> mom says she's proud of the person i've become and says she has noticed i seem happier and jusrt getting better in geeneral> i'm actually getting worse, the most suicidal i've ever been> it's always like thiswhy do i seem happier when i'm at my worst? is this the best time to kms so my parents can remember me as a hardworking person and not as a troon?
>>36644012It is common. A sign for people to worry is when a previously suicidal miserable person suddenly seems considerably better because it usually comes from ease they experience from actively planning suicide which makes them feel like the suffering is about to end.
>>36644012Your parents would probably rather remember you as a troon who lived than a hard working guy who just grilled himself out of nowhere
>>36644025maybe that's true. i feel closer and closer. i hope all of this will end someday. i just have to take matters into my own hands
>>36644054idk about that. at least i'll be rememebr as theur child who stayed a non-degen until the end and eventually sacrificed himself for the greater good or something like that. living as a a delusiuonal faggot doen\sný sound so nice
