most tragic female generallast >>36942394qott: did you enjoy your weekend
>>36948284didnt even realize it was sunday
>>36948284are you really dying of cancer?
>>36948320anon im not mado
>>36948284>qotti want to kill myself
did ppl stop fighting yet?
>>36948284ITT grendle posts suit pic
>>36948347is she really dying of cancer?
>>36948371What'd I miss? I was moving stuff in today. Done for the day. I'm achey
>>36948284>qottI had a good weekend! I've been trying to meet new people and its been going well!
>>36948376no clue
Thinking of grabbing these and a couple more comfy bras
Not nomi, but am gonna make eggs for breakfast burritos for supper tonight
is ashley a clocky name
>>36948284my weekend wasnt that good there were thunderstorms so my plans were cancelled
Really want to meet the one in my lifeA pretty trans girl that makes others laugh
i have spent 3 hrs trying to get this game to load and now the grass is invincible
>>36948825invisible*
>>36948874sorry
tfw primary, secondary, and auxiliary attraction to BIG WHITE COCK
>>36948284i am going into surgery tomorrow, getting a bilateral orchiectomy. i still don't know how to feel, i'm honestly numb right now. a little scared, i guess. i just don't even have words... i wanted this for years and years, it's so weird actually being here, standing on the edge. i'll be so happy to have them gone but... idk. it's just a lot. i'm just sad that i even have to do all of this. i wish i had just been a normal boy lol dysphoria ruined my life.
being dead will be very restful
>>36948959yeah that makes sense, it’s a major life event
>>36948949you and me both
>>36948959you can look forward to feeling more sane afterwards
>>36948981yeah and it's my first time doing any kind of operation like this... i don't think i've had any teeth pulled before, even. it's just a lot. but, at this point it feels kind of mandatory, with how unstable our healthcare can be. i would rather die of osteoporosis than get forcibly masculinized because i cant get my meds or something, if the US government decides trannies are no longer cool and based, lol. my gf can't be there for it, and that's been bothering me a lot. it's not her fault, it's not anyone's, really, it's just how the scheduling ended up but idk. i'm just feeling empty, knowing i'm gonna be pretty much alone other than my mom who is only supportive because i'll cut her out of my life if she doesn't let me troon out and my brother is dead so this is all she has. LOL!>>36949020i hope. i stopped taking my spiro because it was killing me physically and i've been at my worst mentally, honestly. part of me feels like this will just make it all go the fuck away.
>>36948376just like navy did before her
she wants me back
>>36948705
>>36949169are these names we shouldn't pick, or names we have to pick
>>36949181are you puppypilled or not
>>36949181These are the most common dog names and tend to also be the most common transfemme namesThis list is practically a transfemme yearbook
>>36949205I don’t get why andro names aren’t more popular, seems like an easy route to go
>>36949169>>36949205fucking kek
>>36949146wish i could go with her
>>36949253no you don't.
My head is pounding. I hsve only had a Protein shake today, been moving stuff today. What should I get for dinner? I'm not making anything. Too tired.
>>36949284pasta or whatever leftovers you have
medication is kicking my ass
>>36949319i wish i a hot dad was fucking my ass
>qottNot really. Nursing sick kids ftw. Been talking to a very interesting person on and off and other than the little ones everything else has been pretty alright. I'd give it a solid 7/9
>>36949340unfortunately we dont live in a perfect world
I can't sleep anymore.. I keep waking up every hour.. but I need to sleep.. its 3 am..
>>36949340daughter dearest.....
>>36949228i was given an andro name and i'm thinking of just keeping it desu>>36949202only for the right person
>>36949378sleep Now.
>>36949433I've been sleeping all day o think om going to dpie
>>36949439ok then dont sleep maybe youve slept too much already
>>36949374when we live in a perfect world, then?
>>36949458but I wwnw eat and I can't cook at 3 am
>>36949461maybe when a hot dad fucks your ass. who knows.
i think i have ceased passingi used to never get clockedrecently men started giving me strange looks more often and holding the door lessbeen getting "they"dthe wall is real
i wish my dad was....
>go food shopping>gross intrusive thoughts about strangers>visit parent >gross intrusive thoughts about him>try to sleep>bad memories and thoughts about depressing things>feel like shit i know the thing with intrusive thoughts is to not interact with them but it’s still so draining having to put up with itor certain redacted things from the past that won’t fucking stay in the pastis there a way to kill yourself without dying so you can be dead but alive enough to not upset your mother or sibling >>36949482my dad’s visiting nearby and it’s like i can feel the damn eye of mordor on me
>>36949496Disassiating hard is about as close as you can get to living death. Been there, done that, not fun.
>>36949496I think you are supposed to allow them to flow past
>>36949514certain meditation practices can get you there
Please.. one slize of pizza.. I can't take it abymkre
>>36949496been a little bit since I've heard from mineso I assume he has his hands full
I hung out with another transfem
>>36949528i put a piece of pizza in the mail for you earlier
how the hell do you guys do this in such neat straight lines?
>>36949528sorry i ate all 8 slices
>>36949586Its.. 3 am vbcabt get out ti get it.. so hungry m its been u uh.n 36/? maybe more hour until since last meakl in dying pkese
>>36949610I have pizza2 in frjdge j want to eat
>>36949611going 36 hours without eating is not healthy please go have something to eat if there is anything easy and quick to make in your fridge or pantry
>>36949514yeah i used to have pretty severe dissociation and i definitely don’t miss iti just hate that this is the alternative>>36949519that’s what i do, i just let them happen and move on but like it’s hard to feel a little shaken sometimes even if i try to not dwell on itplus nothing really holds my attention so it’s hard to draw it away when im lying in bed or wake up from a nightmare, aside from thinking about ex bff but that has its own drawbacksplus i just got into a bit of an argument with my mum where i had a reese’s piece on my back bc i accidentally lay down on one and she looked so disappointed in me and i told her it’s just like one reese’s piece, it’s not a big deal and she said she’s worried about my health because im sleeping in food and not staying clean and it’s like what the fuck are you talking about like i cleaned my room the other day and did laundry literally yesterday and how tf is accidentally laying on one reese’s piece sleeping in food i stg she was acting like im a retard who sleeps covered in literal shit or something and so i said something about wishing she could realize im not an imbecile or a baby and that a minor thing is not a portent of major failure on my part it’s infuriating and hurtful and she said i’m just way overreacting to her expressions and stuff and idkand then all the shit with my dad and stuff from ages ago and from recent it’s just all too muchbleh sorry to dump all that, i’m just so tired of being alive lol
>>36949628she let herself dump a bunch of worry based on that silly little thing
>>36949622no I'm I fine I need to lose weight
>>36949647starting to think you have an eating disorder
>>36949628i wish my mom cared that much about me.
>>36949619>I have pizza2 in frjdge j want to eatremember weightmaxxing is how you get dd cup milkers trust me it worked for me
>>36949650I'm not>>36949657I gained weight and my chest still looks male this is a scam
>>36949677>chest still looks malemust be a hondose
I'm eating good tonite
>>36949639yeah i swear she has ocd>>36949656there’s a point where it’s caring too much and it gets suffocating because she won’t stop making me feel like shit or treating me like an idiot, it’s really frustratinglike she constantly undermines my self esteem and second guesses everything i do or say or criticizes everything because she thinks that without her constant scrutiny and “guidance” i’ll just fucking choke to death on my own tongue or something
>>36949684And what am I supposedbto do about it now in mad
>>36949708all troons have male chests, some of them get fake tits bolted on but they always look uncanny and far apart because it’s still a man’s chest
>>36949720fuck you
always a groomer, never the groomed :/
>>36949720That's what push-ups are for.
>>36949741wait do push ups help?
>>36949720even males have the genetic code that tells their body how to develop breasts, it's the same reason why guys have nipples
>>36949741the bra or the exercise
>>36949747the bra helps hold them in a more normal position.
>>36949756yes, and men’s ribcages are much broader than women’s. if you look at any tranny with fake tits, there’s still a good chunk of space between them because of the innate broadness of the male frame
>>36949759>>36949741Pft wow I'm an idiot. Push-up bras. A good fitted one holds the girls together. I love mine.>>36949774That's mostly just the sternum being wider. Fat (and thus, breasts) can't attach to the sternum. Sucks but it is what it is.
>>36948284i spent my time with my girlfriend I cooked dinner for her we got drunk together and watched sao abridged while smoking i also cried a lot because I missed herso it was good yes :3
>>36949794ive always wondered why there isnt a surgery to make them closer together
>>36949795I wish I wasn't alone
is there any point getting a push up if i have a cups
>>36948284>qottnoI feel like I'm falling apart
>>36949761ohh ok lol
>>36949795<3 cute
>>36949809what type of alone? do you just want people around or specifically people to talk about heavier stuff?or like serious relationship alone?
also spending time around people my age irl is roughmy dad’s wife’s kids and their partners are all around my age plus or minus five years, and the conversation was kinda roughthe guys were talking about some reddit boardone of the women was telling me and my dad about bojack horsemen which is like ok i understand being really into something and wanting to share about it but im so over the millennial obsession with muh mental health bc of how over therapied i’ve beenshe’s nice though and we have a lot in common, i feel like we could have a good conversation if it weren’t a group setting where i can barely manage two or three word sentences like “that’s cool” or “i know what you mean” because im a loser and then the other woman there around my age is just not very bright and neither is her husband, talking to them feels like being in quicksandand then there’s my dad and his wife who are obviously much older but it’s still tough conversing with them especially his wife bc i hate her and she’s also dumbi just wish i could have a boyfriend to be with me when i socialize, i used to rely on ex bff for socializing where if i would get overwhelmed we could go to another room and i could talk to him more easily one on one or if i wanted to say something but couldn’t talk he could normally tell what i wanted to say since we could talk with words pretty easily or i could let him do all the talking bc he’s a social person anyway or if i wanted to say something i’d feel more comfortable with him there just because he was such a rockugh
>>36949862Both 2nd and thirdActually all would be nice but specially those
i am going to smoke weed and watch mobile suit gundam iron blooded orphans
>>36949875i figuredi did put them in that order for a reason btwyou dont get the third without the second and the second without the firstmy gf and I literally met at a gathering started talking about random stuff (like literally fucking ikea furniture im not joking) and slowly warmed up towards one anotherthen we started to talk a bit more about deeper stuff, like she asked me about my scars I asked her about her family we talked about hwo were unhappy with where we are in life etc (mind you this was a month long process)and then after 2 months of constant talking we decided to dateskipping step 1 or 2 puts you at risk of terrible relationshipsso my honest advice for you; seek just general interaction and if youre attracted to someone seek them out more, and dont be afraid of being attracted to someone either, nothing is more annoying then a missed chance cause you never tried
>>36949898godspeed anon
so bored.
>>36949911Sobtrue anon so true too bad people scare me and I can barely handle interacting with them online but very true
>>36949911is your gf trans?
>>36949931no just has a touch of the tism~
>>36949926as much as the game is a cestpool, do you know/have vrchat? it helped me overcome a lot of social anxiety over roughly a year and at this point I can literally talk to random people in public
kinda wanna get some weed
>>36949966That is still scary. I have to avoid MMOs because I panic whenever someone talks to me in them. Oddly enough getting talked to in an fps tends to be fine but not anywhere else
>>36949973i want sleep
need male touch of a guy who is a dude and also a man i go sleep alone but pretend for guy dream with more pillows fcuk i wanna die lmao fuk u have a gud wutever
sucks matching with a guy on tinder and then getting unmatcheddo they just swipe without looking at my bio and then go ew a tranny...idkI'm scared to even message guys back desu cuz it seems like they always get mad when they find out I'm trans (even tho it's the first thing in my bio)basically i will never have a bf kms
>>36949966>talk to random people irlalmost had a panic attack reading that, it’s like hearing a dial tone or a phone ringwhy would you talk to random people
>>36949982you might need therapy
>>36949931bruh why do u always ask people this
>>36950008>you might need therapyeveryone on this godforsaken board does
>>36950005men literally swipe right on everyone without looking, how do trannies not realize this>>36950003dad… touch… (not the bad kind and not your own dad)
>>36949496Do you have OCD? My intrusive thoughts are from that and have gotten better over time
>>36950006yknow at like a music festival or while at the park and their football almost rolls onto my picnic blanketor they have a cute dogor I want to compliment someones outfit or hairor to tell a bitch to fuck off
>>36950017except for me because im normal
>>36950008For what?? I get therapy but they never do anything. I just need to slowly get used to it but there's no chances for that rn
>>36948824>A pretty trans girl that makes others laughgiwtwm
>>36950030i think perhaps u need a different kind of therapy than the one ur doing now if its not helping
>>36950013i’m just interestedit seems that most transwomen with an alleged gf are dating another transwoman, and if they’re dating a woman they’ll normal explicitly say “cis gf” whereas transbians tend to but the ledejust an interesting trend, there’s no real reason other than curiosity
>>36950021if only i had been born a cis girl.. guys would be happy if i was interested in them instead they get mad at me cuz I'm a stupid useless trannyno man will ever want me to be his princess
>>36950022not diagnosed and likely subclinical, both my sibling and mother have ocd proper though>>36950023i’m never in such situations, closest would be out cooking and even just walking past ppl on a trail and figuring out when to make eye contact instead of avoiding looking at them so it doesn’t look like i’m staring at them creepily or when to say hello in a noncommittal way so they don’t really engage makes me anxious
>>36950041you're really weird
>>36950035Yeah it's not happening everyone here is incompetent
>>36950025yeah i'm sure you are
>>36950078they call me ms. normal>>36950072that is quite unfortunate... it doesnt hurt to try though i thihk u r being too defeatist about it
>>36950087I've been trying for all my life. I just can't be arsed to not be realistic anymore. I've gone to many psychologists therapists and endos and they're all fucking retarded. I swear to god everyone is just insanely incompetent here because I live in the middle of nowhere so everything's worse
>>36950105have you considered doing online therapy with a better therapist located somewhere else?
>>36950119Ig I could try that. Or just like. Do the thing I usually do and just fix things myself. Like I said all I need is exposure to people so I get used to having them near and then things will get easier
>>36950057I think the clinical threshold is that intrusive thoughts disrupt a combined one hour per day or more, so it might be worth it to check that out
>>36950133yes i think that would be very good for you
i want a guy to genuinely like me and think i’m cute and attractive, without him being a pedo like ex bf or nombla
>>36950142Right.
>>36950140only 1 hour a day? no wonder everyone supposedly has mental illness
>>36950140i’ll bring it up i guessim just so tired of having diagnoses piled on top of each other without making much headway, just got told i allegedly have adhd and it’s like fuck off i already have so many diagnoses it makes me feel like a basket case and a munchausen loser>depression anxiety c/ptsd bpd anorexia gender dysphoria adhd autismlike do i really need fucking ocd on top of all that shit i just fucking hate it
i wish i was a girl and had a husband and could get pregnant
>>36950255why a girl and not a woman anon that’s kinda weird
>>36950261is it nomi?
>>36950267idk he’d probably want a child bride, not to be one
>>36950261girls can be adults you are making it weird thinking otherwise
why are the prices in monster inc displayed to the third decimal place
i got my weed weedfrens
>>36950355the bilge berries on the right are clipping thru eachother
Just showed my new roommate Paprika cause they've never seen, or even heard of it before meeting me. Loved it. Should I show her Satoshi Kon's other films?
>>36950430needu weedu desu
>>36950436lot of errors like that in this movie esp with sullys fur
i feel sick
>>36950437the soundtrack of that movie goes so hardhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=APIKVLw1tT0could listen to this all day
Uggo thread, except for marie.
>>36950467Always been partial to this personally.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=21JuYIPHMF8
>>36949699do we have the same mom or what it sucks bc she's not even a bad person but i realized she programmed me to be as anxious/insecure as her with the constant worrying and fussing over making sure i'm okayi want to love her, but i'm not really sure i can now that i'm a bit more aware of how i was influenced by her
>>36950463i feel sicker
>>36950480ugh yes lol those two are my favoritesthat one makes me feel like the earth is falling out from under me
>>36949911how do i fkn approach a person tho? i've been going out a ton and trying to look my best and i def notice people eyeing me, but they never approach (prob bc it looks like im having a panic attack) ig i need to just keep going out until i'm desensitized but like i literally feel mute when i'm out and the prospect of taking the first step is soo scary i wish someone would just start fkn talking to me ..
>>36950542chuds are more mentally ill than we are o_o
i feel like shit
>>36949911ive never been in a relationship before but this seems like good advice from what other people have told me before. another thing ive heard is that its important to have confidence in yourself. that can go a long way
>>36950524and the other person who you want to approach you is thinking the exact same thinggod yall are hopeless
i want to smoke weed but it makes me feel sick
>>36950658hey listen .. i'm trying my best, but u are right i need to stop being so timidat least i go out most nightseventually i'll figure it out if i dont crash outi'm gonna crash out tho
>>36948284>qotthonestly don't remember much of it but i think so? i didn't do much. must be the meds.
>>36950698nta but i believe in you. all you need is that first step forward
does someone have the other version of this?
>>36950767Lol
>>36950767i am ugly too
>>36950758yea i just need 1 good movie kiss and then i will be fixed instantly getting cheated on rlly fucks with ur confidence aha
>>36950658the other person is more likely thinking "god i hope that ugly tranny doesn't come any closer" in my case. maybe after ffs but even then towering over ppl probably scares them.
>>36950830some people like being towered over....
>>36950767Objectively real as fuck
i could really use a xanny.
>>36950797sorry to hear that happened. but ur gonna be okay.
>>36950846just talking about meeting people lol. i wouldn't want a relationship with someone who makes me feel dysphoric about my height.
>>36950852WHO COULDNTT
>>36950830i dream about meeting a tranner that towers over me
>>36950922why? to mog them?
>>36950876it REALLY doesn't feel like that ik something is rotten inside methanks for the kind words tho
>>369509225'11 gang stays losing
>>36950902i hate that being ugly makes other trannies dysphoric. makes me feel dirty and ashamed.
>>36950982it does? i thought they hate us for worsening optics.
>>36950949no. i cant mog anyone. but i also cant say as to why without sounding weird so ill just leave it at that. i mean maybe i heightmog someone. is that even a term>>36950957im not 5'11
>>36950982If anything it does the opposite for me
ugly trans women and pretty trans women will make trans women feel dysphoric it's very funny
>>36951022dw about it most people who like tall girls have some "weird" reason for it which rarely even is all that weird. >heightmogyeah probably.
>>36951066by funny do you mean torturous
should I date trans girls if I'm tired of dealing with twinks
>>36951087what about twinks is tiresome? chances are it only gets worse here.
>>36951084these are the same you see I am the joker
>>36951107torture and pleasure is the same 2 me now
>>36951068ig its not really that i like "tall girls" just if someone was taller than me i wouldnt be able to handle it. id be anxious
>>36951130tall girls do something to me like .. it's crazy what happens
>>36951119this says something about society
>>36951119mfw i always see the signs
>>36951152do they change when ur around??
>>36951148you get it
>>36951163yeppp
I like women that make me pancakesAnd men that make me pancakesEven eldritch beings that make me pancakesConclusion : I want pancakes
i hope im killed in a signature strike with a us drone using my phone as the target
I never know what to say while i am here, im not very good at being social :(
>>36951310I'm eating grapes
when i get my adderall back it's going to be so over for everyone that ever wronged me
>>36951317Hi eating grapes, I am limemaiden! :D
>>36951322when will it be over?
>>36951310same desu
>>36951322Give me for xanny?>>36951326Do you want a grape
>>36951361Yes please
>>36951343when i work up the nerve to find a new gp since my last one tried to tell me that smoking weed on adderall didn't "make sense" and then tried to gaslight me into thinking it's unhealthy to smoke while on stimsthis retard then went on to ask me what being high "felt like" and that he had just moved here from another city and was confused why all his patients smoked weedlike buddy maybe you should read the room and just let it slide holy fucknot to mention i've literally booked appointments with 2 separate doctors that straight up refused to see me because "they aren't accepting new ADHD patients"the most insane part is that i already have a diagnosis, i literally just need someone to write me a prescriptionand they just won't, it feels like they are actively trying to kill me
>orgasm>dysphoria goes awaytf?
>>36951388For you
>>36951419Thanks :)I really like grapes, they're one of my favorite fruits
>>36951434Same I also like kiwis bananas and apples too Cherries are nice but I hate the gigantic seed in the middle
>>36951419is that grape getting ffswill they do surgery on the grape
>>36951419in the future if you slightly angle your phone, you can avoid ur keyboard lights blowing out the pic. this isn’t me being mean just autistic
>>36951441cherries are so good but my fave fruits have to be mango/pineapple or maybe like a really good plum, like a really really good one you know?
>>36951450It's getting a ba too its the first ba + ffs session done on a grape>>36951452I know it's just a pic of a grape I didnt rlly care>>36951462Mangos are nice I like pineapples a lot too plums aren't my favorite but they're okay
i love my blahaj
>>36950999It doesn't and most don'tPeople saying hons make it worse for passoids deserve whatever is coming to paige
>>36951496idk it's hard to like urself as a hon when all the anti-trans rhetoric spouted by chuds and terfs is focused around hons to the point where clueless normies assume assume mtf is automatically male to hon transition. they don't know passoids even exist. it's demoralizing.
>>36951513I'm a mid-30s musclebound lateshit who has to wear her own skin as a suit because of the past weight loss who works out in yoga pants and a sports braNormies don't give a shitClockiness or failing to meet conventional beauty standards is not a crime against our existence
>>36951549mhm you're probably right. i used to not care back when i had more going on irl but now being alone and unemployed, unable to connect with people and to find work is doing a number on my mental. it's easy to blame the thing i like the least about myself. the thing that causes ppl to stop talking to me in dms when i reveal it that's constantly on the news n stuff as a negative thing but it's probably other personal failings that are causing me to fail at life.
>>36951646FWIW you seem to be consistently one of the kinder voices here, albeit not towards yourselfThe lack of comfy places to hang out irl that don't cost a lot of money makes it miserable to find company, and isolation while the conservative media shits on us fucking sucks
>>36951496>deserve whatever is coming to paigewhat is this supposed to mean
>>36950902how tall are you?
>>36951646i know exactly how you feel. i can almost remember how i felt before everything went wrong. it was easier to talk, easier to take up space. now it's just, i'm just slowly asphyxiating under the isolation and loneliness if it means anything i agree with what >>36951686 said you seem to be very kind and genuine. it feels like u really know how to listen based on the responses you give, which will take you a long way. i believe in you!
Tytywho is a faggot and I hope he kills himself
>>36951733for every action, an equal and opposite reaction
>>36951733she mogs you to death larry, and looks like a woman
larry isn't real it's a psy op
>>36951416lay off the weed
she showed me an unsee a long time ago, unfortunately she's like so many girls on tttt who are brainwormed while also being attractive. tyty reminded me of paul ffs a literal cis woman
>>36951740Not larry
>>36951758paul isn’t cis
>>36951759you're an irrelevant pussy. tyty is nice to everyone.
lily is a great person and she will find happiness one day
>>36951769harr harr, I raff
>>36951770Only if it benefits him :)
are both the tytys the same entity,, what..
>>36951790Not at all, she's nice to me and I'm an asshole. There's nothing to gain from being nice to me.
>Double perfect guy playing Axl in GG Strive>Taunt him at the start of Set 2>Instantly ragequitsLMAOWhy are men and their egos so fragile? Hoping he adds me on Discord for hatemail
>>36951686where i live it's considered a faux pas to approach strangers so the 'meeting new people' game is rigged beyond all reason. even cis ppl struggle greatly. reading this local normie chat is like 50% of ppl asking where to find friends lol.>>369517096'>>36951721thank you anon.>slowly asphyxiating under the isolation and lonelinessyeh. self doubt mounting at every step of the way. i heard about this issue with mentally ill people where they set up goals but instead of working backwards from their goals to come up with intermediate steps they start immediately taking small steps that don't actually lead towards their intermediate and long term goals.maybe that's the problem i'm having. wasting all my energy on taking futile little steps one day at a time.>>36951733this desu.
>>36951797So true my qveen
>>36951795one is me phoneposting because i lost this trip and had to make a new one before finding this again. never got around to changing the phone one.
>>36949806The problem is the sternum and the breadth of the ribcage. Messing with the lower ribs the way some overseas doctors offer is risky enough, but the upper ribs are a key structural component necessary to protect the heart and lungs. They do surgeries in the sternum region to correct pectus excavatum, but it would be significantly more difficult to reduce the sternum or the ribcage like that. Even if it were possible, you'd have to deal with proportionality issues the same way people who get leg-lengthening procedures or extreme implants do.
>>36951821Shut up
>>36951825thanks for explaining :)
>>36951757no it's good for me just like stimulants and hrt
>>36951828That nigger should be put down like a sick dog
>>36951803yeah it can feel really helpless to be all on your own trying to take on big goals fortunately for me, i have been able to build a few things successfully, so i know it is technically possible and i have done it beforebut the person i was when i knew how to do that is hard to find now
>>36951846do you have like chronic illness that you need it for the pain or ptsd? just like. don't schizo out
hungry
thirsty
>>36951894Horrid guesses
>>36951900i mean yea i have ptsd but i live in a shithole so i can't get it legally prescribedit just helps me think and calm down a bit, i never really tripped on it hard like some people do
>>36951908what's for breakfast/lunch/dinner
>>36951942it’s quarter to 2am lolhbu
>>36951921ok i understand. sorry i got judgey
>>36951917https://youtu.be/hIZFqMR1cuM?si=YmT7qMXJI5QN0FMd
>>36951968it's okay !sorry if i seemed schizo ig i needed to vent more than i thought haha
>>36951961had some rice cakes before movie. should eat smth more substantial now so i can sleep through the night desu
>>36951999checked and yes what is available ?all I have to hand is salad stuffnot even ramenwhat movie did you watch
>>36952026turn trip on and get trips, classicprob just going to have leftover sandwich to keep it simple.. rewatched prometheus with the same friend i saw romulus with, they hated it but i still kinda really enjoyed? great concepts poor story
>>36948284>qott: did you enjoy your weekendIt was okay I guess. Just did the usual. Ended my shift at work, went to a rave, relaxed and sat around the rest of the weekend.At the rave I went to, a twitter moot wanted to meet IRL for the first time but I dunno what happened. I saw her early in the night. She was really, really, *really* drunk. I was about to walk up to her and say hi but then she literally passed out and her friends were trying to get her to wake up. Nothing bad happened at least. She just got wasted before even arriving, her friend told me. I guess she got kicked out because towards the end of the night I was bombarded with texts asking me to meet outside. I was about to leave anyway, so I went and waiting for like... 10 minutes? While she navigated her way to me. It was cool to see her but holy shit, she was incomprehensibly drunk. She seemed like she was having fun but at the same time it would have been cool to meet her while she was sober-ish. At least she got home safe.
>>36952107>turn on tripthx I like talk w youI thought more about Romulus today and I think the theme is “what kind if people will we be if we are raised by a ruthless corporation” and I think there is an in-universe answer as well as an irl answer, and the latter is we might become the kind of people who demand endless superficial references to other productsI really like Prometheus although it took me many years to get there, the key for me was realizing the movie is less about the Greek myth of Prometheus and more about Frankenstein (the “Modern Prometheus”)
all these trips. im so scared
>>36952135>Romulushonestly makes me scared for the tv show, i'll watch it but i just know they're going to shove sigourney or a power loader in there. but yeh the more time that passes the more the luster fades. set design can only take a movie so far>Prometheusnever considered the frankenstein connection but now that you mention it, makes a lot of sense! really wish covenant followed up on the deeper implications but that's been said a million times
all these niggers. im so scared
if i cant eat tasty food life is not worth livingi will be the fattest most grotesque tranny ever and be happy
>>36952217I am not too pissed at Romulus, overall I was very entertainedI am still looking forward to the showI really like the character of Elizabeth Shaw, pretty solid portrayal of a religious person
who needs all that when you've got cupcakes
>>36952243too bad religion couldn't save shaw from being killed off screen.. not pissed at romulus either! just disappointed in the references when everything original in it is really good (vag cocoon, new xeno hybrid, andy as a whole)
I thought romulus was going to be the third prequel kinda disappointed it wasn't, the lore is a mess
>>36952224
>>36952259>vag cocoonyes that was nice and offset the obnoxious rapidity of the life cycle a bit altho I do think it was way too quick prob bc the studio thought hey there’s no suspense here and we hotta keep it moving so the zoomers stay off their phones>hybridthought this was garbage>andygreat performance but I don’t think the script quite got there in making him feel like more than a machine that Rain projected her feeling onto, like a teddy bear or security blanketI also kinda liked the face-huggers working on heat and sound
>>36952282>we hotta keep it moving so the zoomers stay off their phonesmost obvious when the pilot(?) got chest-burst 5 mins after the attack kekwhat did you not like about the hybrid? its design or just existence
good evening mtfg. im craving connection with another human being tonight>>36952297i hate how there is almost no such thing as a slow burn anymore. chest-burst should be a big payoff after a lot of tension or just a money shot, not just a way to keep us stimulated
>>36952311right there w you anon. unfortunately gone are the days of 2+ hour horror, unless it can sell itself as high art (then bomb and fade into obscurity)
lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_hbIfqaz1A
>>36952297yeah wow did she even have five min ? she was even hugged for that long — Kane must have been hugged for hours and then out cold for a while after the hugger died and fell offgosh it’s a good job that huggers are one and done when you think about it that is a pretty big bottle neck for the species>hybridit was terrible in Resurrection and it was even worse here bc it has nothing to do w the story at all it’s so tacked onthere needed to be a lot more set up for that and honestly it would be better left out entirely>>36952311thing is, everyone knows what happens when you get face hugged so …
>>36952329oh my gosh pls no 2+ hr horror let’s just have succinct stories 90 min in and out, keep it lean and stop stuffing franchise movies w sovless call backs
>>36952331is this grindr or what, why would anyone send that shit
I need to get laid
>>36952338yeah at this point its inevitable and everyone knows about it, so they can get it out of the way pretty quickly. just sucks that the art is a little lost
>>36952331lmao
>>36952338she was hugged just long enough for deepfake ash to explain the concept and end up on the poster/fan event sticker i stuck on my wall>hybridu have solid reasoning here, might change my mind in a day tbdesu. think i was just happy to correctly assume pregnant-useless-up-to-then-lady would birth it and the gore was actually evil dead 2013 level for a second...>>36952344my logic here was "movie gud? can be as long as it wants"
>>36952347you've obviously never used grindr.
i think my problems with feeling bad after coming home interacting with people and friends all day is me being unhappy with the fact that im fucking autistic and suck at socialization
>>36952412shut up bitch u have friends
>>36952372I think what you do w that is have some downtime for characterizations like how in the first movie it gave some time for Ripley to dress down Ash but this movie like timed how many references to the past movies it could cram in and said hey we got X.Y minutes for each in order to fit Z references ya know — frau explains it well above>just long enough for deepfake ash to explainit’s in there as a callback and to set up “you gotta be heartless” morality theme>>36952381I think the hybrid could have figured in to the whole theme of “what does the company want to make of us” but unfortunately they did not set it up properly you know one of the main purposes of theme in narrative is to manage the audiences expectations so in alien>ripley safe so movie over oh uh she not safe so movie has surprise fourth actand in aliens>newt safe so movie over oh uh she not safe so movie has surprise fourth actbut in this one why was there a fourth act ??the main conflict for the theme was whether or not Rain and Andy would be reconciledthis happens when she says hey your new directive is do what’s best for us — but then fourth act ?? why ??bc the AI said “add surprise fourth act conflict like old movies”
>>36952414i mean ya but idk what that has to do with me being dogshit at socialization
>>36952428would they still be your friends if you were dogshit at socializing? no, ppl like that get dropped from the friend group
>>36952428like ill be with new ppl that my friends bring along and just weird them out bc i suck ass at socializing with pplthe ppl that im friends with get it so theyre like used to it but yeah
>>36952439i mean the ppl im friends with are fine with itand like i carry myself enough to still be friends with themits more just the new ppl i meet the first few timeslike im really bad at talking with them and am incredibly clammed up until i get to know them
>>36952443you have social anxiety, and you think you're spoiling the vibe of the party or whatever, when no one's really thinking about what an autist you are. then you go home and ruminate how bad you were at socializing, while no one from the party remembers it or noticed it. Something like that? I'm the same way
>>36952457like my experience at the club last night kind of made me realize itmy other friends were drunk and wandering around and i was kinda just awkwardly following these 2 other girls around for half the night w/o rly saying anything and just vibing on my own
>>36952422well put desu. now that i think about it, was andy even relevant for the final encounter after getting hurt? i dont mean to be another dumbshit going "omg omg resurrection plus prometheus!!!!"
>>36952466iktfatleast no one has told you to fuck off yet
>>36952422movies/media in general from big franchises are mostly just referencing other things. this was my problem with deadpool and wolverine. you can tell where the movie pauses for the audience to clap. ryan reynolds promoted the movie on a basis of "its gonna have awesome references and cameos!" very reddit movie. but thats unrelated
This nigga bitching about being socially inept while having 30 irl friends 50 online ones and 3 groups they're a part of meanwhile I'm sitting here w one online friend total and no irl friends since 2020Like my guy stfu
>>36952465ig yeah, i do have social anxiety but also like im not that interesting and dont rly have that much to offer or talk abtthe 2 other girls were rly nice but also i feel like they were probably just like wtf is this bitch doingim not rly closed off on purpose but it def gives off a weird vibe to ppl that ill just have met bc theres a noticeable body language difference between my friends and the ppl ill have just recently met>>36952480i mean theyre still actual problems :/
>>36952486Just stfu and talk everyone feels social Anxiety ffs
>>36952470here is my salad>was andy even relevant for the final encounter after getting hurt?he’s plugged in and then he wakes up but I don’t remember whether he did anything helpful>i dont mean to be another dumbshit going "omg omg resurrection plus prometheus!!!!"but that;s what it was
goodnight mtfg
>>36952479the theater where I saw Romulus was full of redditors lol
>>36951800pring you have the most fragile ego and will go absolutely nuclear over an old person walking too slowly lol
>>36952500gn anon
>>36952428having friends and spending time with them is important and will help you find your own way of navigating those situations as you grow more comfortable with them.i feel like i grow more socially inept by the minute lol.
>>36952516
>>36952497yeah our conversations have led to me thinking more critically about it..which i thank u for! a lot of the issues u mentioned also be attributed to evil dead 2013. seems like fede just cant escape overextended plots & pointless characters that exist to reference other's work...nice salad btw i still need to eat
>>36952526hey my meal above
>>36952535are you a newfag or someone with a new name or trip sobbing
>>36952494wanna be frens anon?
>>36952540latter
>>36952543What do you do
>>36952549much of nothing, why?
>>36952552I want friends to do things with
>>36952494i mean yeah but its still an actual problem that i havei do try but i suffer from severe anxiety issues in generalcombining that with my extreme self-image and self-esteem issues its hard to just comfortably talk to ppl that im not familiar withlike i feel like i have something to prove with how i present and talk to ppl and interact with themi dont want to come off as aggressively male or weirdi dno u can insist that its a first world problem but its something that i struggle with a lot especially as ive been meeting more ppl lately and socializing a lot more now that ive started girlmoding>>36952526ya. its been getting better slowly over time but idk theyre still strong feelings i get, like ill straight up apologize to my friends later that night or the next day and be like sry if i killed the vibe or anythingi feel even extremely socially inept even around them but also they know me more so its something they expect/are used to be around
>>36952535oh gosh get some food !I only saw Evil Dead reboot once so far and overall I thought it was okaythere were a bunch of script problems imo such as (glaringly) why the teacher friend even read the necronomiconalso teacher friend’s acting was very weakbut the worst, to me, was the sudden ant/protagonist switch at the very endanyhow don’t get me wrong I overall like RomulusI think the issue is, it’s too good to have such bad spots
transwomen be like i would swallow my dad’s chunky yeasty cum if it mean i could trust him when he says he loves me again and then blow my brains out with a twelve gauge>>36952546who
Good Morning Thread!! :>I actually managed to convince myself to talk to a few of the girls on the dating appsThey are really nice, but no meetup/hookups planned yet :p
>>36952568>chunky yeasty cum how is it that YOU'RE the nigger with the most years in therapy here?
>>36952557play vidja, go for walks and take stupid pics of things I think are cool caus im dumb and be schizophrenic online I make for very poor company :3
>>36952539looks nice yeh.im gonna have a crispy black bean tacos and an apple for lunch.>>36952560apologizing is a bit cringe but i understand i used to feel like that too back when i had friends. you're lucky to have people around you who accept you try not to stress about it too much and cherish those opportunities to interact with ppl.life alone is just horrible.
>>36952568I would do it for free
>>36952516who else would show up to an alien movie in 2024
>>36952585I meant to say “rate my meal” lolyours sounds really good !
>>36952580can i get a name for the wankposter? ive seen them around alot but idk what theyre called
>>36952593go back to bed
>>36952597That was paige
>>36952581You sound interesting. What games do you play?
>>36952605christquite the imagination tho
>>36952563could talk about that remake for quite some time. mia's protag switch really only exists to throw off the audience familiar with the original imobut i should eat now >>36952568my typing style is consistent, and we've spoken before. afaik you dont hate me but who knows
>>36952580i guess i need it lolmost of therapy is managing symptoms, not making them go awaythat’s just a fraction of the intrusive thoughts lol
>>36952616You have intrusive thoughts about doing what with your father?
>>36952612might be a good time for me to rewatchenjoy your meal
time to try to go to sleep again>>36952612i’m not autistic but i struggle with telling who’s whois this clarawhy use a new name and trip
>>36952608really? thought I was boring afmostly rpgs and online games, story based but also plenty of loot management inventory hell games for when i dont feel like thinkingcurrently playing pybercunk and im basically roleplaying a merc who gets chromed up to just to earn more money to dress my character updark souls is a dress up game btw
>>36952631nite paige
>>36952604im not the anon you think i am. but you raise a good point
>>36952631certainly not Clara at this hour
>>36952611That's a great pic. I live in a real dump here's the corner bodega>>36952616I know but how do you resist schlorping your dad's cock when you see him, if you're this sexed up at 3 am thinking about him? You need more therapy, you need to live at the therapists office. JK idc im a pervert too:)
>>36952634I like jrpgs but lately I'm too depressed to commit to them. Trying to get into something w mp but scared of it also. Been playing mostly roguelites and gachas w some aim trainers on the side. Also I hate dark souls.
>>36952579morninit's like 2 am in the prairie
>>36952611love this pic.>>36952634>loot management inventory hell gameswhat are these?>dark souls is a dress up game btw100%in some way all the games i play are dress-up games. it's just not fun if i can't make the character my own.
>>36952643it doesn’t make e horny it makes me feel like puking my guts out
>>36952665that's sad, but why can't you stop then? i usually don't think about sexual things if they disgust me
>>36952634*offline gamesim rarted>>36952643ty, I found this mystery door in an underpass that I now must enter>>36952644ahedonia sucks desu, can barely get into any games myself these days, really I have to force myself to play them havent played too many jrpgs personally, other than crimson sea and nierand fair, soulsborne honestly gets overglorified >>36952657uhhh ig fallout but cause im a crazy person I spent 50% of the play time sorting my loot and resources, micromanaging settlemennts and otherwise not playing the game rightafter a while I just get bored and stop playing, never completed fo4 desuand yeah like half the motivation of playing the game is just making a cool character to play as
>need laser/electro>need to do bloods towards the weekend>need to start voice training >need a better, solid, and escelated skin/hair routine thats above the basicthe issue>evening job that goes into the night, part time>minimum wage>no educaton above high school(drop out!)>depression adhd combo, I usually wish to just fuck around like right now>find the people in my house too stressful to work around>terrified of moving my ogre ass body into a clinic/hairdresser/anything as an Ogre male faggot who looks like the worst version of some neet gamer you know(exaggerating)What the hell do I do? My country isnt exactly accepting either, they will just sneer and move on if they knew, but most would prolly harras me for being a faggotManmoding is just mandatory for me.idk how the hell to do the things I need to do to improve my mental stateFuck me
>>36952585o ya its cringe as fuck. i cant help myself sometimes bc i feel too much guilt when i get into my head like that and feel like i genuinely brought the vibe down when they prob dont gaf like didanon saididk im trying to work past it but its hard bc i feel guilt for being a token tranny around a bunch of cis ppl and i get in my head too much sometimes and feels like they just tolerate being around meit doesnt help that i dont have much in common with a lot of the ppl i hang out with and theyre terminally offline giganormies like unironicallyim definitely extremely thankful for the ppl in my life though and they get that for sure, it just gets weird when new ppl are around and i start to get extremely wormy abt a lot of thingscrippling self esteem issues are awfulbeing alone is horrible, i hope ur able to find ppl to meet in ur area :c
its almost 1am.... im remembering i added someone from here on discord and i forgot to respond to their messages cause i was busy. fml
I'm excited about fall who else excited about summers imminent demise?
>>36952670>intrusive thoughts>intrusive
>>36952688good picture. im starting college this fall. not sure how to feel about it
>>36952682the old catch 22lemme know if you figure out how to beat it
>>36952681I like those old bricks. Reminds me how much I miss doing urbex. The plates at the top of the secret door say Feeder and Lighting indicating it's an electrical supply unit, or an entrance to an enchanted dimension they don't want us knowing about.
>>36952693>intrusive thoughts>hey I'll share em with 4chan!>>36952699You should feel very excited, like this is the start of your adult life and the time that you can explore who you are, and have the most fun. After college is the every bit.
>>36952710>hey I'll share em with 4chan!that’s about 30% of posts in mtfg, conservatively
>>36952681>uhhh ig fallout but cause im a crazy person I spent 50% of the play time sorting my loot and resources, micromanaging settlemennts and otherwise not playing the game right>after a while I just get bored and stop playingkekrelatable except I did beat f04 oncethink it was a railway playthrough wouldn't be shocked if I have well over 500 hours in 4
>>36952703I figured some tranny will knowSome others said>just do it its fine, I just started/went in/didnt care about them>i was too dysphoric to careAND LIKE HOW DO YOU DELETE YEARS OF PROGRAMMING AAAAFuckTalk about the difference between being dysphoric and having discipline and being young and being a paranoid, old, weirdly self conscious oldasfuckshit
>>36952681i think that's mostly a bad ui issue bethesda has kinda been famous for those. it's a lot more manageable when modded to have a coherent ui.i quite like loot games bot mostly online ones. it's fun to deck out a character, decorate player house and show them off to different people.ah the joy when someone compliments my character. blissful escapism from being repulsive to ppl irl.>>36952685>crippling self esteem issues are awfulthey really are but hey you're not fully crippled yet! you're going through social physio and getting better.>hope ur able to find ppl to meet in ur area :cprobably not gonna happen i still have no idea where people meet new people irl. bars and restaurants clearly aren't it, they're meant for pre-existing groups. parks, concerts, movies, galleries and museums are not social. sports require you to know people and aren't accessible to trans ppl.probably have to move to some country with more people, less trans exclusion from lgbs and less fucked up social norms.
>>36952720Yeah that's true. Whenever I see someone on outer use "tasty little faggot" as a compliment I'm reminded that I coined that unfortunate term of endearment
>>36952720i second this. I use this thread is just to let out my intrusive thoughts
Use alternative phrasing than "chunky yeasty cum" next time. That's all I'm saying
this rope swing has been here for over half my life>>36952688ngl it was kinda nice to not have to wear layers and show off my figure a bit even if I am cripplingly mentally ill, but the colder seasons are alot better on my mental health desu>>36952705no its the door to the other dimension where im a girl and not an idiot>>36952721I always go with railroad too since they seem the most effectual of the compassionate factions and synths r people too :3no idea how many hours I have in it since my play time is split between devices, but I know that fnv and fo3 probably have thousands of hours each, luckily im alot less into fallout these days>>36952724hopefully someday we can get better some day, otherwise I have no idea lol>>36952730its also just caus later into the game it shifts to like 70% inventory management, its like when I try modding games and spent more time trying to get it to work than actually playing itfallout is very much my 'keeping myself busy' gamewhy is early game in most games ususally better? maybe I just get bored too easily
>synths r people toono no no
>>36952665sorry then
>>36952769basedI'm usually split between them and the bosideologically I don't align but I just like the bos for mostly other game lore reasons
>>36952769>why is early game in most games ususally better?because that's the only part that matters for reviews, sales and public opinion so it's the only part that gets much playtesting and development time. single player games rarely cater to the 100+ hours gameplay as they made their money at 0 hours and your right to refund ends at 2 i think. live service games get a lot of hate and not without reason but they are the only kinda games that i've been able to stick with for 10+ years.
>>36952769>ngl it was kinda nice to not have to wear layers and show off my figure a bit even if I am cripplingly mentally ill, but the colder seasons are alot better on my mental health desuIt's great if you're blessed with a temperate summer weather, I prefer just wearing shorts and a t shirt or tank top. But I live in a desert climate that hits 110-115 some days. I'll be moving to the coast once my inheritance clears. >no its the door to the other dimension where im a girl and not an idiotYou're not an idiot, you're a very thoughtful girl and always have been. I gtg now it's been nice taking to you. Keep taking cool pictures and exploring!
>>36952655Awww! I recently made a new canadian boymoder fren that lives in BC! She seems to have the same timezone as you! :3
>>36952730ya mby. it feels nice to be able to start pinpointing whats bothering me though ig :/dont rly know how to get past it but its a start ig >probably not gonna happenidk like bars are a good setting esp if ur a regular at them, ppl will start to get to know u even if u keep to urself most the timebut i dont want to rly encourage ppl drinking. its shitty and hard to meet new ppl, like idk where to even begin meeting ppl with common interests that i relate to morei do think moving away from ur home country would be good for u though, yeh. i hope ur able to get out soon
>>36952777dehumanization is for me only>>36952801I usually second the minutemen despite them being ineffectual as hell caus idk atleast theyre trying, was really pissed off by the nukaworld dlc tho like either play as the bad guy and actually get a dlc or idk free the slaves and thats itidk fellt like theyre narrowing down options too much I like being able to screw around more in vidja>>36952812truuuu, and ig not all games are like that, vns actauuly dont tend to get too boring I hsould play more of them>>36952819god I wish I could wear shorts even if just for functionality but nooo I have to have bowed legs with some victorian factory kid, no idea how people survive in literal deserts, it gets over 25C here and I basically cant function anymorewow thank you!!! but this is just a brief once a year moment for me, I can only talk like this cause the insomnia has been going on for months and im hungover so my brain is just too tired or something for my usual neuroses
>>36952836mountain timeby chance alberta and bc also share a mountain range with montana
>>36952866Oh yeah! She said she lives on a mountain and it's like -6C there!! :o
>>36952769>hopefully someday we can get better some day, otherwise I have no idea lolThe funny part is the>too dysphoric to not do somethingcomment just makes me think if I even dysphoric sometimes likeHUHFuck i have not lived my life
more shabiri grapes
im playing league again its sooo boring
>>36952840>ppl will start to get to know u even if u keep to urselfhow? only the bar staff interact with me no one else even looks at me unless i'm in the way lol. i guess maybe eventually someone might ask what my problem is but alcohol is incredibly expensive here so it's not really feasible to gamble on that.>hope ur able to get out soonyeah ;_;
>>36952875>she lives on a mountainwhewI hope the smoke from the forest fires aren't blowing westsmog has been getting so bad down here it gives silent hill fogworld vibesas I understand the mountain's are what's on fire and where the smoke is defending from
im learning
>>36952879barely lived my life either desuI guess dysphoria has actually motivated me to go through with making stuff happen, it just got too bad one day and I couldnt continue subsisting anymorebefore then dysphoria usually killed any motivation to do anything, still does most of the time
>room is decently cool enough for sleepinghoping I can call it a night now
>>36952948gl
as a side note i feel like a moid is thirsting after me and idk how to handle this at allapparently hes been going to the bar often and asking abt me all the time and likeidk i think hes cute but i dont think i can handle having some kind of fwb/situationship like that rn :/
>>36952944I didnt even know it was dysphoriaLike how can you tell right?You just have this nagging feeling that you are "wrong" and all the copes you have are either escapism or antithetical to a solutionLike I couldnt put 2 and 2 together, that wanting to "be a girl"(whatever that means) isnt exactly normal.And then I had to pretend I was opposite of that because of course right?But I didnt care to gain muscles, or go bang chicks, I just played my video games and escaped reality.No reason to improve.Once I started digging into it, talking to actual trans people...holy fuck did my motivation came back. I wanted to exersice, I wanted to do things I made forbidden to myself.Alas the years of being male have kinda...worked in the opposite direction. And the fact I lost interest in academics and now I am stuck as a retailoid doesnt help.Idk. I dont do anything now. Idk. I am transitioning but like its all so slow ya know? And I keep rotting despite my wants and needs.
How does one control the temptation to play 6 gacha games at the same time I'm already playing 3 but nikke evangelion colab is coming soon 5.0 genshin update too and another new game about a cat cafe is also dropping soon which kinda looks mid but there's also priconne which is very f2p and is going to have a re:zero colab soon
>>36952969do u like just go alone to random bars? wild to me to imagine that, ig is a cultural thing but here I would d just sit there alone and never be spoken to due to autistic culture
Do sports bra really not show under a tshirt
>>36952999Kys nick
>>36952984yeah I just always thought I was born wrong and stuff, desu I thought I wanted to be a girl because my family is mostly female but apparently not, didnt know medical transition even existed until I was 20, its pretty conservative around hereyeah the initial motivation was great but it has kinda faded in time, progress being as slow as it is can really fuck with motivationI cant keep rotting tho either I make something of myself or I end it igI need to sleep my brain is fried
>>36953002they do sometimes but it depends on the shirt
>>36952999the one ive been going to is one ive been going to for the last few months but sometimes ill go to a random bar and just drink alone if im out and close to one
>>36953055hm I shud try that some time....
>>36953067Cheater back at it again
Fucking Doctors Office...Took me a whole hour to get someone on the phone for my blood levels...I tell the Lady I need the detailed blood levels, she types on her PC for 2 Minutes, has them in front of her. And instead of telling me my levels, she just goes: "Oh, well, I think I have to talk about this with the doctor first, please call again later"Probably saw like 0.1 ng/ml T and 100-200 pg/ml E2 and started panicking why a guy has those levels... Now I can wait another Hour or so until I get my levels... fucking normies... x_x
>>36953067idk its not a bad idea imo. even if im sitting alone i prefer it to worming in my room for hours on end, different environment might be good for uits v fun desu but sucks bc the environment is all alcoholgoing to have to stop soon bc of ffs so ill lose a lot of socialization for a while but ill prob end up stopping after work to say hi for a lil bit a few times a week
self hatred, envy and despair setting in early today. maybe going to the gym was a mistake and burnt out whatever energy i have left to put up with life faster than usual.
>>36953071"your test levels and estrogen leves are kinda wacky sir, idk what is wrong, you have too much estrogen and almost not test sir, i gotta go and talk to the doctor first to see if this is right sir, brb sir sir sir" no wait, it is ma'aam, what are my fucking levels? (spoken in raspy deep manly scary rapehon voice)
>>36953097Since I'm boymoding I wouldn't tell anyone to call me ma'amBut yeah... I wish I told her to just tell me what my fucking levels are.. lolAlsooo, my voice is naturally fairly high pitched for a guy :>
how do you even use epilators?i tried one earlier and it hurts like hell
>>36953148If you can't stand the pain you don't deserve smooth legs
>>36953151fucking hell, why is there no easy way to do this, the laser machines are expensive and professionally done is better anyway
my mom s cheap old epilator is probably broken, it does not really seem to do anything
>>36953189are your hairs the right length for the machine? just get wax strips desu. way less painful and better results desu.
>>36953195desu i usually use my shaver, i payed 15$ for it and i shaved my head probably at least 15 times but it does not get rid if body hair properly and grows fast, the epilator is broken probably bc i have one hairy leg and one shaved one and does not work on either.. getting rid of my body hair gets me rid of like 30-50% of my 'dysphoria' so yea
>feeling sick for no reason>knee hurts like it’s going to rainkms sobbing n sharting etc
>>36953096well, idk what to tell you, normally i will tell you to dissociate to no longer feel any of those emotions but you probably cannot do it like me bc your brain is different, i feel sorry in a way for you that you suffer, i wish it was not this way, i do not like when people suffer, ffs is probably going to save you so ya maybe one day it wont be as bad as it is now, so hang on for a little longer
Best drip ever seen
>>36953265pretty
>>36953312simp
>>36953322mean...tru
>>36953322Who wouldn't be a simp for good armor with a nice color scheme
>>36953337they're not simping for the gacha hoe
>>36953349What the freakers
>>36953349no I do like the outfit but w/e
>>36953070the only one cheating is ur mum on ur dad when I plapp her every night
>>36953443Brother ur dating this oml don't talk shit to me
>>36953258thanks and yeh that's the way to go. these meds do actually help it's kinda crazy never thought i'd see the day an antidepressant does something positive.>>36953265love the art of these games. so much top tier fan art too.
>>36953472Mogs me :3
>>36953082>even if im sitting alone i prefer it to worming in my room for hours on end, different environment might be good for uyeah that's why I'm. considering it...shame I can't rly drink tho bleh
>>36953480If only it was a little less sexualized I swear the tit jiggle makes them feel like they're made out of jelly its off putting>>36953484Who doesn't
>>36953472maidenless+fat+bugmen game addict+didn't ask+not white+incelgo simp for argaylele
>>36953496I've been on Taimi the last 2 days.. there are plenty of weird girls out there that mog me 0%
i hate it when straight people refer to their “partner” like just say your husband or wife or boyfriend or girlfriend, you’re straight, there’s zero stigma when you mention your “partner”’s sex it’s just insufferable
>>36953507You should fake sui again to farm attention retarded narc>>36953514Bro mogging Nomi just means you're more attractive than a mummified corpse>>36953521We out here getting mad at words?
>>36953528why does the spaniard talk with the exaggerated swagger of a black teen
>>36953537Because I'm hood
Does this general still even have a discord server? No one posts it, the archives contain only complaining.
>>36953537chuddy incel
>>36953558Y am I an incel mongThis is like your new fav narrative
>>36953556it's pretty much deadbarely anyone posts because of diaper issues
>>36953556suspicious post
pleanis….
>>36953556bruh look at this gen imagine how bad the dicsord is
>>36953596It's not good but it's honestly better
>>36953600lol
hii mtfg>>36953615kind of real tho like its missing a lot of the worst posters
>>36953615There's actual conversations no lolcow bullying (except when there's a fag of new) and the brainworming is mostly avoidable instead of constantly thereActually no I just learnt to avoid it people brainworm more thereOr its equal. I dont know
Literally any other place is better than here, another gen, an NA meeting, a parole office. Anywhere
>>36953630No paige makes anything better>>36953634Yeah
>>36953630I miss the days when mado would crash the thread high on xan or meth and we'd have real fun here instead of AGP fun.
>>36953630>worst postersme desu>>36953631ty for informing me of whatever you just said
Do AAP mtf exist? Maybe there's still hope for me, and I can be a AAP rapehon
calm down paige
>>36953639real like iunno server has issues but it aint like an actual cesspit of depression and doomerism this place has turned into. Like its the 4 same posters being sad with gacha game screenshot spam all day erryday every threads the samemebbe its rose tinted glasses iunno but it wasn't always like this at least there was variety amongst it all>>36953669anons the best poster babes
i wish i understod my sexuality
>>36953676Fuck did you say about my goddam screenshots
>>36953676idk seemed the same in '17
>>36953683Cut the shit and lift larry. You were doing pretty good for a while, making modest gains. You're not trans and this is your gooner.online social club
>>36953659ngl I kinda do tooI miss grem more tho 2023 was comfy posting until the bitterhon janny started banning all of us
>>36953696Us being you for being an annoying cunt that shit the thread with fake suis and drama every time you were there
>>36953693i am trans, i just do not really have dysphoria but i still do not like my body that much, lifting is the last thing i will do, at least upper, the idea of being even bigger disgusts me and slim skinny lean dudes look a lot lot better than muscular ones.. gym is cope..
you guys should have seen mado on 8ch desu
>>36953688nobody can stand youyou behave like some 15 year old boy with constant raging at everythingfeels like watching some screeching teenage boy who just had their puberty voice break and can't contain their T rage single child main character syndrome
>>36953688tht its low effort and its kind of a drag on the thread when its just 20 inane messages like 'its hot out' with a random game screenshot like iunno im sure uve heard it b4 >>36953691mebbe probs, think its more just i preferred the older cast lol
>>36953703nah 2023 was peak comfy posting
>>36953711The projection on this one is really strong paige perhaps some introspection is necessary
>>36953716I do miss one or two of themhope theyre alive/doing ok
>>36953716It's not my fault the only topic here is wahh I dont pass and wahh none of you will ever be womenI try to change topics to literally anything else and it's wahh gacha games/jrpgs/anime/sonic/fps games are shit
>>36953696Gremlin was a good poster, unique too, I hope she's doing well. >>36953705Gym is not cope, and you said you don't have dysphoria. So this is a fetish to you. I love having callouses on my hands that were put your from metal bars, or the feeling of being hard instead of soft. Neither one of us is trans, but you have the fetish thing to deal with.
>>36953728most ppl i care about either regularly post in the server or swing by now and again so thts good at least but yeh like, would be nice if thread was healtheier>>36953733don't think piling more shit on top of the crap is gonna do much oomfie>>36953762>callouses on my handsgenuinely something that stops me from wanting to workout lol
>>36953773At least I talk about something I enjoy and feel positive about the hell else am I going to talk about except that
>>36953773bring your gf back!
>>36953762i am trans, i at least accept it and i do not hate myself for it, it is what it is, i do not like it or my body that much but there is nothing i can do abt it, i still need to see people that i can relate to though
>>36953782grim>>36953789am i not good enuf by myself?? rood, but yeh nah i doubt shes coming back tbhon she always takes a mental health hit whenever she starts posting or even just looking at thread lol
>>36953762>>36953705This was a page from one of my lesbian romcoms that really spoke to me
>>36953802What an absolute nigger
time has basically stopped how is it only 3pm is this how ppl with normal amounts of neurotransmitters experience time?>>36953802>takes a mental health hit whenever she starts postingsometimes i wonder if it works that way or if i'm already feeling down whenever i feel the need to come here.
>>36953703you weren't even around newfag
>>36953827Nigger you think I wasn't around when you had the mongo drama meanwhile that's when we first talked stfu
>>369536962023 was the endless laffposting, Paul talking to their bishop, homura being actively hostile, everyone hate bombing that one blonde girl for having a big ribcage and getting into porn, Schrodinger constantly avatar posting and getting kicked out of their group for nazi stuff, and whatever the previous kat drama before laguna was
>>36953823>sometimes i wonder if it works that wayit does to an extent like being around other ppl who are just so negative is gonna drain u, its like a bunch of vampires feeding on each other in here and i see ppl get better just from like removing themselves from thread lol
>>36953630list them pussy
>>36953823what meds did you take?
>>36953720it's true that nobody likes you though
>>36953831that was at the end of the year, sonichuno wonder all you can do is consoom gacha slob ur IQ doesn't allow for anything more
>>36953882Might as well be a compliment considering we're talking brainrotten 4chan trannies kek>>36953885Nigga posts agp indie game screenshots and thinks souls games are the best thing ever made yet he's talking like an elitist
>>36953896doesn't change the fact that you're unlovable lol, that's why you're so lonely and got bullied so much in your shitty life
>>36953720what that’s not mewhy do assume everyone critical of you is one person, there’s many ppl who are tired of your posts
>>36953904Nah I got bullied because I'm a people pleaser and easy to abuseAt least was>>36953916I'm glad
>>36953869the usual suspects
Its really all just lies. Transgenders cannot pass. Its simply all a lie. Every photo is a lie with exception of those who did not go through puberty before transitioning. For many people it is actually preferable to be a man than a trans woman.
>>36953942What an absolute and utter nigger
>>36953927you are just a classic case of narcissistic sociopathy no charisma and nobody can stand talking to you for more than a few days
>>36953861hm in the past my life improving did coincide with me leaving the tread but it was mostly because i was busy irl and didn't have time to lurk here. hopefully that'll happen again but for now this is like my only place for social interaction rip. discord is way more triggering for whatever reason maybe it's because everyone else is doing so well and post stuff like cute selfies with friends, about their promotion at work, how amazing their sex life is etc and i can't help but to compare and it makes me feel like shit.>>36953874cymbalta.
>>36953942fucking kek
>>36953942ngl kinda glad i keep 99% of my thoughts to myself
>>36953950You've no idea of a single aspect of my lifePeople like me talking to them and try to initiate conversation w me oftenEvery time I go schizo and remove everyone they don't mind it and add me backStop projecting
I have limerence for work friend but they have relationship so I know for a fact they only like me as friend. But they are my only friend
>>36953969have you tried being prettier?
>>36953984?
Tbh I think it's time to stop caring abt 4chan troonies and instead come back to tf2I'm unbanned from comp now too so it'll be perfect to voice train
>>36953950meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :3
>>36953961If it helps, we aren't all doing super great, and I stopped sharing my struggles on most discords because I am afraid of being a bummer and killing the vibe and ruining/getting kicked off another discordI also tend to avoid doing here because my issues are less important than more serious shit other girls here have, and would likely just get flanderized by the clique of schizos who like making others feel worse
>>36953961mm i suppose thats fair but i feel like passively wallowing here is far more damaging then like, seeing ppl doing well even tho it hurts to see in the moment. Hope life picks up for u tho cus i genuinely think ur the poster who would benefit the most from not being here lol
>>36953942banger art
did any of you managed to manage your ocd?
>>36954050I only have adhd, autism, and being a weirdly shaped skeleton
>>36953942This is actively kind of hilarious
>>36954063Nigga described the entire board
Nick posts more fake sui and drama than I post entirely yet that's not in the image how odd
>>36954063nice to meet you person with adhd autism and male skeleton, i have ocd and probably friendly personality disorder also, i like being nice and making new frens, maybe we can be frens
>>36953969kissless + maidenless + friendless (no, ppl wanting to pump and dump an autistic sonichu don't count as friends) + sexless + addicted to gacha slop + no interest in arts movies books or anything intellectually above the level of PLS SHOW BOB AND VAGENE followed by Uhm AKTSCHULLY gacha is lore is sooooo deep and the philosophical implications of pulling big tiddy anime figures is just too much for you simpletons to handle *adjust glasses*noe post a vague dark lighting silhouette image of your inverted pelvis to own the libs
>>36954029i guess i could take some time off and see if that helps. years and years ago i used to do fine not venting or talking about life to anyone. being in a long term relationship changed that but i can probably learn it again.let's see how long i can last ;p>>36954021>afraid of being a bummer and killing the vibe and ruining/getting kicked off another discordsame desu. i guess the real lesson is no one really wants to hear that stuff and this place is a toilet wall where anything goes so it enables posting of stuff that shouldn't be posted in the first place.
>>36954110Nigga you're fucking the skeleton off of clash royale I cannot take you seriously
>>36954072I mean, kinda>>36954101I do like being friendly, but my skeleton is the other end of the being weird thing>5'9">6'1" wingspan>13.5" biacromial breadth>chola hips
New bread imminentWe page ten
>>36954127maidenlessgacha big boob rape RAPE mommy mommy boobs big boobs blahaj molestation BOOBS????*xanny siesta intermission*sonichu sanic limbus nutz gacha gacha pulls BOOBA
>>36954110lmao, nailed it
>>36954170Ur gf is waiting stop seething on 4chan bro
big sophia does not seem happy with her ffs :'(
https://youtu.be/0EAvnglwF_8This is what Lang's "plapping" sessions sound like
>>36954212lol
>>36954256i wish she was a mtfg regular
>>36954269>>36954269>>36954269new thread
