boymoder generalboymoder generalboymoder generalyear of the boymoder editionrumours of my demise etc. etc.traffic on the board has fallen off so much we can probably have a little safe space againqott1: how long have u been boymoding forqott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacationqott3: do u have any funny boymoding storiesqott4: what are ur plans for this yearfeel free to talk about whatever u like
>>3847674012 yearsnonosleep and bake and sleep
>qott1: how long have u been boymoding for7 years and counting>qott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacationNo, too much depends on my stability for me to let things fall down.>qott3: do u have any funny boymoding storiesNo>qott4: what are ur plans for this yearKeep being based, keep making memories.
>>38476740I'm In a weird situation where I'm technically boymoding because I haven't come out or changed my name or anything, but I also pass as a woman and am regularly gendered correctly by strangers.
>>38476837good for you anon
>qott1: how long have u been boymoding forsince i was 17 when i found out i was a trans girl, now 20 and have been 4 months on hrt>qott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacationnever, and don't plan to>qott3: do u have any funny boymoding storiesbeing called a girl by my brother when he saw me wearing a full face of makeup (not sure if that still counts as boymoding though)>qott4: what are ur plans for this yearget a job in professional makeup artistry and to continue my transition until i feel safe enough to stop boymoding
>>38476958They're all girlmoders now I assume.I think I'm the only one of the covid class who isn't nowadays.
>>38476958still here
>>38477035Bdd ain't real like that.I work and live as a dude.I'm doing alright this way but I do get jealous sometimes of those who got lucky.Board started going downhill in mid '21 became 2 twitter
>>38477192still boymoding>Captcha: 2NSPH
>>38476740>1almost 2 years>2no but once was very very close>3no>4getting better at 3d
any boymoders that talk like coke whores?
no malefail 1 year in so im just a manmoder really
>1a little over 2 years now>2two visits actually, both around a year ago>3one time at work i malefailed twice and one of my coworkers was giving me shit about it like "i cant believe you got called a girl twice today">4go back to my job and hopefully graduate college?
None of you are boymoders
I got VFS in like mid 2024 and I was really sad at first because I thought it failed, I didn't sound female.Then I visited family in Portland in early December because I was planning to move there at the start of 2025 (The move went well and I now live here), and I figured, fuck it, nobody in Portland of all places is gonna care about the fagvoice, might as well let it out.But the weirdest thing happened - with the fagvoice, I started getting gendered female consistently on the phone, by strangers. People called me "miss", "girlie", "lady", etc., and when I discussed details of my move using my deadname, people assumed "Deadname" must be my boyfriend / husband and I'm just calling / answering for him.I guess I pass now? But its not like I wear dresses or makeup or anything. Am I still a boymoder? I don't know. picrel is what I look like.
>>38477338i remember a boymoding story from my last job now but idk if its funny>on break, manager comes and sits with me >"i just got a call about a young woman in the bakery, who could they be talking about??">for context, i was the youngest in the department by like 15 years"haha yeah idk that's weird">"customers amirite?">few weeks pass>on break, same thing>"a customer just came up to me complaining about how trans women are ruining the olympics and it's gonna lead to the rapture?? people are so strange""haha yeah that's weird">"customers amirite?">similar stuff keeps happening>sometimes people would call me ma'am when they were trying to get my attention and ig she overheard>she picks up on it starts calling me ma'am as a joke in passing>i laugh it off and start tying my hair lower bc i think i was coming off too faggy >she gradually stops and instead of talking to me starts staring at me whenever she passes >ermbut then she broke her knee or something and i never saw her againstrange happenings
>>38478644>boobidk im kinda race blind but you pass to me
>>38478644it's a girlwhere did you get your vfs done?
>>38477061>>38477110Hope you two are doing well
>>38479111yeson
>>38479124ups and downswbu anon
>>38479153Lot of downs in a row but last 6 months has been ups so I can't complainBut then I'm also back on here so maybe not doing great lmao
>>38479263iktfwe gonna make it
>>38479127any complications?i really want it but is kinda scared :/
>>38479309no complicationsthe surgery itself was ~$9000, ticket to korea was like ~$2kkeep in mind all it really does is raise pitch, but if thats all you want, its worth itif resonance is also a concern, you should go to james thomas in oregon and get femlar instead desu
>>38476740>qott1: how long have u been boymoding fora little over a year now, considering I came in completely hopeless and suicidal and enbycoping things are going better than expected>qott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacationI have not, and hope I never doqott3: do u have any funny boymoding stories>be me, unpassing boymanmoder with short hair>taking the train>decked out in the most sterotypical boymoder gear imaginable (hoodie, black nails, really light makeup)>wearing sunglasses with my hoodie up to keep a low profile>do NOT look like I want to be approached at all>lil nas x looking dude sees me>literally beelines for me the moment he does, no hesitation>hits on me then and there, says I look cute and he likes my style>sits next to me TRAPPING ME IN MY SEAT>ohmyfuckinggodwhatthefuck.jpeg>never been hit on in my entire life>do my best to hide my panic and play along, chat with him>way too scared to tell him off in any way>we get off the train together>"want to go to the bar later, get a few drinks?">lie about my packed schedule as a shutin tranny>"yeah me too haha">he gives me his number to call him later>wait for him to leave before I run away to never see him again he was definitely a chaser and he definitely knew EXACTLY what I was lmao>qott4: what are ur plans for this yeargetting back in the gym and getting a steady job to distract myself from my unbearably cool tranny life
>>38479376>boymoder
>>38476740>qott19-10 months? >qott2lots of threats from my family that i would be sent on one but nothing yet>qott3aside from the occasional guy doing a double-take at the bathroom sign when he sees me in there nah>qott4make it through a week without having suicidal idealizations
>how long have u been boymoding for9 years>have u ever had a grippy sock vacationyes, it's not that bad desu>do u have any funny boymoding storiesnot really, I don't go outside much>what are ur plans for this yeartry to find small pockets of happiness and resist the urge to kill myself
>>38476740Return to us, bmg!>qott1: how long have u been boymoding for3 yrs>qott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacationNope! I'm very good at hiding my emotions.>qott3: do u have any funny boymoding storiesNot funny, but it just happened, and I kinda want to talk about it. I could maybe post some malefail-type stories later if anyone wants.>hanging out with high school friends, haven't seen them in a while (few months, they've seen me since I started hrt)>we play some games, go out to eat, share memes. The usual>two of them keep sharing memes while noticeably tilting their phones away from me>they're trans memes (hating on them, not memes by trans ppl, obv)>they start talking and using the word "tranny" and being overall derogatory>meanwhile, I'm sitting there next to them trying to show no reaction, but also trying to not appear like I'm trying to show no reactionFml. These are my only irl friends. A CS degree that was mostly online and boymoding didn't help me there. Idrk what to do. My friends will never accept me.>qott4: what are ur plans for this yearSaving money. No plans to socially transition atm. The hope is to be financially independent. My parents are kinda like my friends. They even used to go on 2^3 channel for q shit a few years back.
>>38480045(This is me. Just separating posts for length and spam filter)>>38476802It's charlotte! I remember you from bmg a while ago. Hope you are doing well.>>38476837Are you out to/clocked by your friends and family? I'm kinda sorta in your position, too, but people who knew me from pre-hrt still gender me male with no hesitation.>>38476970I've seen Bea around recently. I think she started girlmoding, though. Haven't seen anyone else (who isn't already here lol)>>38478219That's happened with my family too. Doesn't rly embarass me, though, just makes me worry that they'll finally confront me about hrt or whatever.
>>38476740>just over 2.5 years>no but i’ve tried to admit myself and got rejected (nhs is great ain’t it)>ehm idk i just confuse people when i go out in public sometimes, don’t even malefail so it’s not really funny more worst of both worlds>pass this year of uni, begin to partially social transition (even if it’s just around friends), potentially move out if i can’t stand my family getting worse and even more unsupportive im more a manmoder but it’s nice seeing this back so giving it a bump :)
>>38478301Why is that?>>38478644Yea, no. Sorry, but I think you've graduated lol>>38478757Pretty funny but also kinda scary>>38479376That's fucked. Atleast he probably won't recognize you if he saw you again.>>38480027I like that, just grabbing onto whatever bits of positivity we can. I wish you the best!
>>38476740Several months NoOld guys look at my ass and most people have stopped gendering me, it was funny for a week but it's getting old fastKeep on hrt, find a job with insurance that might cover ffs.
>>384767401. like 5 years i think2. no3. back in early highschool when i was a bit feminine, i would sometimes get weird hints that guys were into me? in year 7 this guy two years older then me grabbed my ass on camp for no reason, and then in year 10 a guy was telling me about how i was on all the guy’s hear me out lists or something, bcs of my ‘assets’ (im flat chested he was talking about my ass)4. #stoptheslop, trying to delete instagram and tiktok and focus on enjoying more thoughtful media like tv and animeother than the stereotypical boymoder hoodie what do u guys normally wear
>>38480211oh and one time also in year 7 my choir teacher called me ‘good girl’ in front of the entire year because my idiot mother let me dye my hair pink and that was what pinkpilled me. doesnt really count as boymoding but whatever
>>38478644if u r picrel u are not a boymoder anymore, idk what kind of hunch you would have to do to hide those titsyou do pass though, you just sorta look vaguely european? idk if that makes sense, i don’t mean it in a bad way>>38479376faggy black guys r hot desu, had a crush on one in highschool. you missed out <\3
>>38476958long time no see all>>38476740>qott4graduate and get my new comic out the doori don't really set goals i think wanting too much is probably not good
>>384767402 years No, but there was an attempt to make me take one.Once I was exiting the male bathroom, and an older lady looked at me and went there too because she assumed it was the female one. (The labels were weirdly placed, which probably added to her confusion)Pass the matura exam (polish SAT) and get into a university.
>>38480253You're making your own comic? That's pretty damn cool
>>384767402yrNo but it's getting to be a real possibility latelyNoMake it to next year, get a job, an apartment, and a kitten
boymoding today
>>38480835haha thank you, no one reads them they're mostly just an exercise for me in creativity and improving my skillsI was working on another one before but took a break after I got the first set of chapters done to work on this one
>>38480877Any place I can read it? I'm just glad to know you've found a good motivation to drawI remember you struggling with it in the past so very cool
>>38480910I'm surprised anyone remembers that lolIt's all over the place cuz I never found a good place to post, might have to make my own site at some point https://medibang.com/mpc/titles/ku2412091329154460026878663/
>>38480954Damn that's really good, I love itYou've improved a lot but I guess it's been a few years since we really talked anywayLove the ending bit lmao plus the little descriptor about youProud of you
1 yrNo (thankfully)Like, one funny story about getting bloods from my doctor.Finish my degree, already have grad job lined up (manual labour that i somehow need a degree for?? im very cooked)
>>38476740>1about 2ish years>2nope, probably should've though>3none at all :(>4start hrt
>>38481245pre hrt is not boymodingit's like calling yourself an apostate when you've never belonged to a religion in the first place
>>38480211i just wear a white shirt and cargo pants most of the time. sometimes ppl stare at my boobs but i live in a woke place now
>>38481245>Not on hrtYou're not a boymoder.
>>38482160i’m also boymoding not on hrt
>>38482173That's called repping.
>>38480096this happens with my family also, my sister even says we look alike now, i guess that means i should start girlmoding...
>>38483099boybumpmoder
>>38476837Qott1 >3 months, barely a real boymoder cause it’s been too little timeQott2 >no, I’ve come close onceQott3 >nothing interesting, yesterday at a restaurant there was champagne ordered for the whole table and the waiter just skipped me cause she assumed I was underage :(, my mom also randomly told me my skin and hair was looking really good at dinner (which she never does) and it made me paranoid im gonna get found outQott4 >im trying hard with my friend to get my indie game funded, also I wanna move in with friends and become more independent.There should be a makeup guide for boymoders to look more fem with out it being very noticeable, I only use concealer really and I need to try using light eyeshadow and stuff
>>38476740lfg i miss it>qott1:a while>qott2:it's coming likely this year qott3:nothing about my life is funny qott4:ffs maybe and um
>>38476740Op pic is very cute and giving good vibes ty anon>boymoding 24 months>multiple grippy sock vacations as a juvenile and 2 as an adult.>one that i cant tell here about being asked if i was ftm before being strip searched and everyone was a lil confused>i want to get better and get a bf. I ended up cuddling with a guy on nye and i kinda like him so im talkin and looking forward to things c:
>>38481229>one funny storyWell? Go on>>38481245>>38482173I'm sorry friends, but you aren't really boymoding if you haven't gotten hrt yet. It's kind of a different thing altogether.>>38483099Go for it! The goal of boymoding is to get out once you are safe (and for some, when you are potentially passable). Good luck>>38484175>barely a boymoderHahaha, it's just beginning for you. First, it's complements about skin, especially if you had acne like me. Then, you get awkwardly not gendered everywhere you go. If you are lucky, you will malefail instead.>assumed I was underageLol this happened to me, too! I was almost 21, at the time, and I was shopping at Costco with my mom. We went up to an energy drink sample station, and the guy said he couldn't serve to minors when he looked at me. Kinda sad because it wasn't a malefail but oh well.>makeupNgl, makeup isn't a good idea if you plan on staying in boymode, unless you are *very* flamboyant, I guess.I only use a little concealer if I tear up my face while plucking on accident or have a pimple.
>>38485075Do you have any other stories you may want to share?>>38485270>mistaken for ftmHow tall are you? This mistake is one that I find really weird. Mtfs and ftms, assuming hrt, almost always look way different, but I guess normal people can't always tell. Atleast it means you have good chances of passing!Come on, everyone. Let's try to respond to others and have some conversation
>>38485401I dont think ill pass but im 5'4" and i got kinda small but not the tiniest proportions i dont thinkThe exact phrasing the guard used was "are you female to male transgender?? I need to know where to put you" and then when the other guy strip searched me he looked away when i took off my pants and my shirt and walked off awkwardly and presumably to find a female or to ask wtf I do not bodypass either it was bizarre
my only "malefail" was prehrt when a 5 yo girl was petting my dog and then stopped and stared at me and asked if i were a girl or a boynot ready for girlmoding yet
>>38486044well anon what ARE you?
>>38486058im a boymoder now (on hrt ofc)that story happened last year before i startedkids just think "long-ish hair = girl"the dad wastn fooled and said sorry for that to me lol (i wish he got bc he was kinda handsomen..,.,.)
i'm a guymodernot as passoid as u all to be a boymoder and not that masc to be a manmoder
>>38476740omg bmg! hi bmg frens :)qott1: 15 months i guess? unless u count pre-hrt embarassmentsqott2: nope. qott3: walked into the mens bathroom and an middle aged man walked in, looked at me, went sorry, and walked out of the bathroom lol; my id also gets scrutinized a lot qott4: orchi + ffs consult. starting my career finally and will be making over 80k a year :P>>38478644girlmoder...>>38480096ya bea is like fulltime now iirc
>>38486044yeah young kids can be like that, i think my little cousin thinks i’m a girl bc apparently when i wasn’t there he thought by brothers gf was me
>>38476740bunny >qott1: 13 months >qott2: no>qott3: idk everyone irl says i’m masculine everyone online says im feminine >qott4: i don’t really have any, i go through life aimlessly
>>38487019Naoto! Congrats on the job!You played guitar, right? How's that going?
>>38487599>Naoto! Congrats on the job!thanks!! im excited to start and earn. moving states which is going to be a big change but im finally independent >You played guitar, right? How's that going?going well. got a new one recently, going to start lessons for it in february once im settled. mostly bc i picked up some bad technique and want to learn some better technicals and fundamentals. going to start bass + production too :')
>>38476740So, like. Do you gals malefail regularly, or no?
>>38488064im essentially a girlmoder but i dont want to be workplace tranny and i cant find another job
>>38482964sure i guess. it's tough because i'm very fem so i can pass with a little eye makeup, and it doesn't really feel right to say that i'm a cis man so i just say boymoding to make it easier. i know that's not technically right though.
>>38488090why dont u get on hrt anon?
>>38480109>Why is thatThese niggas are all manmoders
>>38488113I am not a manmoder lmao.
>>38488095already ordered it, i just go out as a fem twink for rn
>>38488113and you're a butter bunchkin! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
i am the boymodest boymoder out there btw
>>38488129If you are over the age of like 21 then you most likely are sis….
you’ve done me plenty good bmg, so here’s a late night bump
>>38488257you get the roughest boyremoval then
>>38488730I'm a luckshit. There was never anything masculine about me besides facial hair, once I nuked that I started malefailing all day every day.
>>38489696Why don't u girlmode anon?Boymoding is nothing but fear if you can pass...
>>38476740>qott1Been boymoding for five years and I don't think it'll ever stop>qott2Never been to a proper psychward or at least the kind where they stuff you in a padded room.>qott3I've had people ask me if I was ftm and when I was gonna start.Took me 2 whole minutes to process and then I had to explain to them what was really going on.>qott4Hope I overdose on opioids eventually.
why do AGP creeps enjoy feeling like sex abuse victims.Check out this transbian rapehon. They keep giving out their snap anf baiting chasers. Just so they can get off on feeling aexually harassed.I bet they are a transbian who creeps on cis lesbians.
>>38476740it's alive?>qott1:my whole life ig?if only hrt time, then 7 months>qott2:luckily not, would've probably ended up in one if i hadn't found this gen a year ago though>qott3:>i got clocked as a tranny by a friend 1 month on hrt, still idk how, he must be a chaser or something>got called a faggot a few times>5 months on hrt and nurse thought i was a girl and the doctor was very confused>6 months on hrt my laser tech asked how she should refer to me, cause it was hot and i took my hoodie off...>not rlly boymode since i'm out to my queer group, but one guy said i look similar to another girl when we were all hanging out, which made me happy i guess>like 3 months on hrt, wanted to buy vodka, the cashier said hell nah, and even after i showed him my id, he was hesitant and asked me if it's fake???>4 months hrt at an endocrinologist for an appointment (mtf transsexual bla bla), the receptionist wrote me down as ftm, my endo picks me up from the waiting room, calls me sir, tells me how manly my name is (98% female name), looks at her computer, says "ow, there was a mistake" and genders me fem from that point on, it was comfy after that except she did a breast inspection (was dying inside)>qott4survive, don't drop out, voice train, wait for hrt to do stufffriends keep calling a luckshit and a passoid, which is driving me insane cause i'm neither and they pass while i don't, yeah i had a slower puberty, just means i'll look like a weird tall faggot for the foreseeable futureidki also feel like i could already girlmode if i tried more, but i just can't find the time or energy with uni sucking the life out me
>>38478644congrats <3>>38479376scaryyyy>>38480027>>38476779isn't it just a manmode at that point or do people still think you're underage?
>>38482173diy or die>>38487019omg hiii naoto!!!!! <3>>38490136at least try fagmoding or smthng idkboymoding forever is lame
>>38491134>diy or diereal, i will be diying
>>38476740>qott1: how long have u been boymoding for5 yrs>qott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacationno>qott3: do u have any funny boymoding storiesyes, but it's all shit i probably posted here a few years ago>qott4: what are ur plans for this yearsurvive college and then slack off as much as possible. perhaps go back to learning guitar
>>38491110Your timeline of events seems pretty quick, like just a few months for a lot of that stuff? You must be pretty lucky. All I got at 3 months was a lot of complements on how much my skin improved, since my acne went poof the second I got on hrt.
>>384767401)9 months2)no but probably soon telling my family i self harm and am depressed today :c3)no stories4)goals for this year are to get concealer and foundation shade matched get my eyebrows done try and boymode less outside of work and school
>>38491432nta and I know a lot of you people hate to hear it but it is very much a question of effort toot. stealth girlmoder who only did 10 months of boymoding
>>38489696>malefailingPost a selfie or larp, i doubt this is true! unless you are asian or something haha
>>38491737Effort is important but if you're not passable then it isn't going to make you a woman.You should probably put effort in regardless though because being a guy doesn't mean you make yourself even more miserable.
>>38491799larping permaboymoder has insignificant opinionsmore riveting news at 11
>>38491814>Go to bmg>There are boymoders
>>38491819you in particular are the issue but I'll let the newfrens find that out at their own pace xoxo
got hrt from the government today so i stopped diy nowim a state-funded boymoder now :3
>>38491853rude anon! we are all frens <3
>>38476740aren't ur big ol' fuckin hairy nuts suppose to shrink on hrt? how come mine look the same?
>>38476740>qott1like 9 months>qott2yeah, last month, it was pretty cool actually to be treated as an equal by ppl way older than me (i just turned 18 at the time and most patients were mid-late adults), and to finally get some psych meds and sympathy from my parents>qott3many of my irls now joking that im transitioning while not knowing i kinda ama nurse doing my EKG when i got hospitalized was confused and said i looked like a young boy with tits to another nurse and laughed abt ittalking abt HSTS and AGP with a trans girl in the psych ward, and her pinkpilling an autistic AGP lateshit repper patient>qott4get on official hrt so i can get my FFS letters, since my rich parents finally folded on letting me get the procedure>>38491974is your T suppressed enough? they should shrink a lot like mine went from marble size to like almost pea sizehappy snowday other northern virginia anons if there are any here
>>38491737Effort (and money) absolutely plays a role, but some people are just doomed from the start and others are basically handed passing on a silver platter. Can't really deny that.
8 long years I wasted boymoding Currently am in grippy sock jailOne time a female coworker grabbed my tit and asked what was up with that Voicetrain
>>38492095>>38492293look at this dude who hasn't voicetrained in 8 in whole ass yearsI'll bet my entire life savings he won't do shit this year either and then complain about the "passoids"
voicetrain is useless
>>38492524nta but tbhon if you cant get the hang of a semi passable voice in 1-2 months its never gonna happen just get VFS
>>38492524aight, I'll take you up on that bet
>>38492070i have to check my levels soon but im pretty sure they've always been the same size.
>>38492599the fun thing about vfs other than permanently limiting your ability to breathe and be loud is that it will sound super hollow and need -drumroll- voice training to sound like a proper voice much less a proper feminine voice
>>38492750yeah duh but for ppl with disgusting man vocal chord just voice training will never work so they need vfs first.
Hi /bmg/, >>38478644 here. I struggled with voice shit for like 7 years before I figured it out. Even got surgery and was convinced it failed before I figured it out. Here's what finally worked for me:The back of your tongue is connected to your larynx. You can visualize this by looking in the mirror and sticking your tongue out at yourself - your larynx will rise.So, in order to achieve proper resonance, you need to control the posture of your tongue, really, not your throat.Now, try keeping the tip of your tongue touching the back of your bottom row of teeth, but try to move the back of your tongue as close to your top front incisors as possible.Don't strain too hard, just try to move things in the right direction, keep the posture, and try to speak while holding that posture. Play with it a bit and refine it, don't hold onto the posture to the point where it sounds like you're trying to speak with your mouth full.That + pitch is honestly all I needed to start voicepassing to everyone over the phone desu.
>>38492880wtf this is some esoteric secret thank you
>>38492938i'm glad it worked for you <3
>>38476740>>>>>replying to.my.own post>qott1: how long have u been boymoding for this is my 7th year. i have managed to move across the world before girlmoding>qott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacation yes>qott3: do u have any funny boymoding stories a schizophrenic haitian guy on the psych ward kept calling me beautiful and talking about demons and then telling me everything about me that was masculine but he still thought I was cis somehow. i was too medicated to understand what was happening >qott4: what are ur plans for this year keep doing what im doing. i find out if my next visa is approved on friday. going to read a lot hopefully
>>38491424>5 yearsgirl why>>38491432idk, delayed puberty, i looked like a 16yo at 20 pre-hrt, estrogen just emphasisedi also had a grown out pixie at the time, so it made me look more childish and unkempt>>38492070>parents finally folded on letting me get the procedurecongrats!! ^w^>>38492880thank you, will try <3
>>38493366Fellow 7th year boymoder... Life has completely changed times over but still boymoding.
boysexmoder
>>38490081Poor, can't afford name change and shit plus can't risk my job. The fact that I pass makes it easier because the world sees me as a woman anyway (just not ppl who knew me before I started)It's not as simple as just girlmoding and then everything is fine. This is a fucking controversial subject and people will ruin your life if they know. It's just not a step I'm ready for.
>>38493483>girl whyi transitioned at 15 and i'm still dependent on my parents while i do college
>>38476740>how long have u been boymoding forsince i was like 16 just turned 20 kinda got groomed into it but even as a kid i always liked wearing more girly stuff, mostly cuz i have daddy issues and dont want to be like my dad>have u ever had a grippy sock vacation nope>do u have any funny boymoding storiesi once was out of my house for 2 days and my mom found my panties in my but she just ended up washing them and gave them to my sister so had to steal them back without her noticing>what are ur plans for this yearmaybe get more cute clothes and lose even more weight cuz i want to be skinny skinny
>>38491126>isn't it just a manmodeI suppose you're rightPeople think I'm a lot younger than I actually am though. My 19 year old coworker couldn't believe I'm nearly 30.
boymoding at college for 4 will be hell
>>38496398it won'ti boymoded all college while living in a dorm with mfs just don't show your tits idiot
>>38496587people will call me a faggot for 4 years anyway
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9f95CwLVbckall u fags
>>38476740>how long have u been boymoding forLike 5 years now, I'm so used to it and it's honestly comfy cuz I stopped caring about pronouns and stuff after year 1 >have u ever had a grippy sock vacationA couple times sadly, I wish I didn't it sucks.>do u have any funny boymoding storiesIdk about fun but generally people think you are a pooner, like the amount of times people have asked me if I'm trans and I was like woah how do they know but mean it the other way is so weird,>what are ur plans for this yearI'm going to go to America and live with my friends and be happy with them
>>38485401ok yeah I have a story i guess when I was little there was a lollipop on top of the fridge that looked like the world like it was painted like a globe somehow and every so often I would climb up and take a few licks and it feel like an eternity while I was up there so this went on for what I felt was like years(was likely just weeks)and then my mom caught me sucking on it and asked why I was up there so much and so I panicked and crunched it and I remember the inside being yellow(she beat the shit out of me afterwards but that's not important)but the important part is that this triggered something in me to dissociate at like 4 years old whenever I thought about the earth and it's position in the galaxy/universe and I started seeing black when I did that real bmg shit
>>38497573>I'm going to go to America and live with my friends and be happy with themI hope you reach your dream nonny!
does anyone not feel safe on walks anymore if you even go out walking i mean
>>38497974i know what u mean.. especially at night and a cars driving slowly by
>>38497573where u from
>>38476740>2 dayslmao
>>38498580what
>>38498580still alive
boymoding for more than 2 years (being veeeery generous) is just repping but worse, all you people are insanely patheticyou'll cowards don't even wear bras
>>38498501Um SEA
>>38499449erm i'll have you know i wear two (2) sports bras
>>38497845Idk who nonny is fren
>>38499449i'm so (un)lucky that i don't need to haha
>>38499730(a)non
>>38499449Do you have supportive parents, anon? Did you pass pre/early hrt? Do you have supportive friends? Do you live in a liberal area? If not, were you able to freely move away from your living situation?Have some empathy, honestly.
>>38499759oh I see I'm stupidis being into stereotypical autistic things make you autistic? Like if I enjoy playing factorio does that make me autistic
nah plenty of people with kinda autistic interests and even personality features that aren't actually autisticautism is a hardware issue not a software one so to say
u are 50also hi june
>>38499964>supportive parentslmaooooo not at all>pass prehrtnot really>pass early hrtnot sure how early is early for you but sure I guess if I had made the effort I could have passed fairly early>supportive friendssupportive as in they were like sure anon be a girl if you want and then went back to ignoring me>liberal arealmaooooo not at all>freely move awayI was a minimum wage unskilled worker who reenrolled in college in her mid 20s so not really noit's not a matter of circumstance, it's a matter of willbut I'm sure pitying yourself will one day magically make you pass and feel good about yourself without you needing to get off your lazy male shaped ass
>>38500113epic sauce althou im a bit sad cuz if i had autism i could be a neet and get free money from the govt
>>38499449when i try to tell that to reppers they tell me to fuck off and that im just a woman if im on hrt
>>38500326>it's not a matter of circumstance, it's a matter of will>feels over reals
>>38499449Probably, yeah...Honestly I'm considering switching from calling myself a boymoder to an hrt repper, despite male failing often.
>>38500364bro has terminally external locus of control
>>38500382like not being homeless
>>38500209not yet, don't know how that's relevant in this context?(pic related tho)also hiii :3>>38500332well i don't have autism and still a neet, but i'm in sweden so...you could always learn about autism and try to fake it?
>>38500389more like being a leech and holding yourself back for no fucking reasonI take solace in the fact you will so insanely hate yourself if you ever decide to stop repping and realize you've wasted your best years playing pretend because you were a scared little boy
>>38500401that would be pretty horrible i wouldnt wanna fake it dont they have tests and stuff they wouldnt just give away money 2 people if you could fake autism im pretty surey is ur name durian ? do you like eating it
>>38500326I'm doing fine, myself, but I needed a few years (and probably one or two more) to graduate college (check), get a job in my field (check), and build up a nest egg, so I can move out (WIP). I live in the most conservative county in my entire state (they have big trump parade floats every week without fail), have parents and kinda-friends that hate trans people, and I have/had things tethering me to the area (in addition to college).And you know what's crazy? I don't have it bad at all compared to many. My parents aren't going to literally kill me if I get outted. I probably won't lose my job (not 100% on that...). If I came out as *just* gay, I might even be accepted. There's so many others here in infinitely worse situations. I don't think I'm pathetic to boymode as I have, and I think it's especially insulting towards those people in worse situations who can't come out without fear for their physical safety.
>>38500487yes they have tests and at least here autistic symptoms must be obvious from childhood >y namei am a bad stinking namefag but can be kinda sweet too :Palso if i ever hon out i can change it to hondurian
>>38500426cope. i will be fine after i finish college and get a job
>>38500586You dont have to prove yourself to anyone anon, you know what's best for you.Hope everybody can girlmode asap for your own health though
there will always be a place in my heart for boymoders
>>38501481kill boymoders with a tire iron
>>38501481why?
>>38501522long term boymoders normally are pretty traumatised and they deserve the world
cuddle and cherish boymoders with a loving heart
>>38501531i deserve to be beaten with a tire iron
>>38501557haha ok anon sure*holds u and tells u ur a sweetheart*
>>38501531being hurt doesn’t suddenly make someone deserving of love, but it’s kind of you to see us like that, thanks anon
>>38501481I'm gonna hold a boymoder close and tell her everything is going to be okay while gently running my fingers through her hair
>>38501716everyone who needs love deserves it and hurt people need it more.
for about 2 months so recentnonot yetprobably learn how to code if thats ok
>>38501808i need to cut my hair and treat it better its so bad rni will try to go for a wolfcut with bangs maybe i can pull the twink look with it and keep boymoding until i have courage to girlmode
>>38476740i almost feel like if i got ffs i could be stealth if it weren't for more huge shoulders. i got stuck with literally the worst shoulders you could ask for and theres nothing i can do.
>>38502567look up vlad ncl loldude has a linebacker frame and nobody ever questions it
for me its gaysex between a boymoder and a cute guy
>>38502519I got a haircut which was way shorter than what I wanted and it somehow made me look slightly more fem compared to when it was long, so that's a wonderful little treat cuz I thought it was gonna make me wanna kms.
yesterday at work I complimented a ladys sweater and her husband asked if I wanted it because it looks like something I'd wanna wear and I felt embarrassed
>>38503853yeah im scared of going too short and dysphoria just gets worse but i will need to risk it since i will have college and no way i will go with my hair that unkept like rni need to get the bangs right at least since bangs alone helps my face a loooooot
>>38503853i got my first haircut in 6 years recently so much has to.come off T_T
>>38504504lol idk exactly how many years but would be same for mei only trim a bit myself but i want to go to a salon and have it fixed by a pro
boymoders use a slightly fem voice or full normal guy voice?
>>38506717depends on who im around, usually normal guy voice
>>38505282i went to a lgbt place the hairdresser was a theyfab on t and honestly they were very tolerant of me being extremely autistic >>38506717i talk like a girl outside of work ppl say my voice passes
>>38506850yeah i have a bit of anxiety going to a regular women salon like my moms do bc im boymoding. im not masc but im not a girl either rn. i know gay guys go to these salons sometimes but still i think i would be embarrassed :S
>>38507025i found the lgbt place on lex, i had being transfem on my profile so i knew they knew what 2 expect
>>38507205lol i didnt even know what was a lex until nowim not american :s anyway i will probably just take some courage and go to a regular salon which i know have both male and female clients and ask for some midlenght haircut with bangs
>>38507648what city are u in anon ill do my best to find u the lgbtest place i can
>>38507733im from a mid sized brazilian city lmao ty for that but yeah no problem i will do what i said it wont be the first time a gay boy will enter their place lol its not like homophobia is that bad here its just my shyness and cowardice lmaoi still have this month to fix my hair, college starts in february and i need to be at least looking like a functional human being by that time lol
>>38507780im sure ur very pretty anon
>>38507853ty i dont think im ugly ppl call me cute but i see myself as a cute boy im just a few months on E so im not ready for girlmoding yet :sbut ty again and gl to u too <3
bump
>>385045043 years for meI'm dreading it>>38505282>i only trim a bit myselfHow does that work out for you? I think i might try this soon. I don't really have split ends somehow, but I've got some damage and unevenness I'd like to trim off.
where do I get a boymoder gf
>>38510210depends largely on where you live but you can just take them most of the time
>>38476740Thread kinda ded, so I have a question for you all. Have any of you gotten permanent hair removal yet? If so...>what type (electrolysis, laser, IPL, laser type or IPL device model if you are a nerd)>how much $$$>how long ago>has there been any regrowthI'm thinking about scheduling for it, but I'm not out, and it would probably be too suspicious for my family and friends (its bad enough as is lol)
>>38510029good sometimes but the last time i think i did a bit too much of work without really knowing what i was doing so rn my hair is not goodif its only trimming a bit you can do yourself alone, if you want a bit more its nice to watch some tutorial and not try to cut bangs without knowing what u doing o.o
>>38511166That sounds cool, thanks!>not try to cut bangsI've seen so many horror stories and videos of people cutting their own bangs! Never in a million years would I cut my own bangs (not that I plan on going that fem rn anyways)
>>38476740lemonade made by boymoders is tasty???
boymoder bump
>>38510715I'm like 7 or 8 sessions of laser in for my face. It's almost all gone at this point. There are some that are still hanging around, but it's few enough that you don't really notice them. I'll probably do another couple sessions and then maybe look into electrolysis for anything that remains. Can't comment on regrowth but I figure a touch up session a couple times a year will probably be needed
>>38516512Wow, super cool! I forgot to ask. How much hair did you have to start with? I'm hoping one of those groupon 6 session deals would be enough to mostly reduce it, since my facial hair is relatively thin to begin with. I was about to say it was like severe pcos facial hair, but I just looked up some pictures, and they have full covered beards wtf haha. So maybe mine would be mild/moderate idk lmaoMaybe 14 yr old boy is a better description
boymoders they put the drink in the fortnite item shop im so happy
im too dumb for fortnite tried playing it back in 2018 but all the bricklayer thing got me confused i dont have the motor coordination for that lol
>>38517129they have a mode without building now so i am able to play again
>>38491134>omg hiii naoto!!!!! <3hi shoelace
>>38510715>laser>2400 USD for 12 total sessions>8 sessions so far>not really, i still get small amounts of hair on my lower chin and upper lip. most of the other hair is gone entirely mind u, i had a full beard at 15 so the laser ive had has done tremendous work. waiting til 12 sessions to see if i need electro
hello /bmg/ i want to plap a boymoder so good they forget their voice training
>>38517280you dont want to hear my deep natural voice
>>38517292i want to hear any sound you make because YOU are the one making itim also very very bisexual :3
>>38517292almost blew in my handsd tyyyy
>>38517280what if the boymoder hasnt done any voice training....
>>38517310then i wanna fuck the androgynous moans into them
dont mind me just coming here to grab a boymoder and ill be on my way
hello beam g
PSA: Boymoding is self-harmunless you live in iran you should not be doing that to yourself >>38476740>how long have u been boymoding for never have never will >have u ever had a grippy sock vacation no>do u have any funny boymoding stories no>what are ur plans for this year drink lessozempic
boymoding = comfy
>>38517379boymoding is acceptable as a safety net but >>38517368 is right. long term it is genuinely self harm and doesnt make the dysphoria go away
>>38517368boymoding is freedom escape the matrix
>>38517368oh, my trip was off
>>38517403you arent a boymoder, you dont belong itt the thread!!
>>38517227hmmmm i will take a look maybemy irl friends dont play warzone anymore so maybe i try to adventure myself in another battle royale
>>38517417im not a chaser either
>>38517358omg hiiiiii
I considered posting here since it's back by i see Charlotte is still here no life moding. I was hoping she'd have died by now... shame
im going to sleepboymode now bye
>>38518111good night sleepytripleboymoder
>>38478644Good boy moder uniform
>>38518202Damn it sideways pic
>>38517262Thanks!!
Should I get a 2nd round of FFS?
>>38519290it's up to you but contouring with makeup could also help achieve a more feminine face shape
>>38517074hey you're not me what's going on here
two milas...
fakemoders
>>38519290no why u look cute already
>>38519356hi dragonballmoder
>>384767401. on HRT for 2+ years now, started HRT at 18 yo, i dress with unisex clothes, usually from the women's section but they're not that feminine2. I've been involuntarely hospitalised in mental hospitals 8 times in the past year.3. all acquaintances think that im a tranny, random people gender me as a woman like 80% of the time, i scare men in men's restrooms all the time, most of the time they freak out and run outside, but one time i almost got assaulted as a man grabbed my arm and told me to go to the women's restroom.4. continue HRT, maybe stop boymodding
>>38517358halo
gonna try making sosig rolls
>>38524124hmmmm nice i liked to eat those in schooli need to learn how to cook better. i only the very basic (steak, pasta, eggs, rice these things)
>>38518084Glad I can scare you away that easily fren.I work a 9-5 though so you can easily avoid me.
charlotte is a cute and sweet girl no need to be rude to her
>>38525551thx anon...i have a few ffs consults lined up so maybe i wont be here much longer anyways, though im not sure if i wanna go through with it.i feel like maybe my idea of myself has evolved a bit and im not sure if i still need to be a woman to be happy maybe im just gnc.being able to keep all that money would be nice huh haha.
hi bmg what's up
>>38526551sosig rolls are in the oven
im gonna say it okay?i wish i had a bf.
>>38526551not much, continuing to (flawlessly) boymode through university. felt pretty bad about myself for being able to come back to bmg after its hiatus, thought i’d have progressed further in my transition by now, but i’m relieved (and saddened) to be surrounded by familiar faces, many of which have been on hrt longer than me>>38527000that’s the dream for plenty of us, it’s just so difficult to find a guy who’s 1.) willing to date a tranny 2.) willing to date one who doesn’t consistently pass and 3.) willing to date one who presents as a guy meaning others will see him as gay. it’s possible but extremely unlikely, made harder by boymoding while looking for a partner
>>38527092ngl i just want a bit of intimacy if i had a bf that would treat me as his gf inside the house i would be happy already i just want to kiss and get kissed by a guy and cuddle im not even asking for the complete girlfriend experience ;-;
>>38526551>hi bmg hi>what's upnothing.
bump/mg/
what do you all do to cope with the fact that you can't be completely honest with other people? it's been getting to me and i'm not ready to graduate yet sisters...
how do people even fall asleep i’m so manic i forgot how to do it
>>38529908This is the hardest.Like, I've shown a facade to every single person in my life for my entire life.
>>38530201right? nobody irl knows about this deeply personal and important part of my life because i'm too scared to come out to them, it hurts. i lie about the music i listen to because it's obviously tranny music, i have at least two accounts on most social media sites that i use, i celebrate all of my important milestones alone because i'm the only one that knows, stuff like that. i hate living a double life like this
>>38526551luv you fagel
>>38476740waow how have i not seen this for 5 days? so glad bmg is back>qott1: how long have u been boymoding for almost a year since starting hrt>qott2: have u ever had a grippy sock vacation no and i am lowkey really terrified of ever having to because they would make me go off by bathtub hrt. i think this is what's outwardly keeping my mental health in check but it also sucks because i cannot really risk talking to anyone about what i'm going through>qott3: do u have any funny boymoding stories no literally none it is all grim. i guess the few times i malefailed were positive but not funny, just kinda made me feel happy but awkward.having to hide boobs while living with parents is terrifying>qott4: what are ur plans for this yearanamode then get on pio and get a fat ass. move out since i finally have a job and some money saved up. start saving up money for plastic surgery. see a therapist to start taking official hrt and legally transitioning. start going hiking again, i've been bedrotting all my free time lately and i really miss it, hopefully i'll see some deer again. diy electrolysis. get a bomb ass crt and play retro games and watch old tranime on it. maybe finally look into dating once i move out? absolutely terrified of dating apps though as a troon in eastern europe so i might just try frengen or something>>38491110omg shoelace hii you have my laptopmine has a cat sticker though. had more on the back but i had to take the really faggy ones with hearts off cuz i took my laptop to work>friends keep calling a luckshit and a passoid, which is driving me insane cause i'm neitheryes you are motherfucker i've seen your pictures
>>38530742>i lie about the music i listen toX_X I hate this so much. Same with the books I read or the art I make. >two accounts on most social mediaI wish I could set up another discord account. I did it at one point, but now it keeps asking for phone verification. That's why I'm here. Nice, anonymous, and safe.>>38531239>having to hide boobs while living with parents is terrifyingI have seriously no idea how my parents haven't called me out yet. My mom asked me if I got the covid vaccine because she was worried it made me sterile, though lmaooPeople will accept anything as long as its gradual enough.