and feel like absolute shit. the post-nut clarity hit me harder than anything ever. how the fuck do bottom's actually live with themselves? it feels like any remaining drops of masculinity i had were taken away. the experience taught me the fruitlessness of my endeavors in trying to experience happiness or any other emotions besides resentment and despair.idk i'm thinking i'm just AGP w/o the actually wanting to have anal sex part. it just feels gross to do it. like i really can not believe there was another man eating out my ass just 30 minutes ago. anyways thanks for reading my blogpost anons.
>>36361879oh yeah and i just increased my chance of getting aids by 1000%
>>36361879well atleast you know that you shouldn't transition
>>36361879afterglow hits after good anal and you'll feel high
>>36361879How the fuck can anyone be trans and not enjoy bottoming? I don't buy it. Every which way I've tried it has been great. I think maybe you're just porn addicted
>>36361907im not trans bruh
>>36361915Why'd you put AGP then?
>>36361879I think it depends on a few things. If it’s just sex it’s usually not as enjoyable as someone who likes you and trying to touch your whole body.>>36361915You said AGP so that’s why they assumed!
>>36361938>>36361942are agp and trans the same thing? i thought agp was like guys who dress up pretty and like to flaunt themselves but with no dysphoria or severe longing to be a woman. i don't really spend enough time on this board to know the nomenclature
>>36361953AGP is a made up category of trans people by a famous pseudo-intellectual. The idea is you get off to being feminine/perceiving yourself as female
>>36361879You enjoyed it while it was happening, right? If so, that's internalised homophobia. I'm happy with being a submissive faggot, normie wageslave breedoid culture is overrated.
>>36361879Can't relate. It was getting bred by a guy for the first time that made me realise I was definitely trans. I can't imagine sex where I'm not bottoming now, I've given up entirely on my masculinity. Maybe you're just not trans/gay?
>>36361981no i kinda felt like shit the entire time. im thinking porn psyoped me into thinking it would feel good or something. thing is, i love flaunting my ass, but the sex part was just bad. doing it in front of another man was just... horrible. like i can get off to the idea of getting fucked, but getting fucked itself makes me feel horrible. like i've sinned or something. also, my sexuality moves back and forth from being really gay to being really straight. it's weird, idk tf is wrong with me.
>>36361879it annoys me that people even entertain the idea of bottoming when they didn’t have the archetypal bottom early life development. i was an innately sensitive boy and knew i liked it up the ass by the time i was 12. there was trauma from this with having my kindness exploited, having my sexual nature be outwardly recognizable and subject to ridicule, and struggling with my inability to live up to the standards of manhood. ordinary guys who suddenly “discover” the prostate well in adulthood weren’t made to experience that in the first place - it’s like they have no respect
>>36362112very true
>>36362112imagine getting elitist about how much of a pathetic bottom you aret. agp who only masturbates anally
>>36362112i was like this too tho. i would cry like every day in 5th grade until my friends told me to shut up. i'm still inherently weak willed and have twig arms and female fat distribution. lots of girls thought i was gay because of my face and height (i was very small at the time, still am now @ 5'9). i've learned how to hide my emotions and mask with what little social skills i have, but i'm still inherently the sensitive, weak boy on the inside. i also figured out at 13 or 14 that i was bi.at the same time, though, i also fantasize about beating up guys twice my size and going to the gym to do strength training. its weird and its fucking my mind up
>>36361879>it feels like any remaining drops of masculinity i had were taken away.Your life is empty and you're trying to fill it up with as many things as you can. In a few weeks you will fantasize over that feeling, and you'll do it again. In a few years you'll post shit like >>36361977 does
>>36362185You're literally me. Let's get in a relationship so that when it turns toxic we can use that experience to hate ourselves even more :3
>>36362209nigga, i respectfully decline. the last person i would get into a relationship with is myself.
>>36362191I'm sure you have lots of experience with this pipeline
>>36362220I've never had sex with a guy bcs I know I would have the same thoughts op had afterwards
>>36362247Oh cool, so you're headcanoning other people's experience and affirming it as the one true narrative for How This Stuff Goes. Very smart of you
>>36362154yeah no. like wow steve you’re a financial consultant and your marriage is failing so you thought you could spice things up by suggesting she peg your “supple twink ass”? you’re fucking norwood 3 dude no one wants to clap those cheeks now go jump from your 10 story office instead fucking idiot>>36362185were you exploring anal stimulation at the start of puberty? if not then none of what you mentioned matters, you probably just lack a strong male role model
>>36362279>like wow steve you’re a financial consultant and your marriage is failing so you thought you could spice things up by suggesting she peg your “supple twink ass”? you’re fucking norwood 3 dude no one wants to clap those cheeks now go jump from your 10 story office instead fucking idiot you really think you have a monopoly on sticking things in your ass huh
>>36362274do you really think I'm cool :3
>>36361907>all trans women are bottomsget REAL
>>36362290because bottoming is more than just the act itself, it’s a sacred state of being. sorry if i’m saying things that are difficult for you to hear though
>>36361879i took this screenshot once of a post about embracing bottoming that moved me. it's short, but maybe it'll help you
>>36362324>sorry if i’m saying things that are difficult for you to hear thoughwhy would they be difficult for me to hear? i'm in my early twenties and my ass is so sensitive that i cum with it alone.
>>36362056"Post nut clarity" is a huge misnomer it's just heavily internalized shameIt's okay to be gay but all your experiences are subconsciously telling your psyche you're bad and it's not letting you enjoy it
>>36362318All trans women that aren't bottoms aren't valid. (There's probably a tiny fraction that are valid but negligible compared to the ones that aren't)
>>36362353and yet you have no respect for preserving the sanctity of what you are. sad
>>36362344Peak MEF. Wish I could find more stories like this
>>36362364so how many times do I have to be fucked in the ass to know if I just really don't like it ?
>>36362373no idea what that means sorry
>>36362426it’s okay, you clearly don’t know what much of anything means
>>36362449so true
>>36361879the feeling of emasculation is hot though, i can go right back to being normal afterwards
how do you manage getting a whole dick in your ass? I mean, I've managed to fit only a couple fingers in me before not making it.
>>36361879tops should thank bottoms for their sacrifice..
>>36362900tops verbally simping for bottomhole mid stroke...
>>36362056Should have mentioned that you're mentally ill somewhere in the topic, that would explain your brainworms much better.
>>36362112the term you're looking for is "stolen valour"
>>36361879This is why I fantasize about getting SRS. Anal just seems like it would be too painful. I’ve never orgasmed before and I wonder if it’s because I don’t have the right body.
>>36364783it's not painful if you take the time to relax and stretch>I’ve never orgasmed before...
>>36361879I don't get bottoms who don't like anal. I love anal so much I've basically lost interest in masturbation altogether. I prefer getting fucked, so much more, it's not even close. Literally enjoy it so much that I'm debating getting zero depth SRS just to avoid having to dilate, but also still stop having a dick and balls. Because I'd still be able to get off from anal and my hitachi. I can't imagine if I didn't like anal
>>36361888you did it raw and no prep? are you suicidal?
>>36362279got some anger?
>>36365244same, i allowed myself to get lube and toys for the first time a few months ago and i'd be happy to ignore my dick for the rest of my life desu
>>36361879I get a similar feeling, but at the very idea of having to top instead of getting to bottom at sex, so I will never top as long as I'm alive
