So since realizing that I'm trans and starting HRT I have: Watched straight romance shows and projected myself onto the woman, masturbated to videos of guys jerking off, sexted guys, fantasized about dating a coworker and felt jealous of his girlfriend, and so on. I've never admitted to being bisexual, but it would be kind of stupid not to given that I have literally masturbated while sexting guys, right?I was always really put off by gay porn and mlm stuff so I figured I wasn't gay, but imagining myself as a woman in a relationship with a guy is pretty cozy honestly. Growing up I was exclusively into women, although I might have experienced gender envy too. Idk, I'm confused, do I just like the idea of guys because they make me feel relatively feminine? Would I get bored of him in a relationship?In real life I'm attracted to loads of women but can count the men I've been attracted to on one hand. I'm also a khv so I don't know what relationships are like period. Am I just desperate for any kind of atttention? It's confusing. Anyone else have similar experiences?
>>36668907another girl lost to the dick.... im going to die alone..........
>ywn give a cute khv trans the time of her lifeIt's over bros.
>>36668907I was pretty similar to you early in my transition, so I want to ask you stuff that helped me figure this out at the time.>In real life I'm attracted to loads of women but can count the men I've been attracted to on one hand.What does this attraction feel like to you? Do you like the way these women look? Do you find their personality cute or endearing? Do you stare at their breasts or rear? When you see an attractive woman do you imagine how she looks naked? Do you want to know what it's like to touch her body or kiss her? Do you want to have sex with her?Now ask yourself the same questions about men you're attracted to. Do you like the way they look? Is something about their personality appealing to you? If you see an attractive man without a shirt on, do you imagine how it would feel to reach out and touch his chest with your hand, or how it would feel if he was holding you and kissing you? Do you imagine what his penis looks like? Do you want to have sex with him? Does the idea of having him inside you turn you on?>I'm also a khv so I don't know what relationships are like period.There's a good chance that going on a date with someone of either sex will clear this up for you pretty quickly. The first time I held hands with my bf it instantly turned me on. When he gave me my first kiss, I remember that magnetic pull I felt toward him, my brain subconsciously yelling at me to meet his lips with mine, yelling at me that I needed this man as my mate. The first time we had sex, we had literally agreed beforehand that he wasn't feeling too well and that we'd try it the next day, but then that night we were sleeping together in bed and holding each other and feeling each other and the heat of the moment got so fierce that I just had to have him, and he had to have me, and we ended up doing it for the first time that night anyways.I guess what I'm trying to say is that you'll learn more about your sexuality the more you gain experience with it.
>>36668907it’s possible that you’ve always been into guys and simply didn’t allow yourself to accept that since you saw mlm relationships as weird, but now you can since you’re a woman. don’t question it too much, sometimes this stuff changes on hrt, especially prog
>>36668998I'm still into women though. <3 >>36669075Why do you say that anon? Never say never, nobody knows the future!>>36669134Thanks for the thought out reply! Some women I'm attracted to straight away, others I like after talking to them. I'm mainly drawn to their face, but I will certainly notice their body if it's impressive. There's a lot of romantic pining involved and some sexual fantasizing, mainly just kissing and just being physically close. I am never attracted to men just by looking at them, they're just not interesting to look at. Some guys I start to look at a bit differently after talking to them, but very few and only after a while. It's romantic fantasizing, but not sexual, I don't think. Hugging, going on dates, cuddling. I pretty much never think of men from irl sexually, but I do with women. I think the best thing is probably to not worry about the labels and just let what happens happen. Nobody's ever been into me so it seems like kind of pointless speculation anyway lol. You seem happy together!>>36669257I'm curious how my sex drive will change on prog, I've heard some women say that they weren't attracted to guys until they started taking it and then they got obsessed lol. You're right that I probably need to stop worrying about labels.
>>36668907sometimes I think women are cute and if I'm drunk I've done some lesbian things like kissing but I've only ever had sex with men>>36669134I only ever fantasize about being with men...I'm not sure I've been on dates but I stil worry sometimes I'm a lesbian
>>36669652>I only ever fantasize about being with men...Same. Even when I was a depressed horny repper teen I couldn't ever actually conceptualize myself having sex with women, or even kissing them for that matter lol. I had fake crushes in grade school that in hindsight were just envy for the types of women I wanted to be like. Nowadays though when I see an attractive man my brain just automatically starts saying "SEX SEX SEX SEXO" and it's got nothing to do with envy, it's just animalistic sexual attraction. It's no wonder that I ended up with a bf and that I get my neovagina filled with his cum every night... lol.
>>36669757Same I knew I was supposed to like girls but never could figure out how that was supposed to work. I was terrified one would try to have sex with me. With men when that happened it just came totally naturally.
>>36668907Your a man no such thing as a tranny just crazy ass niggas
>>36668907You're AGP and retard.
>>36669757Ok, I cannot relate to this at all lol. Picrel is basically how I see all men. Boring asf. I still say that I'm probably a bit bi, but it's like 90/10 in favor of women.
>>36669839ok but some men look like thisI know I used to like women more than men, but now looking at pictures like this sometimes makes me make involuntary noises and looking at women makes me feel nothing
>>36669134Did you cum handsfree?
>>36670226Off-putting, active turn off. Really macho guys are not remotely attractive for me, I think they just look ridiculous.
>>36670226Builtfat men are sooo hot.>>36670302No. I've always had difficulty cumming, and ironically SRS didn't make it any easier or harder. Sometimes my bf will spoon me and hold me and finger my pussy until I cum, which is really nice...
>>36668907idk about qott but i like kimi ni todoke
>>36670574My OP is a bit of a fake since I only watched the anime, but I think the cover art is cute. Should I read the manga? I remember liking the show.
>>36670604haha same here :3
>>36670226>>36670346I just don't care if there's no face. I hate it, honestly. I don't like it when it's just some faceless guy doing full nelson shit
>>36670682The only manga I've ever read is Nausicaa, which is absolutely fantastic, I think everyone should read it. I want to read the Akira manga at some point. Anyway, I like pretty relaxed slice of life/romance stuff. My problem is that every romance is about two people dancing around the issue of getting together and then the show ends when they do. I'd really like a cozy slice of life romance about a couple who are together the whole time, especially wlw.
>>36670719Omg! This too. Staring at a person's body without seeing their face is just really bizarre. I hate in porn when it just cuts to meat slapping together or leering shots of people's bodies. If I can't see how someone is feeling, by seeing their face, it's just boring. That's why porn has become really boring, I think it could be hot if it was shot in a less dehumanizing way.