>almost 4 years hrt >live in upstate NY>boymode 99% of the time except when going with gf>"pass" when i don't wear baggy hoodies with the hood up and sweatpants but its too much effort to do consistently for stuff like school because then im subjected to the weight of female beauty standards >generally okay with strangers gendering me as "buddy"(iykyk) here while i boymode because im a 5'11 lateshit that started hrt at 22>go on 10 day vacation with gf to portland >girlmode 100% of the time >constantly get random compliments by strangers >people calling me and my gf gorgeous >exclusively gendered she/her and not a single "buddy" over entire vacation >vacation ends and go back to upstate NY>suddenly boymoding feels a million times worse>still can't bring myself to change my documents and girlmode here until after schooli just hate this area so much, i hate the Idea of girlmoding and running into someone i knew pre transition and having them glare at me as if I'm doing something wrong it's happened before and people in this area are so shit
>>36630701i miss upstate ny so much. be grateful. and change your documents. it’s so easy there.
>>36630738what do you miss about upstate NY?other than the nature theres literally nothing to do here and most of the people in my specific area are bigoted as fuck
>>36630701new york in general sucks ass. just move somewhere better like Florida lol. except dont move to Florida because were full.
>>36630771literally this, absolutely nothing. even if you do finally pass and girlmode, whats there to do?
>>36630701I went on a vacation with my gf to troy it was wonderful :)
>>36631115Florida isn't great either
>>36631735exactlythere were fun bars, theaters, nearby music venues, cool city events like the saturday market, beautiful nature trail vistas and a general air of inclusive acceptance when i went to portlandin upstate NY you have nothing but a mix of conservative retards of seemingly every skin color and you're forced to drive at least an hour to the city if you even want to even attempt to do anything funyou literally can't even dress nice in upstate NY because you'll stand out too much since every cis woman here wears sweats/leggings and some ugly topgod forbid you actually decide to dress nice too then you just get perceived as a try hard or some gross moid attempts to hit on you because theyre stuck with their landwhale 45 year old cishon wifefuck upstate NY
honestly this is a big part of why I hate living in LAthe beauty standards here are insane, everyone who was the hottest girl in their small town moved here and gets tons of cosmetic surgeryas an ugly native and especially as a bdd tranny it is a living hell going outside
>>36631982>you literally can't even dress nice in upstate NY because you'll stand out too much since every cis woman here wears sweats/leggings and some ugly topYES YES IM SO GLAD U GET IT it is so so stupid and i swear its just so dreary, hardly anyone worth talking to that seems to have any brain at all either
Hey I'm a 3yr hrt upstate NY boymoder too but not for long cause I'm gonna explode my brain :3
>>36632155based >>36632160do not do that fren
