I will never be a real woman and I'm destined to participate in the queer scene as an extremely clocky masculine trans woman. I started hrt at 22, and I regret not starting sooner. I was taken off of HRT involuntarily because my family petitioned me for mental health treatment when I tried to isolate away from them. I wasn't out, and I had just gone through a bad breakup and was scaring my family, I guess. I stopped in October of 2022. I took an entire year, and nearly killed myself multiple times. I went back on HRT in secret in October of 2023, when I started working full time again, and then my family caught on a few months later in this year around march. They hate me more and more every day. I am treated like a retard by my younger sister. They flaunt God in my face daily. I haven't been able to voice train because I hate opening my mouth or making noise while I live here. I don't have my old room or anywhere to keep clothes organized. All of my belongings have been in a storage unit for over a year, and I am unable to bring them over. Cherry on top, I lost my full time job a few weeks ago. I'm about to go to school full time and work a part time job and live off of student loans or something. I cannot keep living here. I want to cry the moment I wake up knowing I don't have a supportive environment here like I did at my old job. How should a 24 year old dropout proceed? Am I on the right track here? I want to be wearing better, clean, clothes soon, and have nice hair and get my ears pierced. I don't know how to be myself I feel like an actual retard who doesn't like anything ever someone fucking beat me until I can think straight please.
>>36649193You are absolutely making the right decision. Prioritize getting out of that situation over everything else. Try to get yourself to a place where you can set up an emergency plan that doesn’t require you to going home to them again. I hope there are better days ahead for you, anonette.
>>36649215This - your priority should be establishing yourself independently. I would only recommend transition once you’ve obtained a decent, semi-secure life position. Trying to fix your life and transition is an absolute nightmare, speaking as someone who did it.
>>36649215>>36649228Thank you for the validation, seriously. I never know if I'm making the right decision anymore. I tried to move out and be established when I started HRT the first time, then I had been stuck with a lease that I couldn't afford when my ex left suddenly. I'm trying to do this differently because I realize how fucking hard it is to find a job as an unskilled tranny.
>>36649245I'm looking at subsidized housing for low income and going full student loan debt. I found a clothing swap.
