>>35537112Hi qott - whats your favorite car? I like the civic del-sol.
>>35552607i drive a 95 v8 justang
>>35552607i dont have a fave car cause i never learned about them. my aunts mercedes was nice wheni was in it tho
>>35552607Okay I know you posted your body because you want attention and validation so I'll give you some. I'm not even into girls that much but I wanna punish you in a nonsexual way for being naughty by bending you over my fucked up tranny knee and spanking you and twisting your sore breast buds
>>35552607nissan s30cute belly btdubs
Todays diary entry.I want to kill myself. I want to kill myself. I want to kill myself. I am going to kill myself. I need a new method. God I wish I could just kill myself. I want to die. Die die die die die. Why is it so hard to understand. I don’t want to live, I just want to die.
>>35552607ummm am boring so supra>>35552750gyattebayo
i drive one of these shitboxes
>>35552764i drive it's slower cousin it has cool headlights too.
>>35552773celica or cressida?
>>35552777celica
manmoder car meet
i think ive done it this timehe hasnt responded to my messages, no seen no reacts nothing. i should know better than letting it slip that i'm in love with my fp
>>35552873lol
>>35552873bad move. i have no romantic interest in my fp she's just nice to be around and tolerates my stupidity.
thank god it’s Friday amirite mistersisters?
>>35552917i had the week off because i'm hurt so it's been pretty boring.
>>35552879>>35552892never againcurrently assessing the damage i've caused yet again
>>35552943what did you expect nigger
>>35552966i always come out on top.
>>35552981like sexually?
>>35552607I don’t know anything about carsNever did prolly never willI do wanna get a nice Vespa bike though…
>>35552607>Qott:I've never gotten into cars, I don't care that much about themWould like to own a 4 stroke KTM EXC street legal dirtbike I could practice tricks with
>>35552995no in life. imma bottom
>>35552917y-yeah
i never had a chance
Why even troon outWhy shave your man faceWhy bother bring anything other than a regular man.
>>35553683Shut upppAre you stalking me?
>>35553669>Why even troon outi dont wanna be ugly>Why shave your man faceso im not ugly>Why bother bring anything other than a regular manbecause i can
>>35552607making a new thread when the old is at page 1?ultra cringe
>>35553771ButYou are still uglyMen can be handsome too
>>35553807i think i look pretty. when i have no facial hair my face looks nice. like not feminine, but at least not cuttingly masculine
>>35553807I got more compliments on my appearance by cis woman as a manmoder on hrt than I did before hrt. I might not be a cute girl but I'm def a pretty guy now.
>>35553853RealWomen said I look sooo much better now.I really need to get rid of the facial hair it is killing me. Im ok with body hair they are easier to deal with but my beard shadow is a killer
>>35553831My face is just disgusting, still have too much bodyfat% to look even decent, I hate how much i still cope eat despite cutting down 10kg
>>35553943its hard af to cut eating as a coping mechanism out. Ive lost a bit of weight but still have about 7kg to go and i just rubber band a lot. but i suppose you gotta look at the positives. ive gotten to 68kg in the past, and i can make it to 63kg if i really try
>>35554012im fucking 89kgim a monster with a gut of a beer drinking terf loving englishmanONLY positive is my tits gotten big and I can just pretend I am fat to people.Every night I waste my money on take out cause I am retarded.
>>35554018I dieted from 95 to 85kg in a few months last year, you can do it..But now I want to be somewhere mid 70kgs and I'm constantly hungry so it seems impossible, but we can do it still..
>>35554055I have been eatng nothing but veggies and stuff but at night the chicken deluxe special form the local eatery somehow ends up on my plate and deskIm weak after getting home form work and nothing says relaxation than spicy chicken.Ill try to be strongI wasted around 4k euro in the last 5 years eating crap.Maybe more
testosterone has permanently disfigured me
>>35554111I know it's hard but it sounds like you are making it yourself hard. Don't eat only veggies and stuff, you need protein and fat aswell in your diet. Do you have a physical job? You have to eat more to compensate for your job aswell. Yes the food at night is top tier, especially if it has good spices and a good amount of fat but you can make your own with spices and way less fat. Of course it'll not be as good and will take time but atleast you'll get something alternative.My point is that you shouldn't go into a too great calorie defecit diet to get faster results since staying on that kind of diet is impossible.I'm on a diet with 1 cheat meal/week and this week it was pizza. I've already lost 2kg in a month.
>>35554146Long story short I am just eating more than I need.I am inconsistent too. last year I did pretty succesful diet when I was still cooking stuff.Now im getting food from mom and then take out.Should start doing more groceries I guess, instead of just pasta and the same 4 meals I make. Which then leads me to just get bored and eat crappy food en mass.
>>35553936just start laser already.
>>35554288MOney??????????????Also is laser really gonna work with ym HUGE DARK hair?
>>35554323If you have dark hair you're golden, I have very light hair and doubt laser will have any effect
>>35554336So your telling em there is a chance...
>>35554323laser got rid of most of my black hairs (still have one or two more sessions) and left all my light red and white ones. perks of having a tricoloured beard...gonna need electro for the remainders
>>35554342If you have dark hairs on your face, the laser will be efficient in getting rid of those lessening your beard shadow, yes
>>35554358Alright we winning today men>>35554343Damn sounds like a hustleHope it works out for ya!
I will get a male haircut soon and cut off my shitty tranny hair so I can manmode better.
I'm going to get the medieval special myself to see what the hype is about.
>>35554358I did that, very much regret it although I liked looking like a weird dykeman kinda. Growing it out now and going through all the awkward stages again is hell but what can ya do, I think not being an obvious tranny helped me when I was interviewing for jobs at that time. Anyway here's my manmoder ass folks. Manmoder ass pic. Here u go.
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>>35555057This is not what manmoder ass looks like, also manmoders don't wear this
>>35555048it grew back? i thought it didn't do that
>>35553669>why even troon outto give myself a chance, i'd have sui'd otherwise>Why shave your man facedysphoria>Why bother being anything other than a regular man.because of dysphoria
>>35555087Oh fuck I meant to reply to that anon who was cutting off their hair, sorry it's like 6am and I've been up all night lol
>>35555079Manmoder ass looks like this, sorry to disappoint you. I wear tucking boy shorts from tomboyx to reduce bulge dysphoria and I wear a tight sports bra to hide my tiny misshapen boobs. Man clothes on top and I'm good to go.
how far in should I consider detrans / sui?almost 9 months and I'm starting to feel as suicidal as I did pre-hrt
>>35555048>>35555098I was so confused :pYeah cutting your hair isn't the move unless you really want to, I can't give any input other than my shoulder length hair looks way way better than short hair but that might be because I'm a dumbassGetting rid of beard is something I'd love so much but I have so light hairs there that it isn't possible with a laser.. DIY electro might be actually the way for me. Atleast no beard shadow but I have to shave every morning and night, sometimes I skip the night shave to get better shave in the morning but I hate touching my spiky bearded face at night
>>35555312at least try it for a few years if you don't start getting reverse dysphoria?also infinity for that sui thing...
>>35555312im at 8 months and my suicidality has also matched my pre hrt levels. ill probably attempt again in maybe a year or so if im not at least getting clocked as trans.
>>35555335I don't have reverse dysphoria I just have regular old dysphoriaall things considered me starting hrt was a moment of failure in my ability to dissociate, my life before that point was absolutely meaningless and I was hoping for a passive death but now it's like I can't stop thinking for a single day how much I hate my body and regret not standing up for myself as a kid and starting early>>35555345yeah same, hard deadline for me is to kms before I'm 25 but I'll probably attempt before my 22nd birthday too
>>35555312day 1 desu, your fate is already sealed pre hrt
>>35555391>probably attempt before my 22nd birthday tooSo you started before 22? Not saying it can't be over but..
>>35555422I think I deluded myself into thinking I was luckier than I actually am desulooking back without dissociation goggles I looked like a complete neckbeard before I started and have looked like shit for years>>35555428started a couple months before my 21stbut it's over, trust me, 6' absolute gorillahon
>>35555492You started earlier than me and you are shorter than me, what else you got?
>>35555557crippling genital dysphoria
umm... if i ever get ffs, how do i make sure im not getting a ghost doctor doing itjust watched a vid & a little worried
>>35555607You can'tNobody cares about the wellbeing of trannies
>>35555615:(that makes me pretty fricken scared (and sad)
>>35555607>umm... if i ever get ffs, how do i make sure im not getting a ghost doctor doing itGo to doctor that isn't known for it and that has good reviews ig not much more you can do
>>35555573Heeyy, that's something I don't have, luckily. I mean a working pussy would be my instant choice and I have no clue how sex would work with me, could I even top but that's besides the point.Yeah it sucks, hope you live long enough to have something you'd like down there even though it takes money and enduring the pain.
>>35555422real
Is this manmoding?>32, very manly frame and facial features (people used to say I looked like Jocko)>6 months hrt>B cup breasts>Only wear (women's) skinny jeans, (men's) fitted button downs with the top unbuttoned revealing a tank top, sports bras, vans, necklaces, bracelets, earrings>Do my hair every morning so curls are popping>Wear very light makeup every day>Laser+electro making progress>Voice mostly passes online, use it with strangersI've only "malefailed" a few times, but never if they see my face. I feel like I'm presenting andro-leaning-femme, and everything I'm doing is basically what I want. I just don't pass as trans, let alone as a woman. I just look like a guy, even with all that, which means I live like a man. Maybe if I wore dresses and full drag makeup people would realize I'm trans and give me pity pronouns, but I don't want to present like that. Gay guys hit on me sometimes at least.
what a sad depressing suicidal thread..
>>35555702>people used to say I looked like Jocko>I've only "malefailed" a few timesyea and i look like quasimodo and cant convince people that im a man...
Jocko mogs me besides the jaw desu, it really has never been so over
>>35554116same sis, but dw it will get better for us. wgmi
>>35556542How
this hon really made his stomach the op pic…
i’m at mcdonalds for breakfast and it is so good <3 i love mcdonalds so much…
>>35556679yeah its a little odd looking at it on the catalog lol
>>35556679just report it :^)
>>35556825its not nsfw thoo
it's camwhoring, it's not a manmoder, and it spams the board with its nasty abdomen
>>35556843thank you for respecting my pronouns of she and it.
sometimes I wonder how many of you are just characters some greasy neet is larping using others' pics off the net
>>35557291you know i'm real i'm a hon
>>35557303what? how or why would I know that, and what does you being a nauseating hon have to do with it?
>>35557323next time i take pics i'll hold up a date sign that says dakota, ok?
>>35557346frankly I would prefer that you not
>>35557358ok i will for you.
Dakota so positive and based <3
Most here aren't even manmoders
like are you fucking kidding me come on lolhttps://archiveofsins.com/_/search/image/bpuPO6H5aB_ktf9wDeIC1Q/
>>35557430yeah i have a couple favs out of my numerous folders.
>not getting itmy point is fuck off and stop spamming your ugly pics you're not a manmoder and you're just using this as one more thread to try and multi-channel your attention gainshttps://archiveofsins.com/_/search/tripcode/KAac3HzNlM/filter/text/you're the exact same thing as soph julie uzi etc shotgunning your pics all over the board and you'll be gone in a few weeks
>>35557413true, like i feel so bad seeing so manymany look actually pretty good
I remain the only real manmoder, everyone else is one of either non-hrt repper or full female clothing she/her mtf "manmoder ("boymoder" (girlmoder))
>>35557622ummm you're forgetting im here
>>35557580Yeah some here are not that masculine, just very mentally illI'm both, I am ugly and mentally ill6'2Uncanny disgusting manmoderCould it be any worse?
>>35557639which are you, girlmoder or repper?
I only wear girl clothes when nobody sees me
I am the one and only true manmoder.
>>35557648im a true manmoder. hrt & fully masculine
>>35557470i do get it and i'll probably stop, this thread was supposed to make you at least laugh. i guess my sense of humor is different than yours fren. i wanted to be overt and stupid.
>>35557670bitch ur getting ffs and will prob be fineur body is pretty decent too
you all deserve each other
>>35557670Is this a current image? If so your skin seems to be getting better.Also just embrace the Andro life, you are fucking hot in a weird andro way>t. Bisexual
i am an ugly man with long hair
>>35557685I thinks it's not really frenchie..
>>35557713Im long hair with ugly man
>>35557685I have COVID rn ;-;My post wasn't even dooming, through I just applied tret which made me look at my face and esp the badly scarred areas closely and caused a lot of dysphoria and OCD regarding it, it was more of a way to say that the person isn't the only manmoder I guess? Eh. I'm sad, my dad has guests tonight but I'm not allowed to eat with them. There are asparagus, I love it but yeah I won't have any....
>>35557724Asparagus is trash nigga makes your piss reek
cough up your balls and die, nazi
>>35557724wait why arent you allowed to eat w/ them?is it because its a business meeting or what?
>>35557712Yeah it's current, just off the press. I must say, I have felt less dysphoria these last few days. I genuinely feel kinda ok, not in an euphoric way but like in an ataraxia way you know? I feel more okay with my face about 65% of the time which is much better than before. Also many things irl are getting better. I might very well move out with another tranny, who is also a good friend, very soon.
>>35557737It tastes delicious through, especially with Hollandaise sauce. >>35557746I'm not sure, he says they are too numerous already (8).
>>35557766i wouldnt think too much about itlike, does he usually ask you not to join w/ him when others are over?
>>35557812It really depends honestly. I believe him, they're kinda numerous. But his dining with monarchist friends so maybe he's ashamed of me. Well, anyway, I'm really in no state to dine with them now, I am very sick.
>>35557737Why would you care who's smelling (or drinking) your piss?
>>35557713this, AND it's thinning! :^)
>>35557936mines getting thicker thank finasteride
Going rn from around norwood 2.5 back to 0.5-1 the regrowth is crazy but been kinda recent loss must have happened last couple years mostly. As long as there are still tiny hairs tho i think regrowth happens eventually
>>35557894Because i want them to piss on me why else dumbass
i'm stuck with a very high hairline i've had since childhood. i looked at a picture from when i was fucking 6 and it was already that bad. norwooding has not improved, i look like a greasy metal guy who never goes outside and i will probably lose all of it anyways
>>35558027What's the best diet for your partner
>>35558027Alright that's pretty based
Hey manmoders, if you ever feel good about your appearance for whatever reason remember to take a picture from different angle. I fucking hate myself.
>if you ever feel good about your appearance
>>35558143We all have delusional moments from time to time.
sometimes I have moments where I think that with FFS I might be able to make it as a twink. Those are the good days
hi fellow man moders is it weird to stare at myself in the mirror naked and not hate my appearance 100% of the time even though I am chubby and have a giant ribcage brainworm
>>35558217idk, prob depends, likedo you like what you are seeing? or is it more like a dissociative state where you are almost analyzing your body but just feeling disconnected
sometimes I measure my whr and jerk off to the fact that it's 0.67, for the rest it's over for me
Im so lonely and its impossible to be friends with another tranny. Its like its in our man, male male man, male man, man male gorillarapehon souls to be completely dogmatic and repellant to everyone with the displeasure of talking to us.
>>35558217>752 B, 31x23I don't know if that's weird but I do it>>35558125>>35558143despite myself I feel great about my appearance lately, I've simply accepted that I'm a low-effort visually/socially unpleasant human being and adjusted my standards and expectations to match
>>35558321I'd be your friend
>>35558321lets be friends!!!
>>35557724that's barbaric... i love asparagus>>35558083no food lots of water ig?>>35558321idk... still trying to find tranny friends ;___;
>>35558328my standards are infinitely low get lpwer every day and yet i'm still disappointed every time i see my reflection
>>35558376I like you Durian. I feel a need to protecc.
>>35558376I remember you from repgen
>>35558252hot
>>35558336>>35558369Very sweet of both of ya'll. Idk if I can do it though
Are elf ears included in ffs?
>>35558452Should be, especially for tall trans women (if they want to ofc)
i can't ever have friends because i have such trouble turning my thoughts into words that anything meaningful and actually representative of the rat's nest of emotions in my brain is entirely lost in translation and as a result i'm so dry and generic that it's like you're talking to a chatbot and so the only people who can stand me are those who have already known me for years and know how to communicate and get words past my thick fucking skull (family and one shitty friend who i never see anymore). i am the most autistic man on the face of the earth
>>35558505What if we typed like cutesy anime girl together like uwu omg hehe!!! x3
>>35558505Hiya! I'm a clingy sub >.< I am looking for a longterm connection with a possessive dom/eboyfriend who can handle all lot of affection, likes to stay in touch and has the same interest! I will do everything, even taking pics with your user on my body! (Connection and monogamy)
>>35558571Hey! I'm looking for a sweet loving goth e-mommy, one who can take care of me, and I can depend on . I would prefer it if you were 6'2, and curvy. If you play games that's also great, and you can buy me all the cosmetics and passes: ! Only respond if you match this description, because I've gotten trolled many times and I'm starting to get tired of it.: I would also like it if you were dominant, controlling, and overprotective? Maybe you also like degrading rp? I like dominant girls like that, and I want you to make me the wife in the relationship. Like a house wife (male)?! But if this is you, HMU haha!
>>35558545ew
>>35558545It'd be so cringe hehe x3, it'd be super embarrassing TwT. Like what if >///< we spoke like this :3 all the time omg!!! It would be so cringe (based) ~.~
>>35558726fjkdfjkdfjgjdkg (｡>‿‿<｡ )don't say stuf like that!!ur gonna make me blush (｡>\\<)
I'm gonna kill you all
>>35558759Wait you're that anon from back in the days no? Who decided he wasn't trans.
>>35558759mogs me>Verification not required.
>>35558751Maybe we could >w< blush together... ^.^That way it wouldn't (⁄ ⁄>⁄ω⁄<⁄ ⁄) be so embarrasing.. :3
>>35558807living my best life
>>35558857Did you end up Trooning.
>>35558833>ᴗ< gahhhh y do u have to say it like thatt xD
cuddles with manmoder bf
>>35558833kys weeb
>>35558886bro?
How much of mmg likes diapers?
does my room pass? be honest
>>35558910?
>>35559051imagine a grown masculinized man living here
>>35559051get rid of the troll face and you got a great teen femcel bedroom
>>35558896Becaause... (˶>ω<˶) you are cute (ŐωŐ人) cute, cute, cute! ૮( ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ )ა
>>35558759>to make any kind of sense of it we have to go back 13 years, back to the night the dysphoria started
>>35559051my room
My room doesn't have any decoration except an I Heart Vodka poster I've had since 12 year old. I don't even love vodka. I wonder if having a feminine room would make it feel worse
>>35559077>>35559112
>>35559101no U!!! (,,>﹏<,,)
>>35559051Rooms need to be functional
>>35559272it functions in that i get my back blown out here
>>35559349Lies
>>35559197<3 <3 <3Butt... I said it first ( ˘ᴗ˘ ), you can't back away from it (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)
>>35559349i think i need to switch to pinktfw ugly in pink
>>35558505me irl
>>35559349absolutely not>>35559508u will never go back
I need someone to watch movies with and talk about movies :( it's so lonely watching alone
>>35559566i would but i know like 4 movies. i do not consume new media and i only like a few things
>>35559583what do you consume then
pink and white and shit is gay, even for cis girls the cool ones also have drab or plain or all black/gray rooms
>>35552607I’ve legitimately completely given up on everything. I don’t even watch anime or play video games or whatever, the most basic of “I have no interests” interests. I do nothing but scroll this board all day. What a life.
>>35559566do u like 2000s jp movies?
lexus is or sc400 modelsmy lefort 1 surgery was approved by insurance today ^^ now i just have to save for the rest of my ffs
>>35559675Not in particular I watched a few, I feel like outside of anime movies japanese movies really had their prime in the 50s-60s. I liked '5 Centimeters per Second'and 'The Girl Who Leapt Through Time' but those are both anime.I guess I also watched 'Battle royale' and I really liked 'Hana-bi' which is from 1997 and 'After life' which is from 1998.
The human centipede was a good movie
>>35559954life goals (it's what all humanity deserves): one long endless human centuboros
>>35559921i gotta check out stuff from that time period then. omg i love battle royale!!!what kind of movies do u usually watch?
>>35559632same ;___;it's fucked
>>35560410Idk mostly just 'semi pretentious' stuff for people that want to pretend they know things about cinema. I don't think I know that much but I like the movies.I like sergio leone, kurosawa and tarkovsky a lot. As a genre I really like musical movies they make me kinda happy feel good. Especially the old timey ones from the 50-60s. My favourite is probably 'The Umbrellas of Cherbourg'.
>>35560410I really should rewatch battle royale it's been like over 8 years since I've seen it. It's not too much thinking, kinda relaxing movie (well especially if you already know the ending)
>>35560501ohhh leone like the spaghetti westerns? it’s been a while since i’ve seen any of them but i liked how gritty it all was. will check out umbrellas as well
>>35560777Yeah I really like all his spaghetti westerns, they're just nice to relax. But they still got some depth ig. The music in them is pretty nice as well
manmoder surveillance state. what crimes will you commit?
>>35561048Using she/her for a manmoder
>>35561048Getting they/themed during company HR trainings.
What do you make of people calling you "buddy"? It drives me fucking insane it feels like they're calling me a faggot if they're not old enough to be my dad
>>35561255makes me wanna kill them by shoving my dick in their eye socket xD
>>35561255Might as well go with faggot desu
>>35561255why does this happen
>>35561282It does make me kind of mad :)I guess at least being seen as a fem fag is better than being seen as a straight up normal man>>35561288>>35561293Yeah I'm pretty sure it's because they want to call you a faggot but know it's not socially acceptable so they allude to it
>>35561365ppl love alluding so much, like just call me a faggot tranny and be done with it lol
>>35561365>being seen as a fem fag is better than being seen as a straight up normal manThis is something I want too, I'm not even sure why, might be dysphoria and the expectations for being seen as a cishet man
>>35561442So true bestie, atleast we would know that they know so no hoop jumping
>>35561255it means fag. but not in a bad way...
>>35561255I don't let it get under my skin but I remember who calls me what
>>35561481very fembrained. never let go
>>35559051imagine the worlds most masculine manmoders having hardcore anal sex there
>>35561545I've ruined my life over grudges and because I felt slighted uwu
i feel like im stuck manmodding even tho my body has been making fem progress, measurments rn are 41-33-40 and im fucking 6'2, ive also been getting laser hair removal and have another fullbody appointment next week
Wish I could be a cute sissy slut, getting fucked by men 10+ year older than me every night. Hate how some trannies can just get this and they become transbians
>>35561669nigga wtf
>>35561678What's wrong with this way of thinking. I just want to be desired and fucked :(
>>35561669literally just make grindr slut
>>35561717I'm a mabmoder not a boymoder and I'm ugly. Is it that hard to understand in mmg?
>>35561737Grindr men, especially older, will fuck anything
>>35561711go to grindr go meet scary men
Yeah I wouldn't recommend grindr, go on a public date atleast once before
>>35561599is this a correct man mod
>>35561737idk terms like "sissy slut" and wanting to get "fucked by men every night" are gross and remind me of the creepy older men who used to hmu when i was a teen... agp is based if it's not creepy
>>35561818real
>>35561803it is not
>>35561560i still hold grudges from 10 years ago >_<i keep a shit list at all times and systematically plan my revenge
>>35561818Maybe I'm actually a bad person, some autopederast. Aaaaahhhh I'm not even just a mabmoder I'm also someone with some weird fetish/paraphilia. Why couldn't I be born normal
>>35561910>i still hold grudges from 10 years agosame>i keep a shit list at all times and systematically plan my revengetoo much effort for me I just ruminate and seethe
>>35561887what would i be then ? ;-;>>35561921you just need to get taken to pound town desu
jimmy never fails to deliver
>>35561941nigga wtf
>>35561941>how you want your burger cooked senpai?>still actively fighting for its life
>>35561471>it means fag.I pretty much assumed so from context and how people look at me when they say it lmfao. I guarantee I look like a big time fag. I take really good care of my hair and make it look nice and it's long and I've had like a year worth of changes from HRT and laser and my mannerisms and voice aren't that manly and people do call me a girl or whatever sometimes so yeah I would assume it just means faggot. I barely care about hiding faggotry anymore I just present how I want to without making it obvious that I'm a tranny >>35561442>>35561463Yeah lmfao I'd almost prefer them being direct. Some people just act weird as fuck towards me either like fag hags being over the top nice or like men acting weird or people avoiding me or whatever or women being passive aggressive towards me but won't make it known what they think even though I know what they think>>35561481I remember too and some people are seriously on my shit list and I will take any chance I get to sabotage them
>>35552607here's mine. forgive the hood gap. coincidentally, my last car was a dodge dakota of the same vintage.
what sounds worse:-are you mad at me-did i say something that made you upset?i can't keep living with this paranoia i need my fp to say something
>>35562029go full bpd and say "do you still like me"
>>35562063>>35562029go fuller bpd>why do you hate me
>>35562063>>35562077noted, i think i will try second one
>>35562130it didnt go well
I'm wondering like if I'm a paranoid little freak with a persecution complex or some people are actually starting to treat me worse because I look like more like an uncanny girly fagman now, I really do feel like at least some people have started not being nice to me when they used to be fine before
>>35562252its the latterppl have definitely started to tell and treat me like an "other because of it"
>>35562321stupid quotes u know what i meant
>>35561940>what would i be thenHot
>>35562248:(
>>35561549i don't need to imagine 0.o
>>35562450I need to experience it, right below the retard sign <3
does anyone else sometimes think they look pretty cute and then smile at urself in the mirror (when my hair obscures my strong skull development)
>>35562321>>35562332Yeah I got what you meant. Ugh. I guess I don't make like a strong effort to hide femininity besides not showing boobs or not using a girl voice or not wearing clothes that are definitively just women's clothes either. Some people act weird about me calling me a man or a woman or like obviously refusing to even gender me or they'll like stare or make weird faces or whatever. I love being in freak hell :) it's kinda happening at work now too with certain people making problems for me and trying to cause shit or even making passive aggressive remarks and like I'm at the point where I'm just trying to find a new job to escape this shit because it sucks and I'm worried I'll spontaneously get fired
>>35562510Yes, all the time, I tilt my head so I don't see my masc festures and hair partly covers my head so I just see my lips smiling back at me through my hair.But it's not a woman, it's just a pretty man with clear skin and long soft hair.
it's fucking time to sui>>35562510not me, never me...
>>35562573Just get long hair that covers your face when you tilt your head
>>35562510i take the medicine cabinet mirror and angle it 90 degrees so i can be reminded just how much of a neanderthal i am
>>35562486come over!!!>>35562510every like 3 hours i think? idk alcohol makes my skin look better too
>>35562595Could I be the retard? Maybe alcohol could help me as well..
>>35562644ok but no grain alc ok!!!
>>35562714I like wine, white or rose :)
he hates me
>>35561599first: woofsecond: how is full body laser? Face laser on my lip was wicked but the rest of me is not so sensitive
>>35561599wtf all my manmoders sisters have nice tummies.mine is all flabby and i need to shave aaaaaaaaaa
>>35561599>>35563871Okay while we're talking about this I kinda wanted to ask about face laser since it's something that drives me insane. By my next session I'll have been getting laser for almost a year, and I've been going to a new place since the last session I got since I was kind of unhappy with where I was going, they wanted to space out sessions 3 months when I could still grow a goatee and they burnt the fuck out of me the last time I was there. It'll be eight sessions total once my next one comes up.I've had a lot of reduction and it's slower growing and finer and bare in some spots but I still grow some more dense stubble in spots besides the sparse bits still here and there. Like kinda the sides of my chin, my upper lip, and the corners of my jaw are the worst offenders still. I have brown hair and olive skin too.Is there like anything I should watch for to make sure I'm getting like good and fast paced results? Should I supplement with electrolysis eventually?Almost tempted to post an unsee of my lower face with grown out stubble to see what people think of the progress rate :/
yummy yummy raw meat
>>35564142Laser took me a while. I had 3 sessions at a mediocre places and then 10 at a good place. That was a few years ago and now I need to follow up with electrolysis. It's not a totally even job, like the corner of my jaw had low coverage.1 session of rlectro was ok and less painful than laser. Doesn't make me sweat lol. But sometimes I'll get one that hurts, or get a discolored spot for a couple days. I'm gunna ask my electro lady to use insulated needles
>>35564335Does electro seem to get rid of a lot of hair compared to laser per session? Really trying to just figure out what the best move for me is I guess. Some of my hair is fine and light and might just fall out after a few more rounds of laser. The lady I have now seems really cool, she said she'll use a different machine or crank up the power if it doesn't seem like it's doing a ton, so I think it's definitely worthwhile to try knocking more off before electrolysis. I kinda went into everything thinking like I'd have next to no facial hair and definitelycno shadow with a year of laser but that's not the case :(
>>35564411I'm only 1 session in but a 30 min session doesn't clear a lot. I might do 1hr to wipe it out faster
>>35564519I might wait a little bit longer before moving to electrolysis then if it's still super slow, I'll ask my laser girl to crank it up a little bit and see, if I can knock a good deal more out with laser the rest will go faster. I'm hoping I have next to no facial hair by two years into my transition because at one year that's not the case :^) I love still seeing goatee shadow in the morning or even faintly right after I shave I've heard of some people doing really long electrolysis sessions like 4hr+ to get done faster but I dunno if that's feasible. I think part of what fucks me up the most about electrolysis is the needing to grow hair out, it would make my dysphoria horrible, I was bedridden sick for two days straight once and looking in the mirror after that was horrible
has anyone tried to epilate their face?
>>35564640I know what you mean about growing it out. I can mostly cope since my hair is thinned from laser.If it goes well I'll get other spots cleared too. Like chest especially. But I'm going to feel soooo weird asking this old lady beautician to zap my titties
>>35552763dont steal my wordi came up with that
>>35564782My friend did, caught her head hair, never again
>>35564796no no u didnt
>>35564789Yeah lmfao I haven't bothered with anything but my face. Having both HRT and epilating has made my hair so thin and fine and I just pull it out it doesn't really bother me anymore. Facial hair is a nightmare still though, ugh, at least it's way more tolerable, I shaved and put concealer on my lower face 12 hours ago and the shadow is extremely faint and my finger only catches stubble noticeably against the grain in a few spots (like my chin) but even that doesn't feel insanely abrasive. It's better than it was I guess where like I could shave and still feel sandpaper on my face, I barely remember that now though since I'm so used to this, I feel like in 3 years I won't even remember what having a beard is like that much
>>35552607https://voca.ro/1hcoKgvt9vtI
>>35564909https://voca.ro/1s9Rmwd6lbFg
grrrr
>>35564782yes it really fucking hurts
all of you seem really funny and cute.
>>35552607manmoders look like THAT
>>35564782Do notGet nair for the face
Woke upStill infertileWill never experience true femininity(pregnancy)Still basically 100% maleStill no bfStill the same as it ever was
>>35565579i was infertile before starting hrt. its a cruel world
>even the gyno already stalledhrt does nothing
>>35565785it made my nips puffy at least. switching doses soon, maybe ill try sublingual pills
>>35564782I have and im not sure if id suggest anyone to do it after results.Ingrowns are possible and after you do it once you have to tweeze the hair that grow out every single day or you just have more work the next day.I pluck the hairs around the lips and its not done much to remove the shadow for some reason. No matter how you disinfect the epilator youll have whiteheads for a day or two after epilating your face and along with the redness and swelling to go down. I've heard epilation is too rough for the face, if youre looking to laser and electro later down the like its not recommended and is only meant for people who haven't had hair as deep and juiced up on dht.
several years of hrt. still haven't bought any girl clothes.
>>35566151what would you want to wear?
>>35566271idk really. i have no fashion sense.
>>35566391so what im hearing is goth
How will you cope with the realization that you traded your perversions for a good education and job? I study at the university and started HRT, I can’t imagine how funny I will look, being accepted as a guy and perceived as a guy, I will receive a diploma as a guy looking like a girl. How can I wash myself away from this shame? I simply won’t survive this pressure, how people will look at me and laugh behind my back. Plus, I live in a country where transgender people, as a rule, do not leave their homes and do not interact with society in any way, which is doubly difficult for me
>>35566486>Plus, I live in a country where transgender people, as a rule, do not leave their homes and do not interact with society in any way, which is doubly difficult for mewhat?
>>35566497I from east europe and not EU
>>35566511im sorry to hear.
FUCK FUCK FUCK ITS HAPPENING Yesterday was the first proper sunny day of summer.I woke up today and its just as sunny again. What do manmoders wear??? I knew this was coming but aaajhhhhhh. My black hoodie is no longer appropriate all the time like ppl will start saying take that off and the only other thing i wear is a way oversized flannel. Tell me some good summer manmoder clothes plssssssssPLEASE
>>35566557Dont go out at daytime problem solved
>>35566557What are you expecting really?You cannot wear t-shirts because of the tits and cannot expose much skin because the suns just roasting your skin.Flannel and hooded shirts(which aren't as thick as hoodies) are your only options. Its what i do.
>>35566557i dont bother to hide my tits. i dont really care what people think
vampiric manmoder bf who drinks my blood and only comes out at night
>>35566557flannel, roll up your sleeves
>>35566665if youre serious about blood play i am 100% down for this and i rarely leave the house during day time
I wish i was a twilight vampire but i just feel like a weak future hate crime victim:(
>>35566633this but i was like aahhhh scary i'll just deal with it when it happens but now it's happened>>35566683this is exactly my every day fit. I guess I'll just get way more of them.
>>35566717why not a vampire from a better property
>>35566737I dont know any other i only watched that as a teen due to my ex
just wanna try mutual blood play with someone
just made the jerk motion with my tongue out jokingly trying to mock some dudes mannerism that i saw but it turned me on so i stopped. im into women tho
>>35566707i am in theory but i would probably start crying after the first cut because my pain tolerance is pathetic and got even worse after hrt
I would really let a partner suck my blood if they wanted to. Idk, sounds cute desuu
>>35566486Just drop out worked for me
I think it’s time to fapI’m thinking cute yuri hentai :3
>>35567103Such a silly little les bean.. :3
>>35566932we could do it in a place with thicker skin like the outer arm, i find that hurts less. i think i want someone to lick my cuts. I dont think i could let someone else inflict them upon me.
soon we'll have a new thread without tummy yay
that metallic smell of blood is just nauseating honestly, it drowns your senses and makes you wanna bleed out even more
>>35567275No, makes you want to taste it more like
>>35567176Trans yuri is rare but worth it~
>>35567281If it smelled sweeter, I'd wanna taste it but now im not so sure
>>35567316It's actually the metallic part which makes it tasty, I've always liked tge tsste of my own blood at least
>>35567315have any youd reconmend? i resort to mainly reading effeminate yaoi
>>35567089That's the whole problem, that I don't want to quit. I have put so much effort and time into this university. And I'm really interested in the program I'm studying in. But everyday stress drains all my strength. I already have feminine contours that cannot be hidden with baggy clothes. I feel like a freak.
would platform Jadon Dr Martens be too much as a Manmoder?? Would they draw attention? They just look so much better than the 1460 or Bex
>>35568108They look cool as shit
Omgg boots look so cool...
>>35568258High platform goth boots....
>>35568305They are so fucking sexy, so hot, wish I could pull off something like that but I'm 6'2'' and otherwise a man.
>>35568345im shorter but 27.5 bmi its over sister
>>35568347It's a lot easier to lose weight than height, I believe in you
>>35568366Im not at the age where going goth is acceptable unless you are a celebritybut Ill lose weight, I have to
>>35568347You'll get down from there sis, I was 29 bmi last year around this time, now I'm 23 bmi, I dipped in 21 bmi and that's when I started to eat again. Now going to somewhere around 20 bmi and then trying to just lose fat while build muscle if I get the motivation. I want to own my height, double down on it but my height is not the only thing clocking me masc..
>>35568381I just cope eat too much, wasted so much of my paychek on garbage cause im lazy and dont cookI lost like 10kg last year but have platued since, need to try and eat less calory heavy foods. Adding spices to everything makes them eatable for now. But the craving of slop is real.
>>35568394>But the craving of slop is real.I know and that's why I went from 21 bmi to 24 bmi and now I'm at 23 bmi. It's hard to stay away from it.
>>35568345i cant tell if youre making fun like the other posts but i posted the q and this is my exact problem. But i dont want to get one's half way to what i want as a cope and only kinda like them, being tall af is literally a curse. >but I'm 6'2'' and otherwise a man
>>35568305would if i found some 12 mens...
>>35568446No, I actually want to wear something like those, I get jealous of girls trans or cis who pull them off. When I get to the point where I don't give a fuck I'll start to andro mode with something like that, maybe drop the platform part out of the boots at first but the platform makes them look sexy.
why did I even think trooning out could do anything to help me
>>35568455There has to be size 12 mens aswell. Like has to be.
>>35568467t. size 12 mens
>>35568455they are technically unisex so go up to 14US mens it's just they are only worn by women so
>>35568108i had these in high school, kind of heavy but sturdy and will last long
