sometimes i think my girlfriend has me on emotional life support. like she says and does the minimum amount to make me not kill myself, but otherwise she doesn’t really care what happens. a lot of the time when i write to her i feel like im just talking to myself in a room with a baby monitor so she can check in on me if i say im about to cut myself. i don’t know why she even cares if i cut myself. when she gets distant i don’t have anyone else to talk to, especially not about serious stuff so my only other confidant is my razor. sometimes i wonder why she even keeps me around, but it doesn’t really matter why because i wont leave her no matter what. nobody else would even do me the courtesy of stringing me along so i should really just be thankful that she expresses any preference for whether or not i slash my wrists.
i love how your acting like she’s the toxic one when your the person constantly telling her your cutting yourself and so it’s obvious why she’d ignore you or try to distance yourself. bro stop having a victim complex and realize your a manipulative cunt.
>>38516307i try to never talk to her about cutting. i know that if i do cut myself she will inevitably see the cuts and that will make her more sad than if i had talked to her about it before doing it. so my rule is i only tell her that i feel like self harming if im imminently about to do it and talking to her about it is the only way to stop myself from doing it. sometimes i break that rule when i feel really bad but i never use the threat of self harm to pressure any kind of response. is it manipulative to ever talk with her about the desire to self harm? genuinely asking
Stop fucking being a pussy and fuck some pussy instead
>>38516278>>38516407Just break up with her so she can be free of your petty emotional manipulation>like she says and does the minimum amount to make me not kill myselfIt's not her job to do this. You should learn to handle your emotions like an adult instead of performatively manipulate her into rushing to your aid.>i don’t know why she even cares if i cut myself. God I heard this so many fucking times from my BPD ex. It's because people that care about you and don't like seeing you hurting yourself. You're doing it partially as a shitty and nonhelpful coping mechanism but mostly you're doing it to get your girlfriend to pay attention to you. Have you ever considered how fucking exhausting it is to constantly be wondering and on edge over whether the person you love is gonna actually kill herself or just do enough to keep you emotionally tethered? Work on yourself. Your girlfriend doesn't deserve to be treated like this and frankly, she should probably dump you for this shit
>>38516278Your gf isn't responsible for keeping you from killing yourself. Look, it's not that I have no sympathy for you, but people have to be able to stand on their own two feet. Being alone and being happy is the bare minimum required to be a complete, healthy human being.A relationship where you rely on the other person for your own emotional well being is not a healthy one. You need to find your own happiness and then go from there.
>>38516278real i feel like im in this same situation with my gf too. if she doesn't want me anymore and just feels like she has to do this bullshit, if that's true i'd rather her just break up with me so i can kill myself and be done with it. but i also genuinely hope i can return to how things were and make it so she is happy with me. but this awful fucking suspended situation is ruining my life
>>38519615hi anon. i realized that she’s 100% going to leave me if i don’t get my shit together. i can’t afford to lose her. i’m going to therapy tomorrow. fuck bpd fuck anxious attachment. i refuse to let it be my identity. i’m going to express my problems to her like an adult when i have them. i’m going to be someone that she enjoys talking to, not dreads. i encourage you to join me.
I recently cut off my last remaining friends because I don't want to deal with them making statements on my identity. On top of BPD I have been experiencing increasing identity disturbances. No, being called things that are inaccurate to me are not helpful. But I can't tell them this or else it would viewed as "manipulative".I understand anon. When my boyfriend gets distant, it sucks because that's my ONE safe person. Everyone else is untrustworthy. Although normies like their space. I'm sure she loves you, the best we can do is let them come to you.
you still got feelings?
>>38516278>emotional life support;_;
>>38516407>talking to her about it is the only way to stop myself from doing itthis is abusive
>>38520266good luck! therapy never helped me but i hope for you it's more useful. i hope that you can work it out with your gf so that the relationship doesn't feel draining and is happy for both of you
