>>38045194
start small, pick one thing like 'oh im gonna paint my nails black' or 'im gonna buy the fucking reddit amazon skirt' or w/e. if u do one small scary thing a week pretty soon you'll have done all the scary things that come with starting

>>38045238
I've worn painted nails to class before but it's always embarrassing and I try to hide them. I remove the polish as soon as I'm home. I don't want to be be stared at.

>>38045298
hey! nice job! i think an annoying, difficult, but totally necessary part of transitioning but also just like, existing as a human. is learning to deal with some amount of embarrassment.

also desu nobody pays nearly as much attention to a classmate's nails as you do to ur own. like sure maybe a few people are like oh painted nails nice, but mostly they'll be off in their own world.

black nails pretty and i think more 'acceptable' if u want a color that u can try wearing for longer.

idk. the first time u go "here is my clocky trans pre-everything body in a hoodie and a skirt and i am GOING to the GROCERY STORE and its not gonna be a big deal." it is always gonna be terrifying. if u have a friend who'll go with u that's great. but ur 5th time going clocky pre everything skirt grocery store trip the embarassment will not feel as bad, you will realize less people are staring than u initially thought, etc.

>>38045505
I still feel highly ashamed of being AGP.
I have to cry into a pillow sometimes. I really really want to be a girl. I'm scared to tell anyone.
It just sucks.

>>38045733
yeah, it's hard. there's no shame in crying into a pillow.

you got any queer friends or queer organizations nearby? sometimes it's really really nice to have somebody safe to talk to about this. or honestly just to feel a little bit more normal because hey, there's somebody else who feels similar

>>38045771
I go to university.
I know some gay people and theyfabs.

>>38045827
ime theyfabs are very nice and good to talk to about 'i think i am a girl' type issues