>consider myself bisexual>very closeted>dislike men and have unpleasant experience with them in general and sexually>small sexual experience>live in a homophobic conservative country>mother constantly bothers me about marrying>all men I tried to date were forceful douchebags with rape particles in them and genuinely mentally challenged >nothing felt during sex with men>nothing felt during sex with women expect for a kisses>nothing felt during porn anymore>still consider myself bi cuz afraid of being alone my whole life since finding a girlfriend seems impossible and to not be victim of homophobia and wanting a biological children but only time I feel attraction is with women >the fuck do I do?
>>37327673move to italy and be my gf
>>37327673Hiding that you have a girlfriend is pretty easy, you can just be roommates forever and people will just think you're very good friends. So just go that route and be happy