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This is a thing? I'm so sorry.
>>37026285It’s been a thing for years sis
>>37026298
are there any guides or resources on healthily repressing
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>>37026381but like forget the healthy part cause you will have to develop schizophrenia
should i take hrt
>>37026261My agp is killing me
>>37026375my method has been to lift and take drugs that make me build muscle which aren't explicitly androgenic, also talking to trans ppl unironically helps me rep because it gives me an outlet for expressing my dysphoria
>>37027065no, i've been on it for 2 months and regret starting. it's a placebo, not even the mental effects people claim to get are real. i wish i could go back, it hurt less when i was repping because at least i still thought something might be able to save me
>>37028021i mean if it does literally nothing then there's no harm?
>27>the Thoughts are back>stronger than everhelp
>>37026381kjv is trashget the oxford annotated bible and the jewish study bible if you're serious about religion
>>37029373Literally just jerk off moreAnd pray if you're a christcuck
I think that someone is trying to troon meInfecting my blood and destroying my mind
Accepting being a man is a million times easier than trying to look like a woman
>>37029373same holy fuck, i was on hrt for almost a year and quit and now its back with a vengeance.i keep thinking what if what if what if even though i know it will be a miserable life as a tranny. but still there are all these little things about it and i dont want to miss out on my shot.FUCK
>>37029373u r me
>>37026261lmao all the reppers trooned again. larry should go next
>>37026261>Open google sheets>It shows everyone my deadname>Cant change my google username cause my family will see
Today I dreamed that I had long hair, didn't have a gorilla ribcage and wore a cute bra
>>37026261take your pills, retards
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>>37026261>try to suppress the tranny thoughts>mornings are okay>gets worse throughout the day>whole day I’m just angry and miserable for no apparent reason>whole day try to suppress, takes all my energy to do this>tired and stressed all the time>depressed and anxious as fuck>doctor has prescribed me SSRIs>therapist has given up on trying to pinkpill me, says I’m torturing myself>every night go to sleep crying because I can’t sleep without letting this tranny shit out for at least a few minutes>been like this for over a year now>haven’t slept properly in monthsWhen will this end? I just want this to finally end. Please kill me.
If you don't want to be trans, what about being gay?
>>37035382I’m openly bisexual, everyone around me knows it and I have literally zero problems with my sexuality.But I cannot allow myself to be something I do not want to be and I do not want to be a tranny.
I wish I didn't pine for such impossible thingsI feel like a cripple who wants more than anything to be a gymnast
Fellas, this sucks.Thought I'd closed this chapter at like 19. Befriended the sole transwoman in the office and now the thoughts are returning years later. Fml man this is such a hassle. Maybe this time I'll actually do something about it or maybe I won't. Sigh
>>37035550No actually nevermind false alarm I think I'm just depressed, carry on.
>>37035550>>37035758Great example of the rep-isode in action. It comes and goes in waves.
i feel like i'm going to die a man and there's nothing i can do about it. i'm never going to be happy like this but i just feel so fucking doomed about transitioning because my family and friends would all hate me. it's so fucking over.
Why do girl reppers not do estrogen? No one gives two shits until you put on a dress.
>>37037073people are gonna see your hrtittes and estrogen skinalso, at least for me i like using my dick and im more desirable as a skinny man with a flat chest than one with tits. i did start e recently but im probably just gonna stop and go back to repping once that becomes a problem.
Fellow reppers, how old are you now and when did you first start thinking of transitioning, also when was the first realistic chance for you to start transitioning but which you ignored?For me the thoughts were big around 14, at 18-19 I had a chance but didn't take it, now I am 28 and an expired twink destroyed by Norwood
>>3703731316am 24 nowi think i still have a chance since i have pretty good twink genes and am obsessed with skincare but idk
>>37037194That seems like NB repping if you don't want soft skin and little titties. That's not going to stop any man from having issues in the real world.
>>37037364i do want those, just saying people will notice something's up if you're a man with strangely smooth skin, visible titties (unless you're fat), and long hairi'm mostly afraid of having weird conetits on an otherwise completely male frame. i'm also an almost-30 expired twink although i at least still look younger than my age
>>37033262i will never, i am the repgod, i will never take hrt again
i keep thinking about one of my trans friends, she's so happy and throws herself at life, doesnt let fear of judgement or self conciousness stop her, is kind to everybody and recieves kindness back, i wish i could be like that.
Remember some anon posted that lithium carbonate cured someone's GD in a study. Only 1 person but it's worth a shot.
>>37039625lithium lobotomizes you
>>37033262>lmao all the reppers trooned again.not mei should but iwnbaw
>>37039629Given how trannies act I think estrogen does the same.
I am not repping I am just jerking off to being a girl
>>37039802Specifically a loli
>>37040084>go to doctor>doctor scrolls through 100 pages of mental health reports from various doctors over the course of a year with increasing amounts of concern and detail over my deteriorating mental health>looks at me not knowing what to doI didn't realize how utterly fucked up I was tb.h
>>37040204shit reply was meant for op >>37026261i'm so fucking sleep deprived my god
>>37040215same I have restless leg syndrome so I'm always moving in my sleep.
hello fellow repper, daddy is back, what do you think abt me? am i cute, will i make it? here is me >>37040061
>>37041246is that really you larry
>>37041793ya, i really love how i look btw
>>37042030What drives you to become a lolcow on a tranny board
>>37041246>>37042030Can you go make your own lolcow thread and leave my depression thread alone?
>>37042329Without larry bumping this gen just dies
How bad do you girls feel repressing? Is it always terrible or is it sometimes tolerable?I'm 32 and I'm obviously way past the age to transition and not look like a monster, but I feel fine being a man, and I realized I like a lot of stuff about being a guy.Yeah it sucks that I can't be a cute, young, and thin girl, and go outside wearing a cute skirt, but I don't know, the realistic alternative would be way worse for me, and now that I've worked on my mental and physical health, I feel much better on my own skin, and like myself much more, so I don't hate my life and I'm not constantly wishing it was different. I realized I can be happy just the way I am.But then again, I'm most likely just agp and not trans, maybe fluid or something.
>>37042293boredom>>37042329i am repgod, i will repforever, i am unironically the only repgen 'trip'>>37042603you are welcome my child
>>37042852>I'm most likely just agp and not trans, maybe fluid or something.agp is trans retard
where are all mtf reppers? you apparently all trooned out, the ftmrepgen is very alive, even more alive than most gens lol
>>37043073agp cyclewe are in the purge phase
>>37039675thats why i just take progesterone and rep
>>37042852i feel ok but i only really feel bad when i actually interact with a girl, especially a happy trans girl. its not just being able to wear the clothes, they radiate a femininity that really hurts to witness knowing you cant ever be like that.
You may rep.But do you rep with VFS, on hrt, thinking about ffs and bottom surgery, but literally wearing guys clothes and pretending you're a man in front of everyone despite your huge visible tits.WTF is wrong with me honestly
>>37043073I'm on my femboy coping arc
>>37043332i had that arc like 10 years ago then i hit the wall at 19
>>37043359I call bullshit unless you went bald overnight or something, I'm in my late 20s
>>37043370nah male puberty just made my face and jaw really long and fucked up
>>37043291Sounds like you need to interact with giga hons, so you feel glad you didn't transition.
>>37043359>>37043375kek same. so fucking funny how you can just drop the ball like that so early in life and it fucks you up forever
>>37043375that doesn't really sound like hitting the wall at 19 then, but yeah long face/jaw is unfortunate
>>37037313thoughts began at 14 as wellwrote it off at 18turning 28 soon
Stop being gaygp
There is a cure.
>>37044817forgot to mention that i expected norwood to have raped me by now but it still hasnt which is a sick joke to make me feel false hopium
>>37042859you aren't a trip you obnoxious waste of electrons
>>37042859>>37045081THE GIRLS ARE FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!
>>37045081i am namefag that is why i put 'trip' between quotes but grandpa here is too old and needs his glasses to read..
>>37043517it is hitting the wall when all you really want is to look feminine
>>3703731314 i encountered my first trans person online, they were extremely unhinged, i told myself i wasnt the same thing as them16 i meet more people like that, most who arent trans. some are taking hrt so i question myself, i decide not to take it and i dont know how to order it anyway18 i get depressed and its 2016 so i become a poltard christlarper20+ permanently isolated depression24 i wake up out of the nightmare for a bit and take hrt, it helps a bit, i feel really disgusting and like im a fraud/faking it, i stop taking hrt26+ doom
>>37043073>where are all mtf reppers?i'm right here hating myself for not taking hrt
>90+ percentile male in virtually all physical parameters
>>37043291Yeah, this is it for me. Pure pain. I need to deliberately avoid seeing happy trans people because I’m honestly miserable.
Days without crying to sleep: 0Going to make a vodka soda and drink my pain away
>find out I have an autoimmune disorder that will severely impact my future quality of life>also find out that it's more frequently seen in young women of my age range than men>men usually get it when they're 20 years older than meShould I count this as a sign? Is it weird if I think of this as a win?
>>37029373samei wake up every day thinking about thisi've pretended to be a girl online since i was 14 and now i'm 27 and a gross 6'3 ogre caveman who still thinks i could ever have a shot at passing
bump
>>37035550LGBT are scared of me, get on my level
It's been some time I've began to fap to drawn porn of male characters occasionally.I'm picky as hell with those, even more than I'm with women. Never once I have spotted a real man that looks arousing to me.I think the majority of queers are annoying as hell to be around, the politics are a big part but it's mostly just the culture and the mannerisms.I really do enjoy the company of a certain kind of (loser) straight men more than anyone else (I also hate being around women too much).I basically still think of myself as straight and see this as just one of many weird kinks i have.What do you think?
>>37031222>>37031925
>>37034742No.
what am i meant to do with my life?like honest question
Still no good way to cope, huh?
https://heywise.com/quiz/can-we-tell-if-youre-male-or-female/if it says more of a girl than boy TRANSITION IMMEDIATELY
>>37051525It’s ogre
youtube reccs strike againliterally do not watch ANY tranny shit on youtubedo not use google as my search enginehow the FUCK do they know???
>>37051671I had it suggested too, but I do watch tranny-adjacent stuffEnded up watching it, the worst part is seeing the same kind of facial features that make me think I'm ngmi while she looks cuteAt least I know how to do my brows now
>tfw need to shave againfuck having facial hair
MY FACIAL HAIR IS COMING BACKlaser hair removal doesnt even fuckig work, my face looks all scarred and fucked up from shaving and there is still hair there
>>37051928>laser hair removal doesnt even fuckig work,yeah it grows back after a year even for women
i want to be masculine again
>>37028021idgi, couldn't you just stop? it's not like anyone is forcing you to
>>37051786>>37051928repping would be so fucking easy if we didn't have to deal with facial hair and balding
>>37054594Being a genuinely big guy (4u) is worse, balding and beards can be fixed, bones can't.
is wanting to game with someone twice in a day bpdemon behavior?
>>37027065Yes, be a good girl
>>37026261You all should try ERP, a form of OCD therapy. Label your tranny feelings as "intrusive thoughts", separate yourself from your thoughts, even give the tranny voice a name. >sissy hypno intrusive thought>Alice, you are being irrational. >*accept the thought and move on, without spiraling about the trans life you're missing out on, don't dwell on depressed thoughts*
>>37056925>just give yourself DiD bro!
>>37056245No. I guess it depends on why you want to play with them
>>37056997That's not DID. It's separating yourself from your irrational thoughts, which will make it easier to pass them off as unproductive.
>>37056925dont do thatworst mistake of my life
>>37056925>separate yourself from your thoughts
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>almost 30 yo>all the clothes I wear daily are from when I was 15/16>only new outfits I’ve bought are lingerie/
>>37059219is being a repping tranny the reason i still wear the same shit i wore in highschooli've never bought myself anything new because whats the point in looking nice if i hate my body
>>37059219i'm almost 30 and my parents buy all my clothes for me still>>all the clothes I wear daily are from when I was 15/16yeah i still fit into themmy parents don't stop reminding me they expect me to get fat like dad