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AGP insanity edition
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I want to eat trans girl poop.
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>>37772196
stop repping
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being gay isn’t repping
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i feel so catacylsimatcally horrible today. I have agp. im not trans. Im on day four of nofap, no sugar, no cutting, and no caffine. I've been binge wacthing DR K on YT. its clicked for me. i feel so completely disgusted that im a man. A MAN. i wish i could be a boy forever. i dont know why old people dont just kill themselves. seriously. i have nothing to look forward to. i cant be me. im 24, 5'11, cant drive. i can never be a twink. i can never be cute. i have a huge face and a huge nose. and big shoulders. my body isnt feminine at all. even then. its just meta attraction. i logic'd my way into AGP. i want to be attractive, so what do i find attractive? bam. im a reserve incel. im an ogre. it hurts so much. i cant go out to a party, or date, or even watch a video on youtube, because i cant do it as me. my body is so upsetting. i cant be me. im a freak. there is nothing to look forward to. i cant even bottom because of my body. i cant be me because of something out of my control. i am so sad. ive been so depressed since i was 15. when i got to 20 it got worse cause of covid. not im 24 and its all over.
what can i do other than hope for an afterlife. my body cannot be fixed. and i will only age. i wasnt able to find a partner when i was young enough to be loved. even then my body was awful, my face i mean. :( ive thought about HRT but it wouldnt change my body at this point and i dont want tits. i hate having agp. what can i possibly do. i want something that i cannot possibly get at this point; being a cute boy. without that i cannot be myself. I CANNOT LIVE. its over past 25.
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there are hardly any reppers left/..
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>>37772232
>I've been binge wacthing DR K on YT
please stop watching indian pseud grifters
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>>37772196
I would likely troon out if I could pass. But what does concern me is how your life is then dedicated to a fetish. I think that's why there's so many suicides. It's a hollow life.
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>>37773957
passing is a myth
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*deep inhale* AAAAAAAA
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>agp x repgen
i feel like if i could live as an artist or someshit i would go full marilyn manson but light with low dose hrt
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There is literally nothing wrong with being male.
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>>37774786
of course there isn't except you as a repper will never be able to live up to the standards of being a man
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>>37775687
Whose standards?
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>>37775694
idk gods
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I was looking for a tranny to self insert as while fapping and ended up cumming to an overweight cis woman instead. Really makes me wonder what's the point of taking hrt and doing all these surgeries when I'll never be even half as sexy as a real woman who puts literally no effort into her appearance.
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>>37775718
Take hrt = fat goes to hips
I'm as thin as a stick but looking at the female BMI chart I'm at like <25th percentile so I have no fat.
Body fat does so much work desu. I see women with curves and wonder why I don't have them but their thighs are fucking massive. Then I see runners with 0 curves who look like me.
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>tfw 35 and still haven't been put in a wedding dress and plapped
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This movie triggered my AGP so bad bros.

https://youtu.be/wkRR2VUsWfU
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>>37772232
never seen such a bad case of peter pan syndrome.
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>>37772196
would masctwinkmoding be good rep till I become normal?
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sex with larry
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>>37772232
bro you need to relax.

life is all about realising that everything you were taught to hope for, a job, someone who loves you, lots of friends, being attractive and becoming 'who you are' thats all bullshit. the world is screaming at you to see reason and you dont want to. accept that you are nothing and life gets easier. stop torturing yourself with your expectations.
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Every tranny needs to look up Body Identity Integrity disorder. It's near exactly what troons have (A mental disorder)

Once I accepted my mental disorder It was easy to fight.
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hi repgen. ive recently gone back to repping in a sense, though i need to keep taking estradiol if i want to have a sex hormone at all. do you accept hrt reppers here?
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>>37779263
you are not a real repper, but whatever does best for you
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any srs/ffs reppers here?
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>>37779378
you have to be joking now
repping is refusing to transition NOT FUCKING HAVING FFS?
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>>37777627
it didnt work for me but it was hot
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>>37779378
You'll never pass, this is all you'll ever be
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>>37779363
ok, thank you. i started some detrans stuff earlier this month and im going back to socially repping since hrt didn't work. manmoding indefinitely. maybe i should go to mmg instead then maybe
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>>37779391
thinking maybe if I stealth mode more fem stuff it would alleviate the thoughts a bit, I've considered doing more cardio and leg workouts to get better feminine aesthetics that can go unnoticed with my normal clothes or talked out of suspicion. maybe get into more goth/alt clothes to dress more fem in plain sight, I can fit a lot tighter clothes now since ive been dropping alot of weight recently. this is probably getting to enbycope territory but it sounds like the most rational option for me
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i thought i would eventually become normal
lmao
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hello my fav gen
i hope that you are having fun <3
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>>37780715
of course we arent it's repgen
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i love having an anxiety disorder which makes me afraid of leaving my house

it's great. i'm terrified of everything
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>>37780715
>i hope that you are having fun <3
i am crying in my room while having a panic attack thinking about grocery shopping
i'm also applying to jobs and literally am considering not applying to one because i would have to go outside to go to it
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>>37781085
fuck you for reminding me abt being unemployed for so long, i hope that panic attack never goes away
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>>37781131
no need to be mean about it :(
>i hope that panic attack never goes away
dude i've been struggling with anxiety for my entire life it hasn't gone away since i was 10
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>>37781230
fuck him for that youre not the reason he is unemployed, goodluck anon in your anxiety
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>>37775718
If your goal is just to be sexy you aren't even trans.
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>>37781230
>dude i've been struggling with anxiety for my entire life it hasn't gone away since i was 10
good
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>>37781860
i want to kms i want to kms i want to kms
not enough suicidial posting there
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>>37781904
don't babe you're gonna be ok
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my head hurts so so much
i hope it will end soon
i hope my pain will go away soon
i can t take it anymore
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>>37781942
im not im going to do it any day now i feel like im going insane in this body
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>>37772232
>>37772232
basically the point I ended up at after thinking I was trans for quite a long while. DR K videos plus reading some eastern philosophy was also what allowed me to rep succesfully lmao. For now being a man/boy works for me because I'm early 20s and am pretty cute/twinky, no idea what I'll do when I'm older, kind of just hoping we get some cool anti-aging tech in future or something.

I kind of want a fairly traditional family life and it's the main thing that stops me taking pills, even though I have mild GD but if that doesn't work out for me I'll probably just take E in my 30s. I'm probably too tall to ever pass though
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33 here. I'm about to crack. Crossdressing as often as possible isn't doing it anymore. I will never get my adolescence back. I hate and envy women so much.
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I'm new to /lgbt/ but used to post a lot on /r9k/ before this existed.

I'm a repper and I've been hanging out at the ftmrepgen and jesus christ you "girls" are miserable in comparison.

CAN WE STOP TALKING ABOUT WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEENS AND WHAT I WISH I WERE and instead focus on being the best repper we can be?

Jesus christ you are such shitty women that even cis depressed women look like successful people in comparison.

Where's your fucking will to live? What are you even repressing for?

I'm the same sometimes and I hate myself for it. I can't tolerate my shitty life doing nothing and fapping and working for NOTHING. I refuse to be brought down by my manhood.

If it's a """"privilege"""" as TERFs say, then let's fucking use it and get ahead and find success, your desires be damned.

OR WHAT ELSE ARE YOU LIVING AS A MAN FOR? Happiness? hah.
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>>37783476
I'd rather be a raving schizo idiot posting to 10 depressed trans women than lurk and wait for someone else to bring up anything worth living for.

It's not about focusing on life as a woman. It's about focusing on life as YOU.

What are you doing with your life? How do you rep the best? For me alcohol, gooning and working help take the edge off. At least it's socially acceptable and gets my mind off the worst of it.
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>>37783476
i have depression or something. i dont enjoy anything. i dont know who i am. i need a mental reset. i need to kms
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>>37783679
SAME but you dont see me bitching about it

WHATS THE POINT IF EVERYBODY IS THE SAME?

wHAT MAKES YOU DIFFERENT, MAN?
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>>37783708
uh i dont think im different than anyone in a repgen thread
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>>37783746
grabs you by your shoulders and shakes you
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Imagine having big anime boobies and perfect anime girl skin. God guys.
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>>37783989
good.... cooming is at least a proper way to rep.

Forget real human women. WE'LL ALWAYS HAVE WAIFUS IN OUR DREAMS.

That's good enough, man. That's good enough.
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>>37784023
True. I always wanted to be an anime girl not a 3DPD. Seeing trannies trying to become 3D women and not even being THAT is so fucking lame to me. I just laugh at them and move on to repping as I usually do. Repperkings stay winning as always
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thank you guys for reminding me what i would have become if i didn't troon. this shit sucks but it could be so much worse. at least i'm a functional human being
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>>37783989
i masturbate to that idea because i'm a gross agp
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How many of you have a problem with being extremely high inhib / fawn response-y / emotionally suppressed outside of a repper context? Any other agps also grow up being an excessive people pleaser?
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REPCOOMERS RISING
>>37784034
>>37784023
the right way to rep
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>>37786295
How abotu you pleas my nutz and call me a slur nigga
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>>37786374
REPPOWER
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I WANT TO BE A GIRL
goodnight
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Why why WHY couldnt God just give me a normal sexuality or even just make me gay. I was already a weirdo outcast even before being a teenager. Now I'm an adult and I accepted I was probably born this way but have no idea what to do from here.

My one chance at life, reduced to this. What a joke.
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>>37786374
share your favorite lewds

in my case its stories. specially stories where a guy becomes a girl. My fav of all time is "Reader" by Ruen Rouga
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>>37787250
you're here forever
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>>37772214
nice butt faggot
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>>37787250
hi L

im thinking of becoming a tripfriend here and trying to liven up the chatroom a little

do you think it is a good idea? Or should I go somewhere else?
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>>37787362
awwww you're so cute!!! You're like the sheriff of a ghost town, i have such a good feeling about coming back to this website!!!
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Alright IMO you defff need a QOTT its no fair the guys get one but we dont

And I get that calling the femrepgen "guys" and calling the repgen "girls" is not gonna fly well, so I might relent on it in the future... but for now... I dunno. I don't wanna be all "hopepilled" or anything like that... but I don't wanna be "mopepilled" either you know what I'm saying?

Also I might relent on the blogposting. But honestly? You girls are pretty dead. Might do what it takes to see some activity around here, idk.
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>>37787572
I mean you jest.... but like....
im pretty sure for every john 50 we know, there's a few we don't.

and of course we know about the 41% who made an effort, but how many people must have lost the battle to depression because of GID, but never gave in and transitioned?

I might joke around a little, but I take this with the utmost responsability. I'm right now triple threating the repper communities of 4chan, reddit and tumblr because you truly are /my people/.

Not every trans person understands how it feels to be crushed beneath the pain of transition, or to be more able to deal with the pain of repping than the pain of transitioning.

So I appreciate you a lot L and even if you're the only person I talk to, I'm glad I talked to you. thanks for making an effort, comrade.
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>>37787688
it's not that simple L.

Nobody just wants to sui. They want the pain to stop, and since nothing is stopping the pain death seems acceptable in comparison to the hell in life you're feeling.

But there are so many ways to deal with feeling like hell. Granted, most of them are temporary, but permanent ones exist too!

Trooning out is just one of them. Taking brain meds is another, finding a passion is another, etc etc

What I'm trying to say is... even if you're gonna die. Hell, specially if you're thinking about ending it... please let me see your life a little!

I SURE AS HELL AM NOT DYING ANYTIME SOON! So please, won't you let me see you a little? So that I know I wasn't alone all the time but just wasn't able to protect my people?

I'm not anyone special. I'm just one of you depressed fuckers.

But to me you are, special that is, because you know how I feel. You make me realize I'm not the only person in the world in this specific kind of pain.

Maybe I will regret saying this, but knowing reppers online suffer together like hobos around a campfire... knowing i have that campfire to huddle around too... gives me a little bit of hope and god do i need it.

God do I need hope.
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>>37772232
nofap made me feel like pure shit for like 2 months
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i dont really exist. what does it mean to be a person? is it what you do? is it having others recognise you by some characteristics? the few times i socialise it feels like i am just acting, i have no traits and i am afraid of being found out. there is nothing inside me.
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>>37787688
>if you can repp, you have no real reason to stay here,

True. I don't come by here often because I can't relate to most people here but I do want to drop encouragement that repping is possible. But I'm always dogpiled by loony bitterhons and trolls so I don't stay beyond 1-2 posts.
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I have researched castration and think it would be good for me. I have learned that after castration, if you take hormones you can get erect and actually ejaculate. I would not take the hormones and my penis would become even smaller. I have read some people on this website looking to get smaller. This is one way. When people talk about castration, it is automatic thought that the person wants to be female. I love females, I am very attracted to them, I love there naked bodies but I don't want to be one! I will still have a tiny penis but not ugly saggy balls. Also, if you are a precum freak like me, it will still happen. I would like to hear more thoughts.
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>>37787989
my thoughts are you sound mentally unwell
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it really is a joke how narrow the window to transition is. you basically have between 18/20 before it's too late.
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>>37787989
it's called mef brother and it's one heck of a ride
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What we're livin' in
Let me tell ya

Yeah, it's a wonder a man can beat at all
When he's a pig that's workin' call
Well-
Who can tell -heaven or hell -why~ can't we be husstuss?
And I'm givin' all my love to this world
Only to be told
Im AGP, I can't be~~~ a woman
Cant just let me be me
Cause I can't change and you can't give
Calls me fake, but never gives~ a rea-son
Now Agp might feel fun a first,
but things are changing, see
Woah, it's a crazy world we're livin' in
And I just can't see that half of us immersed in sin
Is all we have to give these


Futures
Made of
A
G
P
Insanity~

We also
-seem to
be governed by this love we have for
ourselves, can't stop twist' all words around~
for we all live in the pound
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>>37788824
agps can literally fuck themselves
like snakes
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is there even a point in this general anymore?
it's just 90% attention whoring namefags and schizo post dumps
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>>37783180
I don't understand how people transition so late, I tried in my 20s but now that I'm 30 I can't imagine ever attempting again
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>>37789007
why did you stop? also yeah at 30 like... what are you gonna gain from finishing your transition at like 35
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can a girl from femrepgen and a boy from repgen fall in love
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>>37788960
some remain, the last bastion of repkind
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>>37789067
I didn't pass. It felt more uncomfortable to try and fail than to give up at some point.
Plus it's embarrassing to be a grown man indulging in that.
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>>37788960
I don't want to post on mtf gen much cause I don't want to larp
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>>37789155
Yeah that makes sense. I hope you're doing well...
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>>37789172
>I hope you're doing well...
Yeah...
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>>37789210
:( well were all here for a reason i guess
do you always feel equally bad or are there days you feel fine?
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>>37787835
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>>37789092
no, like all women they are repulsed by failed males
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>>37788960
I'm both! I was the schizo post dump a while ago, and now im an attention whoring namefag!

Is that such a crime?

Anyways, my question to you folks is:

What made you start to rep?

In my case I tried to troon out and realized I'm not cut from the same cloth as succesful tranners are. I couldn't take the changes both mental and physical and broke down to the point I feel traumatized about starting again!

What about you?
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>>37791234
I didnt even realize I was repping I thought everyone had dysphoria, when I discovered I was already an asocial freak since I couldnt no matter how hard I tried socialize with other boys and now I dont feel like im even a human or can understand others at all

j
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>>37789092
I'm gonna try!
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>>37787161
Ruen rouga is absolut RISEN nigga
For picrel thoughever busty rusty was a two minute star for coomfuel
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>>37791234
idk if I ever really actively decided to rep, the worst my dysphoria got was in college while I was also an alcoholic, once I sobered up I guess I decided those two things must've been related and tried my best not to connect my self hatred / eating disorder / lack of relationships / etc to anything else. was actually able to maintain that for awhile which sucks because now it's too late to try to transition and tough to convince myself it's not dysphoria anymore. unlucky for me ig
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cant we get some mean passoids to tell us to keep repping instead of pinkpilling faggots
>verification not required
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Henlo. I need some attention. Can someone give me some attention? Thanks.
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>>37794218
here's one attention
now plz show bussy?
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>>37794301
Well no, I am not going to show myself, but thanks for the attention.
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>>37794218
Now what?
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>>37794382
I don’t know. How’s your life going? I’ve been really tired the past couple of weeks. I need an escape.
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>>37794310
;___;
as the resident pervert this hurts so much

>>37794440
well.... sweden is just a flight away? :3
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>>37794464
It is fine, I am a pervert too. But I am too paranoid about ever showing myself. Regardless, you wouldn't be interested in me at all if you saw me irl. I am just an old repper.
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>>37794440
It's going alright, currently worried about a close friend, but I can't do anything other than be there for them to listen and support.

I've been in zombie mode with the weather changes, tired but insomnia. Enjoying how warm it's been though and going outside.
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>>37794722
What's wrong with your friend. Your friend is lucky. I have no one to listen to me complain right now.

The weather is extremely cold, and the sun goes down so early now. I hate it. I want summer back.
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>>37773755
we all know what happened...
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is there just nobody left repping or what
been feeling kinda lonely lately which is stupid because grindr is just shooting fish in a barrel, but can't bring myself to do it because I feel so ugly. why am i like this
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>>37795447
Hey, I am a repper too, I guess. >>37794218
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>>37795533
baka did you not get enough attention already if you're not gonna post hole
but at least there's one other person lol
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>>37795645
I am just looking for people to talk to, not everything has to be about sex.
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>>37795659
i'm just yanking your chain lol
doing anything rn? I just have this baseball game on
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>>37795679
Watching stupid cat videos on youtube. They always make me smile.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3U0udLH974&ab_channel=TheCatsPyjaaaamas
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>>37795710
aww they're so cute
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>>37795738
I will get myself a cat if I ever move to a bigger house.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNHV7qwUrZ8&ab_channel=%E3%81%AB%E3%82%83%E3%82%93%E3%81%B1%E3%82%89%E3%82%8A%E3%83%BCCATSTV
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Any one remember when Michael Richards did that comedy set and insulted us all. With the 'hard R'
>THROW HIS ASS OUT HE'S A REPPER. HE'S A REPPER!! HE'S A REPPER!!!
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>>37796027
No, it doesn’t. The only thing that offends me is my reflection in the mirror.
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>>37794833
She's very sick and going through a lot physically and mentally because of it and is in a difficult life situation that her illness makes it hard for her to get out of.

I'm listening to you right now...

I wish summer would come back too, well spring first it's my favorite, but it's been warmer than usual for October here even though it's colder than I like. Less daylight hours definitely sucks though yeah.
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I think I might have achieved some level of enlightenment from repping because the other day when I watched my ugly disgusting reflection in the mirror I felt the dysphoria but it didn't bothered me. It felt like I was an outside spectator of my own clown life. I wouldn't say it was a good or a bad experience, but at the very least it wasn't better than fully experiencing dysphoria.
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>>37796116
Oh, hello. Is it pathetic that I was just lurking all this time?

What's exactly wrong with your friend?
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>>37796169
Hi. No I don't think so, we were talking. I check back when I can when I'm talking to people too. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I don't really want to get into her stuff, feels wrong in spite of the anonymity. What did you need to complain about?
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>>37796269
Work just hasn’t been going well, and I’ve been working around 10-12 hours a day for the past month and a half. It’s taken a toll on me. On top of everything, someone I used to talk to reached out again, and triggered my AGP. I was doing pretty well with repping, but now she’s made me feel a bit miserable.
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>>37796307
Oh I've been there with working way too many days in a row, recently actually actually. Definitely hit a point where it stops feeling worth it, that work/life balance is so important.

Any break in sight?

How did she make you miserable? Is it the time in your life she reminds you of or what? I think sometimes when people become triggers it's a positive thing even though it sucks to feel. It forces us to examine our reactions, feelings and thoughts in order to move past it. The people who trigger things to stir them up are just catalysts.
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>>37796444
I’ll have a bit of a break in about 10 days. It’s just one of those periods where we have to crunch to get some results ready.

She’s one of the very few people who knows about my quirks. We had a relationship, but in the end, it didn’t work out, and we haven’t spoken in about four years. She just reminded me of the old days, and I just wasn’t prepared for it.
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>>37796501
That's not too far off thankfully, Ever try lemon balm? It helps a lot with stress.

Yeah that's rough, what's it making you feel exactly? It sounds heavy.
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>>37796544
Well, I have been a repper since I was 9 or 10 years old. She was one of the three people I ever disclosed this information to, and she was also willing to explore it with me. After we broke up, I decided to leave it all behind and start anew. It was going pretty well, too. But after she wrote back to me and reminded me of our time together, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about what could’ve been. It also feels stupid to go back, especially since I was doing so well with repping lately. It really messed me up mentally. I don’t know if I regret ever sharing this with anyone or if I just want to go back and do even more.

I’m not even sure how I feel, so I might sound like I’m rambling.
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>>37796616
You make sense, no worries, it's ok to ramble or vent though you need to right? That's a lot on your plate especially at a time like this.

Why did you two break up? Why do you repress and why does stopping does stopping cross your mind?

When you look at your life now and what you have going for you what's good and sustainable? What did you learn and feel in the time you were with her that led to you choosing repression?
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>>37796661
We broke up because I think she needed me but I couldn't be there for her. Well, I am pretty sure that was the reason. I acted pretty self centered, which is normally not me, but I couldn't understand it at the time.

I repress because I don't think there is any other option for me. I sometimes wish I could live a different life but I just have to live with what I have. But there is also that part in me that wants to break out at the same time. She was the only person who let me live my AGP.

My life is pretty sustainable actually, work is good, even though its tiring and sometimes makes me pull my hair. I have good relationship with other people. So it isn't too bad at all other than usual stress. It wasn't something she did that led me to choose repressing, it was more like a realization that I had to accept what I was. Of course I didn't rep perfectly, at times I thought about going back to old me, especially when I saw these usual triggers like nice clothes etc. But I was able to get rid of the thought pretty quickly.
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>>37796783
When you look back why do you acted that way?

It's interesting that you say you need another person to let you do it. Not implying anything in any direction btw, I genuinely find it to be an interesting word choice and I wonder why another person would be a factor in this for you.

So you as you are now are able to have a life that has a lot of good in it. That's good to hear.

You know there's never any going back to some okd version of you, you'll always have changed and you'll be different. You're romanticizing it in a way because it's no longer there, but doing it again wouldn't feel or be the same you know. For better or worse.

Would dressing up privately have to be anything more than that? It's not like clothes are HRT or SRS or going to force you to do those things.
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>>37796783
>>37796843
Going to bed, but I'll read it when I can and anything else you need to day. Goodnight.
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>>37796843
I felt stupid and ashamed so I acted very self centered whereas I think she just wanted me to be with her during a moment of crisis. I am not really sure why I acted the way I did. I just didn't think it through I guess. And then it was just too late when I realized the mistake I did.

I've been dressing up privately since I am 10 or something. It isn't like HRT or anything like that as you said, but the more I dress up, the more I want. It is some sort of addiction as well, at least to me.

>>37796880
Goodnight, thanks for letting me vent.
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>>37787161
>>37786101
>>37784023
>>37784034
>>37783989
Effortless repcoomer W
For every passoid there are a thousand hons and for every hot passoids there are a thousand uggos
We repcoomers are immune to such problems
We can eternally coom to having thick anime tits and ass and sex goddess tans in the sluttiest wears
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>>37793948
Just keep repping if you’re ugly or built like a brick shithouse because you’ll never pass and always hate yourself. Effort goes a long way but effort is better spent on marble than 6’ 4” of stacked shit.
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>>37773964
Explain all those asian femboys then
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>>37772196
I woke up sick. I realize I am ruining my body. I will be repressing again. I will be strong again. I will make my body male again.
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Do NOT fall for the "just try estrogen for a month to see if you like it" meme. Your nipples will never be flat again and will always protrude even if you get zero breast growth.
I have male breasts, but permanently hard nipples now. I got fucking memed. Don't fall for it bros.
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>>37798309
they try to emasculate you so you go all the way and end up a faggot slut for chad
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>>37798321
It's literally a sunk cost fallacy. Trannies say this to get you to the point where you start having irreversible changes hoping you don't quit out then.
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>>37798331
you can always get your manhood back because estrogen is weak and testosterone is a body-shaping miracle. JUST GIVE THE JEWISH DOCTOR FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS FOR A MASTECTOMY
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>>37798339
Yeah I mean I can live with pointy nipples. They look normal. Its just annoying having a permanent change from 1 month. Glad I stopped before I got breast buds and just hoping the nipples disappear over time.
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>>37772196
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Its 5 in the morning and I'm crying. It's all fake.....
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>>37797947
This is the good stuff that should be all over repgen
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just masturbated and thought about fucking chicks with my big male penis. honestly
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>>37783476
are you suggesting ftm reppers are more manly, anon?
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Sometimes I wonder if I just consume too much media. I've been watching anime every day for like 20 years and I want to be a girl. But sometimes I'll watch an anime with a cute trap in it and I'll lose all interest in being a girl and want to be a trap instead. I'm not going to stop watching anime though.
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>>37798743
Dont need to troon out to own the pornbrain
If anything, its more beneficial to rep. Troons have to bring it out to the surface but we keep it to ourselves like a superpower
The compartmentalization IS the good part
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>>37798769
I was never going to troon anyway it seems like way too much work when I'd just sit and home and play video games and watch anime anyway. I never though about it in terms of compartmentalization, that might actually help a bit. I always thought of it as, 'this is me' and it bleeds into all other aspects of my life when maybe I should just keep it where it belongs. Finally some good advice, thanks.
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>>37796884
Ah ok I get it now. I figured it might exacerbate things for you, but I prefer to not assume.

Sounds like you weren't fully capable of having a relationship when things happened between you both.

Hope you're feeling better today + you're welcome.
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>>37798472
What's all fake?
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I kinda wanna dye my hair blonde but part of me says that’s fucking gay don’t do that. If I was a girl though I wouldn’t think twice about it
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>>37799335
Just do it if you want. I doubt anyone will even care.
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>>37799335
>>37799335
If you look even the slightest bit alt no one will bat an eye.
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>>37798799
Right? Unlike troons your dreams of being a girl will never be marred by the bleakness of reality. You will not lose the comfort of your life, you will not face the humiliation of being a tranny, your troon thoughts wont be exposed to other people and turn into a stressor. Instead, your tranny thoughts become your reprieve when you're alone, its your final secret superpower to save you and not wasted on trooning out and it turning into poison
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twitter has just started showing me tranny twitter for some reason.
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>love lolita fashion
>born a disgusting male
God just hates me.
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>>37798815
I’m fine, I guess; work is still really busy.

I’m not really sure how I feel. I was really enjoying it, but maybe you're right—I just wasn’t ready. At the same time, I wish I had acted differently; maybe things could have turned out better. I feel very confused about my state of mind, even though I am self-aware.

>>37801634
It is weird, I was always interested in grown up clothes. Maybe some sexy lingerie, lol. But never lolita fashion.
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>>37801721
I always melt when I see something from baby the stars shine bright. I don't know why I'm so attracted to it, it's just so feminine and cute. Maybe it's just my AGP acting up, idk.
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>>37798825
I just want to be a woman, but that's not real. I have to get my long hair cut today, I'm rotting anons......
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>>37773957
That's why boy/man/elfmoding are better solutions
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>>37802479
How are those better? You're still on hrt and are going to grow visible breasts. You can't wear baggy clothes literally all the time. And you don't get any AGP enjoyment because your body is still super masc and now hrt has crashed your libido.
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thinking about how a friend of mine lied to my face and told me i could pass and now i cant trust them ever again
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i have quite enjoyed wet repping this past year i think i will continue in 2025
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>>37802573
i wish i wasn't so afraid of taking estrogen
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>>37786295
Me, and the funny part is i have anger issues
But whenever i try to hide it, turn into a bitch
Sometimes i almost feel like i have a second personality.
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>>37786295
i'm extremely low inhib but am too afraid to take hrt
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>>37802529
>You can't wear baggy clothes literally all the time.
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>>37786295
same
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>>37786295
me
strong suppression of emotions, i mean really strong
have learned to try to control my actions
am a people pleaser, everyone see me as a nice guy

funny thing is i was impulsive and aggressive in my childhood and sometimes i can't control myself and it comes out
someone once told me they genuinely thought i'd end up killing someone, and while i don't think i'd ever do that i could surely ended up hurting someone badly
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>>37803024
I was pretty obedient when I was a child, then become aggressive and then calm again.
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i will never stop repping!!! i dont care how suicidal i get!!!
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>>37803382
i will, when i get to much suicidal, not by transing that is
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>>37801721
9 days away from a break though right? Getting there.

Enjoying a relationship and being ready/capable of maintaining one are two different things. No sense in dwelling on how things could have been once they're long gone, even if you were with her again it wouldnt be what it was.

It's normal to feel confused, you're in a stressful situation right now and things you left behind you are coming up. Natural to question and wonder and not know how to feel. Just give yourself some time to process and focus on work.
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who here jerkin their meat
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>>37803405
so you are ropemaxxing?
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Maybe tonight I'll finally fly away with her.
I'm so autistic.
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>>37797380
That is not a real person, and at the end of the day your hyper coping because you are not female. I am guilty of this and it just makes my dysphoria worse and leaves me disgusted with myself.
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>>37803585
yes, will try
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>>37773755
I come here once a month at most
it's not good to dwell on

>>37776543
I just got the manga, gonna read it first then watch the movie after
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Anons, will hrt help me love myself again? I feel like I'm being backed into a corner.
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>>37804200
It's not that HRT will give you self love. It's that HRT will make you look more womanly and feel more womanly.

If that makes you happy, then self love will become easier.

HRT is still only like 30% of transitioning alone but unlike clothes or makeup or vocal therapy, it changes your feelings too. You get to feel a bit softer and a bit more emotional.

For some that's a bad thing. It was for me. But for most trans women it's a good thing.
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Here is your TL;DR on gender transition so you can get started as soon as possible.
Stop being a chud.

BILLIONS.
SHALL.
TROON.

What should I expect as a MtF?: https://transcare.ucsf.edu/article/information-estrogen-hormone-therapy
What should I expect as a FtM?: https://transcare.ucsf.edu/article/information-testosterone-hormone-therapy
How do I know I have the mental illness gender dysphoria?: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK577212/table/pediat_transgender.T.dsm5_criteria_for_g/
What to know to do it on my own?: https://diyhrt.wiki/
Where to buy homebrewed estrogen?: https://astrovials.com/product/estradiol-enanthate/
How do even I know homebrewed estrogen is safe?: https://transharmreduction.org/hrt-testing
Where to find other stuff?: https://hrtcafe.net/
Testosterone is more difficult to get a hold of because it is a very controlled substance, unlike estradiol. The difficulty will vary greatly depending on your geographical location. I'd pay a visit to the local gym and ask the gymbros there where they got their testosterone from.
For all else you can ask /hrtgen/ on the catalog, make a thread on /lgbt/ and post on /r/TransDIY on Reddit.
"I'm AGP. Am I valid? Should I troon? Yes, if you have dysphoria. I don't think it's a good idea to transition purely out of a fetish. Seek guidance on /r/askAGP. It is full of dysphoric AGPs such as yourself. Same for AAPs: /r/autoandrophilia.
"I'm a low quality male without dysphoria and AGP. Should I troon out?" Yes, definitely. If you are short, ugly, autistic and unfit for being a man in general, no amount of self improvement will save you. Transition now if you seek a survival level of dignity and quality of life. You aren't fit for male social roles and will likely kill yourself if you don't transition because your life will be miserable as a man.
And most important of all: remember to denounce the Talmud and the Torah and all of their teachings. Jewish people are a pest and must be eradicated.
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>>37803980
tell me how it goes
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>>37804565
Copy pasta bullshit.
But I still want hrt because I'm a gross degenerate.
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>>37803918
No, troons grow miserable bringing their troonery irl into the forefront of their lives. Us repcoomers will never turn it sour when we can healthily compartmentalize it as something extra we keep to ourselves.
pinkpilloids try to make us waste this compartmentalizing superpower. See how every troons replace their addiction with something worse, including troonery itself ofc but then they get sad when the world rightly hates them and they also get into substance abuse and 41. Us repcoomers can remain good normal men and enjoy our agp safely and healthily
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>>37804849
so what it's copy pasta? lul
i dont get it
fembrained lashing out
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>>37772196
So...trooning at 30 is basically pointless, right? I think I waited too long. Maybe not but it gives me a much more simplified answer for why it's over
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>>37805006
>fembrained
I know what your doing.
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>>37804893
Well if you can't become a woman you start coping in less than healthy ways. That is all I read.
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>tfw I want a vagene and get pounded daily by big trans dick while she degrades me makes me beg for more
Am I trans?
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>>37805437
better than nothing
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>>37805437
>>37805866
Worse than nothing. Dont troon out
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>>37803471
Yeah, 9 more days left. I just came back but I still need to work a little bit before I go bed.

I will try to go back to repressing. I should probably block her too and cut communication.

How are you doing by the way?
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>>37806366
nothing can be worse than this. It's becoming so unbearable the sweet release of death might be better than this.
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>>37805759
Being a troon is far less healthy than compartmentalizing tranny desires into something else. On top of trannyism itaelf being unhealthy, the whole idea of becoming a girl is tainted by the disappointment of life and so the tranny is still overall unhappier then finds new ways of unhealthy coping of shit tranny life
You could be a healthy man and cope well by just channeling these tranny thoughts into something less destructive than trooning out
Just indulge in private crossdressing or sissy shit or hypno or porn or anime porn whatever, it's far better than trooning out
ANYTHING is better than trooning out
>verification not required
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HAHA ALL OF YOU ARE SO FUCKING MISERABLE HAHA
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I'm not repping this is who I want to be
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>>37806445
AHHHAHAHAHAHAHA YOU TOO
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>>37806366
nah it's worth it, it was HRT or suicide for me and I chose HRT
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>>37806414
but I want to be a woman, and have a life, and have a girlfriend who would treat me like a princess. I don't want to crossdress in secret. That barely does it for me, if anything.
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>>37806445
i dont think you understand that the very foundation of 4chan was originally "we are all miserable and bullied and hate this gay earth but at least we have each other"

At least, that's what my home board of /r9k/ used to stand for so many years ago...
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>>37806677
>homeboard of /r9k/
thank god I was too busy putting things in my ass, wearing cute dresses and playing league of legends, all at the same time. I remember this game I used to play where you support while putting a vibrator in your ass, and each time you acted like the little healslut you were suppose to be you could give yourself a treat by making the vibrator buzz. I'm just getting horny by thinking about it. Maybe I should get myself a good vibrator and play some soraka. She has lots of heals, which means lots of orgasms too.
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>>37806396
Good luck getting through it, I know for me sometimes being almost finished can make it harder, depends on my stress levels.

I hope you don't mean ghost her when you say that because that wouldn't be very fair. You should at least and say something like "You remind me too much of a time in my life that I can't and don't want to revisit so this has to be goodbye." or something like that.

I'm alright, just tired from my sleep being all fucked up. I spent most of my day cuddling with my birds watching my fish with them and talking to that friend I mentioned. Started to watch The Wailing with my s/o, but he was tired after work so we didn't get too far, going to watch it tomorrow maybe, went for a walk, ate a lot of weed gummies. Mundane sort of stuff, I've been having some odd dreams lately. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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>>37806651
Trooning wont bring it any closer to being real. You could be a man instead since you already are. Maybe even a healthy one, but you will be a man regardless, and as a man you can at least healthily have a compartment for your indulgences and vices and secrets etc instead of dumping it to the world making it everyones problem as a troon
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>>37806770
Would you like to tell me about your dreams? I rarely have any, and whenever I do, it's almost always about my teeth falling out.
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>>37806730
can we play league please ive been bronze since season 2 and i havent gotten any better in 15 years
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hey. i am looking for other repper friends to talk to and maybe play video games. my disc is drinkmyp155
maybe we can become good buddies :3
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>>37806802
Never had a teeth falling out dream myself, but if I remember correctly it's a stress dream. So just your every day stress manifesting in dream form that way.

My dreams are sleep paralysis ones. The other night it was sleep paralysis and the sensation of something crawling into my bed and leaning over me. Couple days ago it was multiple things examining me (also sleep paralysis) and marking parts of me like for surgery. People coming in and out of the room.

I've had sleep paralysis since I was a kid, but I've never really grown accustomed to the way it feels and find it extremely unpleasant every time.
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>>37807326
what videogames do you play?

I play League of Legends / TFT
Osu
Fall Guys
LoR
Master Duel
Civilization: Beyond Earth
Noita
Zomboid
Unturned
Fortnite
Trackmania
and if you teach me to play: Ara Untold Legend and Apex Legends

lets play anon! lets rep together and LARP as cis!
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>>37807111
Sure! why no-
>tripfag
eat shit.
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>>37807927
Ok what games u play tho
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>>37808100
eat
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I just triggered my worst mental state after seeing a guy saying he wanted to end his life because he’s too short. And to think that if I were in his place, I’d actually be happy. But instead, I was born not only as a 'failed' man, but also with a traditionally male body.

I’ll never get to experience even a second of my life as a girl. I’ll never look in the mirror and see an attractive woman or walk down the street and feel the warmth of men’s smiles.

The only way I cope with this is by admiring the female sex. I don’t feel autogynephilia or meta-attraction anymore because my body simply doesn’t allow for it. Honestly, all men do this to some extent—some spend their entire lives working to provide for a woman or even multiple women. The difference with me is that I know exactly what role I'm playing, and it feels awful.

The one good thing about this mental state is that I lose my fear of dying.
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>>37808431
IM NOT THE TRIPFAG NIGGA
wat games
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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUKC FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUKC FUCK MY SEXLESS UGLY DYSPHORIC LIFE FUCK IT WHY AM I SO FUCLING UGLY FUCK FUCK FUCK, WHY DO I HAVE TO MISS OUT ON SEX AND RELATIONSHIPS FUCK FUCK FUKC FUCKFUCKUF KCKCUFKCKCCUFKC
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>>37808564
>The one good thing about this mental state is that I lose my fear of dying.
i snap out of that pretty quickly



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