i sincerely find it difficult and remote to try and imagine myself in any kind of romantic level of respect or intimacy with anybody. im gonna he 26 soon and ive never been on a date. my gut feeling since ive been a kid is that its not gonn work. my youth is all i have left. i just have a GED and no savings or skills
i want to cry at my retail job. my family is poor and addicted to drugs i don't want to see them grow old like this but i can't provide anything of value. im sorry. i don't know what I'm doing
>>37317399>my gut feeling since ive been a kid is that its not gonn work.unresolved early childhood trauma (age < 3)? Autistic parents?
>>37317399You're probably right that it won't work out. I was like you until my first relationship in my late 20s, and having a partner just felt invasive and mentally exhausting. Loneliness is far less traumatic.
>>37317399I was a virgin until 29 and suicidal until I got antidepressants. Things are so much better now. Don't give up. Go on dates and get practice. Don't fall in love with the first person that is nice to you. Be a caring person. I will say that you will miss being alone quite a bit. But being with someone evens out the need for isolation.
>>37319616okay pill zombie
>>37319640whatever you fucking lazy genius computer eunuch faggot. i found something that works for me. inject nitrite salts nigger
>>37319448my parents hit each other a lot and smoked a lot of weed and they would me tv dinners. mom has had a lot of children with worthless drug addict men. poor people breed like bacteria and expire unceremoniously in languid piles of debt and empty painkiller bottles. shoot niggers in the skull with a 44 magnum
>>37321025That's terrible, sorry to hear that anon
>>37321074i am getting old
