my life pre-transition was so lonely that sometimes i feel this weird sensationi have friends now, im in a relationship, i tried my best to make the most of my life after getting over repressioni get compliments, ive had random people come up to me on the street to talk, i go to partiesbut i also feel so disconnected from the feelings that i used to have that despite no longer being alone, i almost feel lonelier some daysit's like having a pain removed from my life that was causing me to suffer endlessly, but now that the sensation is gone after a literal lifetime of having it that i am now void of something i grew used to having and can feel its absencewhen i play yume nikki or listen to the ost i strongly feel that absence and i'm reminded of the lonely summer nights i'd just be exploring, trying to stay afloat mentally by distracting myself
my life pre-transition was so lonely and it still is
>>36665721just like me fr
>>36665097Mine was extremely lonely and still isI have never been in a real relationship and im 25I hate being alive Worst part is people think im cute but im still completely unlovable
>>36665097i romanticize my life from 8 years ago when I was at my most depressed and freshly back in the closet. if my partner is out for the evening and i don't have plans i'll pretend i'm that depressed lonely NEET again for awhile and it is nice, revising the media that used to bring me comfort. eventually i also remember that i'd be dead by now if i was on the same trajectory i was back then.
>>36666560>Worst part is people think im cute but im still completely unlovablei'm sure you're loveable nona things will get better
>>36669117Things have never gotten better I have always held out hope in things getting better but they never ever did
>>36669242my life only started at 26 so for what its worth you're on the same trajectory as me and others i knowits gay but it is what it is
