i passed as a foid in boymode again today but that won't stop me from carving YWNBAW into my skin again when i get home later
>>36374770waow i do this....
>>36374770Based
>>36374770why do you do this to yourself. youve made it. you did it. be happy.
>>36374809well clearly that person was delusional/hugboxxing her
>>36374809idk i don't feel like i have "made it" no matter how many times this happens to me. i guess the reason i do this is that it helps soothe me, sometimes my mind just gets flooded with negative thoughts and physical pain helps distract me from psychological pain. it's also a pretty easy way to punish myself.
>>36374770you don't look like that THOUGH
>>36374770stolen valour
>>36375000its good that you can acknowledge why you do this. understanding why is the first step to improvement. i know first hand that its hard to face the reasons behind why we do certain things. now we just have to decide what to do instead of this harmful behavior. what are some coping methods you have tried in the past? i can help with brainstorming some ideas if you want.
>>36374770youre already more of a woman than most of us can ever be. relax, enjoy yourself. you made it.
>>36374770eventually you will pass except for the scars and you will be very very sad
>>36374770i dealt with cutting/SH for a large portion of my life (16yrs). even on your bad days, know that it will get better. ive never lost that urge/craving but its really diminished since i started learning ways to calm myself. hell i just gave away my favorite knife to a close friend for “safe keeping”. i don’t need it around anymore.
>>36374770Fuck off youngshit passoid
>>36374770>won't stop me from carving YWNBAW into my skin again when i get home laterWhy do people choose to be mentally ill? Is it just boredom?
>>36374770I feel it too, even presenting male I'll pass as a woman pretty often and it does feel kind of nice but it doesn't like fix my head or anything. I still see myself as a mentally ill chemically castrated fag and not as a woman and I don't really think I look like a woman.>>36375299Yeah, I've gone about 4 years without self harm now. I still do get the urge when I feel disgusting and hate my body but I don't do it.>>36375317>Fuck off youngshit passoidIt happens to me too but I'm far from a youngshit, I started in my late 20's
>>36375405Fuck off luckshit passoid
>>36375110>what are some coping methods you have tried in the past?god i can't remember, most of them weren't good ones. before if i felt sad i'd watch like a wholesome kids' movie but nowadays i tend to actually prefer consuming devastating media for some reason. maybe playing games helps but lately i can't really stop my mind from wandering even when playing my favourite things.>>36375293eh, probably not but in any case i've had scars for like over a decade now. it sucks because i know they're super noticeable to others and every now and again someone will mention them, but that's life i guess.>>36375299glad to hear things got better for you anon. :)>>36375317i wasn't a youngshit.>>36375364for me it's trauma from past experiences and the fact i'm extremely isolated irl with little hope of ever breaking that isolation.
>>36375465Fuck off luckshit passoid
>>36375465Watch Oldboy
>>36375503wtf i thought you only say that in my threads.....
>>36375514Watch Yi Yi
>>36375317thank you!! transition and my friends legit saved my ass :)
>>36375791replied to the wrong person :(
>>36375791that's sweet, i wish i was able to say that about myself. sadly my transition has been a bit of a failure and i've never really succeeded in making friends who actually give a shit about me and at my age it's probably too late for that to happen. it's nice that things worked out for you though. :)
