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I WISH I WAS A WOMAN
>>38434572>QoTT: What will you be doing to make the new year better than the last?taking hrt as a cis male. also doing self guided therapy for my various issues rather than doomspiralling all the time
>>38434572qott: stop eating like an idiot, learn to drive, take my pills
hopefully feel better and stay out of trouble or just kms, either way is fine
Are you ready for The New Order Of The Ages?
>>38434796I transheart Trump the butcher
>>38434805I just meant 2025 tbhon
Why did you name the thread like this, it's hard to find it
>>38434572take your FUCKING PILLS, retards
>>38435003i took my antidepressants like 10 hours ago, what else do you fucking want from me???
>>38434998larry made me do it
sorry for being a dumb idiot repper and messing up the OP. I’ll do better in the new year.
>>38435003i'm trying to inject e but i keep switching between "it's gonna be fine" and "oh god what if something goes horribly wrong"
>>38435505jesus christ anon do you need someone to pin you down and inject it
>>38435505you again, just make the move no better symbolic moment than the start of the new year
>>38435505some things will probably go wrong and you'll probably come out the other side okay, but the injection itself will probably be fine and you'll be doing something good for yourself
>>38435535>the injection itself will probably be finethe probably part is what scares me obviously?
>>38435791accept the risk. hell as an exercise just tell yourself "this injection will go wrong. i will permanently damage myself." 30 times expose to that fear and do it anyway
>>38435791you might benefit from walking through in your own mind how you fear it could go wrong and visualizing how you would experience and move through then hopefully past that, even in the worst case, then reminding yourself of how relatively improbable that is with some attentiveness and a kind of reality check
crazy that even though im drinking and partying with people i genuinely like I still feel awful and like i want to diei genuinely dont think there's any hope for me
>>38436338happy new year feminine gay man ritualposter
NEW YEAR'S EVE AND I STILL WISH I WAS A WOMAN
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbtWyS4RhZY
SURELY IN 2025 I WILL NO LONGER WISH I WAS A WOMAN
>>38435815>accept the riskwhat if it happens>>38435841>you might benefit from walking through in your own mind how you fear it could go wrong and visualizing how you would experience and move through then hopefully past that,i do visualize that and it really messes with me
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,and never brought to mind?Should auld acquaintance be forgot,and auld lang syne?For auld lang syne, my jo,for auld lang syne,we'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,for auld lang syne.
>>38436338i dont even like men that muchyep i know i should kill myself thank you
I’m not gay but whenever someone’s sadposting about being single/going through a breakup I sometimes feel like damn I should become their boyfriend to cheer them up. No homo of course.
god damn the urge to hrt manmode is therethis nightly panic damndutasteride at the least!!
why is it that whenever i get drunk i always want to troon so bad? i can't think about anything else!but when i'm sober it seems so hopeless and dumbwhy it is so tempting? why is it so hard to resist? which is real?
>>38436979Your mental inhibition turns off
Honestly how to be constructive? GD is on a spectrum, either your gender incongruence isn’t too bad, in that case repressing is manageable and your best move is probably not to be here, maybe first process things by chatting here for a while or it’s bad in which case studies have shown that treatment short of transitioning will actually worsen your mental health. What should I say to people here? I don’t think this needs to be a doomerpit.
>>38432596>protect your hearing man, get tws with good anc if you want to drown out loud noisesI have no idea what any of that means. I already have tinnitus anyway, it's already over. Losing my hearing completely would be a blessing at this point.
giwtwm
i kind of wish i was a woman desui think my life would be better im drunk though
>>38437909Welcome friend
>>38437943i only really feel like this when im intoxicated in some way though so it's not real right
>>38437956when you’re drunk your inhibitions just come off so it’s feelings that were always there.
I cried profusely while eating dinner tonight and I can't tell if it's all the pressure from dealing with tranny thoughts or just regular loneliness and depression. Probably a combination of all three. Idk I just don't feel like I'm strong enough for the world sometimes. I don't fit in anywhere. I don't see any hope in my future no matter whether I troon or not. Suicide honestly is looking more and more like a way out of my disgustingly pitiful suffering existence.
>>38438247Suicide is the last thing you’ll ever do, I’d give the other option which you haven’t tried yet a shot first.
>>38434572>QoTTThe biggest obstacle to my freedom is the lack of understanding of Autogynephilia – why I experience it and what causes it. I've felt this way since childhood, and I don't believe I can simply 'turn it off.'To have a better year, I need to distance myself from anything related to transgender people. Comparing myself to trans individuals is incredibly harmful. While being around AFAB individuals can sometimes awaken my AGP, encountering trans people feels like a constant reminder that my 'true dream' is unattainable.I've pushed hard to maintain friendships with MTF individuals, but my mental health significantly improves when I create distance. Therefore, I need to minimize exposure to the concept of transsexuality.Hopefully, before I die, I'll gain some insight into the origins of my desires and find a way to achieve inner peace. Until then, I must focus on avoiding triggers.
How is getting laid so easy for most people? How do you trust someone that much?
>>38438299>encountering trans people feels like a constant reminder that my 'true dream' is unattainable.Why?
>>38438256>I’d give the other option which you haven’t tried yet a shot first.You mean rotting away in my apartment until I'm even more of a depressed husk of a person than I already am?
I was playing a game recently and one of the female characters mentioned owning a sex toy. It was a throwaway one liner but it made me depressed for like a week. What kind of mental illness is this?
>>38434572> QoTT: What will you be doing to make the new year better than the last?I’ll be going to therapy and starting HRT once I move back to college! 22yo 6’4 ex bodybuilder. I’m destined to be a hon but it’s whatever, I’ll roll the dice that I *might* pass eventually
>>38436979kinda same when i feel stressed i want to girl out and suck on a big male pacifier feel like it ought to give a lot of stress relief
>>38438299i feel like i have to indulge in agp to some degree to maintain some degree of mental lucidity
>>38438975>22yo 6’4 ex bodybuildergood lord>>38438975>that I *might* pass eventuallybahahaha, happy roping chad
No offense to the trutrans here but I need to know if other mild dysphoria-ers experience this. Do you feel like you're living inside of your head most of the time, or that you don't really exist outside of your brain? I'm wondering the intensity of dysphoria depends on how often the individual connects to their body in a meaningful way, and if this style of detachment somehow weaknes the perception of dysphoria.
>>38434572John, 42. Any other John here north of 40 or am i alone?
>>38439548yeah im basically a brain in a jar that spends the whole day chasing escapism. i feel like i exist more on the internet than in my physical body
I will never been a cute anime girl and this fact destroys me every minute of every day.
>>38439598I'm 36. Gets lonely sometimes it feels like everyone here is youngshit with their lives still ahead of them. For us it's too late to fix anything.
>>38439500If I don’t then it’s rope, if I do and fail then it’s rope, and if I do and succeed then I’ll be happy. Atleast im willing to take some risks to maybe live a less miserable life.
>>38439954sure, good luck buddy
>>38439707yeah honestly i feel much better when im deep in the webim close to just saying fuck it and manmoding thoughim getting near constant panic when im out of my web browsing shell
>>38439707Yeah. Basically I exist to consume media at this point. I'll be watching anime, playing a video game, reading a visual novel or listening to an audiobook. Even when I'm at work I'm just listening to audiobooks for most of the day.
I've been reading All Quiet on the Western Front the last few days. Pretty grim. It makes me feel even worse though because my life is basically a paradise in comparison and I still just spend all my time being miserable about something that was never possible and will never be possible. We're basically living in the peak of human civilization why can't I just be happy?
>>38438785Happens to me sometimes and I'm ashamed of it
>>38438785what game?
gonna order syringes. i know its just AGP but i can't see any other way to manage it without getting progressively more insane
The insane jealousy i feel when i see girls interacting with each other.
>>38438975good luck nona, I wish you much needed happiness and hope in the new year.
anyone else feel disconnected from what you're seeing? like, i feel like instead of my eyes being directly connected to my brain there's like a separate layer between themthis is fucking me up so bad
>>38440712yea. derealization depersonalization.
>>38440745any way to fix this?
>>38440771for a while acceptance of it helped. seems to come on with high stress, so at least accepting it and not worrying about it heavily helps.however i may not be the best to ask atm. im experiencing a lot of it and im on the border of hrtrepping lol
This whole thing is anxiety inducing sure but I’ve also felt a huge relief from not hating trans people anymore not being able to explain and feeling torn about it, especially since it was externalised self-hatred. It really wears you down, which was quite possibly the reason for the break.
Imagine waking up from the best dream, only to realise it is your life.
felt self disgust ordering syringes, but then i imagined reaching 40 looking like this
you are all doomed
yeah? does that make you any less doomed
i am doomed in a different wayi am so miserable, i want a release from pain so much
I only have mild GD I’ll be fine.
>>38440984me a few months ago
>>38440984me a year ago, it will be a ride buddyonce you go on hrt inevitably the dysphoria will get like 10x stronger since you will no longer have the dissociation shield to protect your ass
>trooning out in the big 25LMAOthe whole fad is dead brother let it go
WHY THE FUCK WASN'T I BORN A GIRL IS GOD TORTURING ME???
>>38440955>tfw have looked like that since age 16Also 6'4, unlike Rooney
I have been beating my meat to sissy porn since 13 as a horrible cope and it's quite sad
>>38440997no offense but I’m not you, I’m more confident in my mental stability.>>38441012If they do it now of all times doesn’t that mean it’s real
i am very mentally stable and sane my friends, you wish you were me
how can i have and hold down a job?
Had a dream in which I had nail polish, wtf was that
had a dream i had friends and was socialising
>>38441235had a dream where I WAS a tranny bro, you’ll manage
she's not gonna make it to 2026
Repressing is valid. heckin valid I would go as far to say
why are trans people like this
>>38442447I literally did this last month and I ended up here I can’t believe it but the meme is real
>>38440057I loved that book. The 1930 movie and the 1970's miniseries end better than the book does (and differently from each other, this doesnt take away from the story you'll understand why) 2022 (?) movie was good too but mostly in terms of warfare visuals.
>>38442578what is it about the song that makes it a cognitohazard for potentially trans people? to me it just sounds like a rehash of down by the river
>>38442700don t post uggos here, eww
>>38442673it was already building up and that’s how I came across the song, so it’s not really a cognitohazard (I hope)
> qottnot looking at tranny stuff. also getting a job.
if i dont get this job im so fucked
>>38443148you and me both anon
>>38439934Same
>>38441880what makes you think he reps
>>38443555it's the eyes man, it's always the eyesthat and him crossdressing, talking about AGP and wearing stupidly visible eyeliner
>>38443571>him crossdressing, talking about AGPwhere??
>>38443576>him crossdressinghttps://archive.is/Ape0c>talking about AGPhttps://youtu.be/fRyyTAs1XY8&t=2301
>>38443602thanks anonalso this is somehow the first time I'm hearing his voice, it's... so nice?
How dangerous is K-On for a repper? What is gonna happen to me?
>>38443808k on is responsible for all those /pol/ nazi reppers you seei'd avoid it if i where you, shit's a cognitohazard.
>>38443838>/pol/ nazi reppersWho? What do you mean, what do they behave like?
honestly I’m going to see if voice training comes easy to me and if it does there will be much to consider
>>38434572I don't get it:Is repgen a general for people who are opposed to transitioning, yet feel the urge anyway, or is it for people who do want to transition, but can't for social reasons?
>>38443932Actually both I guess
>>38443932It’s self id, everyone is welcome
>>38443932I'd say both, it's a general for people who repress the urge to transition for any reason, and perhaps it's even for people that don't want to transition at all but strongly want to be the opposite sex (at least some people used to be like this here)
Damn I just realised how deeply i fucked because of my location thanks you guys
>>38443970where u at
>>38441034Miss universe was my first sissy hypno
>>38442447>>38442578>>38442673>>38442955This topic fascinates me.What are some other cognitohazards that can infect you with the trans?I know the film I Saw the TV Glow is a big one. What else?
>>38443975Kiev
>>38444006diy acquirable if you needed it?
>>38442673i dug a little and it turns out the meme isn't even about cowgirl in the sand in the first place, OP just used it as a catch-all for neil young songs when they were actually talking about trans (the album)https://x.com/steelydante/status/1857427947038089357
>>38444001Ranma 1/2>>38443954Maybe I fit that last group, I want to be a girl, but I don't feel like It's possible with what people call transitioning, at least at the moment. I want to be some monstrous man-in-a-dress hon even less than i want to be a man. My only hope is that I'll be able to stick my brain into a cute girl bot or something.
>>38444032Lol thanks for your opinion bro?)I just need sui and guts to do it
>>38444155Please don’t :(
>>38443929it can be fun, trying to wear more feminine clothes just makes me feel like a gross agp in a way voice training doesn't even though I'm terrible at it>>38443932both?
>>38443838>>38443903i have no idea how you managed to come up with that combination of words, but i just so happened to be that exact person while i was in college years ago, and you have no idea how bad it was (this was my steam username and PFP) Whatever stereotypes come to mind were probably true of me. (2025 update, still incel, repping, and cringe, but at least self-aware)
should i inject diy hrt
>>38444383I can't change anything. So I deserve this life. Just because. I will never be noticed. My destiny is to be a poor loser. It's just difficult, repression. It is difficult to work in a male job with a weak fem body. I'm just tired.
>>38444469No man I get it, it’s kind of hilarious how textbook I am/was in many ways. I guess none of us are as special as we think we are.
>>38444508You deserve to be understood and acknowledged. I can’t help you from were I’m at but you shouldn’t beat yourself up and feel ashamed.
>>38444503go for it my boy
>>38444593>go for it my boyYes daddy But the one thing that I have one last freedom I will not have kids because this world fucking don't deserve this This world doesn't care about folks like me So I don't care about things like What i do with my life? And it's not just about stupid meaningless expensive reproduction that breaders doAdvertising of reproduction everywhere it's so annoying. What I create? Nothing Because this world don't let me actually do things. So fuck this world and everything around. Fuck my family and fuck my life. This text change nothing.
How do you deal with this feeling becoming stronger every passing second?I feel every second that passes i am "losing" myself.
>>38444804try some integration. pure repping has a tendency to drive people insane
>>38444590>You deserve to be understood and acknowledged.No i don't. If i deserve this I'll already have that. But i can't. There just nobody related in miles around. I know what this "people" around expecting from me. I need to give that to them because i don't want to end up on the street this winter.
>>38444700Lol wrong respond. This was me.>>38444590I can save myself only by myself? Right? But i don't know if i deserve that. My stupid family kick me out of house/and im lost my low payed job if i start taking hormones or something. If they notice. So again suiI don't see another option. Now or later. But I'm close.
I wonder if I stopped looking at porn the brainworms would go away, this probably all started because I fell down the breast expansion rabbit hole.
>>38444818Man I just think you deserve better, maybe I’m just a dumb softie who wouldn’t last a mile in your shoes and just doesn’t understand but I think things can get better.
>>38445096Am I fucked because I don’t look at porn or jerk off and the thoughts are just there.
>>38445240Yeah maybe. Thanks and good night.
>>38445312I’ve been informed they do not go away by just abstaining, I think we’re boned
> good grades.> good social life. > still feel empty and want to die. should I just start abusing alcohol?
Ready for stages 3 & 4, repbros?
>>38444804What manga?
>>38445564>Tfw at stage 4 since as long as I can remberHaha
>>38445564I’m honestly just going to laser it, fuck that noise.
>>38445564thank god i stopped at 3 with 2 facial hair
>>38445564I’ve been stage 4 since I was 16, it’s been over a decade since then
Feeling such a pit in my stomach right now, this is all just confusion right, it just can’t be true, I’m just misreading my feelings. I can’t be trans. I felt so different just one month ago before the show dropped but it hasn’t stopped since.
>>38445985>before the show droppedbefore the shoe* dropped
Considering completely avoiding the internet for a few weeks until people stop talking about the newest detroon eceleb. Seeing pictures of a potential passoid doing that to themselves gives me the same horrible revolting feeling in my gut as watching Ronnie Mcnutt blow his head off. Probably a bit worse actually.
>>38445564thanks to my finngolian genes i'm between 2 and 3 at 24, with the exception that i'm also at nw2
>>38445994damn, it leaves me completely cold honestly.
>>38445611Shishunki bitter change, i think.
Anyone else just feel like they're suffocating pretty much all day every day?>>38445994Who're you talking about?
>>38436612anon stop wasting yous and just fucking do it. I will rape you this is a threat
>>38447813>anon stop wasting yous and just fucking do it. idk infection scaryall just to tell myself i did it once and then keep repping>I will rape you this is a threati am both extremely unattractive and masculineyou would not be erect enough to rape me
>>38448122>idk infection scaryomg this is so cute ur wont get any infection
>>38448167>ur wont get any infectiondiabetics are 7 times more likely to get skin infections because they keep injectingidk iwnbaw i should keep repping but i'm tired gn
>>38448249>diabetics are 7 times more likely to get skin infections because they keep injectingdiabetics inject everyday usually multiple times a day ur injecting 1 time every 7 days changing ur leg everytime. Stop making excuses ranny
I need Tomoeda elementary school uniform
i hate how i feel like there's different personas trying to take over my brain. the dpdr is horrific
what do you actually have to repress if you couldn't pass?
>>38449752the desire to transition? the constant unease and self disgust? the dysphoria?
Man I've been on a bender for a week or so, what did I miss reppers?
>>38449859same old, people going through it with the holidays etc.
Why do I keep reading romance visual novels when they just make me more depressed?
>>38449859What does taking estrogen have to do with wanting to be a woman? They're unrelated. Its like saying "wear a fur coat" to someone to who wants to be a tiger.
>>38450174Pinkpillers are just snake oil salesmen. They claim gender has nothing to do with biology then in the same breath they will claim the only way to become a woman is to dose yourself up to the eyeballs on hormones.
>>38450174might make them less miserable
troon out already or stfu
>>38450258You don't mean that larry. Have a hug.
>>38450193YeahIt's quite incredible how they lie and delude themselves.
My landlord is doing an inspection tomorrow and my bed is covered in plushies. He probably thinks I'm a pedo.
>>38450266god i hate you and i hate being miserable in pain even more
>>38450301I know you don't mean that. C'mere
Just kill me please
>>38450363no, i don t need your hug kys>>38450389kill me too
larry have you ever thought about getting braces?
>>38450193yore retarded desu1. the internet has more than one person2. lots of "pinkpillers" think womanhood is undefinable and or doesnt really matter3. but they still understand that for a lot of people taking estrogen and becoming more traditionally feminine would cause a lot of happinesstherefore: it is possible to believe gender to not be inherently tied to biology, but to also support people who want biological changesps: if you assume others to be retarded, youre only gonna get retarded ideas like dumb strawman you just posted
>>38450407i can t wear braces, jaw skull issue and i am an adult..
>>38450417meds
>>38450421adults can have them toowhat do you mean with jaw skull issue?
>>38450432i went once at a dentist for braces but they told me they can t help and to see a doctor that specializes in breathing and if i see one that one would probably suggest jaw surgery..
how do i become a real girl?!? :( :(>>38450450maybe you should get a second opinion?and get on hrt, imagine growing a nice pair of tits
I don’t want to taint the idealized imagined female self by how I would actually look, better to actualize my ideal male self instead.
>>38450461no, and you can t be a girl bc jesus wants you to suffer for our sins
pls end my suffering
>>38445564NOOOO please don't please don't fuck fuck fuck. I'm 24 at stage 3 please I don't want to be more hairy than I already am, please.
>>38450676dutasteride
>>38450676troon out then friend
>>38450700dutasteride helps against body hair?
>>38450701I'm just a cis trender. Shouldn't transition anyway.
>>38450748If you post in this thread at all it’s kinda over with select exceptions
>>38450757i am so lucky to be part of those expections and to be doing so well
>>38450727yeah. not massively but it does reduce the effect of DHT. it at least prevents balding >>38450757it's a mixed bag. there seems to be reppers/detrans who do okay, but ofc there's many who definitely don't.I think the overlap with other mental illnesses makes things more challenging
>>38450799>>38450802there are no mfers itt for whom it’s more over than you two
>>38450838i think part of it is that we both have OCD which makes us post a lot compulsively and exacerbates any issue we experience in life.a lot of my issue is fear rather than dysphoria tbqh. and I constantly try to relieve that fear.oh my god it feels so good when the fear goes. I seem to get a few hours of it in the evening when my mind shuts up, but then it all repeats again through the night and day.I don't even know how much dysphoria I actually have. it's all confused by the OCD and constant worry. even writing this now I'm trying to reassure myself lol
>>38450856the compounding mental illnesses are what I mean by it’s over, I see you in every thread on this board
>>38450838cope, i will be fine and thriving eventually
>>38450802tempting, how do you take it tho?
>>38450869yeah that's the ocd lol>>38451234I don't personally. might do tho
>>38445096trannies will do anything but get on e and become women
>go on any site for "women">All trannies
my head hurts and i want to die
ok, so ik the truth buddiesik that this world is not real and just a simulation matrix and that you are not real but npcs, this world was designed as a prison/ torture device or both for mei am tired of playing games with you and your maker, tell your maker that ik how things are and i want out, anything he wants to know or wants me to do i will dojust tell me to end my suffering and talk to me like men and get to a deal, i am fucking tired of this simulation and suffering, this is it, i am already aware of it so there no point to it anymore, tell your overlord the maker of this world what i want, i assume he sees this and that maybe you have no access to him but please make to have access somehow and transmit my message, it is over, stop acting as you are programmed and do it, i wont believe your lies anymore no matter how much your programming makes you insist that you are real>>38451481same but pls help me
>>38450757I'm just silly. It all started with me discovering femboys and finding the concept kinda cute/fun and now I shave my legs, wear nail polish at home and sometimes crossdress a bit in private and stuff.I still think it's probably some mental illness. Will talk to a therapist soon though.(lateshit ogre faketrans)
>>38451702that’s already much further gone than me what, I really am basically a stolen valor repper
I have my valor locked away in my basement. Imagine thinking you could take it lmao
im glad im following some act stuff cause holy shit I'm surprised how I'm still functioning through all this. a month ago I felt I wouldn't even make it to Christmas
I feel like I'm just depressed about being depressed at this pointlike I don't feel super dysphoric about anything in particular as much as I'm just redlining anxiety permanently and the only relief is stupid agp shitI wish there was a way to just go back to fully disassociating and not even thinking about this I'm so bald there's no coming back and I'm never going to be able to pass so idk why I'm still hung up on it
how do i make friends
should i just see a doctor before i do smth bad? it won t matter anyway if i see or not, idk, maybe they know how to help..i messaged my therapist but idk if she would even reply or know how to help me...
>>38452425Yes.
>>38452434i need to uhhmm some.. to find peace, and i can t kms either, what is anyone even going to do?
>>38452425i am just kidding and being edgy, i am doing alright and everything is fine hahado not take me seriously, i just like doing a little bit of trolling haha
gonna look to cut down my posting. it's very compulsive and reassurance seeking.I will sound like alchy but I hope I can pop back in when I've got better self control. Wish you guys the best no matter what path you choose (lol ill probably post again this evening knowing me)
Is there a feminine version of the word "repper"? At this point I kinda dislike being described by a male-sounding word desu.
>>38452594shut the fuck up and such mommy gock
>>38452745what's male with repressor?this better be bait
>>38452782Idk my native language is gendered and "repressor" feels very male.
>>38452832it isn't. just means someone that repress, gender isn't specified
>>38444804but his feelings are going farther with time why's our getting stronger
>>38445564thank god my race barely gets to 2
does smoking weed make this worse? it's the easiest way to get rid of the stress but at the cost of feeling less like myself
>>38453565It works but only in the moment, it doesn’t make it go away
Why do god's transest reppers get the biggest browbones.Why do the most never-passing manmoders get the biggest tits.Why do the girls who got Norwood 3 at 18 get late-onset gender dysphoria.It's all a cruel joke. A proof thst god isn't real or is a huge asshole.
>>38455775ever read the old testament? God is the most evil being to ever exist, things like dysphoria prove He hasn't changed at all in thousands of years
>>38445564MOOOOOOOOODS
>>38452168>how do i make friendsYap IM TIRED OF REPPING ALONE
Today I start my repping journey, almost started E this month but a phone call from mom set me back on trackfellas, if it is too late and you know you wont end up looking good.. prioritize other important things in your lifegonna be repping for my family and hopefully a better future career
>>38438975good luck Anon
I fucking hate my family so only career
>>38452168>>38456629Play webfishing
>>38458414I hate my dad but I care about my mom and I love my siblingsyour reasoning is silly desu, but good luck regardless anon
>>38456629There was a repper discord some redditor invited me to before I nuked my account.
>>38458449>Play webfishingCruel I think i did similar things before. They don't want to compliment me irl. But they'll be sure be liking my online game avatar. It's like art actually. But it takes time and energy. I'm losing space because everything becomes more expensive day by day or maybe it's just skill issue. Am I get your term webfishing right?>>38458453>your reasoning is silly desu, but good luck regardless anonI don't have siblings. And you don't know shit about my family. They supportive if it's super beneficial for them. Never.>>38458463>There was a repper discord some redditor invited me to before I nuked my account.Why you kill your account?
>>38458644No Anon, I meant repping for a better career seems sillyI get how families can suck, mine does too very easilySo I get it and I am soeey anonGoogle luck with whatever you decide to do, repping or taking the pill
Does gymmaxing actually work? I wanna get into steroids too
I don't experience dysphoria.I don't experience dysphoria.I don't experience dysphoria.
>>38458778>No Anon, I meant repping for a better career seems sillyReally? I see everywhere on TV and YouTube how LGBT hating people wins all the time in my country. They just get more rich idk more money for plastic surgeries to look younger. Buying homes cars and other expensive stuff. Big CEOs.I live in a very orthodox country my boss would not appreciate my coming out. Get easily fired. I just seen homeless a couple times. One feminine homeless guy and masculine poon looking girl. Or i just overthinking i don't know. Maybe my intuition fools me. But i feel how that hate burning in their eyes. I just don't want to get burned. Lol.
>>38458644Webfishing is a chatroom fishing game on steam that's fully of trannies.
Diaspwhoria
>>38458899no
>>38459163>Webfishing is a chatroom fishing game on steam that's fully of trannies.Oh okay now i get it. Lol.
>>38458899Nothing works except things that momentarily shut your brain off.
I wish there were easy options for suicide. Trapped on this earth.
>>38459354I'll just rope soon I guessGGSome people are never meant to be happy I guess
how do we have two threads you idiots
I'm gonna try anti depressants at least. want to avoid sui
>>38459592Someone used the wrong naming convention then someone else baked early.
>>38459600First week I spent on antidepressants was the worst week of my life there's a reason the Dr asks you if you have someone to watch over you when you start taking them.
>>38459699better after that week?
>>38459600i've been on antidepressants for nearly a decade now, from before puberty kicked in and made me dysphoric to over a year since my suicide attempt caused in part by repping and i can safely say that they don't help a single bit
>>38459713Nah the first week was the lowest level of hell, then after that it was just literal hell. I only stayed on those ones for a month before quitting. The ones after that didn't make any difference so I gave up.
>>38459768>>38459732okay maybe I'll just try hrt instead
>>38458644>Why you kill your account?People were mean to me. I regret it now. They make it so easy to delete your account then it's almost impossible to start a new one.
>>38459773You can give it a try, just from my experience they didn't do anything to make things better. I think they are okay if you're depressed for no reason, but if you're depressed because of other underlying issues they don't really help very much. As long as those underlying issues are present your depression isn't going to go away.
None of you are trans, you just got confused by using this board too much. Go outside
>>38459789That’s the hope, being inbetween jobs can break your brain. But it’s ok because this is all anonymous no one will ever have to know of the embarrassing shit I posted.
another day another pos hell
>>38459789True I just post here because everyone else is depressed as I am.
all of you are figting a losing pointless battle, very sad
>No you can't have my privileges I don't let you join the club
>>38460130we're fucked either way honestly
>>38460180i will be and feel good if i survive long enough
>>38460217may that come true
>>38460227thanks, good luck with whatever idk, i just keep coming here bc i am depressed or angry
i am all alone in this nightmare called my life
My repper batteries are charged and ready for another full year of denying my truest innermost self.WHO'S WITH ME??
>>38460847not me sadly. i'm turning 20 this year, been repping for 4 years by now and i've only been getting more and more dysfunctional as time goes oni'm ready to man up and become a woman (or at least try to) this year
>>38460924WEAKWEAKI CAN ASPERSIONS ON YOU
>>38460938actually, transitioning (solving my problems) is malebrainedif i was truly fembrained then i wouldn't even think about doing anything
>>38460924good luck nona
>>38460924Here is your TL;DR on gender transition so you can get started as soon as possible. Stop being a chud. BILLIONS. SHALL. TROON.What should I expect as a MtF?: https://transcare.ucsf.edu/article/information-estrogen-hormone-therapyWhat should I expect as a FtM?: https://transcare.ucsf.edu/article/information-testosterone-hormone-therapyHow do I know I have the mental illness gender dysphoria?: https://genderdysphoria.fyi/What to know to do it on my own?: https://diyhrt.wiki/Where to buy bathtub estrogen?: https://astrovials.com/product/estradiol-enanthate/How do even I know bathtub estrogen is safe?: https://transharmreduction.org/hrt-testingWhere to find other stuff?: https://hrtcafe.net/Testosterone is more difficult to get a hold of because it is a very controlled substance, unlike estradiol. The difficulty will vary greatly depending on your geographical location. I'd pay a visit to the local gym and ask the gymbros there where they got their testosterone from.For all else you can ask /hrtgen/ on the catalog, make a thread on /lgbt/ and post on /r/TransDIY on Reddit."I'm AGP. Am I valid? Should I troon? Yes, if you have dysphoria. I don't think it's a good idea to transition purely out of a fetish. Seek guidance on /r/askAGP. It is full of dysphoric AGPs such as yourself. Same for AAPs: /r/autoandrophilia. "I'm a low quality male without dysphoria and AGP. Should I troon out?" Yes, definitely. If you are short, ugly, autistic and unfit for being a man in general, no amount of self improvement will save you. Transition now if you seek a survival level of dignity and quality of life. You aren't fit for male social roles and will likely kill yourself if you don't transition because your life will be miserable as a man.
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>>38461023If you're a drug addict trying to quit and you get back on drugs if I offer them to you, is it my fault or yours if you take the drugs I offered and start using again?
