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>>36361457Repressor flag. DUH!
>>36361457 If I don't get cuddles soon I'm gonna kill myself
i'm so close to one by one pulling out every last hair on my face by hand
>>36361497Can't you get a dog or something and cuddle with themDisregard my advice if you are a white woMAN haha
>>36361509My work hours are way too long to take care of a dog.
>>36361526Pay for a doggie daycare and when you take him out cuddle with him
I'm fucking tired of this, why keep living?
>>36361557no reason at allwe are all going to die eventually
>>36361557I only keep going because my mum would be sad if I killed myself
Why do you repress?Is everyone here just because of social stigma? Or do you just fundamentally have an issue with being trans?I feel like the stigma people are fake reppers
>>36361626I'm poor, old, I live with my parents and can't support myself, my parents are transphobic, I live in the south, I can't pass.
>>36361626>balding>trannys are annoying and cringe>i wouldn't pass
>>36361633literally same, but eastern europe instead of south (of NA i suppose)
>>36361648south NA yeah
>>36361626What's the point, I don't think it'll make me happy
>>36361626bc i know I’m not actually trans, I’m just obsessed with the idea due to self hate particularly around my appearance
>>36361626just consider thisenglish is an international languagesome of us just live in environments where it's literally impossible>fake repperswhat are they then? repper reppers?
>>36361674>>36361676Literally meTransitioning seems like the easiest and ultimate way to just start an identity from scratch, and that's appealing to me as a depressed loser. But I also recognize I'd immediately regret it.
I'm repressing the fact that I am repressing. I want to transition into a repressor but I'm too scared.
>>36361626I'm almost 40
>>36361794ywnbar
>>36361676yes i am this as well, i have body dysmorphia and i feel like an ugly incel basically, i feel like i repulse people. becoming some kind of horrible hon would not make me feel feminine/cute or approachable.
>>36361857Passing as a repressor is almost impossible after a certain point.
That's it I'm doing it
After talking to my therapist, my parents, and really getting to the bottom of how I feel (Alongside TONS of support from the people around me) I've finally gathered enough courage to repress.I don't even know what to say. It's like a weight has been taken off my shoulders. It's a whole new period in my life. Hard to believe I've come this far. YOU can do it too. Anyone reading this can do the exact same thing. There's nothing stopping you from self-actualization! Be brave anon!
>>36361457I don't use any fucking flags. I just take estrogen and fuck. I have bigger fish to fry than choosing flags to fly.
>>36362208>Just then there came a major turning point in my life. Like a Phoenix, I burst from the ashes of my despair to a glorious new hope
>>36362208Based
>>36362208Thanks Nigachan
>>36362208>self-actualizationrepressing is the opposite of thatyou are actively suppressing parts of yourself
>>36362300It's not part of me it's ego dystonic
>>36362235Ever since I was a kid I knew I was a repressor. I have a memory of when I was 3 years old where I told my mom I wanted to repress my gender dysphoria. She told me "NO! You need to transition like everyone else!" I was devastated. I remember trying to become an alcoholic at 8-9 years old but my parents wouldn't let me. At puberty my parents tried to get me to transition but I was traumatized by the whole thing. Only now can I embrace my true identity...and so can you anon
>>36362316your ego is built on gaslighting
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>>36362341Damn bro was fucking short
>>36362231Baste.
>>36362300I’m suppressing my mental illness so I can be a functional human being, becoming the best version of myself
>>36362235she would have been a gigahon, F for teddy. if there was a repgen back then she wouldnt have gone crazy
>>36362471Repressor community saves lives.....
When is this going to end...
would you get electro shock therapy once a month if it could reduce feelings of dysphoria?
>>36363276of course i wouldto my balls?still would
>>36363276of course?Why would I say no
you should crowdfund a doctor to administer lobotomy :3
>>36361457take your pills, retards
You know, I'm unironically thinking about this right now: why should I move to a first world country where transitioning is possible from my third world country, when I could move to the afterlife immediately instead? I mean it's far easier to do so than to immigrate to a first world country and first worlders move to the afterlife eventually too.
>>36363495no im scaredalso I tried that and it killed my desire to transition. This heavily suggests it's just a fetish.
>>36363526Just because your desire to transition is of sexual origin doesn't mean you shouldn't transition.Do whatever maximizes pleasure and minimizes suffering, if transitioning does that then transition.
>>36363749It would increase suffering in other ways ;]
>>36363775Maybe, I don't know your situation.But saying "I am not going to transition because it's a fetish" is just as dumb as saying "I am not going to marry the love of my life because it's just a fetish, if she looked like a bloke I wouldn't want to marry her"
>>36361626I'm emotionally/financially dependent on my parents and everyone I know will hate me.that and I'm beyond terrified
>ywn be a tranny rubbing penises together with another trannyogre
>>36363809I wouldn't marry someone if after sex I wanted nothing to do with her anymore.
>>36361626hrts effects feel like a gamble, plus extreme social anxiety and overall laziness
>>36361626>Is everyone here just because of social stigma? Or do you just fundamentally have an issue with being trans?i'm not transi tried hrt and my brain doesn't work on estrogen as well i thinki will never be a woman
>>36361457Good one, anon. Now I know which flag is which. Next year I will be unstoppable.
>>36361626Economic and physical factors.
>>36364877Or just hover your cursor over the flags you stupid phoneposter
>>36365004Oh no, my secret is out
>>36361626I just want to be a cis woman and not a trans woman
>>36365229I want to be a transwoman and not a cis woman
>>36365268Both are gross. but i will choose the trans woman because I'm a bit of a misogynist and having periods must suck
hello reppersanyone here into old sick freaks?not judging (tho it's wrong and sick)please?
>>36365340yeah i can get off to the idea of fucking old men. but I don't actually fuck old men (or anyone)
>>36365340Old sick freaks?
>>36365348;___;all here hate me just for being old tho nice and all>>36365353me sadly fuck i hate myself sorry, please just ignore young stallion or hottie :(sorry for disturbing you is all
>>36365401I would probably be very disgusted to keep one. Really hot old guys are highly sought after in the gay world, just like the best in any other category. Out of my league.But it's an idea that turns me on, yes.
>>36365442i'm sorry for being disgustingbeen talking with gay guys and they're all "old guys are hot" but i know it's just fetish stuff kindaand i'll never get someone think i'm actually hot or even kinda acceptable...fuuuuusorry <3 not your problem
What the fuck am I supposed to do.And I mean that in a general way. Like sure hee hee I can take estrogen, but who the fuck is going to help me put my LIFE BACKTOGETHER? I'm a fucking drug addict NEET with ADHD autism something who the fuck knows what's wrong with me. Dysphoria on top of all that too, christ.>just help yourself bro! practice self-helpThat's the thing, isn't it? How the fuck do I help me? Self-help means the self helping the self, but that's not how "Help" works. If I want help in learning mathematics I go to someone who knows math. if I want to learn how to row a boat I go to a rower. Could someone who doesn't know math help someone to learn math? How could I help myself when I don't know how to do shit???????????????? I'm incompetent and incapable but I'm supposed to help someone to...not be incompetent and incapable? hmmmmm that'll work! Self-help is a scam and nobody wants to help you.And it makes perfect sense. Do gazelle hang out to help out a wounded gazelle near the watering hole? FUCK NO. They run away. You're fucked. And that's the attitude toward people like us. You're fucked. Stay away from me or you'll attract some predator. I'm so fucked up. IT's all fucked. And people expect me to piece it all back together. Like a guy with heart failure giving himself open heart surgery. Figure it out LOSER. Figure it out. Pull it together. Oh, your house fell down? Pick it up. Build it up by hand. Make the screws. Oh your legs are broken? Tough shit. Get a hammer and get to work. Oh you won't do it? WOW! Way to give up! Nobody like someone with a SOUR ATTITUDE! No wonder life didn't work out for you! You got what you deserve.
>have once chance at life>be born maleReally? And I'm somehow supposed to cope with this?
>>36366634no? sui pact?`you start by shooting my "brains"?:3
>>36367146do you feel hrt made you more retarded?
>>36367204they are just drunk and suicidal
>>36367319i didnt even wanna be mean i just typed it out like that without thinkingim a bad person:|
>>36367373you are not mean, this is just 4chan and here you don't think that deep about what you write..
>>36367486yea maybe i just dont like punching down
>>36367486thats the reason i dislike some of the names and tripsyou dont do that usually and i like you
>>36367588idk why you like me lol, i am pretty mean most of the time, and to you also..
>>36367834sometimes what you write feels like larp sometimes it doesntanyway i have no problem with you punching on your level or the ones above youi cant tell but im giving you yous for some reason idk
“There are things you can't fight — Demons. You see Dysphoria coming, you have to get out of the way. But when you're with God, suddenly you can fight the Dysphoria. You can win."
>>36367910i just shaved my head loli don't know how to feel about it yet, i had 1.5years of growth, it was so heavy on my head, i just noticed that now..
>>36368010ups, i forgot to remove the image, i didn't want to upload it cause it was kinda nasty, whatever..
>>36368010how did it feel?
>>36368035it feels satisfying removing the hair but also kinda sad because it took so long to grow it and i didn't really ever take care of it that well anyway, but it was very annoying, curly hair is very annoying to have on your head and also it is hot asf here..
>>36368010based1 corinthians 11:14-15>11:14 Doth not even nature itself teach you, that, if a man have long hair, it is a shame unto him? 11:15 But if a woman have long hair, it is a glory to her: for her hair is given her for a covering.it seems the abrahamic god doesnt like men with long hair
>>36368094yea i would be sad too
>>36368131it is overmy skull is just huge, i can see it better now shaved and not covered yea, i actually don't look a lot more masc, but yea, is over..
>>36368170at least i can see if it affects dysphoria or not, longer term so yea..
>>36368170can it ever not be over? even if you had the perfect head and body proportions you would obsess over the next thing likely the genitalsit is never over for the happy hons neither is it for dakota likely if it is narcissism or whatever doesnt really matterover is in part reality and in part just in your head
There is but one true and holy transition.The transition from Repressor to True Cis Male, free of Dysphoria. You say its impossible. All things are possible through God.i have to admit, I must contain my pride and ego, because power like this. a gift like this. To know a tightly held dream has finally become reality, to reconnect your soul with the design God intended for you. Its intoxicating. I feel His protection, I I am living proof, and it my purpose to guide my brothers to it as well, to keep this salvation to myself would be selfish and cruel.When i was at my lowest, He found me and gave me the strength to become my greatest self, the person i was supposed to be.Do you know how it feels to cry out to any force that will listen? Pleading with them to fix you? to heal you? As a non-believing nihilist beaten and broken down by years of fighting Dysphoria…and in the darkest abyss. The Light of God finds you and gives you undeniable proof of his Divinity, granting you a miracle you thought impossible.You are finally a Man, in Mind, Body and Soul.Amen.
>>36368219if i could pass and look like a girl, genitals won't matter that much, and yea it is over, dakota is just coping, just like i do, yea, a part of over is in our head but yea, sorry, for people that can't pass, we mostly live only in our head coping with whatever, for me if i can still somehow live, is not worth destroying the other parts of my life being an in between freak, i don't want to make other ships sink just for a sinking ship that is going to sink no matter what, i am more likely to live and be happier this way forgeting about that sinking ship and letting it sink while keeping the other ships afloat, will knowing that that ship sinked hurt me forever? yea, but it is not in my control, i can't do anything about it no matter how much i try, at the end of the day, the outcome, whatever that is, is still the same.. i am a bit shaking now bc of the shock from dysphoria but yea.. i will adjust to it.. if i find a way to live, i would have found it just the same, as a freak on hrt with gyno, at least this way i have the other ships ok and i am normal..
>>36367204not reallyi mean i'm retarded but think it's from repressing for so long + a lot of ect sessions lmaops ect actually helps a lot for deep deep depression>>36367319drunk but only suicidal if a qt did the deed
>>36368170diameter? you larper
>>36368399you arent going to be happy at all if your plan is permanent dissociation..hope you can forget
>>36368523it is not just that, it is more complicated, anyway eh..
>>36368095Why Jesus have long hair then
>>36368571its very sad desu
>>36368607there is literally nothing i can do about it though..
i think i might just be a bisexual side with some agp.
>>36368518doesn't answer my question weird||can i touch your head?!?||
Feel it drawing nearer, an endless fear that takes you holdFeel it getting closer, revealing such an evil soulI can't surrender at the turning point of destinyRight now it's do or die; my life is on the line and I will not fleeBy my power!Whoa-whoa, it's clear to me!My spirit grows and I will face this demonWhoa-whoa, with burning energyThe day of fate has fin'ly comeYUDULIYA-VELEYUDULIYA-VELEYUDULIYA-VELEYUDULIYA IYALIYAFeel it right behind you, a grinning monster out to killFeel it grow inside you, a burning flame and force of willThoughts of a broken Earth in ev'ry corner of my mindA loveless world, devoid of life, is what you hope to leave behindHear me cryingWhoa-whoa, can't hold me downNo doubt left in my mind, I will not fall hereWhoa-whoa! Prepare to hit the groundI'll turn your laughter into fearThough you might turn the tide, I'll hold the line forevermoreThis flame inside of me burns brighter than it ever has before
>>36368602the bible is full of contradictions. cause the demigod ordered samson to have long hair and would lose his superman strength if cut.his bitch betrays him and cuts it! then he asks the demigod one last time for his strength back just to let him commit suicide. the demigod is such a asshole!
>>36361626My family is all I have and I would lose them all and foreverI barely have enough money to survive, I can't go splurging on clothes and hair care and hormones My country has next to no support for this stuff, I'd be on a waiting list for years for a probably shitty outcomeBeing 30+, almost 6ft and all the physical stuff are just bonuses after all that
i can barely handle looking like a man anymore
>>36361626To dream the impossible dreamTo fight the unbeatable foeTo bear with unbearable sorrowAnd to run where the brave dare not goTo right the unrightable wrongAnd to love pure and chaste from afarTo try when your arms are too wearyTo reach the unreachable starThis is my questTo follow that starNo matter how hopelessNo matter how farTo fight for the rightWithout question or pauseTo be willing to march, march into hellFor that heavenly causeAnd I know if I'll only be trueTo this glorious quest…That my heart will lie peaceful and calmWhen I'm laid to my rest
>>36369381And the world will be better for thisThat one man, scorned and covered with scarsStill strove with his last ounce of courageTo reach the unreachable, the unreachable, the unreachable starAnd I always dream the impossible dreamYes, when I'll reach the unreachable star
When Dysphoria is cured One, two, three, fourI know what you're thinkin'We were going downI can feel the sinkin'Then I came aroundAnd everyone I've loved beforeFlashed before my eyesAnd nothing mattered anymoreI looked into the skyWell, I wanted something better, manI wished for something newAnd I wanted something beautifulI wished for something trueBeen looking for a reason, manSomething to loseWhen the wheels come down(When the wheels come down)When the wheels touch ground(When the wheels touch ground)And you feel like it's all overThere's another round for youWhen the wheels come down(When the wheels come down)Know your head is spinningBroken hearts will mendThis is our beginningComing to an endWell, you wanted something better, manYou wished for something newWell, you wanted something beautifulYou wished for something trueBeen looking for a reason, manSomething to loseWhen the wheels come down(When the wheels come down)When the wheels touch ground(When the wheels touch ground)And you feel like it's all overThere's another round for youWhen the wheels come down(When the wheels come down)
im not even disgusted at my body anymore, just either angry for not having "the right one" or apathetic towads live in general
hello, i hate you all....please hate me back?!? :|
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>>36369533ily and im sorry
>>36361641>>trannys are annoying and cringeindeed, you are annoying and cringe for saying this
>>36361457agender!
>>36369381>>36369393https://files.catbox.moe/7tcddz.webm
/hrt/gen just had to die overnight when i was trying to ask questionswell, back to repping then
no, for real, sometimes i wonder, is the majority of us just some shithole europeans and maybe if we lived somewhere in fucking California, we'd all trooned out by nowand even if we ended up hons we wouldn't be hatecrimed and be ok with it
I have 2 weeks leave coming up I'm going to spend the whole time laying in bed reading sapphic romance novels, eating junk food and drinking spirits.
>>36373252slay queen
I'm just posting here because it's sad ass gen, and i don't want to bring down the other gens with my sad asshttps://youtu.be/SJKvE3tMIPs?si=QdAHnBadagDDci_w
>>36371820they literally are
>>36373252>reading sapphic romance novels,self harm, don't do it anon.
>>36373620I know, that's what the spirits are for.
I'm considering living on the streets for a week or two to see if it helps me to change my perspective. Like maybe if I see how shit life could be, I'll stop being so miserable about things I can't change.
It is... Over
>>36373979why
i think actually drankk to jmuch today that i feelol like ij dyuingi ususually dont wriite likew this even when drunklif this is thhe end, wish you all the best ajnd good luck(no i actusllly freeekl liikr dying this mihght be the end welll see)
>>36374586You'll feel like dying tomorrow morning that's for sure
>>36374595yeahh
i need to live for tomkorrow morninganyways sorry guess not thjer ight thread fpror this(no actually usuakkyt when im drunk i can put my words i\\nto words byt now im fucked really(sure i can just not post what i post i feel like imm fucking dying so whatever
>>36374586how much did you drink? :(
>>36374669ok so maybe below 0.5 but close to itbut because i drank yesterday (and before that) it hit hardim able to write like in adequate way, ok, maybe im still alive
what the fuck is going on with my life what the fuck am i postingim so sorry for all this schizo drunk shit
you know what durian, you are one of the good ones, i'd suck your dick, fr
>>36374793*hug*
aaaa my bottle is almost over and im not as masochistic ( i am but not to this extent) to suffer though the withdrawal againwat do help
>>36361626I turned 30 a few months ago. Need I say more?
>>36361457when people try to be nice to me and hugbox it makes me wanna punch them in the faceMAILBRAINED AS FUCK BOIIIIII
bunp
>When the sissy hypno kicks in
am i the only straight edge repper?
>>36375946yes
>>36375946No, I am
>>36374830omg!(*^_^*);;
>stop coming here>the thoughts minimizei can't believe it was that easy
my chair just broke and im out of alcoholim just lying on the floor crying
god tomorrow gonna suck so much, wish i was american and had a shotgun to end this nightmare
>>36378312bro, your pipegun?
>>36361457progress, because I'm not a bad person
>>36378332i wish
FUCK FUCK FUCKwhy everything has to suck at the worst fucking moment holy fuck im losing it
I CANT EVEN DRINK THIS SHIT AWAY AHAHAHAFUCKING JOKER MOMENT
>>36378445*hug*alcohol isn't the solution dear... it can just numb shit for a little while :|
>>36378479yeah send me a bottle of vodka and a new chair, because both are gone right nowim fucking losing it not gonna liei was this close to throwing this chair out of the window but then i realized im an adult man who gets consequences for their action
>>36361626because we're AGP:-we know it's just a fetish-we know we don't really have innate femininity>>36375041
well guess this wooden chair is good enough, i have scholiosis already and blood circulation in legs is overrated anywaysalso hope this cooking wine haven't gone bad in a yearanyways repping haha, doesn't it suck amiright
>>36378546what's the problem with your chair?
>>36378672why don't you just go to bed instead anon
>>36378734a fucking wheel came off, like the socket for the wheel just broke, almost smashed my headidk how to fix it, especially in this state, and if it's even fixableunlucky
>>36378738because im too stressed and dont feel like sleepingand im out of alcohol to drink myself to sleepoh im gonna fucking suffer tonight and next day, i already see it
>>36378752hot glue? idk
hot glue fixes a lot ngl
>>36378788no like you know how on many chairs the wheels kinda pop in into the socketand this socket is like bent and fucked up so the wheel doesnt stay inoh welli'll ask my relatives tomorrow, but i think i'm just fuckedi'm gonna love going through alcohol withdrawal sitting on a wooden chair, oh i just cant fucking wait
>>36378430>>36378445>>36378546>>36378770Brother. It saddens me to see you in such pain.Say a prayer tonight, ask God with a honest heart and genuine humility.Ask him to give you the strength to defeat dysphoria, it is a demonic parasite, it wants to consume the Man you were meant to be.This suffering is not who you were intended to be, you are so much greater than you know. I dream of a day where all Repressors can know how it feels to be a Cis Male, the demon lies broken at your feet, the Lord’s protection flowing through you.the world goes into colour, your heart lies still and at peace, You finally see yourself in the mirror.https://youtu.be/qODreM5mrJs?si=6WeoZs2IpBOW0lLXYou will rise again.
god isn't real and you should feel bad for trying to get others to believe in your hateful delusions, I mean isn't that what your precious conservatives and religious types are always saying?
aaaand im out of all alcohol that was available to meplease God if you exist kill me tonight please, spare me the sufferingjust one stroke and everything will be right (like a heart or brain stroke, not a dick stroke, you feel me)>>36378946who the fuck cares about dysphoria, nigga my chair is broken
can god fix my chair? pls?
>>36378883:(am sorry, srs hope it doesn't get too bad
>>36379010I asked to be killed too. Many years ago. And yet I lived, and the parasite inside me died instead. I have been where you have, accept his help.
>>36379267ok, god, or whatever gods, please help me make it through the nightpls let the slaaneshi daemons out too
>>36379314Proverbs 3:6 “In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”Grant Anon the strength to purge this affliction as i did, rescue him from darkness and lead him to Salvation.
>>36379396inshallah brother
men are uglywarrior castereplacable stinking cum dispensersi hate being an ugly male
fr tho, sorry for rantinggoing to sleep now, gonna trylove you durian, fuck you religious schizo (thanks for blessing me though i guess, hope it helps)
>>36379491ily ranting anon :3
>>36379491you can hate me if you want.I know what that Abyss feels like, i hope you get to escape it.>>36379483Warrior Caste. Embrace your nature.
>>36379551too late for me, i live in the Abyss rn
>>36379551warrior is merely a meat
>>36379596yes men are just worthless
I think I found the perfect repfuel in this anti-tranny thread>>>/gif/27454018