tonight's my 7 month anniversary with my gf, and all i've been able to think about is how to break up with her. in another month, i'm moving to europe to pursue a masters and escape this terrible country, so it doesn't matter much anyway. i got on estrogen about 10.5 months ago now, and my gf always knew. most days she'd ask questions about why i was doing what i do and what i'll become. she always told me that she wouldn't love me if i trooned. so, i didn't. all i can think of these days is just how much i hate myself for my thoughts. i barely feel trans anymore. i forgot what it felt like to be accepted, until just in passing some guy i was with proved to be quite an ally. it's a feeling i've missed. i barely recognize myself anymore, now hating trannies more than ever before. and i don't know what i can do.
>>36345845this is so sad. forced to choose between being urself and being alone all while lying to your partner
>>36345845You'll be better off once you've dumped that bitch who is only hoping to use you for shit anyway I'm sure
>>36345895i don't even know how to break up with her. like, we'd do so much together. she can make me feel wonderful even if it always feels like a chunk of myself rejects it. i'm still a lonely person. more importantly to me, though, i don't want to hurt her. i wanted it to be her decision... i don't want to be a burden any more than i already am. i want her to remember me happily rather than with hate. everyone deserves the best.
>>36345845That ain't your girlfriend, that is a delusional freak.
>>36345845>she always told me that she wouldn't love me if i trooned. so, i didn't.you need to take care of yourself op, you can't sacrifice so much of your life for *a* gf
>>36345965>everyone deserves the bestand so do you>i don't want to hurt herthink of it this way: if you had cancer, and she'd stop loving you once you get on chemo, is it fair to you not to?if she's a decent human being, she stated that just as a fact, and then it's ok, as it is more than ok for you to get treatment. if she feels entitled to you sacrificing so much, that is pure evil. I assume good faith, and even if that's not the case, the result is still the same - the fair thing in total is for you to treat your conditionif you have gender dysphoria, the least bad option is to treat it
>>36346151>>36346124maybe i think too highly of relationships... like the right person could just save me. or that i'm not worth anything alone. thank you though... i probably will break up, then.. though waiting another month n avoiding all confrontation seems like the easy way out... idk anything anymore
>>36346313that could happen. don't put all your eggs in one basket ofcwhat alternatives are you thinking of - breaking up before leaving, and?
>>36346370yeah.. breaking up before leaving. maybe we continue to talk after, maybe we don't. but we both agreed it can't continue with a 7 hour time difference. i'll have much to distract me with at the very least my studies and starting over in a foreign country by and large. maybe a new relationship, maybe not. i don't really have much of a drive to be with anyone, and never really have. i just like knowing that i matter to someone.
>>36346448what are the pros and cons of each?
>>36346577who knows. i can't think right at the moment. id like to keep in touch because they've just.. been there for a while? but at the same time after some of this post... i just don't kknow,,,
>>36346852yeah if it's all the same to you, breaking up when you leave and just going with the flow after is the easiest
