me and very autistic girl left as developers in my country + 3 poles working remoteI HATE THIS, it's so fucking over......>>35503207If you don't wanna date women why go for women longterm lmao, dumb dumb
>>35503207Why not settle for men after having short relationships with men in your 20s? If dating women it's a shore for you now, it won't be easier down the road. Don't fall for the stereotype of desperate women on their 40s. They don't exist anymore.
>>35503226>>35503250This reminds me the whole possibility of having a MMF with a girl friend was ruined because she didn't like me using her soap and hair product after she allowed me to take bath at her house.I know it's a personal issue when it comes to permisions and etc, but all people I met and knew were 100% ok people using hygiene products avaiable on their bathrooms (obviously using moderately) when allowing someone taking a bath on their houses. Like, she really thought taking a bath is just throwing water on your body and that's it?
>>35503226I do like em but I just want to feel wanted for a change, it's actually making me pretty depressed dating chick's.>>35503242Kids mostly. If my sisters has kids, then that reason mostly dies.>>35503250Who knows? Maybe I'll meet a guy who makes me think he's my guy. Life is strange.
>>35502821That's surprisingly smart now that I think more about it, actually. Imagine how many drunk horny guests spontaneously end up buying something expensive
>>35503374>Kids mostlyAdopt or go for a surrogate belly if you want to pass down your DNA so much.
>>35503511I don't care about DNA all that much honestly, it's just way fucking easier to have kids with a women. Also I dislike the surrogate industry as it pretty much preys on women who can't afford not to surrogate and turns them into essentially breeding machines for the upper classes who don't want to lose out on their job because of pregnancy.
>>35495057>>35488752>>35489206pushed boundaries i shouldn't've, and hurt someone i cared deeply fori keep doing it too, i keep doing things i would never think of doing and i don't know whyso much so it makes me physically sick, i have to catch myself from vomiting from guilt sometimesmy soul is poison
would wearing women’s shapewear as a man actually be able to help give me cute girly hourglass hips or will it do nothing since i’m built like a rectangle?
>>35503751Wouldn't you do the same with the woman you are into a longer relationship?For you it's easier to go on with guys. More power to you.But then you want to have a long relationship with a girl later because of "kids mostly". The woman who you're going to have a kid is no different then a surrogate. Just date a man and adopt. It's way easier for you.
>>35503890It won't do nothing, but you'll get better results if you use some strategic hip padding along with it. If your stomach and/or butt is flat it's sort of pointless though, since there wont be anything to squish other than muscle
>>35504068I feel like I haven't explained myself well so it makes sense to read it that way. I wouldn't be begrudgingly "settle" for her and use it essentially as a womb, but what I'm say is, is it bad for me to mess about with guys in my 20s and then when I start thinking about more serious, more long term stuff, would I be a asshole for then switching to dating mostly women because dating women seems like the effort it takes, it feels more like it'd fit long term. I wouldn't be like "GUH, THOSE BITCHES ARE ONLY GOOD FOR KIDS", more just feels like a lot of women seem to date with long term in mind, or at least it feels like it, while guys feel like they just wanna have fun short term which I'm thinking might be good for a while. I feel like a LOT of women would have issue with that.
>>35503837I hope you can stop and forgive yourself, genuinely
>>35504253I wanna have a lot of fun short term but also marry and grow old with an eventual future partnerAnd by short term fun I mean take out on dates, go to the local zoo etcNot just hot sex (but certainly a lot of that too)
>>35503216i am not posting pictures of my friends dad on a chinese basket weaving forum!
>>35504950[Alignment points gained]
I'd pay good money to have someone sleep on my chest while I hug and kiss them
Moving in with my girlfriend has been the biggest mistake of my life. I should have listened but I had hoped things would get better and that other people just had bad experiencesNow I'm stuck in a 2 year lease and I have to pretend I love her every day. I want to die
>>35505077Break the lease anon
>>35504950post a look-a-like celebrity or something
>>35503448tell me about it i before that i'd leave with SOME cash left>>35503890follow this guide, it'll help you understand the issue a bit better but typically i'd avoid tight fitting body con stuffhttps://theconceptwardrobe.com/build-a-wardrobe/inverted-triangle-body-shapeheres the same guide but in video form https://youtu.be/_bBWVdCcfKo?si=Kus78UHac51jZagC
>>35501164I have no idea how you understood anything I said.>>35503837Damn. The only thing you can do now is move on and keep trying though.
>>35505054id do that for free what use do people have for money when they're already in heaven
>>35505120honestly i cant even think of any celebrity look alikes and if i tried describing him i might be biased bc anyone old enough to be my dad is unattractive to mehes like completely bald has his ears pierced has a stocky build and dark facial hair with noticeable grey hairs and he has glasses alsohes shorter than me but thats not hard to achieve given that im 5’11” lmfao he isnt that bad looking but the bar is in hell for older guys>>35504971what this mean :?
>>35505054Im too available and free for this anon.
>>35505250>what this mean :?[karma gained]also i looked up all those traits and only got hot peopleplease for the love of god tell me is he at the very least hotter than pic rel? if not don't bother
>>35505352>>35505250forgot pic
>>35505373>>35505352>[karma gained]oh okay yay ^.^>tell me is he at the very least hotter than pic rel? i mean yeah i guess so i still wouldnt tho the whole old enough to be my dad thing throws me off not to mention he is literally my friends dad
>>35505154"Oh, we're leaving? Okay hold on, I just have to buy this handmade 7000$ real leather whip, wait for me outside"
>>35502788>you described my whole circle of friends.I would normally be jealous that you have hot friends with good hobbies, but I think he's poisoned my brain. I'm fighting demons not to draw him constantly because I don't want to make it weird. I want to use him for figure studies but I'm worried he'll think it's creepy. Then again nothing seems to bother him.
I have some freckles on my face, is it impossible for me to become more feminine? Not femboy but femboy adjacent I guess.
>>35505899Some people like freckle bitches.
>>35505972^-^
>>35501164If you ever do get enough free time you should really try it, bass is awesome and cool >>35502778 it's OK I would date you!>>35499817 they were totally fucking
>>35505647i honestly hate how true that isT. got test spanked by a cowboy selling allagator leather whipspic very much rel
>>35506669...SOLD
>>35495057>Prison gay' is not a real thing and porn addiction does not alter your sexual orientation. You are bi.Wait, why isn't it a thing?
>>35507419it was something in you the whole timenot something brought on by external factorsie: you weren't brainwashed into being gay you were gay the whole time
>>35507419thought experiment: define prison gay
>>35505174>I have no idea how you understood anything I said.>wondering what you meant by this>goes back to check previous post>only notice the slight word salad in the last sentence right nowSomehow my brain must have a filter that auto-corrected it wtf. Maybe it's from all the adhd induced jumbled nonsense I type myself
>>35507715It's someone who has sex with people of the same sex not out a genuine attraction but because lack of access to the opposite sex.
>>35507835>Maybe it's from all the adhd induced jumbled nonsense I type myselfIt was basically this.
>>35495057I'm questioning if I'm bi (male).The attraction to women is obvious.See titties, tummies, ass, etc *neutron activation*Is the male-bi attraction to guys the same?I see handsome men (rarely) and am like "damn" but I don't feel like kissing them or anything.But if I see a cock *neuron activation*Think about getting fucked? *neuron activation*Yes I was molested as a kid...
>>35507886well thank god there's another one enjoying the salad with me, at least
>>35507947Now think about the cock of a handsome guy fucking you. You're biSorry about the molestation but that doesn't affect orientation.
>>35505415Electra is the longest running trip who doesn't go to movie nights
>>35508118As someone who actually experienced CSA I strongly believe that your first sexual experiences, especially in childhood, shape your sexuality.I think people peddle the idea that it doesn't because they don't want people to think all LGBT + folx are traumatized. Which is true but I think it is super invalidating to stress this point with no evidence.I feel NO romantic or other physical or sexual attraction to males except in the fantasy of being fucked by a cock. Because that was my first sexual experience...Kill rapists.
>>35508137dont remind me of the fact that ive been on here for 4 years
>>35508190Why would a negative experience make you want something. If anything you should be afraid of cocks >>35508201Come to movie nights
>>35508301gib link and ill consider it
>>35508190I mean you can believe that if you want but there is literally no evidence to support that claim>>35508344It's in the movie night posts that get posted every week
>>35507947i was also molested as a kid and working though it with my therapist it was a horrible thing that happened to me but it shouldnt effect how i express my sexuality it may feel as though brought on by external factors because you want to cope and don't wanna remember the trauma but bisexuality was in me long before i knew what the term meanti imagine you also have a hard time feeling intimate with or trusting people but therapy is the heathliest way to deal with these feelings anon
>>35508301Unironically I am happy that it makes no sense to you. I wish trauma on no one (except abusers, who deserve to die). Self revictimization is so goddamn common. Such violent violations of ones self cripple their sense of safety and trust in the world. To process and in some weird way "take control" of the violation, many victims reenact what happened to them. That can be by abusing others or self revictimization.>>35508475There has been no direct study because who is gonna go and somehow get male mice to rape other male mice as their first sexual experience and see what happens? Like wtf. Also HOW can you think your earliest sexual experiences don't affect your sexuality?https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S1359178999000117
>>35508680That article says nothing linking same sex attraction to sexual abuse
>>35508201>tfw I realize I've been on 4chan since 2006dear god...
>>35508732not as bad but holy shit i have been here since 2014 :(
>>35508732same
>>35508720You just read the abstract huh?Did that at least help you understand how sadly understudied the effects of abuse on males?Anyways, I am NOT saying that sexual abuse or even child sexual abuse makes you LGBT+.But there is a correlation. And although I am not a statistic I am a person and I'm telling you there is two sides of my sexuality, straight man and abused bottom.One is normal sexuality, the other has a pretty likely origin.ANYWAY....I didn't come here to debate that.I want to know what the experience of male-male sexuality in bisexuals is like. How does it feel? Is it similar to your attraction to girls?Although I am arguing that the trauma part of my sexuality is because of the abuse... I might also be bi. Maybe? Idk. It's possible and I've no problem with that and it makes sense that it's confusing and extra complicated because it is all tied up with the abuse.Ugggghhhhhhhh.Straight people are afraid of any deviance (e.g. homophobia) so I can't talk about my abuse and not-straight people are so afraid of being seen as deviant (e.g. internalized homophobia and fear of rejection) that NO one anywhere can just fucking listen to me. It's always about them fucking fuck fuck.Sorry that I'm rambling it's just like CSA ruins your WHOLE FUCKING LIFE
Guys I SERIOUSLY am sorry about hijacking this part of the thread with abuse discussions.Seriously sorry.If I'm bi do I get to start using the F word?Fart.
>>35508859No I read all of the article. It only mentions "sexuality problems" in the abstract, in the section snippets it mentions sexuality 0 times. Don't try to act smug about this. I've looked into this because I was abused too, and I've doubted my sexuality for years, so I've been where you are before, but I've looked into almost obsessively and from what I've found there is NO proven casual link between the two. But, and I hope I don't come off hostile but >One is normal sexuality, the other has a pretty likely origin.Hints at a form of internalized homophobia. There is no "default" sexuality, and if there was it would bisexuality in my opinion.
>>35508859>I want to know what the experience of male-male sexuality in bisexuals is like. How does it feel? Is it similar to your attraction to girls?In my experience the feeling is the same, but the expression of it is different
>>35508859alright ignoring first part>I want to know what the experience of male-male sexuality in bisexuals is like. How does it feel? Is it similar to your attraction to girls?very similar, its like being friends with the added benefit of you can have sexguys in general are very shy about pda and oddly more upfront about wanting sexim sorry that happened to you but i think outside of your trauma you are bisexual
>>35508680Yeah that article doesn't indicate that at all>>35508859I'm sorry about what happened to you but your beliefs on this are completely batshit
>>35508732>pumpkin party Yeah about the same for me but it's not like I'm here constantly. I didn't start visiting the site daily until I started coming to bigen and even then I rarely step foot outside this gen. The only reason I still come here at all is because the only not completely psychotic alternative is reddit, and reddit thread structure makes it impossible to have group discussions. Everything has to be one on one. Also it disallows image posting. Also the mods are complete weirdos who will lock a thread because people are arguing (that's not a reason to lock a thread) or bad you for having an opinion that runs contrary to theirs. And it's especially bad on the lgbt boards, you even so much as phrase something the wrong way on there and you are insta banned on suspicion of being a nazi. Thia is the problem woth a 99 peecent volunteer mod staff, you get what you pay for.Combine that with the fact that 4chan is mostly taken over by white supremacists at this point, and there really aren't any good web forum options anymore.
>>35508859I'm not that anon, but to me attraction feels the same no matter what gender or sex I'm looking at. I might prefer different fantasies for different people, but usually that has more to do with their personality than their sex.Regarding the csa thing, I dont doubt it can change your feelings towards sex, desire, and intimacy. I havent been through anything as bad as that, nor have I been raped, but what I did go through still sits in me to this day, and I have developed some kinks I dont think I would have had otherwise, accompanied by a bunch of deep deep intimacy problems.Whether or not your potential bisexuality (or parts of it) stems from abuse, you might have to tell yourself that all aspects of yourself are you - including ones that scare you, or ones you wish you didnt have. The fortunate thing is that you never have to act on it if you dont feel like it, or if you feel like it would be too much to handle mentally. You can acknowledge the existance of desires without indulging in them. All fantasies can stay fantasies if you dont want them to be real.
>>35505245>>35505328Well if it's free....I will warn you, I usually leglock and/or squeeze whatever I'm cuddling hard, hope thats not a problem
Currently obsessed with southern black women.
It's not too late to let scaramouche step on you
>>35509225honestly i wish there was a place that was truely libertarian (not american meme libertarianism but real freedom)4chan is nice and a close example of what im speaking about but you're right the audience is tooright wing for any productive conversationand reddit is just plain shiti just want a group of socially liberal people who aren't psychopaths or transphobes>>35510547i also like octopus cuddlesme on the right
Cold brew 2: Eepy Llama editionI think I put too much coffee in this time, got a bit too strong, will try to water it down a bit but now I know that my ratio is between 1:8 and 1,75:8 My hazelnut syrup and vanilla syrup finally arrived so I'm in white girl heaven>>35510667>i also like octopus cuddles>me on the right<3
Getting told by mom step mom at Christmas that "you're not really gay, I can tell" when she literally outed me to my dad and had me kicked out of the house is certainly something someone can say. Thankfully it seems my step siblings believe me more. I'd hate to see what Trans people have to go through everyday because that was frustrating in retrospect.
>>35510806Update:My friend told me I should dilute it with water, starting to believe he's right. I think of myself as quite caffeine resistant but goddamn, increasing the ratio of coffee to water has given me one hell of a heartrate. Was looking forward to a second glass but I'd actually fucking die>>35511013Putting this one in my "never coming out ever"-folder
>>35495057Hey /bigen/, just had a literal epiphany that brought me to the verge of tears IRL while I was jerking off and stoned (loser haha lol I know).this is probably going to sound completely insane. it's probably going to sound completely fucked up - I swear I'm not a complete spastic in real life, this is just me channeling some crazy internal shit raw minutes after I experienced it, again, stoned.Basically, around the time I started to go through puberty, I realized I was some sort of bisexual, but I think i was in denial about it and moved the goalposts to preserve my sense of masculinity by just fixating on more "feminine" gay porn/you know what I mean. Coincidentally when I started going through puberty I also ended up a white nationalist. The typical /pol/lack teenager shit around 2016. For years I fucked myself up on /pol/ shit until a few years back I realized how bad it was for me. Also, at the same time and I shit you not, I also had to deal with suppressing an urge to jerk off to interracial porn. It wasn't an addiction or anything weird like that, just a fetish that I resisted the urge to jerk off to.Fast forward to summer of last year and I fall into a really deep depression for months and months (though I think I've always been pretty depressed and anxious) and it ends up so bad that I finally against many deeply-ingrained prejudices went to a therapist and a psychiatrist. Fast forward to today, I've been on zoloft for a few months and suddenly feeling much more comfortable with all sorts of gay porn in general. And then today? I realize that ***I*** want to fuck black guys. I want to get fucked by black guys. All along, I think this whole fucking thing has been about me suppressing, indirectly, over the course of my entire post-puberty life, attraction to and a desire to be dominated by black guys.I know I sound like a spastic. I promise ordinarily I'm a much more coherent, sensible person. In fact, I'll prove it by answering replies.
>>35511430It's now your job to make the other /pol/tards see the light
>>35511530fuck no, I never want to interact with those retards again
>>35511639Understandable, I guess I really was getting at the fact that there probably is a lot more /pol/tards who feel the same, but yeah for the most part it's not anyone's job to save them.
>>35511675honestly, it isn't even about feeling. i don't think this was a coherent thought until this exact moment that I put it togetherthe idea that i'm not the only freak like this is comforting, though
>>35511430Will you now get fucked by black guys?
>>35510806White girl coffee has its charm, it's like drinking desserts. A company I worked at had a machine that could make caramel macchiatos and I drank a truly stupid amount of them.>>35511013What an actual fuckhead>>35511430You don't sound like a spastic, you sound like a disturbingly large amount of bisexual engineers I've met. As an outsider looking in I'm curious: did being a /pol/lack give you anything else other than fuel for denial? Purpose, community, politics that were easy to understand, whatever?It's cool that you got help. Extremism unironically fucks up all social interactions outside the in-group, no matter what kind it is.
>>35511430Good for you for getting help dude. >>35513252>Extremism unironically fucks up all social interactions outside the in-group, no matter what kind it is.This. Some people in my family have fallen down the QAnon/far-right pipeline and they're completely incapable of being normal no matter how mundane the topic of conversation.
>>35513571>Some people in my family have fallen down the QAnon/far-right pipelineShit, sorry to hear that anon. I've had people in my family who got close too, as well as some who were in a religious sect, and it felt like you had to either turn a deaf ear or censor yourself anytime you wanted to tell them something.
>>35513252>You don't sound like a spastic, you sound like a disturbingly large amount of bisexual engineers I've met. As an outsider looking in I'm curious: did being a /pol/lack give you anything else other than fuel for denial? Purpose, community, politics that were easy to understand, whatever?It's cool that you got help. Extremism unironically fucks up all social interactions outside the in-group, no matter what kind it is.I'm a tremendous know-it-all at heart and I think a big part of my choice in ideology came from a desire to be "right" when everyone else was "wrong". My time on the extreme right shaped my politics to this day - I'm just a centrist civic nationalist instead of a neo-fascist.>>35512583I'm hoping to convince myself to. I'm also hoping to kiss black men on their beautiful lips while they wrap their strong arms around me and a bunch of other stuff>>35513571>Good for you for getting help dude.It's incredible how much of an improvement getting help has been for my life and mood. I think I still have a ways to go with undoing some of my prejudices and being an anxious twerp in general, but I was so terrified of SSRIs because of what I had "learned" about them that it took me much longer than it should have to start taking them. I haven't even had to deal with any side effects so far, besides puking once or twice.
>>35513252>disturbingly large amount of bisexual engineers Hi I am a mental case that is a bisexual engineer. I feel called out.
>>35513252>>35513710>>disturbingly large amount of bisexual engineers>Hi I am a mental case that is a bisexual engineer. I feel called out.In all seriousness if any of you guys have heard similar stories/experienced something similar yourself, it would help me a lot to hear from you. Right now I'm stuck in my own head about it and my instincts are telling me that my judgement in reaching this conclusion is wrong and totally mental.
>>35513683Yeah, they got super religious as well. It got to the point where I would go visit them and they were either watching some fundie sermon, singing fundie songs, or scream praying. Everything came back either to god, the deep state, secret human trafficking and pedophile rings, med beds, the rapture, the vaccine killing people, gays being groomers, this really weird gesera/nesera thing, and a bunch of other crazy horseshit. They were constantly spamming our family group chat with all that, too. It didn't matter what they were talking about. Some of the stuff they believe is genuinely insane. My uncle (other side of the family) saw how spun out I was every time I came back from visiting them and eventually sat me down and had a talk with me about distancing myself. It really hurt because I was close to some of my cousins before they got like this, but I feel a little better now. >>35513702Unlearning stuff that's deeply ingrained is possible but it can be hard as shit. No matter how ideologically "pure" someone thinks they are, prejudice is so baked into our culture that even the most far-left people will repeat conservative talking points--they just use a Liberal Arts vocabulary while they do it. I had to unlearn plenty of stuff, mostly about gender and "being a man", myself. It was hard, but I was lucky that I was encouraged to get help early. >>35513710My boyfriend is gay and going into an engineering field. People think he's a complete maniac but for different reasons than what you guys are talking about. He's pretty sane to me, though.
>>35513762Wasn't super deep in any rabbit hole but I'll write when I get home :)
>>35513702>I'm just a centrist civic nationalist instead of a neo-fascist.This is definitely a big step towards a more normal life. I'm proud of you.>>35513762Sure, I'll type something up about some people I knew a bit later anon.>>35513710Half my friends are engineers, I'm two steps away from going back into therapy, and I almost did engineering too. whoops. (never had a /pol/ phase though, so that's something)>>35513920>distancing myself. It really hurtYeah, I've had to cut contact with most of my paternal family too because of it. It's a weird feeling, almost like they're dead.
>>35514039>It's a weird feeling, almost like they're dead.Yeah, same. Both my parents are dead so I think that's why I've been having an especially hard time with it. It felt like I lost the one remaining link to my mom.
>>35514895interesting trip. "murs", huh. I thought most of the people who spammed those fake discords stayed anon
can someone hold me tight in their big strong arms and call me cute and pretty? i need it
>>35514940I will. I can stroke your hair and keep you safe too, if you like.
just found out Timothee Chalamet is married to a woman, I think I'm going to be sick... (he should be married to me instead)
>>35515035i would be so happy i would probably cry lol
>>35515068That's really sweet and makes me want to love and protect you.
>>35515064I would also like to volunteer to join Timmy's harem.
>>35515089awwwwww <3
>>35515177
>>35514940Hi cutie, just wanna let you know that it's all gonna be alright. Would pull you in for a biiig hug but you're sadly a lovely princess living in my computer screen and not here
>>35515315awww you guys are so sweet its actually making me blush and tear up haha
>>35515430Mission accomplishedRemember that you deserve love and you deserve happiness
>>35515430You are altogether far too cute.
"Lets not use too many frozen berries in our smoothie this time, it's gonna be too thick"t.Idiot who had WAY too many frozen razzberries in his smoothie
>>35514940What's wrong? Wanna talk about it?
>>35515859>>35515924you guys made my day, thank you :)>>35516479nothing is really all that wrong, i’m just a little bit lonely and i’ve been trying to find a balance between my femininity and masculinity and its kind of overwhelming and scary to do by myself but it’s also really nice being able to be myself, sorry i’m kind of rambling haha
>>35516559> i'm just a little bit lonelyI am still at work, and today is a bit slow. So I feel pretty lonely right now, too. But hey, I got really good news today, so that's a bonus.> i've been trying to find a balance between my femininity and masculinityIt is okay, we all ramble at times. I struggle with this a lot, too. Lately, I am much more masculine, though. Maybe it is because as I get older, I can't really see myself as feminine anymore. Whenever I imagine feminine things, I remember my younger times. Lately, I started to think about femininity more, though, so maybe a change is happening within me. What about you?
>>35516559Happy to help, I'm always available for cuddles and to tell you you're cute.I also get that it can be kind of scary to start expressing yourself more openly if you haven't really been doing it before, but I hope it works out well for you and you get to be more comfortable with how you express. For what it's worth, I think almost everyone is a mix of masculine and feminine and the balance is often changeable and in flux. I find different people and different contexts bring out different aspects of myself, and I like getting to see the different versions of me.
>>35516630i’m intersex and suppressed all feminine traits of myself for years out of embarrassment but now that i live on my own i’m kind of coming to accept that side of me, i still love being a guy but also want to be a princess >>35516668thank you, you’re just the sweetest, if i could i’d give you the biggest hug i could possibly give rn :)
>>35516757>still love being a guy but also want to be a princessHaha, exactly me. I've been living alone for years, and initially, I used to get into cute clothes the moment I stepped into my house. As time passed, I stopped doing this and threw everything away. It is partially because I couldn't really find anyone to experiment with (at least to my liking) and partially because I felt like those clothes didn't look good on me anymore. When I was living with my parents back when I was a kid, they found my stash a couple of times, and every single time I had to say I was doing it for getting hard for masturbation, I never could say I was curious about being a girl, so had to suppress my feminine traits as well.
yah yo yah yoIn about 40 minutes (19:00 GMT if I'm correct), episodes 3 and 4 of the live-action One Piece adaptation are going to be streamed in the /bigen/ discord server. Come if you want, don't if you don't.https://discord.gg/cNQyhs2S (idk if this link'll work, hopefully it does lol)
>>35511430>I was jerking off and stonedwhats loser about that, sounds like a normal tuesday>The typical /pol/lack teenager shit around 2016. For years I fucked myself up on /pol/ shit until a few years back I realized how bad it was for me.lmao sounds like me desu shit killed my social life but at the very least now im respectable for friends
>>35516757Hugs to you too, Princess-kun.
>>35495349>mfw no gock to gluck
is the bi cycle real
>>35516803sounds a lot like me, though i’m not so much interested in being a girl as i am feeling like i am cute and pretty and being treated femininely, if that makes any sense. i like how warm and fuzzy it makes me feel inside and it makes me sad that some people would probably assume i’m doing it for sex reasons
>>35516960yes and we all experience it differently>>35516945read that as no glock to gluck and got really concerned for a second
>>35516922<3
ANIME NIGHT>ANIME NIGHTANIME NIGHT! A special announcement !Tonight we're going to stream ep 3 and 4 of the One Piece Live action show, and its gonna start NOWJoin us !!!!>https://discord.gg/49HawTd2
>>35514039>>35513762Alright I'm back. I'll preface this by saying that the people I've met and known never joined fascist or neo-nazi groups irl as far as I know, since they primarily operate in another part of the country. Some got involved with old organized crime gangs, that are somewhat adjacent in beliefs. Others tried getting into alt-right nationalist police groups (i.e. police officers that are into beating up foreigners). A lot stuck to being alt-right on their own though, mostly interacting with likeminded people online.also sorry, it ended up long as fuck. I guess I’ve thought about it a lot, knowing I could easily have been an extremist myself (not alt-right tho, more like a nihilistic anarchy kind of extremism. I still have to keep myself in check). I’ve attached it as an image so I don’t spam too much. The TL;DR is that seeking out extremism is often an emotionally motivated reaction to past experiences and powerlessness, as far as I can tell. It seems like it is often be an emotionally dysregulated reaction to being hurt.
>>35517326That all makes a lot of sense, there's a reason that extremist groups often target emotionally vulnerable people for recruitment.
>>35517001>though i’m not so much interested in being a girl as i am feeling like i am cute and prettyI am sorry for the reply, it got a bit busy around me. Yes, I know what you mean exactly. Cross-dressing was a venue for me to attain that "cuteness" and made me feel pretty. I just liked what I saw when I did those things. I liked what I saw when I looked into the mirror and felt like a princess, just like you said. I never did it for sex. Even though I was and still am interested in men, I never dressed for anyone but me.
>>35516757>i still love being a guy but also want to be a princessI am a staunch believer in that princess is not a genderlocked term, go and be the best cutest princess
also I'm going to buy alll the motherfuckers being cute in here roses and chocolates or something. never stop being cute
>>35514039Being mental and going into engineering is kinda the norm. It is the reason so many get with teachers.
>>35517504If you buy me roses I'm going to keep them long after they dry out and get covered in cobwebs and stuff because I think that makes a good gothy home decoration, so I'll likely have them for years.
>>35517370Yeah, there's that double benefit of being easier to recruit and then, later on, being more devout members since they'll feel like they have more to lose. Plus, they'll be better at spreading the word to new vulnerable people, since they might feel like they're helping past versions of themselves.
>>35517555I am this anon here >>35517435, and I am an engineer too...
>>35517591I used to crossdress a bit but im too old and manly now.Which is funny cause I am about to go into cosplaying seta soujiro which is young and not especially manly.It all is what it is anon.
What is the most /bigen/ animal? Creature even, mythical or real. I feel like cats are pretty cool. Also bisexual mechanic representing.
>>35517642I feel the same way, I am a bit too old for crossdressing. I haven't been thinking about it for some time now, but for some reason, lately, I want to get into cute panties, stockings, and skirts again. I know it will look ugly, but I crave the sensation pretty strongly lately.>>35517654I am definitely a cat; sometimes, I want to be left alone and do my thing, completely annoyed by others, ready to hiss and scratch whoever tries to touch me. sometimes I want to rub against someone, purr, meow, and beg for some petting, lol.
>>35517654A close friend of mine recently told a girl he works with that foxes are my spirit animal, and she said that's the most bisexual thing she'd ever heard.
>>35517654You are either and orange cat or a golden retriever.>>35517677> know it will look ugly, but I crave the sensation pretty strongly lately.Considered shifting to cosplay where it is a bit more acceptable?
>>35517681i love foxes so this makes sense
>>35517710I am not really into cosplaying or anime in general. I do gaym a bit, so maybe I could cosplay as game characters, but cosplaying as Mercy would look a bit weird, wouldn't it? What did you have in your mind exactly?
>>35517459princess is a mental state, yeah, anyone can be it if they gather up enough chi>>35517555cursed, I almost got with a teacher too...>>35517566You wont have any floor space left once I'm done, sorry anon, you live in dried rose city now >>35517591Bigen: Engineering Edition>>35517654that's tough. I think foxes and cats like the others have said are a good fit, maybe a cute frog too. But for me personally I've always seen myself more as a stupid crow getting in trouble
>>35517326yeah i think this definitely checks a lot of boxes for me
>>35517736>But for me personally I've always seen myself more as a stupid crow getting in troubleAren't crows supposed to be pretty intelligent?>cursed, I almost got with a teacher too...Engineering profs in my university were absolutely hardened assholes. I can't even imagine myself with them. My Ph.D. advisor was a relatively young woman, she was very nice, but even then, when she got angry, she really pushed my shit in. I may or may not pop a boner on one occasion. I swear I don't have a humiliation fetish, by the way.
>>35517736Send me enough roses and I'll do the American Beauty pose for you.
>>35517732No just was a suggestion as an out for it.>>35517736Lol lmao.
>>35517778Oh, I see. What are you going to cosplay as?
>MOVIE NIGHTMOVIE NIGHT>MOVIE NIGHTMOVIE NIGHTA reminder that tomorrow at 21 GMT we will vote for the next two movies for Movie Night! If you want you can also give your recommendation by replying to this post>what the hell is "movie night"its a special night where bigen comes together to watch on Discord two movies chosen by the community>when will movie night take place?its FRIDAY at 22 gmt>where do we watch the movies?on the Bigen Movie and Game Night Discord server:https://discord.gg/KX2kCTDG>i don't usually post on bigen/never took part in movie night, can i join?of course, movie night is open to anyone, just remember to be civil and have fun!fyi: this is the list of every movie we watched so far:https://pastebin.com/Bc8pqK9h
>>35517776DEAL>>35517775>Aren't crows supposed to be pretty intelligent?Yeah but they're also kind of playful pranksters who make stupid mistakes like getting stuck in trash cans because they know there's food in there and stuff, you know. I get good grades and my iQ is apparently high enough for the nerd club, but I'm still dumb as shit most of the time, because I'm curious before I'm smart.>Engineering profs in my university were absolutely hardened assholes.Oh yeah uh, mine was... uh... back in ... High school... :) Im normal.>>35517771Sorry to hear that anon. shit sucks. Hope it helps seeing it laid out like this though
>>35517914Batman Returns
>>35517914Jojo Rabbit
>>35517710I have been described as a golden retriever, I'd like to have cat some day
>>35517922Crows are my favourite birds.
>>35517922>Oh yeah uh, mine was... uh... back in ... High school... :) Im normal.Suree....>because I'm curious before I'm smart.Hey, I would say I am curious before I am smart as well. In fact, I don't feel like I am smart most of the time. So I don't think you should just call yourself dumb like that.
>>35517922>Sorry to hear that anon. shit sucks. Hope it helps seeing it laid out like this thoughI feel incredibly validated and much less alone, thanks.I am >>35511430 btw
>>35517504i would melt if someone gave me flowers or chocolate >>35517654i wanna say dolphins, more often than not they're bisexual that and most of them look like my ideal man, smooth hairless and good at swimmingthat and i love the idea of star treks cetation ops(dolphins that help navigate the spaceship)>>35517786nta but i would love to pull off a mercy cosplay
>>35517922I don't think that many roses would cover very much of me.
>>35517952I love them so much man, I used to teach the ones near my high school tricks. gods I miss them.>>35517977You definitely aren't alone anon. I'm glad it helped you trust your stoned epiphany. You got this. Drop by if you need more help from us, bigen is usually fairly chill.>>35517955Damn. Yeah. I guess I shouldn't. Old coping habits die hard. Thanks for reminding me, honestly>>35518093No joke but one of my dreams for a relationship is to have a girlfriend or a boyfriend I could buy roses for on a whim, or cook desserts for, or - yeah. Things like that. Take them to art museums and aquariums and stare at them the whole time. Talk all night... That's my secret, don't tell anyone
>>35518330>No joke but one of my dreams for a relationship is to have a girlfriend or a boyfriend I could buy roses for on a whim, or cook desserts for, or - yeah. Things like that. Take them to art museums and aquariums and stare at them the whole time. Talk all night... That's my secret, don't tell anyoneHE JUST LIKE MEHE JUST LIKE ME FR
>>35517654I think the answer is obvious, the humble gorrila. Strong but not aggressive a gentle giant in a hostile environment.
>>35518371I forgot to post the picture :b
>>35518286Don't worry anon, I got this
>>35518383handsome.....
>>35518330>>35518366I don't think I'd previously realised how much I want to be treated like this. I went to a museum with a girl once and it was fun, but we were both on a massive comedown and had been up for like two days so that did affect the tone somewhat. I guess it still worked on me though because I stayed with her for the next five years.>>35518418Alright, I better get posing.
>>35518476>I don't think I'd previously realised how much I want to be treated like thisthere's a zoo with a hotel semi close by where you can watch the animals from the room, it's the first place I'm taking someone whom I know is gonna be a long term partner
>>35518523Yeah, that would 100% work on me.
WHY DO ALL OF YOU LIVE SO DAMN FARi just wanna pull you freaky lil cuties though my screen (red parts are where it hurts)
>>35518596Well where do you live?
>>35518457Chick's love the gorrila
>>35518596whatever do you mean, I'm but an airplane ride away, the only thing stopping you, is yourself young grasshopper
>>35518476Theres a bit of stigma about expressing desire towards these kinds of things, I feel, both for wanting to be on the giving end and the recieving end. Whenever it's portrayed in media I feel like it's either played for comedy or mocked for its "kitsch" vulnerability.>Alright, I better get posing.smuganimeface.jpgHeh! Another Epic Win for Sappy Rose guy
>>35518619Coloradowhere the weed is nice and the mountians are pretty>>35518652fair enough but my larger point is i want it NOW :(>>35518666pic rel
>>35518717>fair enough but my larger point is i want it NOW one can dream>Coloradojesus, fine, 1 airplane ride with one stop
>>35518666Yeah, you're right. The girl I mentioned going to the museum with never made me feel like I was weak, or weird. I felt like I could be completely myself around her, and she didn't just accept it but valued and shared it. We did all sorts of romantic stuff that I wouldn't feel able to do with anyone else I've been with.>>35518717Oh, I would like to visit Colorado but I'm currently on TERF Island.
>>35518717Omg I live near Colorado we should have hot sloppy mountain sex
>>35518626o-ook!>>35518596What do you mean silly anon, I live right here>>35518717lets all go smoke bisexual weed on the colorado mountains>>35518767That sounds really nice, I understand why you'd want to stay in that for five years. I'm scared as fuck to be fully myself around others 24/7
>>35517914https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCrDo3eCXkw
>>35518666>>35518888wow how'd I get these two in a row
Never forget that fortnite castrated Raiden, bakaAlso please let me live anywhere that isn't the butthole place I love now
>>35518922*live now
>>35518872>>35518888i would love a joint and having sweaty tent sexi am in the plains somewhere outside of denver>>35518911>also gets dubsholy shit anon stop
>>35516810>lmao sounds like me desu shit killed my social lifeIt actually had minimal impact on my social life, I've always been very good at hiding how I actually feel about things (gee, wonder why?) and so really the thing doing the real damage to me is me being so anxious during my teens that even when I interacted with people I was friendly with, I was/am too nervous to show them more of who I actually am
>>35518922>Never forget that fortnite castrated RaidenIt's a damn shame>Also please let me live anywhere that isn't the butthole place I love nowJust snare yourself a rich bigenner and move in with them
>>35518888I would very much like to go smoke weed in the mountains with a gaggle of bisexuals.>That sounds really nice, I understand why you'd want to stay in that for five yearsOh, for sure, she was the absolute love of my life. But she was also BPD, so there was quite a lot of unpleasantness in there too and it didn't end well. I have very strong but mixed feelings about the whole situation, and it's made it a lot harder for me to romantically connect with people since.
>>35518922They expect me to spend 20 dollars on a super soldier without his dick? Those sons of birches
>>35518980Fucking God damn it
>>35518958this is me projecting a bit but please correct me if im wrong but during that time did you have groups of friends you'd interact with but feel disconnected?have you ever felt like a social chameleon?i ask because your journey sounds a lot like mine
>>35518980got-dang liberal media pushing tucking on our super soldiers#releasehisdick
>>35517923>>35518906Sequel night babyyyy let's make it fuckin' happen
>>35519030I would say that I had plenty of "friends" in high school and that I was generally liked well enough - I have the yearbook signatures to prove I wasn't a total recluse, at least - but I wasn't close to any of them at all, and had no contact with any of them outside of school. I'd say that I've had tons of friendly acquaintances, but very few actual friends.
>>35519044#releasethepeniscut
>>35517914legendwe need sexy satan
We want Raiden bulge and we want it now
>>35518922They took his man-meat..... My god.>>35518941Omw give me like 80 days to one-man canoe across the atlantic ocean I'll be there>>35518970Ah, shit. Yeah, I could imagine. The highs with people with BPD are so high, but the lows? Awful.
>>35518872I bought some barilla. I will never financially recover from this and it is probably the last /k/ thing I buy for a long while.>>35517786I am going as seta soujiro from kenshin. I need to clean up the outfit before I head out to the con scene tho.
>tfw sexted with a complete random i met on a wow discord serverNot my proudest moment desu.
>>35519918Pretty
>>35520379I love guns so much I should buy one
>>35520401Or do airsoft. I play airsoft and shoot guns, and draw, and more. Too many hobbies not enough money or time.I gotta wait 5 months to buy a motorcycle now.>>35520379WHY IF IT THE PERFECT SLOT FOR ITALIAN NOODLE BOXES.
>>35520491Forgot my trip also i need thisI don't usually watch vtuber clips either https://youtu.be/RjLdm0MANtU?si=fg2vxOjdBUFYiLGA
>>35520491Airsoft sounds neat I've always kinda had an interest in it, maybe I'll try it with some friends this summer. But It does sound like a expensive hobby. Omg you want a motorcycle too? We should have babies>WHY IF IT THE PERFECT SLOT FOR ITALIAN NOODLE BOXES.It's so you can have a little treat for later, a little reward
>>35520709Cyma ak74 or cyma metal standard are 200$, ammo for a day is 20$, day play, 20-25$, mask 25$Thats all you need at minimum. I've spent 1.6k on equipment and airsoft guns.I've spent 2.7k on guns not including ammo...
>>35520761That's actually not as bad as I thought it was, guess I am gonna be researching more about airsoft guns my goal is to find one that looks like a FAMAS. I LOVE the famas
>>35519918I don't really like the bullpup designs
>>35520940Unfortunately there aren't many famas that are worth while in aeg. F2000 and aug are more common bullpups and ash on /xs/ has a guide for it.Airsoft is the only place you see twinks with thigh highs out in the open.
>>35521203Damn it, I was gonna be metal gear guard maxing but I guess I'll have to go for a more normal set up >Airsoft is the only place you see twinks with thigh highs out in the open.You should have said this first, I will be signing up immediately o7
>>35521381Actually i guess cybergun is releasing them again so yeah there's a 215$ aeg famas.Btw if you want to mgs max the mk23 and usp have electric pistol options which are cheaper than green gass counterparts.The enjoyment is cosplay and larp but i suggest minimum equipment for your first time and a high cap mag>>35521075Its a pistol(technically)>>35520044Im not saying I haven't either
>>35519918>I am going as seta soujiro from kenshin.Sounds nice, I didn't know who he was, so I had to check, lol.I thought a bit today after talking with peeps here and I think I will buy some panties and other stuff and embrace my inner girl for a bit...
>>35517914Cool World (1992)Since we watched Roger Rabbit past week, we should continue with 2D mixed with real world movies.
>>35521481Bro, that movie sucks
Do you lick up your precum when you're jerking off or do you wipe it off some other way?
>>35523972Depends on my mood.
>bullpupNow that's a gun for bottoms if I ever saw one...
>>35523972i almost never make precum
Why the actual fuck am I getting commercials, as a cis man, for titty binders?
>>35525187you need the support for the trying times to come, anon. cant have your nips exposed to the hardships of living, or your man chest blubbering around, they'll fall off
>>35525526>cant have your nips exposed to the hardships of livingMY RIBCAGE IS LARGE I CAN'T HELP ITMy tshirts have to be two sizes too large to completely hide them, doesn't help that they're big too, fucking always poking out ;-;
>>35525541They crave the freedom of the outside world. Left unattained they will run away.You must not let them.Unless it's the beach, for some reason, then it's okay
>>35525657THEY CANNOT BE TAMED
>>35495057>Would you be more or less likely to watch sports if the athletes were cyborgs?more, provided it makes the sports actually interesting like Battlebots, and not boring performance enhancement that just makes it last longerwe want spectacle, dammit, record breaking for its own sake is boring and gay>What's a piece of media that you have mixed fwelings about? saw Poor Things like a week ago and while it's beautiful and very good, it's also packed with revolting stuff that I find hard to stomach and the pathetic lover character kinda makes me feel called outvery uncomfortable movie>>35524559I'm the same and I've always been a little jealous of people with abundant precummy first bf leaked so much you could basically completely lube him up just with his own juice, it was so fucking hot and I couldn't get enough of teasing himI kinda feel bad for getting horny thinking about this because he died recently, but he was truly an awesome lay>>35525541I often feel self-conscious about my nipples showing through my shirt, but I think that, realistically, most people pay it absolutely no mind, and for those who do stare at your nips, they probably think it's hotit's kind of funny how girl nipples are the ones being censored by society, but it's up to boys to censor their own nipples out of shame (shame for what?)I for one, don't mind seeing a guy's nipples poking through fabricquite sexy, in factmmm...boy nipples...
>>35525671NUDISTO BEACH!!!(wow it's been a while since ive watched that anime im getting old. bury me in a dakimakura pillow case...)
>>35523972I either produce nothing at all or, if I'm very very horny and/or edging, an OBSCENE amount.I don't think I'd need lube for my onahole on a day like that if I'm honest>>35525680>I for one, don't mind seeing a guy's nipples poking through fabricWhy thank youNice to know, especially since I literally can't help it unless I wear very oversized clothes>>35525693Yeah, that shit came out when I was in middle school, makes me feel real old
>>35522690Shut up, you suck (my dick), bro.
>>35525752>Nice to know, especially since I literally can't help it unless I wear very oversized clothesYou should stop using oversized t-shirts and let everyone see your glorious nipples through fabric. Also, post pics.
I'm thinking of end it all. I'm sick of of me
>>35517914Lupin III: The Castle of Cagliostro
>>35527042This is what they did to Fortnite Raiden
>>35527024definitive solution to a temporary problem, yadda yaddawhat's bothering you, anon ?>>35526747tight fabric on pecs and bellies is based actuallyeven (especially) for chubbies
>>35526747>You should stop using oversized t-shirts and let everyone see your glorious nipples through fabric.I don't use oversized anymore and as a result everyone gets to see>Post pics You think I'm that much of a whore? That I'd post my t-shirt nips online?100%, gimme like 2 hours until I'm off work and I'll post
>>35527794I just hate myself. I have this constant need to destroy myself to want to destroy myself. I want to be destroyed. I want to be annihilated. This form I hate it. This mind I hate it. I want to be someone else, anyone else.
>>35527909>>35527024It gets better anon, you are a worthwhile person who deserves to be happy. Have you tried medication/ therapy?
>>35527816BOY NIPS BOY NIPS>>35525752Hot, I want to taste leaky pp>>35523972I thought everyone did, it doesn't really taste like anything
>>35527816>I don't use oversized anymore and as a result everyone gets to seeGlorious>100%, gimme like 2 hours until I'm off work and I'll postBOY NIPS! BOY NIPS! BOY NIPS!
NIPS! NIPS! NIPS! NIPS!
>what having a large ribcage does to a mf'ersorry for the low quality pic, my hand stuttered, you'll have to live with it>>35528503>>35528488YOU EXPECTED BOY NIPS? TOO BAD! IT WAS CHUBBY MASC NIPS>Hot, I want to taste leaky ppIronically using what's shown in the picture is the most surefire way of having it happen, huge erogenous zone for sure>>35527909>I just hate myself. I have this constant need to destroy myselfIs this due to a genuine self hatred or is it more of a "tired of living life like this kind of deal"? I have a lot of experience in the second department (and a history of sort of fixing it for me)
>>35528811>IT WAS CHUBBY MASC NIPSJokes on you those look incredibly suckable >Ironically using what's shown in the picture is the most surefire way of having it happen, huge erogenous zone for sureSame>>35517914Naked Gun 33 1/3: The Final Insult
>>35524164>$2200 rifle>$1600 optic comboI wish I had money and could own a safe queen as expensive as my car
>>35528503>>35528795
>>35524164As they say. Is that a famas?I actually don't know what I am looking at.>>35529246Oh damn i could buy a honda grom with that money.
>tfw I have thought about other people during sex with my bf every time it happens in last 3 years
>MOVIE NIGHTMOVIE NIGHT >MOVIE NIGHTMOVIE NIGHTA reminder that at 19 GMT we will choose the next 2 movies for movie night!You can give your recommendation now by replying to this post>what the hell is "movie night"its a special night where bigen comes together to watch on Discord two movies chosen by the community>when will movie night take place?its FRIDAY at 22 gmt>where do we watch the movies?on the Bigen Movie and Game Night Discord server:https://discord.gg/mrU6Cupg>i don't usually post on bigen/never took part in movie night, can i join?of course, movie night is open to anyone, just remember to be civil and have fun!fyi: this is the list of every movie we watched so far:https://pastebin.com/Bc8pqK9h
>>35528811>>35529457We've been blessed
>>35528811I think it's self hatred, bit ot could be just that my life is going nowhere. I've been trying to move out of Texas for a couple of years now, but I screwed up.my best lead in another state, that's just one example though
>>35530038We are all children of god, be blessed my childSalvation will reach us all>>35529457do we have the same t-shirt or something?Also, very nice hair>>35530161>I think it's self hatred, bit ot could be just that my life is going nowhereI had the same feeling, I think for me it originated in depression/anxiety getting amplified by my then shitty lifeGetting a decent place to live + a job hasn't cured me by a long shot but it helps in not amplifying my selfhatred and depression which makes it way easier to have a good time in lifeDunno what I wanted to say really, I just really relate to/used to relate to what you said
>>35530414>do we have the same t-shirt or something?>Also, very nice hairI hadn't even noticed that, it's the first one I grabbed. I think you wear it better.Also, thank you! I mostly let it do it's own thing but I make sure to use good quality shampoo and conditioner. When I was a teenager my mum told me "You can grow your hair if you want, but boys are gross so you need to take extra care to keep it clean" and the advice stuck with me.
>>35530479>I hadn't even noticed that, it's the first one I grabbed. I think you wear it better.Oh stop it>Also, thank you! I mostly let it do it's own thing but I make sure to use good quality shampoo and conditionerNeed to grow out my hair again, love being able to put it up, do you have any recommendations for shampoo and conditioner?
>>35529457Juicy nipples. You also seem to have a good physique. Congratualtions, anon.
>>35530571>Oh stop itI will do no such thing!>do you have any recommendations for shampoo and conditioner?I get mine from Lush, it's always been nice on my hair. I also only really shampoo the scalp and roots rather than the length and ends, and do the opposite with conditioner and mostly apply that to the length. To dry it I just pat it down with a t-shirt rather than a towel, and then let it dry naturally. The big thing is I just try not to do anything that would damage it, like blowdrying or brushing it through when it's dry.>>35530681Thank you! I'm in the best shape I've ever been in now. I started out being really full on twink skinny, but I'm currently the heaviest I've ever been whilst still staying very lean.
god help me im going to re-install new vegas
what are some other things besides wearing shapewear, shaving my body hair, and taking pueraria mirifica that i can do to feel pretty?
>>35530924I always lose steam at Old World Blues, but I pin the blame upon Dead Money for sapping my vigour...
>>35530924What type of character are you going to play?
>>35531077honestly i think im skipping old world blues its too formulaic (im a dead money apologist)
>>35531086usually i go with the morally good/anarchic route so i think i want to try an "evil" playthru
>>35531132as for build ig a melee/charisma focused mix
>>35531132>>35531147Fun! Which faction? Sounds like Legion would be the most thematically appropriate.
>>35531164def legion, also its going to be heavily modded since i usually play games vanilla
>>35531095I enjoy the content added by OWB, but Big Mountain as a location is exceedingly dull and directionless.
>>35531174I always mod the shit out of my Bethesda games. I've not done a NV playthrough in years though, the most recent Fallout I played was a heavily modded FO4:VR. It's a disappointingly bad VR port and required a load of janky mod combinations to add features that are completely standard in other VR games. Still probably the most enjoyment I've got out of 4 though.
>>35531178yea def true, lots of walking on flat terrain with repetitive radio messages with some cool weapons added>>35531223bethesda gaming be like
Gayyyyyyy
>MOVIE NIGHTMOVIE NIGHT>MOVIE NIGHTMOVIE NIGHTThe poll is now open, no further recommendations will be accepted. The voting will stop tomorrow at around 4 PM GMT, so be sure to vote before then!Here is the link to the server:https://discord.gg/mrU6Cupg
>>35529457Wait is this the same chest? Looks tasty anyway>>35530161New opportunities will present themselves with time anon, let it happen and you'll see another lead arise >>35530924Beware the queer emo cutie pipeline, first they're playing new Vegas, then they're ordering a blahaj. Many such cases >>35531174>picrelWhat is this a whey elemental
>>35531448if you cant beat em hide it in the workplace emhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Os6GQbymBig
>>35531448>Wait is this the same chest? Looks tasty anywayIt's me, I'm not >>35528811 we just apparently have the same t-shirt. Thank you though, you'll make me blush.
>>35531538you guys are nip-brothers now
Please hold me tight before this thread ends.
>>35532176Are you the same Anon that asked for this yesterday? I'm happy to cuddle you either way.
>>35532196no, that was me, i’m princess-kun hehe
>>35531448>Wait is this the same chest? Looks tasty anywayI was just surprised as you were, seeing my tit-doppelganger in this thread made me do a double take>>35532274I'm happy you embraced your deserved title of princess, you qt
>>35532176>>35532274Well I'll happily hold you both, even if I haven't received my order of roses yet.
>>35532296aww thank you :)>>35532304hehe yayyyy!!!!
>>35532616Cutie.
>>35532681you’re so sweettttt, i’ll let you kiss me on the cheek hehe
>>35532788Keep being so cute and you're going to get kissed and cuddled all day.
>>35532878>>35532878>>35532878NEW FREAD INNIT>>35532878>>35532878>>35532878
>>35532884aww thank you, just thinking about it makes my day
