why does nobody make these threads anymore editionlast thread: https://archiveofsins.com/lgbt/thread/37972267/
everyone have trooned
let's reminisce in the memory of the once reppers now gone, i'll start: cure, killed in a tragic rolls royce accident
>>37994982>why no postwe stopped repping, did you miss the memo?
>>37995070so i'm the only trve and honest reppre left?
>>37994982TAKE YOUR PILLS, RETARDS
>>37995082yup. take your pills and get that doctor's appointment.
>>37995082you're not alonebut it is very, very lonely here
>>37995106>>37995093the mods nuked /qa/ for less than this shit, but because the victims are men it's alrightfuck all of you
>>37996228shut up tranny take your pills repping doesn't work
anyone else also losing touch with the idea of being a man with age or is it because i don't socialize enough
>>37996241if repping doesn't work then how am i still alive after gender dysphoria and a suicide attempt?
>>37996252why would that mean that? you're dumb, take pills
facial hair sucks
>>37996252lmao I just know you're taking subtle steps towards transitioning already. I did the same thing. I'm doing the same thing now :DD manmoding and taking pills.
>>37995082I am here, us reppers are heading to an inevitable extinction
>>37996401>you're taking subtle steps towards transitioning alreadyi'm thoughbeit
>>37996683i'm NOT thoughbeitthat early onset dementia is crazy
i hate myself for reppingi should've just trooned instead of being a weird coping chud
>>37996700you can both troon out and remain a weird coping chud!
>>37996967you can not remain, the best solution for humankind
>>37995082We're a dying breed
>>37995093>>37995106>>37996241>>37996270repping doesn't work but honning out does?
>>37998964there can be an in between
idk nothing works to be honest?just try whatever makes you feel the best...most people (normies) doesn't even try to do that, just doing what is expected of them... are they happy?sometimes, often just kinda satisfied, or hating it all
>>37998985the in between is just a man with gross gyno cone titsMAYBE reversed balding if he's lucky
>>37999001just shave your head and get the boobsit's real boobs, not just gyno btw
>>37999014>just be a BALD man with boobsgyno is "real boobs" too, pseudogyno is the one that's just fat. it just looks like shit on a male body, not to mention how many people get stuck in the weird cone stage on hrt and never have them round out.
>>37995082as long as i am still here noi am repgod, the ultimate repper
>>37995082No, but why would I frequent this thread when 9/10 posters are bitterhons/gaslighters/shitposters?
>>37999941NTA but what else would you frequent if not repgen?
there is no cure and no solution. Buddhamaxxing is the only viable treatment.
>>37999049Ideal aryan body type
i am going insane
>>38000101I don't even browse 4chan most of the time lmao. The site is all bots and shills now. I'm playing vidya or doomscroll through youtube or reddit
I've felt more like a monstrous, evil being and less like a victim. It's impossible to repress and stay sane—I’ve reached the peak of my insanity, and I’ve done terrible things. Thankfully, this turned around when I saw a passoid emotionally manipulating two hons. It reminded me that I’m just a sad clown thrown into the world, and hating the world is something that actually makes me feel good. I also feel sad about /repgen/ dying while transition is still out of reach for guys like me. It’s not the simplest thing in the world to know you’re alone in your suffering... forever.
>>38003611Reppers can't have their own community...Most are easily lied to and manipulated by troons. You have to be a mild-dysphoria haver like or very wise and with a lot of self-control
>had another dream where i transitionedim tired anons.....
i have had no formative experiences at all
>>38004098I've never had a dream as a woman why is this
Being a slut is my power fantasy but I'm scared of even going to a dentist
>>38003976>You have to be a mild-dysphoria haver like or very wise and with a lot of self-controlIt's so over.
>>38003611Really sucks to see we've fallen thru the cracks. Born too early to youngshit or troon without burning substantial social capital, born too late to be a boomerhon. Born just in time to see what might have been if we transitioned.Most rappers have either trooned, roped, or just left 4chan to suffer in silence. Maybe some of them actually succeeded and "cured" their dysphoria, but you can't them to return and risk re-entering the rabbit hole.>I’ve done terrible things.What have you done? It can't be that bad.
>>38003976Also out of sight out of mind. I like to think I'm mentally healthy enough to navigate this, and if you're having only mild GD you'll want to stay away from places like this. Occasionally I'll visit when this are escalating the same way you'd go look at those weird starving skinnyfat assholes in Africa, i.e. to feel better about yourself.
>>38003611>It's impossible to repress and stay saneI would have disputed this a few years back but any fair analysis of my own situation would have to include the fact that repping is making me increasingly mentally ill
>>38003611it's probably just that it's not super sustainable to be here long term? like the only way I've been able to be mostly functional is not directly thinking about gender and just blaming all of the issues I have with myself on other things. long term either I'm able to get back to doing that or an hero but neither of those states would involve posting here
goddamn this really does only get worse as time goes on thoughsitting here trying to fix my vacuum and feel like I'm about to have a panic attack for no real reason
need an excuse to get out of christmas dinner somehow
trooning is like navigating a minefield blind to get to a glass of water and repping is like dying of dehydration slowlyhate this shit
>>38005049i think i had it cause i was sad about being a repper before i fell asleep so it was imprinted in my mind
Remember that trooning is for the weak. You are not weak. You are strong. Be strong. Be a man. Choose repression.
>>38007462>increasingly mentally illright on. the day-to-day disassociation required does not do one's mind any favors. i feel a lot less real. really all of it feels less real.
Do questioners even exist anymore or are they a dying millenial meme? This board used to have a lot of questioning discussion. Now it feels like it's either hardline reppers or zoomer trans. >t. questioning since '18
>>38013217I feel like /agpgen/ had a lot of questioning but I hardly see it anymore. Used to post there a lot but now I just rep.
>>38013217nah youre not the only one. i cant move forward with my life because i dont know who i am. feeling like you have no identity fucking sucks
Senpai wa Otokonoko is good but I shouldn't be watching this it's making me feel things again.
>>38014470can't believe this trash got animated when there are so many kino trap manga out there that they could have adapted
I wanna date a fellow repper I think that would be neat.
>>38014533Eh I'm enjoying it so far. We gotta take what we can get these days.
I was going through my holiday photos and saw a picture of myself and I now I want to fucking die.
>>38015030I saw a picture of myself taken by my mom and I was confused because I had trouble connecting the person in the photo to me. Weird how tranny brains work.
Most of you are too miserable to interact with for very long. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
>>38015254and?
My body
Anyone against transitioning because they hate the idea of having to take medication for the rest of their life.
>>38015259You say that like having bad problems means you have to exist in a state of misery 24/7 and want to wallow in it. >>38015293And nothing >>37994982 I was responding to OP. https://youtu.be/cTLmVfYtzAw?si=jjOo3-3xQqBQGsxu This is all that happens here it's emotionally exhausting.
>>38015494>You say that like having bad problems means you have to exist in a state of misery 24/7 and want to wallow in it.How difficult it is for people to realize that it is not always an option.
>>38015507You might not be able to control that you have feelings, but you can definitely control your behavior and perspectives if you put some effort in. Suffering happens, feelings exist, that's fine, but that doesn't mean wallowing in them is acceptable. Acting like everything is completely out of your control and going victim mode doesn't help your situation, and don't go "nothing helps" because that's a huge load of shit. You might live with dysphoria regardless but so what? If that's the only thing in your life that matters to you that's the fucking problem right there and it's one you can do something about. The miserable defeatist victim of life attitudes do fuckall for anyone. OP asked why this shit is dead, I'm answering. If you have the sense to grasp that if someone makes you angry that doesn't mean you just hit them or kill their family etc then you have the sense to understand that just because you're sad and miserable doesn't mean you have to build your life around the feeling.
Why is the idea of transitioning so erotic? do FTM feel the same about becoming a man?
>>38015514Been years since I've had any at all. You've never seen me upset from it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ It's funny though that you're wishing that on me so you would have something to feel smug about instead of seeing things like "Hey maybe there really is better for people in this situation." I wish it was surprising, but misery really does love company huh? Consider that being the type of person who would hope for someone else to be pulled lower so you could say I told you so rather than the type who can find reasons to feel hopeful about life through other people overcoming similar issues is part of why you're where you're at.
the whole reason you can rep is because you don't identify as the opposite sex (a woman). you think that wanting to be a woman is the same thing as delusionally believing you are one. none of you have gender dysphoria. none of you are trans. that's why people stopped making this gen.
>>38015601how do I find other reppers who won't troon out? I want a repper community of trvreps
>>38015539I certainly have other types of entertainment and distractions in my life. Otherwise, I wouldn't have survived this far. This doesn't change the fact that dysphoria is present in all my days. You talk as if people with cancer have to simply ignore that they have cancer all the time, that's not possible.This certainly doesn't solve a problem. But sharing my pain with others and feeling understood relieves me.
>>38015584Yeah because an intelligent person lets their feelings dictate their entire life and never works on themselves to overcome or improve issues. Devaluing someone else's experiences and calling them lies doesn't change much for them you know? You can say what you want and I'll still be where I'm at and where I've been while you stay in a space where you tell yourself all there can be is misery. Wasn't looking for a some back and forth discourse with your misery though, I was answering the OP question. Anyone with sense would take breaks from a place loaded in hopelessness and misery 24/7 where virtually no one wants you to do or get better and practically everyone can't find value in life.
>>38015679>there is none, repping doesn t workt. bitterhon
>>38015641You think I'm talking that way because you don't understand going "I have this feeling, it sucks, but it's ok to feel it" and then moving on because there's more to life. I've dealt with multiple chronic health issues since my childhood that have significantly impacted my life. 11 years ago after getting lyme disease this was all made worse. I've had points in my life where I was practically bedbound for long stretches of time. My joints come out of place easily, I devote a fair chunk of my day to popping things back into place so I can function. I'm in pain 24/7. Currently have some bad injuries due to those joint issues, these injuries can happen at any time with 0 warning and from normal existing shit. I'm unable to do a lot of things that people can do, it might not be cancer but there are things that could take me to some really hard places and I never know when and if that's going to happen because it can be sudden. I could very easily obsess about that shit or I could accept that sometimes I'll feel sad about it but see its value too. Pain has been a teacher for me and I've learned a lot about myself, other people, and life and so on because of it. I've had an inarguably hard life even outside of dysphoria and physical illness, the kind of life where I don't talk to people about it really especially not in person because it'd just make them uncomfortable and people don't know how to react anyway. Only if necessary to show understanding do I relay anything like that. I still can deal with depression (even suicidal levels), but it's become easier for me to deal with because of the things I've learned and worked on. Ironically it was working on CPTSD nightmares due to decades of all kinds of abuse that helped me with dysphoria entirely by accident. Life can be hard, you can have all the feelings in the world about that and don't need to suppress them in order to move forward and get better at managing them. With effort it can get easier/better.
>>38015641>>38015785+ It's fine to talk, never said no one should, however that's not how it goes. The mentality within the discussions is what the issue is, and it's not good for people to be around that all the time. What you're doing is normal to do sometimes, but there's more outside of it and being submersed in it and wallowing with a lot of people is soul sucking and emotionally draining at a certain point. People leaving here to be away from that when they're suffering too are doing themselves a favor. It's not good to subject yourself to this kind of thing all the time, healthier to leave and do some soul searching etc. I was giving a reason why people (myself included) leave this place, and it's largely due to how negative an environment and the people in it are. It's not me telling you what to do, but if you tell me there's nothing else then I'm going to say why that's bullshit.If you acknowledge there's more to life and just vent occasionally and being here doesn't drain you emotionally by seeing all the collective hopelessness and misery while you indulge too, then that's cool. You do what works for you. My words about the collective arent about you personally, and it's just true this place is misery vibes and doesnt have to always be.
>>38013217>Do questioners even exist anymore or are they a dying millenial meme?does "spends every day thinking about hrt but not sure if i should take it for the past decade" count as questioning
tfw no repper friends to hang out with in a dingy room LDARing all day
>>38016509>LDARleak detection and repair?
do you guys think the new regime is gonna ban trannies?
>>38016714yeah
>>38016714I hope not, I don't want others to share my fate if they can escape it.
>>38015567would be great if we could shrug it off this easily but it keeps going in the other direction with time
>>37994982I don't know if this will help anyone, but I'm 95% sure I cured myself without trooning (for those that don't want to troon). The reason I say 95% sure is because there are still some residual effects leftover from when I was severely dysphoric 2 years ago. I'm no longer "repping" but I still have unironic ptsd-like nightmares occasionally from that period of severe dysphoria, coming out to people and all this emotional overwhelm that's left me with a lot of emotional scarring that's taking more time to clear up with therapy and meditation.
>>38019074This is pretty much what I did:>I cut out all of my exposure to trannies or tranny spaces as much as I could for at least 6 months. I was super strict about this because I knew this place was a breeding ground for tranny thought loops to persist.>Found a male therapist. My female therapist at the time was just giving in to tranny thought loops and I think that's because the male and female experiences to solving emotional problems are so different that naturally getting someone the opposite gender of you will subconsciously force your thinking into their frame of reference.>Spent a lot of time doing yoga and meditation. My tranny thoughts seemed kinda linked to self-esteem and body issues; doing yoga made me much more grounded and connected with my body.>Slowly reintroduced the gym and working out to encourage more testosterone (seemed to help).>Found social groups, and tried to get out of the house as much as I could.>Tried some kind of anti-inflamatory diet (seemed to help).>Reframed my thinking on trooning into something that was more holistic and less black-and-white. My "need to troon right away" was because I was scared that I would be forced to troon later, that it would just get worse, and that I would forced to be some ugly hon.>Did a fuck ton of work on self-esteem and body image issues. Had a breakthrough somewhere in the last year that I wanted to be a man, I just didn't want to be *me* as a man because I hated myself.>Never had any severe AGP but the mild AGP I had has pretty much disappeared. Seemed linked to some weird mind-body connectivity problem that yoga helped a lot with.Overall, I'm pretty happy and healthy now. I know some people will call my liar or say that tranny thoughts are impossible to cure but we barely know anything about why this stuff happens in the first place.
>>38019151I just came back to update cause I saw this place in my old bookmarks and made me think. Idk if it will help someone but I used to spend *a lot* of time here, probably some of the worst moments of my life were spent here. In the end, I didn't troon out, I'm pretty happy, thought at least someone deserved to know.Anyway, see ya.
Remember if you EVER feel like you want to be the opposite sex/dislike your sex you are 100% dysphoric (You can't be confused about having dysphoria, that doesn't happen) and you have to transition, no other treatment works. All dysphoria of any kind whatsoever demands transition IMMEDIATELY. However if you detransition you never had dysphoria in the first place and you are in fact a POISON on the trans community. Detransitioners also don't exist anyway so you are in fact a troll, a conservative, a trump supporter and you need to die NOW.
>>38019074>>38019115I've had similar experiences. I've been dysphoria free for years due to things like this. >>38019330So it goes...
I can't drink for 3 more days FUCK>>38019218yeah fucking right that's the least convincing excuse I've ever heard
weed makes me want to be a girl. the first time i really locked in on wanting to be a girl was when i got really high for the first time, and now I've stopped smoking weed that much so it stopped but recently i've been getting high again and these feelings are coming back
reminder to take your pills, retards>>38012739repping doesn't work and it takes real strength, not just a constant self-destructive exercise in willpower, to stop repressing and face reality no matter how hopeless it might seem
there's nothing wrong with being a submissive short man and there's no reason for me to do things i will regret.
>>38020246I would have years ago if there was any hope for me at all, there isn't though
>>38019074>>38019747How old are you?
>>38021004I'm >>38019747 and I'm 38, my dysphoria started when I was <5
I'm too scared to make an appointment to start on mones. I don't want the people at the pharmacy to know I'm a degenerate tranny. I don't want to cringe for hours while having to voice train. I don't want to live as a weird effeminate man with tits. I don't want to put my family through the pain of losing a son. I don't want to put everyone around me through the awkwardness of having to deal with a troon. I blame my failure as a male for the reason these tranny thoughts have persisted with me for so long. I'd rather die than be a weird tranny freak. But I don't know if my life as a male will end up anywhere good either. I feel like either way I'm gonna end up a depressed and lonely man or a depressed and lonely tranny.
Is anyone else really proud that they resisted temptation and made the right decision? With my linebacker skeleton I would have become a hideous creature that only gets gendered correctly out of sympathy if I had tried transitioning. The kind that people say they support and then stop inviting anywhere because their jarring appearance and poor life decisions make every situation uncomfortable. Fate worse than death shit.
>>38021309I'm in a similar position, but there's nothing to be proud of if you don't consider suffering a virtue. If I hadn't been so retarded I would have trooned before my skeleton got so horrifically bad. This is a fate worse than death.
>>38021738Suffering would be increased if I transitioned, not decreased, that's literally why I am proud of resisting the urge to.
>>38021309I'm grateful that my life was such a shitshow that I was unable to transition because for a while there I wouldn't have resisted and I'm glad I never transitioned now.
the iwnbaw feelings only get worse with timei don't know if i felt this bad about it same time last year
>>38023519It only gets harder the older you get and the further you drift away from your ideal. Being 35 and wishing you were a young girl is soul destroying because on top of everything else you also have to deal with everyone calling you a fucking creep. I just wanna be cute bros.
>>38025248youre stronger than me anon, im not a repper but was scrolling past and the picrels colours just caught my eye so i read your reply and...i can only imagine how painful that must be. i started transitioning at 20 and constantly feel a longing for a girlhood i never had...its something ive considered therapy over multiple times, and i feel like *that* is soul crushing...but im a girl now. and i get to live my 20s and early 30s as one. i can only imagine how agonizing it must be for you to not only have that same longing for girlhood that i do, but be 15 years older and still outwardly be a man. i can imagine that everyone calls you a creep, because its just an impossible thing to understand hearing that a man wishes he was a young girl. but i get it. ive always admired the strength and resilience it must take to wake up every day and live as a man despite knowing youre not, despite knowing youre trans and knowing that its going to keep getting worse the longer you rep. but i know youre a girl anon. and i understand that youre not a creep, you just never got to live as yourself and its completely unfair. you really are so strong I know I'd be dead if i were in your shoes.
>>38021309>Is anyone else really proud that they resisted temptation and made the right decision?yes
>>38025384Thanks friend, it helps knowing that I'm not totally alone and there are people who understand. I may be alone forever but at least there will be a few people out there who can empathise. I'm glad you got to transition, for me I realised way too late and at this point it would just make things worse.
>>38021309Yes I'm sick of fucking youngshits and people with feminine bodies try to tell masculine guys to just 'be ourselves' like we are anything alike. It's easy to say 'just reject social norms' when you can pass easily and don't have to deal with the consequences of being ostracized. If I showed up to work one day wearing a dress and makeup I would definitely have to kill myself.
>>37995082im here with you bro. wont lie its getting harder every day.
Idk but my dysphoria peaked years ago and it's easier to manage now;.
how can i make my dysphoria worse
>>38026137Watch anime
>>38021205I know that feel. I just cope by saying some of us are just dealt a shitty hand. Some kids get cancer. Some person have a perfect life then randomly die violent deaths in excruciating pain. Some people are born women in Afghanistan. Yeah it sucks, but it's like being born with a genetic deformity or something. God decided to fuck us over, but he could have fucked us over a lot worse than he did.
>>38021205Same but I don't blame myself as it's a mental illness that isn't my fault.
>>38021309>proud that they resisted temptation and made the right decisioni was for a long time but i'm beginning to realize i'm fucked.i thought i would go away and i would eventually become normal.Now it's too late to do anything not just in terms of trooning but it feels like my life is at a dead end.
mind over matter, sisters
>>38021309i just wanna straddle the line as long as possible there is no decision to be made desu >>38021205wish there was some way for me to get hormones stealthily for low dosing you could buy them sort of otc in the country before corona should've stocked back then>cringe for hours while having to voice trainmeh it's just like any other skill you learn its fun>pain of losing a soni'm still here family are cunts anyway it's a glorified gossip club
If HRT didn't give you titties I'd probably low dose it honestly.
>>37994982Cause we all want to just not be here anymore. Or the other ones took a way out be that hrt or going next. All I do is fucking slam shots and chase it with wine. I'm so fucked idk if there is a way out. Currently drinking bottom shelf whisky and chasing it with bottom shelf wine.
>>38027304hrt repping with keyhole is kino
Anyone else think they could pass somewhat well but just dont have the ball to go for it? I' 5'5 120lbs and think I could maybe pass pretty well but my face is very masc and I have a ton of hair. Also I'm like super old so wouldnt even make sense to really.
i hate this unfair cruel life and this god posbeing trans ruined and destroyed my life completely
>>38027631bro I don't have that kind of money
>>38027670Good I am seeing this and yeah I am happy the world works this way. I don't know why but seeing posts like this builds up my day. It turns it from a boring one to a funny one lol. I like seeing people jealous of not being able to be a woman. Lol hahahahhahahahahahaha.
>>38027670Why and how did it destroy you life? If you dont mind me asking ofc.
>>38027304Why I think titties are one of the best parts of HRT then again I am pretty AGP so maybe not the best person to ask.
>>38027723i would kill you if i could>>38027735i feel too horrible to do anything
>>38027758I mean yea I dont feel like getting out of bed so I dont most days. I just wish I could be a girl and I cant so life is cringe and not worth living imo. I dont even have a chair for my pc I just use my bed cause I just dont get out of it. I wish I didnt have insane anxiety(diagnosed and I have meds for it) then maybe I could do something about this but I do so its hell. The anxiety meds dont help much I still feel insane anxiety anytime I do anything.
>>38027758Dude you want to kill yourself so um why don't you do that first before acting like a big strong man lol. Dude you are a joke oh my god!
>>38027743tits are good but not good as a guy
>>38027790i am sorry buddy, shit is fucked>>38027794you don t come to my swamp and act like a smartass bitch, gtfo
>>38027802I guess but if you had tits would you still be a guy? I guess maybe so but I mean that depends on what else you do I think.
>>38027842'repping' on hrt means you'd be a guy in the world and guys with tits don't get much respect
>>38027838Doomed if its all fucked then what do we do?
>>38027881Hot take but your not "repping" if your on hrt.
>>38027639reading this post made me seethe this is actually so unfairI wish God didn't want me to suffer so much and gave me a body like yours so I could have trooned instead of just being miserable forever. Part of me kinda hates you for not taking advantage of the opportunity you were given, but maybe you had your reasons.
>>38027838You own nothing hell I am better, stronger, and smarter than you. See I rep and stay cool. I don't complain like some widdle baby, “oh wan wan wan I can't be a woman something that isn't that much wanted. I am such a loser I can't go to the gym and act like a normal man I have to cry here all day every day with my cry bros” lol this is you. I feel sad for the future of men if they act anything like you. Thank god you are the minority and men like you will die out lol.Well I have to get back to life something you seem to not have. Not sorry. Lol
>>38027935Well when you live where I live its not easy at all to be trans. So unless I started diy as soon as I could then it would be pretty much impossible. I would have to travel hours out of my area to be even able to get hrt officially.
>>38027900stupid wordplay will not stop you looking retarded once you take hormones
>>38027989I mean just saying how are you repping when your taking hrt?
>>38027886idk, i am just waiting to see what happens, life is done anyway>>38027960reddit
>>38028015How old are you if you dont mind me asking. Getting close to 30 here and life does indeed feel pretty fucking done. I just dunno what I can do at this point it all feels pointless. Gonna vent a bit but it feels so fucking unfair that half the world is born and get to live as girls its so fucking holy shit I hate this shits its so fucking wild. I cant even how the fuck was I this unlucky? I mean if I'm just this unlucky then fuck it all. I guess this is why the going next rate for guys in my age/race group is #1 leading cause of death. Who would want to be a guy in this day and age?
>>38028065i am 23, yea it is what it is, women have easier lives than men on average but most cis dudes are not as miserable as us, nowhere close, since they are not dysphoric but yea, unless men are hot or successful they mean nothing to society and have no value, basically invisible
>>38028180Damn life is fucking hell whats the point of trying to live it? Hell in past times something like 60% of guys died out so its kinda natural right? I wonder what life would be life if I were not dysphoric it would be really strange. I would have a girlfriend and be interested in living life and having a family an all that. I just wanna know why I was born this way makes no fucking sense. Why would a guy ever be born that has dysphoria and wishes they were a girl. Something has to have had to gone majorly wrong in my coding.
>>38027978I shouldn't have blamed you like that, sorry. I'm just very unhappy with my own situation and took it out on you.
>>38028238Thats fine. Living like this is hell so I get it.
>>38028065>>38028180>>38028213Oh no here comes the pity party. Oh my god lol. Don't worry anons you will make it widdle babies. You will one day rise up and make it I am sure of it. Don't cry widdle babies. Lol when will you men grow up? Like not joking you are older than 16 and you act like this? Lol this whole site is a joke.
>>38028213biology is messy, some people have BPD or other mentally illnesses, some are born without limbs, disabled or god knows what horrible painful disorders, etc.it is all abt luck and some people are just unlucky and get to live a miserable cursed life and they suffer all of it until the end without any happiness, while others have blessed happy lives and rarely feel very sad depressed
>>38028281acting like some stereotipical radfem won t help you rep, lil pooner
>>38028317I am mtf lol, I am just sick of this pity parade. Like do I seriously have to see you guys crying? I mean there is nothing for you. You will get uglier as you age. So will you still make posts like this when you are a 40 year old man?
when do the antidepressants start working
>>38028283Yea I guess so life is really strange in that way. Wonder if I can ever be happy like others... I've experienced it one time in my life and it was weird. This was when I took my anxiety meds(escitalopram its an ssri so used for depression too) for the first time and it only helped for a few days but those were pretty amazing days. I guess my brain just adapted to them so they didnt help anymore.
>>38028338>when you are a 40 year old mani doubt i will see more than a year if i don t feel better, and most people here will never reach that age>>38028349>>38028365meds never worked for me and tried a bunch
>>38028349Depends on you. As I said mine only worked for a few days but only after I took then for 2 days then they started to work then only 4 after that. >>38028388Yea I tried quite a few too and only a few did anything then for me then they stopped for some reason. But at least I got a few days of reprieve from them I guess.
would there even be any point at 28? haven't experienced total twink death yet but I know it's comingany further shift to looking more masculine freaks me out...
>>38027639i could possibility hit upper tier twinkhon if it weren't for my diffuse thinning
i'm too old to troon out
>>38028601idk i wanna not be here anymore and I'm 27 I just dont know why I would ever take hrt at this age. God I hate being me all I can do is drink and wish for a better tomorrow. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3GlfjNw0s4g>>38028622You too? What do we even do at this point? Just go next irl?
>>38028642hrt would be more so to avoid fully trooning out, just get to stay more feminine as a cope
>>38028388Well this is me btw >>38028338Anon you know what since we are both repressors I am going to go easy on you. You will make it to 40 trust me I somehow made it to 30. See the thing I dislike is just that you guys whine about the same thing every day thinking you had it bad. Like dude my whole family left me and they are wealthy. I don't go crying about this yeah I said it but I don't whine. I know how the world works and I was dealt a very bad hand. Here comes bad worthless life info, I transitioned at 16, my dad was kind of supportive but he gave me that face like I am a walking freak every single day. He would take me out to fish and do men's stuff.My mom hated me, and its funny because I am the kid who when waking up would say “good morning mom”. I was the kid who was always in a good mood because I loved my mom and wanted to be just like her. She was my god growing up, you know how this will end… I gave her the highest level of respect you can give anyone and at the time before I told her I thought, yes thought that she really cared about me. I was the kid who said “happy mothers day” with the happiest face and I was the one who treated her with absolute kindness. Hell she told me I was the only one to have her back. But after transitioning she began to hate me. And I remember the last time I talked to her. I was driving drunk on vodka and shrooms, I was in a bad, no very bad point in my life. I was 22 and I was at the breaking point. And I thought, hey why don't I just call my god, why don't I just call someone who I thought had my best interest in mind. Hell I can't even type some of this stuff because remembering that. rotten hell. I called her and she said, “Why are you calling me deadname anon I told you never to call this number again.” And with that I just drove forward I didn't care about dying and good thing the road was empty and I was in the middle of nowhere. I didn't die but yeah I don't cry about this stuff.
>>38028677How is hrt not trooning out? Is that not one and the same? I mean I know people say they take hrt but dont troon out but you still get booba and shit so its kinda the same no?
>>38028683unless you are a sociopath which you probably aren't since you came here and are still emotionally invested in your past, there is no other way you moved past dysphoria, but congrats for living this long and surviving, idk how tf you managed that but yea.. i genuinely don t know how people manage to live with dysphoria for a long time, i guess they are fully unaware of how hopeless they actually are and they trick themselves into believing that shit will get better so that hope keeps them alive idk..
How did I fucking lose a 50/50 dice roll this fucking badly? Holy shit.
>>38028748Dude dysphoria isn't that bad. I mean I guess I pass and I already have ffs and vfs lol. I only lived this long because I forgot to include that I had and still have the same bf since then and I called him after that call with my mother he is my new god. A way better one than my mother lol, but yeah. I don't like pain so dying is too much. You will live trust me I thought I wasn't going to be this old lol.
>>38028872>I pass and I already have ffs and vfs>dysphoria isn't that badare you fucking retarded or do you just want to inflict pain and suffering here and brag abt your life?just please live and never come back, this place is for reppers, not for genetically lucky passoids with surgeries to brag abt their life and how lucky they are just bc they are narcissistic and sadistic..
>>38028909leave*
>>38028698guess cope is doing a lot of heavy lifting in my statement,judging by all my female family members i probably wouldn't have to worry about breast growth desu
>>38028832sometimes i think about how i would be a completely different person if i were born femaleand that no cis woman would ever want to be the girl i dream of being
>>38029014Feels like hell or something. I dunno if I would a cis girl or not as I have no baring on what that would be like. I do have my own insane fucking fantasy I have in my head that makes no fucking sense but I still believe. Its very far out there and makes no fucking sense but I still believe it for some reason.
>>38028012outside of like, this board, most trannies seem to not consider you trans if you just take hrt while not coming out or girlmoding. it's rather frustrating because i feel like i have to cut off trans friends that i've discussed this with because they seem offended by my own choice to not go hon mode the day i got estradiol, i don't even enjoy crossdressing.
>>38028832i would probably be a ftm repper if i was born female so idgaf
i feel like crying again lol
>>38029014>>38029115Now I'm wondering what you're dreaming of. Is it something AGP?
>>38028832it isnt actually a 50/50, the natural ratio is about 105 boys born for every 100 girls so you are actually in the most common gender at birth and things like climate, contamination, social and even race can make the ratio vary between 103 to 107 boys born for 100 girls, the reason is that males have higher mortality so nature just makes more boys to be born to make sure enough survive to there can be gender parity at reproductive age, the reason there is more women in western countries is because higher male mortality and women start outnumbering men in their 40s or 50s so the surplus women are all old women
>>38030561>things like climate, contamination, social and even racesocial class*
only people i feel some connection with are the repper godsexcept larryshe's a tranny that should go on estrogen
why am i so scared of getting my teeth pulled
ik it probably isn't fully healthy long term but it's kinda crazy how I'll be fully crashing out over this shit and wake up one day not even a little bothered and be fine for a long time afteranyway cya in a few years, glhf
>>38028601For as much as this board obsesses over 'youngshits' and assumes passing past your teens is impossible a lot of the best transitions I've seen on le reddit and other places are people who started between like 25 and 35.
>>38027639Yea same, 5'3 etc but I've been a pussy all my life and a third worlder half of it. My repper days are counted anyways, at least I get to do it just before turning 30
>>38032911it's basically genes after mid-puberty, and that age bracket is when people are more likely* to have stable careers and stuff to be able to speedrun the difficult stuff like laser and FFS/surgeries that help with passing more than hormones do at that point, that applies to boomerhons too but millennialhons haven't quite been as ravaged by time yet*not me though im a 30yo neet with no work history
>>38034056>30yo neet with no work historyHow the hell does that happen?
>>38034089mostly autism and "supportive" (enabling) family
>>38030561That's still almost 50/50 though, how do I cope with this?
i detransed and i have perma gyno, fuck
Give it to me straight, is kmsing the only viable solution for the GD problem?
>>38035457get out, detroons are not welcome here either
>>38034089Pretty common these days. I have a friend who's 35 years old and he's never had a job. He even has a gf which is absolutely fucking insane to me. Meanwhile I'm the same age, earn $140k and I haven't been on a date since I was 19. yes I'm bitter.
>>38036221is he just insanely hot or rich parents? like damn the standards are a bit lower for gays but i'm still not able to really make any progress on relationships or even friends that would maybe help me get out of my situation.
>>38035457Same ,it sucks. but it could be worse honestly. I could have continued my transition.
>>38036576No he just got insanely lucky and found a NEET virgin gf who was in the same situation he was. Bro hit the fucking jackpot. I'm bi so I'd be happy with a relationship with a guy as well. People say it's easy because men just want to fuck but I don't want that. I don't trust people and I have bad anxiety. I just want a guy I can cuddle, and share my life with. I don't even really want sex anymore. Just feels like it's never going to happen anymore. My only hope is maybe finding someone as broken as me and that would probably end in disaster.
reppers won.just hold out a few more months and the tranny fad will be dead in the dirt. the temptation will be no more.
>>38037284We always win baby
how can you even work and function with dysphoria?
>>38037583i dont
>>38037583i dont work but it's not because of dysphoria. i also have autism.
>>38037609nice>>38037621the whole autism shit is bsi doubt you are that low functioning
How long until dysphoria issue can be solved?
>>38037583How you feel doesn't have to control your entire life. You accept that you feel it and keep going anyway. >>38037682Lol Funny you think autism is bullshit but think dysphoria is a valid reason to not get your shit together.
>>38037682>i doubt you are that low functioningWe're on 4chan in a niche general for trannies who repress and you think the people there are gonna be functional? im a severely messed up person.
>>38037771it doesn t work that way, i am too miserable to do anything and i am mentally ill overall>>38037877well yea but i meant that your autism is probably not the worst part of your life
>>37994982YOU WILL NEVER DO ENOUGH REPS TO BE A WOMAN. YOU ARE A MENTALLY ILL MAN WITH AN OBNOXIOUS SEXUAL FETISH FOR WOMENS CLOTHES
>>38037895>well yea but i meant that your autism is probably not the worst part of your lifeThe executive dysfunction from my autism is probably the worst. it can't be overcome with practice like socializing.
>>38037928Couple that autism with becoming a troon and utterly disappointing your parents seems to be the real thing here.
>>38037975if i could take care of myself i wouldn't care. but i have to live with them and i am dependent on them to take care of me. That + being a troon is just too much. it's really over. i'm disabled but not even in a way that lets me get welfare.
>>38037995Don’t care about your life story. Sounds like a you problem. Troon.
>>38037284what did I win? more misery?
>>38037895Not everyone is as broken as you are though larry, surely you've figured this out by now no?
>>38038202Dress like a man, go get a fucking job, and shut the fuck up.
>>38038232I already do that nigger, my life is still hell and I still want to die
>>38038289Not my problem. Whiner. Man up then.
>dude beeee a manOnly women say that shit. lmao.
>>38038384So do men with self esteem which I know must be a unicorn to you people. lol
>>38038450You're FTM aren't you
>>38037284>just hold out a few more months and the tranny fad will be dead in the dirtAny changes to how troons are treated as a result of Trump will not silence the dysphoria in our own heads.Even if it did, that'd only be a 4 year "victory" to us reppers.What are we gonna do after 4 years?
>>38034056when you have a stable career you're afraid of rocking the boat and losing everything>*not me though im a 30yo neet with no work historyi'm a 29yo neet with work history blowing through savings atmi had a breakdown and quit and thought maybe i'd transition once i had nothing else going oni didn't lol>>38036576>is he just insanely hot or rich parents?nta but i've seen like no correlation between money and how much sex a man
>>38038511>29yo neet with work history blowing through savings atm>other nona is a neet with no work historyLooks like we're just miserable whether we work or not.>when you have a stable career you're afraid of rocking the boat and losing everything>thought maybe i'd transition once i had nothing else going oni didn't lolSo true. I figured once I started working I'd look into trooning out, but 1 month in and I'm repping harder than before.I feel like a rat in a cage lolWhy didn't you take the plunge though?
>>38038299this thread is specifically made for whining, I'll whine as much as I like
>>38038668Nta but doesn't need to be used that way, it's just for reppers, there could be plenty of other things discussed. Things that made you feel good today, healthy coping mechanisms, things that you appreciate about yourself and your body outside of looks. It's a choice to focus on the negatives and be as negative as possible.
>>38038751>Things that made you feel good todaydrinking and playing CYOA's but now it's making me feel less good because I have a uni project I have to present in 2 hours and I forgot to sleep. At least I'll be sleep deprived and intoxicated enough to get rid of some of my social autism so I can at least talk to the normgroids without my jaw locking up like it always does>healthy coping mechanismssee above>things that you appreciate about yourselfI like my soul and think that it would make an interesting person if put in a female body.>and your body outside of looksI not only hate how it looks, but also how it feels, smells, tastes, and sounds
>>38038827wait by 2 hours I actually meant 45 minutes what the fuck happened
>>38038208cope
>>38038586>Looks like we're just miserable whether we work or not.i'm way less stressed out but my anxiety disorder is still screaming at me that everything is horrible and going to go wrong>So true. I figured once I started working I'd look into trooning outhonestly i felt the same way when i first took the job. one of the main reasons i even got a job was to afford hormones>Why didn't you take the plunge though?because nothing actually changed in my life by quitting so why would i behave any differently?
>>37994982Why is the thread so slow? Did all of you rope?
>>38040823yes captaini am a ghost
>>38040908spooky if true
bump
noooooooooooooooo, it should have died
>>38035457Can't you just get breast reduction surgery?
>friend joked to other friends that i transitioned>everyone started asking>i had to say no haha
>>38042521Is that what your mom said when you were born? >>38044948I love how people casually say "Can't you just go get surgery?" like it's going out and buying some clothes. As if it doesn't cost a thing and is risk free.
>>38044978Is that something you want?
>>38045034i mean i don't really think i'd want to be a tranny
>go through manic dysphoric episode >say fuck it I need to get on hrt>whenever it comes time to make the appointment dysphoric feelings fade away only for them to come back later Why am I like this? I've done this several times over the past few years and I can never gather the resolve to at least try going on hormones despite these feelings haunting me most of my life.
>>38045076me except i ordered hrt and never took it
>>38045052Nigga you think we chose to be trans (reppers)?
>>38045147i'm non dysphoric and i'm chosing to not transition
>>38045052So then why does saying you didnt transition get to you?
>>38045741because i wish i were a girl
>>38045846Transitioners arent girls either.
Don't die yet repbros I love you
>>38047592we don't deserve to be loved
i'm such a god damn fucking loser what did i rep for
>>38047661Speak for yourself, I'm lovable.
>>38048122Well... do you want to be a loser and a sideshow freak at the same time?
>>38045020you are so funny bro10 amy schumers out of 10
>>38048418Wasn't telling a joke, I was saying your mother must wish she had a miscarriage.
>>38048472why you hating on mei am repgod, i guess you are just jealous
>>38047592tfw no luv
>>38048506You're a miserable person who tries to push and wish that misery on others, you've repped a long time but you're low functioning and bitter. I don't generally feel disgust towards people, but with you I do. What is there to be jealous of? Why would I want to be like you? You don't even want to be you.
>>38048739spot on, that is meif i suffer others should suffer too, that is based
>>38048751I know that's you, that's why I feel a drive to be cruel, my way of justifying my inner sadism that's there. It's like killing some bugs and not others, eating only certain animals, and so on. I'm disgusted by the weakness I feel you need to have to sink to that place and stay there, it's something I've gone to great lengths to not be myself.
>>38048777if you are looking to justify your cruelty towards me, you will never be able to bc i suffer and suffered enormously to be like this so it is really hard to hate someone that became like this from pain, also morality is not real, morality fag so do whatever
Repping is normal, based, healthy, valid and Reppers are members of LGTBQR so we need proper respect. Can I get an amen?
Repbros....I fucking confessed my dysphoria to my therapist today. I planned to take this shit to my grave, but I just couldn't hold it in anymore. It was extremely fucking hard telling her, but at least she was nice.I told her I don't want to transition because I don't think I would pass, that I just don't want to live in a XY body. We talked about hons. She acknowledged that hons exist, but told me that I don't look particularly masculine. We went back and forth for a while before the session ended.Life doesn't fucking feel real anymore. I'm dissociated from reality, it almost feels like I dreamt the whole thing. I don't know whats going to happen now. Will I end up telling my psychiatrist as well when I see her? I don't know anythin anymoreI planned to rep, wait until my mom's financially secure and then kill myself. That's still the plan, but now I'm just abit unsure about everything
>femrepgen mogging the fuck out of repgen>comments are nicer>better discussion
>>38049272wow, being a woman is 100x easier than being a man and it is literally easy modewater is wet
>>38049313true. I hate women.
>>38048814I only need to justify it to myself, you being pathetic doesn't move me to pity in some way where I'd act on that unless you were in a truly desperate state, which you're not. I've suffered too and I didn't let it allow me to become like you, the fact that you've suffered and wish it on others makes you sickening to me. Morality is subjective to the individual, my morals are based on my thoughts, ideals and beliefs and don't have to reflect anyone else's provided they make sense to me. When I say justify I only mean I have to feel you're bad enough for me to feel ok about it everyone else could think I was wrong and I'd still feel ok with it. I care about how I view me and I care about living up to my standards for myself.
>>38049424>you were in a truly desperate statei am though, my life is fucked
>>38049424moral relativist edgelord shits up thread with super stilted sperg speech.
