>>37727740
mario kart :3

>>37727741
yea but working for someone else never feels good bc you know that they take the biggest cut out of what you produce..

>>37727756
wrong it's pokemon specifically soulsilver and duh i pick girl

>>37727740
>qott
stalker series

>>37727773
you should start a business
selling ketamine perhaps lol

>>37727789
Nice. i’ve never played pokemon haha mom wouldnt buy it for me
I loved crash bandicoot and the purple dragon a lot though

>>37727796
i would beg online but no one is going to give me shit since i am no pretty girl but maybe they will give smth to you grandpa since you are old and pathetic

>>37727740
FF9
And yeah I've been picking the girl since like 3rd grade or so. I remember runescape was the first time I was able to choose. I used to make the excuse that I just picked it to scam boys for money.

>>37727815
wtf? meanie

>>37727773
Depends on the job
If you have a union than life is pretty easy as a worker

>>37727826
ya sry, i thought it seemed a bit insensitive, i have problems with my empathy, i cannot always know if what i say is mean

>>37727815
we could cooperate i'll play your grandpa and you play a retarded freak lol
i'll complain how hard it is taking care of you after your mother sadly died of super cancer
if you can drool a little i think it'd help?
and we split the proceeds ofc

I like baldurs gate 3 because I can be a butch halfling fighter woman with a fat uncut cock.

>>37727856
>and you play a retarded freak lol
i do not need to play that since i am already that

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>>37727812
no pokemon what... it's the best ever and i need them to sleep. i think i played the purple dragon and the raccoon game but i barely remember them

>>37727858
replace fighter with monk because fighters are bland as fuck
>>37727740
rimworld, i also use a custom modded xenotype that are all female and can infect you, making you a woman aswell.

I’m Simultaneously envious and jealous of trannies hotter than me(99.9999%) and better younger than me but also feel none of the dysphoria they do so it’s really give it take.

i love how understanding is society of people with mental illness

>>37727923
Society literally cannot even experience dysphoria lol
Every other mental illness is somehow an experience you can have but wanting to have a womb and be born female is something they don’t understand as a need.(and the opposite for ftms)
Body dysmorphia is the closest. Lol

>>37727904
Might get it on switch just so i have something cute to play
Never finished TOTK, bought the swtich just to play it
Mario kart is so much fun Tbh :D i always play as bones or larry if its multiplayer and i want to win
But i play as daisy to feel cute haha

>>37727950
very few people have body dyspmorphia just like very few people are trans, we got so unlucky wtf, literally under 1% chance of being trans.. i also have other bs..

>>37727922
Lmao wtf this is messed. I actually like seeing people make it. I do get sad though when I'm reminded how old I had to start, and how I got no hip growth or body changes really. Attractiveness is definitely something too that has no effect on me.

during my prime repping years i put 4k hours on csgo and 2k on pubg. no regrets

>>37727972
Skill issue yeah right

>>37727812
My parents also didn't let us play pokemon or read/watch Harry potter cause of stupid religion lol. We did end up sneaking everything. But they found our pokemon cards in like 5th grade and threw them all away. Would have been worth 100ks at this point. We had so many holos. Got to play the games too cause they didn't check our Gameboy that well.

>>37728001
Based. I did both too. But for counter strike I actually had way more hours on the og xbox version. Was a top 10 player on there in my teens.

>>37727974
They made it before I even trooned
But then again they suffer while I don’t because I’m a nondysphoric tranny I just exist to exist and do drugs cause.
Tits are fun lololol

>>37728001
I only did league and dota
Fps aren’t my thing
I still play league to this day
I’m not a woman so it doesn’t matter

well i played a lot of tf2 back in the day so i pass as a tranny i guess

>>37728044
You are a faggot gay ass nigga

>>37727740
>QOTT
MGS3

Everyday I wish for death because I’m a fake tranny
It doesn’t matter if I’m happy when I go out slightly less male
I’m fake it’s all performative. I’m sorry

how can i motivate myself to exercise?
i genuinely just want to die

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>>37727740
hard to say but Final Fantasy Legend is definitely one of them
I beat this a few times as a kid but made countless files to try new combinations over and over again because I didn't really like grinding or get the nature of progression in RPGs, and I'd usually end up making a human female as my main character

>>37728129
>>37728129
Final fantasy is my favorite series oat and I've never even heard of this one before. Definitely gonna check it out. I still have my Gameboy pocket.

what linux distro should i install for coding? last time i installed debian and i got sick of it and i installed win again, i want to quit playing hentai games, and just idk get passionated abt coding instead..

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>>37728266
I like arch based distros personally

>>37728175
it's a very simple game, in a lot of ways, but I find it very charming
>I still have my Gameboy pocket.
based, I lost or gave away or sold almost all my old consoles when I was younger and I regret that

>>37728319
Gameboy pocket and my n64 are the only original consoles I had from childhood that I kept. Though throughout the past 4 years I've accumulated all i had and more, just buying at thrift stores and yard sales. I cringe thinking about all the stuff I sold at gamestop for basically pennies lol.

I need to kms
1.5 more years
God

>>37728402
>1.5 more years
Lol if you were going to do it you would do it

Right on
I’m fake I don’t exist
I wanna hype myself up for it but I’m
A pussy ass bitch
Anyway

>>37728402
If I had a gun, I'd definitely be dead right now lol.

I should detrans
Maybe I’ll feel better on T
Even if I remasculinize it doesn’t matter
I was never a woman anyway

>>37728520
Try going off the girl hormones and see if you feel better
Trial and error is a great way to learn things desu

>>37728546
I did it for a year some time ago but I wasn’t on e for much anyway so it was like I was never on hrt.
I don’t even remember how I was feeling prehrt.
Is it fair that I’m scared?

>>37728601
Yeah it is fair to be scared dw. i think you can only gauge if hrt is good for you by observing how your body/brain react and listening to that
Trying to intellectualize a medical disorder is a hopeless rabbit hole lol the why doesn’t matter if the treatment works

>>37728601
Yes it's fair. Both being on and off hrt is a nightmare, especially when you know or suspect you can't make it either way. Unless you start early enough, are extremely lucky, or are able to overcome the mental block of being openly and obviously trans in society, it's a rough life. But at least from what I experienced, it's way fucking rougher off hrt detransed. So I'll just be a fucking guy on hrt who dooms and sometimes think I'll make it. Even if it's just a pipe dream.

>>37728651
I feel positive being so long on E and I don’t mind it even enjoy the effects
But maybe it’s placebo ya know? Maybe I’ll get struck with the realization I’m wrong. I’m always rationalizing my emotions as guilt or shame or something. I don’t think I wanna stop hrt.
>>37728653
I sometimes feel ok ya know? Is that unfair? Ofc it doesn’t matter. I can’t even see myself as “trutrans” or a woman ever anyway. Wtf xd

>>37728713
Yeah i dont think you should stop. sounds like you are a tranny- whats nice is it’s 2024 and you can take hrt without having to larp as a woman- wish i found this when i was 16 haha

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>>37728713
No I definitely feel ok about where I'm at sometimes. And think I'll make it like maybe 1/5 of the time. The problem is just being able to stay in that mindset. It's hard not to compare to other trans woman here or everywhere else, or to cis woman who so effortlessly mog me. It's pushes me to work harder sometimes out of anger that I didn't start sooner, but mostly it just makes me doom and gloom. I don't ever consider the "trutrans" shit. Everybody is valid. I'm valid. I'm just too mentally ill to overcome my shortcomings both physically and mentally. Has nothing to do with all that bullshit trutrans junk.

Sorry this was a waste of time. I can’t take that decision at all. I’m fake and will never be a girl and that’s fine. I will always be a man deep down and that’s fine. I’ll never understand and that’s fine. I’ll just keep going like this as long as I can.

>>37728813
Quit larping nigga i paused the movie like 3 times to try and help you. go away. kill yourself if you want just don’t post about it here. this isn’t the suicide general.

>>37728829
What

>>37728762
>you can take hrt without having to larp as a woman- wish i found this when i was 16 haha
same holy fuck

>>37728829
What movie ya watching?

>>37728849
Ring. criterion has a 1 week free trial and all the popular j-horrors

>>37728858
Oh based. I had seen they have a 50% off sale earlier today actually. Was thinking of starting my collection when I get off work. Pick out 3 or 4 good ones. I'll have to def check out the free trial.

should i mod skyrim or fallout 4 for gooning
I usually prefer Skyrim but fo4 got that anime girl mod

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>>37727740
i'm a huuuuuge soulsfag but idk if i can pick a favorite between das1 and bloodborne
i think i love both equally
i pick male or a female entirely depending on the autistic puddle deep backstoryslop i come up with in my head when starting a new run

>>37728882
Fallout 4. If you're like me you've already put in way too many hours into Skyrim.
>>37728894
Still waiting for bloodborne on xbox... :( elden rings my fav. But I love ds 1 as well. Think it's tied for 2nd with demons souls.

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>>37728935
>Still waiting for bloodborne on xbox... :( elden rings my fav. But I love ds 1 as well. Think it's tied for 2nd with demons souls.
xboxsisters..... elden ring is really good! i love the fashion and variety in builds, deffo an improvement on the general combat design imo.
demon's souls has a special place in my heart since it has an atmosphere that hasn't really been replicated. the nexus and tower of latria are total ludo

https://voca.ro/1nUVxw7qaBlM

>>37729251
https://voca.ro/139DwwQywjjU

God herself is a manmoder and in heaven you listen to her sing and play the ukulele

>>37729251
https://voca.ro/1hYN8JjcUbFz

>>37729284
If God is a woman ill cry in her arms and have faith she had a plan for me all along. If God is a man I'll dive into hell myself.

I will forever “wish I was like her” knowing full well we can never feel or be the same, knowing full well i don’t deserve it, knowing full well I should disappear instead.
Endings are my favourite part of any story, real or fictional. All the emotions get out when you say goodbye and I hope to see you again

>>37729382
Kys

how can i fix my humidity issues in bad insulated apartment, my dehumidifier has to run all the time and the humidity increases fast back if i stop it..

>>37729399
meanmoder general am i right /b/ros?

>>37729408
He deserves it for shitting up the thread every day

>>37729382
Don't kys. I thought it was cute and I liked it. The endings are always my favorite too.

Once upon a time in a bustling town, there lived a man named Oliver. Oliver was a transgender woman who presented as a man, navigating the world with a careful balance of confidence and vulnerability. One sunny afternoon, she decided to visit the local grocery store to pick up a few essentials.

As she strolled through the aisles, she noticed a commotion near the produce section. Curiosity piqued, Oliver approached and saw a striking figure: Chad. With his charming smile and effortless charisma, Chad was chatting with a group of admirers, discussing the best ways to pick ripe avocados.

Oliver felt an unexpected flutter in her chest. She was used to being reserved, but there was something magnetic about Chad. Gathering her courage, she joined the conversation, joking about the perils of selecting overripe avocados.

To her surprise, Chad turned to her with genuine interest. “I always appreciate a fellow avocado enthusiast!” he said, grinning. Oliver felt her heart race.

The two struck up a conversation that flowed effortlessly. They discussed everything from their favorite foods to weekend plans. Oliver found herself laughing more than she had in ages, drawn in by Chad’s easygoing nature.

As they moved to the checkout, Oliver hesitated, wondering if she should ask Chad for his number. Sensing her uncertainty, Chad leaned closer. “You know, I’d love to continue this conversation. How about coffee sometime?”

Oliver’s heart soared. “I’d really like that.”

They exchanged numbers, and as they said their goodbyes, Oliver realized that her routine had been forever changed. What started as a mundane trip to the store had blossomed into the beginning of something beautiful.

>>37729420
Cute and liked it how.
I might be autistic so ask
I keep posting shit I guess because I can’t help myself.
I’m twisting in knots over myself , crying squirming like the worm I am denying existence and my own damn feelings, faralizing w/e emotional incompatibilities as entirely antithetical to my being.
I can cry about not bring Oliver and then call myself a man again and again and again the next second.
Why can’t I just be a girl and be done with it ya know?
Nope
Have to somehow live like this. An invalid male who ruins his good fortune for NOTHING.
I was never a woman. She or her. I’m man
He him and male. And I guess this is my punishment. Living this lie. I made it myself. Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck

>>37729463
I genuinely cried cause I’m emotional rn but I think it’s cute.
I hope the story is a bit true abd you found your chad Anonette

I think w/e is wrong with me is driving me insane.

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>>37729522
real

>>37729536
The pic kills me
You are killing me.

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>>37729506
Nah, now you're doing too much.

>>37729586
I know right?
Haha
Gotta get better at my little larp:)

>>37729616
Wanna hear something that isn't a larp? I had a vivid dream of meeting my cis female self. I WILL NEVER BE HER!

i hate being fat, i wish i was not fat

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soul-destroying, fire-igniting, riot-inciting, undeniable, city-flattening, peer-reviewed, earth-shaking fact:
World War II never ended
it gave way to the Cold War
which also never ended
it gave way to the current rivalry between the US and EU on one side and Russia and China on the other

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nuclear targets abound
nuclear-armed Israel
politician = demon sent from Hell by Satan to torture me and see me bleed
WWII = Cold War = WWIII = WW∞ = neverending nightmares = shadow government = Demonrats and Republicants are two sides of the same coin = ancient evil = unbelievably sick people = nuclear winter = mass extinction = human sacrifice = unlimited genocide = we bringing you The End, bitch
the Evil Empire is here the Evil Empire is real

>>37729732
nothing ever happens

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hail our people
hail victory
a curse upon the empire
victory to the third world
t. ranny with schizoautism (on drugs)
>>37729745
everything always happens

i want to kms

all I want for christmas is a good night's sleep

>>37729729
Just lose weight fatty.
>>37729767
Bruh you ain't kidding. I legit haven't gotten a full 8 hours all year lmao.

>>37729793
>I legit haven't gotten a full 8 hours all year lmao.
I've had a few weeks where I was getting it or just a night here or tehre and the difference in my quality of life and ability to focus on un-fucking my shit was palpable, I'm kind of unraveling over it

>>37729791
Literally Larry on the right

>>37729808
fuck you man

>>37729814
kill yourself, penis worm

>>37729791
shaggy is literally me. it’s crazy how twinks look feminine as men and horrible as women

>>37729827
have some empathy for me also, i am human too

lolllll

i love you all <3

you'll tell us to kill ourselves again within 24 hours

>>37729837
I can't empathize with you because I'm not human.

ya but i don't actually mean it and it is dumb bc if you all kys then i will have nowhere to go, i am big loser and i feel good only here

>>37729917
dw, i am way less human than you are, sometimes i feel like a robot unironically lol

my manly tiddies and manly hips hurt UmU

My titties hurt but never once have my hips hurt :(
>t. Hip never grower

>>37729837
i was on meth and you told m to post my dick and i did because i was on meth now im sad. have some empathy for ruining my life when i was having a mental breakdown

>>37729950
>>37729966
let me manly kiss them so they don't hurt anymore <3

Home from work finally. Just fucking slammed a Dr pepper zero. Bout to open another one and stay up too late.

>>37729973
i remember that, it was a bit funny, also your life is not ruined over that, i posted dick many times, as long as your face is not in the frame it doesn't matter

>>37729966
don't worry it's probably actually just cancer or inguinal hernias or deep vein thrombosis or rheumatitis or arthritis or endometriosis or necrosis or diabeetus or necrotizing fasciitis or

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what does /mmg/ wear to the gym? initially i wore a big baggy shirt and some gym shorts but it made me wanna kill myself when i looked in the mirror so i settled on this
>>37729950
hell yea bro lets get it
>>37729966
i've heard that stimulating the production of growth hormone thru exercise like walking or biking can help to promote hip growth but thats probably honscience
but it might not be! who really knows....

>>37729995
You look like you started under 25, imma let it slide this once. But I started in my 30s. Odds are not in my favor. Though I have been walking 30mins-over an hour for a week now. Was doing 15-30 before that. Gonna keep this up.

I wear a hoodie and sweatpants. Boobs too big for anything else. Even with sports bra they be jumping up and down too much.

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>>37729992
in my case its probably arthritis tbhon, my hands and wrists hurt frequently and randomly
>>37730035
yea i started at 24, i had always been really scrawny compared to my brother who went thru puberty like it owed him money
my job has me up and walking a shitton pretty much daily but i don't know how accurate the apple "Health" app is, i go tot the gym in the hope of making my ass fatter
>I have been walking 30mins-over an hour for a week now
are you trying to lose weight? wish you luck in whatever your goal is

im tall and fat but its distributed mainly to my hips and more recently my boobs since ive been injecting estrogen without telling anyone. luckily im young so the estrogen has been giving me noticeable results but i fear even if i lose weight i can't lose height. is it time to kill myself

>>37728935
See actually for the last two years ive been playing a modded fo4 setup until i lost my HDD. Im considering doing a coomer skyrim setup since i havent done that since 2019 but otoh fo4's anime mod is tempting me to try again anyway

>>37730085
My job is OK with keeping me on my feet. But yeah I'm loosing weight rn. Working out and in a caloric deficit. Shooting for another 20 pounds. And then gonna really work on muscle and healthy fats.
>>37730121
I play vanilla. How big of a faggot am I?
>>37730118
You should honestly do it.
>t. Fat and tall hon
Jk, plz don't. I'm just being a salty bitterhon.

maybe I'll go back on Wellbutrin. but not getting it from a doctor again, just buying a bunch on line.

>>37730232
an antidepressant? why not get it prescribed officially? unless its available for cheap, fuck getting meds officially honestly

>>37730232
diying has ruined medication for me i just buy whatever just to see like hmm today i think i need lithium

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qVMxAIzXYCI

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>>37727740
>What is your favorite video game?
been playing death stranding, kicks ass

>>37730274
i like the goo goo dolls singer

>>37730244
I just hate dealing with shrinks. "boo hoo I'm sad please give me Wellbutrin sir"
fuck that I'm a grown man, I can buy my own drugs.

>>37730317
yeah i understand; was 90% of the reason i started with DIY hrt despite having insurance, its fucking humiliating

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I’m on so many prescriptions it’s unreal

>https://www.reddit.com/r/transtimelines/s/c6wXDdR31t
Average mmg fakemoder be like:

>>37730370
It is kinda crazy how much shit trannies be popping.
>>37730412
Youngshit manmoders everywhere. I need drugs.

>>37730412
never been more over

>>37730370
I went from highly medicated feeling like shit to completely unmedicated feeling amazing to unmedicated feeling like shit and now I'm slowly going back into highly medicated territory (and will probably still feel like shit when I get there).
when will it end?

>>37730467
I thought we just took drugs till we die?

the QT grill at 7/11 told me I looked better when my hair was buzzed. it is over.

>>37730502
Unless she's sucking your pepe, fuck that bitch. Also, why isn't she sucking your pepe yet jynxi?

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>>37729721
>>37729888

>>37730573
over

>>37730573
That's like half you bitches in here. They want boymoders. Have fun yall:)

reading that makes me wanna sui so much :(

anyways ppl anyone knows the name of that /lgbt indexing 4chan archive? my google-fu skills are obviously lacking

>>37730747
archived dot moe slash lgbt

I hate myself. From my personality, to the way I look. I don't know why i even try. I wish I could just fucking fall asleep so I could forget about it all for a few hours.

>>37730160
Idk nigga i dont feel like judging you but id probably stop playing beth games fast if i cant mod em.
Anyway idk fo4 has guns and anime girl mods but skyrims got that cozy mountain world vibe, last night i was gooning to the idea of getting fucked as my skyrim self insert girl in some fancy house in the mountains, creampied nonstop throughout a blizzard to keep warm
anyway idk what to choose

>>37730571
i do not know how to talk to women

>>37730573
Its true tho
Its why i try to just be discreet instead of playing "uwu im not taking estrogen"

freddy fazbear

I’m awake again
Still male
Still never a woman.

I’m fine just taking my hrt and never doing anything else in my life.
I’ll perma malemode
I won’t even try
I’m not a woman after all
I’m going back to bed

bulimia is killing me

is that small ant

bitch all ants are small

time to start grindin hard and dump all of my money into transition

>>37730798
thanks <3

>>37730289
Love this game!!!!!!!!!! it is so so pretty and i love running through the mountains <3 and the guy is super hot haha i love making him shower

https://youtu.be/Rj6dwEBmBJA?si=W_z2_i4-m-7mHSld

Flirting with martha stewarts dermatologist over instagram dm…. why do i have to be so iconic omg </33

>>37731830
Switch to laxatives so you dont ruin your teeth with vomit
Medication can help, possibly some sort of amphetamine to prevent you from binging
Ozempic is good too but it is $300/month unless you have some form of insurance
Food is really good though, it takes a long time to get to a place where you can enjoy it though

>>37732623
I've been on the laxative tip but all that accomplished was me purging and abusing laxatives at the same time lol.
it doesn't matter since I don't purge anymore I just do prolonged water fast, which is actually much more effective than both purging and laxatives.

>>37732728
FEMALE
BRAINED
BOTTOMS
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fasting_in_Buddhism?wprov=sfti1#Fasting_in_early_Buddhism_and_Theravada

i look like a man

had to do an exam for a job today and when I took off my shirt and the doctor saw my bra she immediately started gendering me female despite of my ugly male face. malefailing is retardly easy not sure why people here seethe so much abt it

>>37733037
>malefailing with your shirt off, bra and titties visible is so easy

>>37733055
when i post nudes with my dick censored or not my tits are literally the only thing that gets me clocked i hate them

>>37733111
my dick censored or not visible*

>>37730573
killing myself

>>37733037
they might have even screamed at me and kicked me out here in eastern europe, let alone gender me female lol
you are so privileged in the west and you still complain..

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>>37730085
Decided to download an app too. First workout with it. Stairmaster and tread. Did squats and hip lifts too.

>>37732811
damn the Buddha spittin some solid proana advice here

>>37733320
Its not mental illness its called enlightenment i think ;D

>>37733055
my tits weren't visible dummy i was really embarrassed though
>>37733198
>privileged
im poor, black and live in south america

>>37733365
Based
You tranny passed btw, no male failing going on in this general

>bra is visible
>tits are not visible
rip, it is over

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>drunkenly goon for 6 hours
>black out
>wake up in a pile of cum and piss
>no vomit or shit this time thankfully
>fart so loudly it wakes up the neighbors

>>37733510
based and been there before

suicide is litrally the only option left if youre a dysphoric trutranny who cant pass or detrans

>>37733510
>fart so loudly it wakes up the neighbors
me irl
I don't goon or get soiling-myself-and-passing-out-drunk anymore thankfully

>>37733534
so glad I'm not trutrans, having a dick and a deep voice and getting to live as a dude is fucking great

>>37733592
do you like being uncanny and social death also or

>>37733601
>being uncanny
yes
>social death
no

>>37733592
no even you believe this

>>37733606
I'm being completely serious lol, I have imposter syndrome over my dysphoria because it's not overwhelming and complete and I actually value some of my masculinized traits

j was so trutrans i didnt transition becausd i didnt want to a tucute detrans trender

>>37733365
I guess that's kinda what I meant by having nothing but a bra on. Cis men with gyno never wear a bra. Add on you probably look fem with the shirt on. The bra was the last clue she needed.
>black
Please post pic:) you're my most wondered about person in here. Especially after you said you resemble Lauryn hill.

>>37733616
You are literally me
I cry every night because I will never be a girl and never experience true womanhood
But my dysphoria is barely there and I struggle to even relate to real trannies
Hrt made me more productive but I have lost passion And will to live.
Idk what to do in my free time basically other than obsess over my transition or do self care

>>37733756
>I cry every night because I will never be a girl and never experience true womanhood
then you are nothing like me, please don't try to compare us and please try to recognize your spiraling and do something about it

>Mfw I’ll never be trutrans because I trooned as a fakemoder on a whim and have no personality or identity

all women itt. youre all women im the last manmoder

>>37733756
this is very typical very classic gender dysphoria btw, like you are a dime a dozen, including all the wailing and imposter syndrome making you feel like you're not a real tranny while literally crying every day about the same things as all the other real trannies

everyone's experience is a little bit different and I'm obviously just in a different spot on the bell curve than you are, while you're probably not as far from the center as you think

>>37733786
I can’t stop it easily
I know I am a tranny faggot
But I can’t “get” dysphoria in a way that is describable or relatable.
Idk
>>37733824
I’m prolly a bit further from it than most. I didn’t experience emotions like this until adulthood and it took me years to figure things out. This crying and complaining feels almost performative to me.

>>37733888
I know this is prolly very boring to hear but I have no way to express these feelings safely.

>>37733756
>>37733824
God dammit. I will never have a unique experience ever. I'm my best mentally when I just accept I'm not gonna make it and that im not a real trans woman, and I should be content in manmode. But I'm always reminded that that is bullshit and I am a woman, and I do have a chance to make it.

>>37733807
I truly wish I could somehow believe you. Deep down I know that’s what I want but I’m layered like an ogre….

>>37733888
talk to a professional

>>37733909
it's not an either/or thing, it's about finding what works for you and not being so absolutist or defeatist

>>37733909
Dw if it’s any consolation I wasn’t even crying for years because of dydphoria and just repressed all my sadness into incel rage!

>>37733935
How will a professional help?
I am going to one. This feeling is still there. I get it. Just do what you like. I’m trying. I just don’t wanna feel so alien.

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manmoding is such a pathetic life and i want to say it’s not fair but it’s my cosmic punishment. i deserve this

>>37733949
>How will a professional help?
by helping you navigate through your obviously irrational spirals and identify then work on the things that are bothering you so much about not only your dysphoria and transition but your own regard for those things, which is clearly getting in the way of you living or thinking

I have an essentially calvinist view on fate. manmoding is my just punishment for original sin, ordained since the beginning of time. it was never possible for me to be a youngshit or a luckshit.

>>37727740
Ok im gonna try skyrim with mods and see if my potato rig can run the 4k coomer female mods
If not, guess im gonna try again with fo4
Idk i should probably check LL for skyrim anime girl mods

Went for a walk this morning at the lake with no bra, even unbuttoned my shirt a bit too
Manmoding is great
How are people supposed to know that men can take hrt if there are no visible examples!?!?
It is almost like a social responsibility to walk around with my breasts bouncing idk…

>>37734012
I don't really do the coomer mod thing anymore but LL was always a great resource for stuff that wasn't popular (or compliant) enough to be on nexus, I remember doing nude mods for a ton of games I'd play even when I wasn't going to goon or anything just to have the kind of slightly lewd self-insert with physically female anatomy

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>>37734057
>It is almost like a social responsibility to walk around with my breasts bouncing idk…
this degree of radical self-acceptance scares me

>>37734057
stopppp

Any good sports bra that is kind of in between a binder and a regular sports bra? Tits getting too big and I can't wear hoodies with this heat.

>>37734095
tomboy x is cozy and very good for hiding bobs

>>37733997
Original sin is evil, punishing somebody eternally for the actions of someone else is insane.

>>37734133
t. not one of the elect

>>37733958
Yeah I think I have some questions for next time now even if they hurt.
At least I have become more certain in the “I’m a tranny” aspect of it all.

>>37734115
the compression top, the bralette, or the "essentials soft bra"?

>>37734095
1. Compression shirt
2. gc2b binder which is imo less binder than the typical blocky binder that sticks out with huge lines on your chest
3. tape

>>37734079
This happened 20 minutes from my house. wild.

>>37734154
Nobody can truly know that they are one of the elect.

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>>37734065
Do u have an opinion what i should go for
Skyrims world is kinda cozy and way prettier than the wasteland but i like guns more than melee and magic + installing nanako animerace mod is easier finding a good skyrim face mod (and its own prerequisites) that doesnt melt my pc

>>37734057
Nah no joke. I went to my workout today in a lighter sweatshirt than normal, no bra. Bout half way into my treadmill routine I realized how noticeable they were, and how much they were just bouncing everywhere. Then when I did hip lifts, they were just straight up outlined obvious boobs. Whatever lol. Some days I just don't gaf.

>>37734171
I've only used the soft bra, it's nice.

>>37734263
probably fo4 then, personally I'm not sure I can ever play skyrim or fo3 again because I'm so over the Gamebryo Feel and have spent too much time in both of those worlds across multiple files over the years that they feel completely empty and dead to me (and fo4 is only a little more "fresh" in my head)

maybe it depends more on which mods you actually want to play with and why

i want to play fallout london but i'll not buy all fucking dlcs to be able to

my chest? flat.
my face? hairy.
my head? huge.
my shoulders? broad.
my hips? narrow.
my dick? small.

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>>37734444
checked

Men can have giant boobs it’s ok

>>37734444
>dik small
Female

damn 3 years of HRT and boobs going through another growth spurt. got damn they hurt rn.

It’s all a larp

>>37734489
yes, sex and gender are literal LARP (not "LA"RP like people do online)

>>37734489
everything is a larp meant to torture (You), the boy reading this

>>37734480
I lied my dick ain't even small

Mine is

>>37734482
i can gently massage them for you
nohomo

>>37734743
I'm just annoyed because i thought my measurements were settled but now I gotta see if I'l have to jump up to wearing a 6 for tops.

i'm kinda sad chuddie dislikes me and thinks i'm a perverted creep :(
otherwise i'd ask her to let me asexually cuddle

>>37734772
Chuddy dislikes everyone given enough time.

>>37734507
>>37734571
I’m a larp too

My tits will remain pathetically small because I am a diy chud and don’t do regular bloods and inconsistent dose and losing weight from rotting

>>37734888
true but it's usually for some kind of real reason

>>37734888
checked trips of truth

>>37730412
lol looked thru the post history and theres an old deleted submission where the user says they're in their 30s and has been transitioning for 15 years

>>37734772
HAHAHAAHAH

buttchugging Robitussin rn

>>37735076
? what's so funny my 'nona friend?

>>37734952
that could have been me (well hopefully not a redditor) if I had asked more questions and been less afraid as a teenager

you learn to fuck the devil in his mouth and eat the shit out of his bitch

dick-witted shit receptacle

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i need a manmoder gf

>>37735249
hello :3
i'm a real manmoder though, if you really want a boymoder... :/

>hey son, when are you going to get a girlfriend
end me

>>37735291
Tell him you are gay

>my son
>my manly man son
>of course we will support you in your transition to female!
>no you didn't ask but we will offer to pay for your hormones and laser hair removal!
>what's that? you want money for those things now? don't be ridiculous it's too expensive
>but are you sure you really want to be doing this anyway?
>I mean I heard on the news all of these things
>what if trump gets elected
>how do you know it's safe
>is it something I did to you
>could I have prevented this
>you're not going to look like one of those people I saw in the grocery store are you
>why are you taking my son away?!
>who is this strange man in front of me??!!
ha
ha

i feel so exited i cant eat
the babykiller
i feel so good i cant sleep
a dead man
i am so happy i cant breathe
im having fits
i am visited by the Angel of Four
get sick
so much higher than a god
shit
i cant live with a heart that beats like this
the human meat
it's so outlandish wandering in the desert like this
these teeth hurt

>>37735249
are you cis

>>37735386
yeah just on estrogen

>>37735478
Pog are yo up for frotting?

i am probably the most 'cis' person here

>>37735478
>>37735515
Can we 3 way frot plz :3
>>37735605
Youre probably literally the only cis person here you dumb fuck.

>>37735638
Fuck I wanna Frott trannies with my manmoder cock so much

>>37735638
mean, i am also trans, i just repp

>>37735685
I recall you saying that hrt made you feel "worse"
Maybe you are trutrans and i am a faker because that doesn't same like the same diagnosis to me.

>>37735348
i'm so exited,
i just can't hide it
i'm about to lose control,
and i think i like it
i so exited,
i just can't hide it
and ik ik ik,
i wanna end it

>>37735605
wanna frot? i know i'm ugly and sick, but if we both got reeeal drunk then maybe we both can ignore that?

>>37735702
diagnosis are crap i got totally false diagnossies that even oter professionals don't belive
fuck

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>>37735638
>>37735515
yes but remember I look like a MAN. i am not a girly lil bitch so

tfw too disgusting even for a genuine manmoder frotting party :|

>>37735702
fr fr but also if you were actually trutrans you would have transitioned at 12 or roped by now but here you are managing to be a manmoder, so we are both fake trans
>>37735759
how big is it?

i am 100% male
i'll still be manmoding when i hit the two year mark

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need a fat-arsed manmoder to sit on my face and let me have a go at that musky hairy mussy ぺろぺろ

>>37735834
im not good at killing myself and somehow i ended up here
>>37735848
2.5 years for me

>>37735858
almost 1 year for me
you know, i was a little delusional and thought that maybe i will have problems at this point
nope
nothing

>>37735855
I haven't showered in a couple days and it's got a unique musk that wasn't there before HRT

>>37735869
i hope you make it out somehow anon

>>37735834
was like 15 cm last i measured? was a while ago
> if ... actually trutrans you would have transitioned at 12
dude, i learned about transition being a thing as a 23 masculine freak! the information about it all was agp as hell and as i'm not agp i was disgusted af

>>37735262
hypothetically, if you were to present me to your family and friends would you present me as your gf or bf

>>37735906
meant for >>37735249

nobody even want to reply to me
i mean i wouldnt'

>>37735685
Sorry not sorry. But no, you aren't. At least in my eyes. I'm kinda a trans medicalist except of course for people in grave danger, or who have another medical condition that doesn't allow them to take hrt. You were on hrt for 4 months.. and constantly talk about feeling better on test.

>>37735915
i would present you as my gf if you were cool with it. either way you would be getting flowers every time we meet

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this is how i feel when you sexually roleplay

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this is how i really look

>>37735956
i actually just look like a young twink with boob bumps

>>37735956
mogs me

>>37735960
i wish, get your own name, the letter after d are available

>>37735905
nice, i am a 23 year old masculine freak rn
>>37735941
nu uh. i am hsts.

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Saw these and decided I wanna try to draw again. I think I'll try drawing clocky manmoders this week.

what is a clocky manmoder?

>>37736021
based

chudette is a clocky manmoders, looks like a regular man but freaky asf hence they do not actually pass as a regular man fully bc smth is off

ah, larry

>>37735942
thats sweet :3

repgen is page 9 and i would bump it but the reppers left are too mentally ill schizo and annoy so hell no, let that bitch die

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>>37736038
Something like this. Clocky was a bad word.

>>37736103
those are just two hons

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>>37736103
clocky is fine

>>37736123
And they both giga mog you.

>>37736009
would you accept (could be) grandfathers squeezing your butt? asking for a friend*
(soory, it's a lie, my friends are all girls and women ;__;)

>>37736103
qt
sorry uzi but this is just cute

>>37736177
I'm not uzi. I just saw this a while ago and saved it for inspiration.

>>37735834
I am faketrans for sure, i have no clue what you are brother…..

>>37736139
yes, time for rope? :'(
>>37736164
sure, i would fuck you in the ass if i feel my emotions low enough
>>37736219
i am a lost incel and i only get attention from girls here :'(

>>37736247
Post muscles daddy =D

larry is a /tttt/ outlaw who refuses to go on HRT and only shits this place up because as soon as anyone sees him in mtfg he gets b&

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>>37736259
the only muscle i work out is my brain
>>37736274
no, mtfg got really slow and boring and i cannot relate to anyone there, whatever people are left there are all awful annoying

>>37736103
left is just anna khachiyan

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>>37736335
Damn, you weren't lying.

i am a loser :'(

>>37736247
so now i just need to get you into the grande down spiral...

>>37736292
what are you studying again? and does it involve magick in any way? i mean backwaters of the world and all...

god i really like ellipses, and yet i'm kissless

>>37736398
lose weight fatass

soijak un perdedor

>>37736384
fucking some old dude on hrt in the ass is kinda kinky, i am surprised that you do not have a market for it, like unironically

Why does hair take so fucking long to grow?

>>37736414
thanks for reminding i need to inject
my estrogen, and my semaglutide

>>37736453
idk, apparently some gay guys think late 40's guys are cool to fuck*, but bet it doesn't apply to men with boobs :/

(* or so some young gay guys told me, but then they told me i'm not a virgin and that's a lie)

>>37736808
I had sex with a woman in her 40s when I was 20. And have had sex with a couple more both cis and trans woman in their 40s throughout my 20s and early 30s. Definitely a lot of possibilities out there.

BAAAAAASEDYY UNN PREDATOR
I'M A RAPEHON BABY
SO WHY DON'T YOU KISS ME?

>>37736871
unlike many people on /lgbt believe i actually have no problem with older people, there are people 30+ older than me that i would fuck i had any libido anymore, and yes that would be really old
like i know a woman that's 62+ (idk) that i find really hot, and the only thing unattractive is her schizo issues and being boring af

part of me kinda hitting on ppl here is larping as so many hate old people telling the truth like i just want to fuck them instead of encouraging them telling my truth, part of it is actually feeling they're attractive but not really wanting to fuck them or anything, part of it is painfully trying to go against my aversion in age-gap attraction. like me finding a 30yo attractive.

idk what's wrong with my syringes, had to do a lot of work to get mostly fluid into them instead of just an air bubble?!?

i'm probably just retarded

my dad is an abusive repper and creep and im pretty sure he’s manmoding

>>37737603
gross, I'd tell him to go fuck himself

>>37737615
i have. he’s done horrible things to me but im pretty sure he’s retarded or something because nothing gets past his beady eyes and he acts like nothing ever happened. it’s very strange. he copies my mannerisms also. he blocked me from hormones when i was a preteen and then when i came out again when i was 18 he tried telling me about his agp and why i should rep. i hope he kills himself but im probably going to kill myself first

>>37737603
hot, I'd tell him to fuck me, manmoder son father sexo

>>37737635
murder him and kys, best option you have, you rid the world of two agps in one shot

>>37737672
ive been a homosexual since i was born i just have issues with being a man. but youre probably right i should

damn I am actually blown away by how good the tavern pizza I got from pizza hut was and how well it lasted in the fridge, like the veggies on it were uncharacteristically fresh and flavorful and I'm still sitting here thinking about it (even though the bread and all was still a delicious cheesy confectionary abomination probably loaded with corn syrup and I know it's a shortcut to the beetus and it's still overpriced corporate slop)

>>37737635
that's fucked up, if I were you I'd be working to get away from him

>>37737726
im a pathetic drug addicted neet who was systematically denied access to anything that would give me independence or confidence. i don’t know how and im in lots of debt from failing university for five years

>>37737741
at the risk of expressing an infuriatingly impractical or empty platitude: start by starting

>>37737751
wdym, his life is mega fucked, he should just rope at this point, no advice in the world is fixing that shit up

>>37737603
>>37737635
Basically cutting off my dad was one of the best decisions I've ever done. I'd do the same in your situation.
>>37737699
Honestly, I gave you shit last night for eating it. But I actually do love pizza hut lol. They always have really good promos. Maybe I'll try the tavern style.

>>37737751
i tried to start by im finally on hrt and the testosterone ruined my body so it’s over and i have no willpower. suicide 12:00am january 1st nyc babyy

>>37737767
don't be shitty

>>37737777
checked! don't fucking do it, just start by improving the next thing you can since you're on hrt now - what comes next? do you feel like you need or want to work more on your transition, or is some other area of your life holding you back, or do you just need to start finding an income?

>>37737780
i just being honest, they are fucked on top of fucked, rope is the only answer
>>37737787
HAHA HOLY COPE, DO NOT DO THIS BUDDY, IT WILL ONLY MAKE YOUR SUFFERING LONGER, WHY DO YOU WANT THIS MAN TO SUFFER FOR LONGER??

tranny freak in the mirror this morning instead of a man
gmi

>>37737825
same androgynestie

>>37737820
yeah no literally like i want to die atp

>>37737772
don't get me wrong, I'm not strictly recommending it and it was one of those kind of self-destructive indulgences, but it was just way better than I expected

>>37737837
you can do it, i believe in you

>>37737897
thank you for not discouraging me anon

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>tfw telling people to commit sui on 4chan no longer fills the void in your heart and you are just sad
pls help me, i am genuinely sad and feel the need to cry

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>>37737929
anon I'm sorry but you're growing up

i hate being a manmoder so much

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I love being a manmoder so much

i am so miserable, i love my life so much

pls god kill me already pls
pls man just do it pls

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

so what bridge in nyc do people usually die

>>37738044
>>37738060
>>37737977
Glad to see repping has been going well for you all!

>>37738070
it is no abt that lol, i hate being an ugly beta incel loser, i wish i was hot

>>37738070
repping?

>>37738070
im on hormones bro

>>37738070
manmoders are not reppers, and l*rry is not a manmoder he's not on hrt

>>37738084
This is not mutually exclusive.
I've been on hormones for like a year now and still not living socially as a women, that's still repressing.

>>37738128
that's manmoding

>>37738128
yea cus wearing a dress and speaking in a high pitched voice is so important for my gender dysphoria? tf. i have a male body that’s the issue

>>37738060
Brooklyn Bridge. that being said come on anon don't do that. You're in NYC. Go distract yourself it's easy. Hell I can sit in washington square park and just listen to music for an hour.
>>37738128
I've been on HRT for three and I still haven't bought single piece of fem clothing outside of sports bras. Not even women's jeans like other manmoders.

>>37738151
speaking in a high pitched voice is so important for my gender dysphoria?
Voice training has unironically helped relieve my gender dysphoria, I still need major FFS, but it has helped.

hate youngshits

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hey
how can i improve

HRT

>>37738389
shave your beard

>>37738427
i have no chin. i look horrible in that angle. :'(

>>37738451
lose weight then