is anyone else just really fucking alone? is it the tranny condition or am i just an autistic fuckup? i'm 28 and have very few long term friends and i'm not close with my family either, i lost touch with everyone along the way because i kept moving and burning bridges. while i've made a couple of genuinely good friends in the past couple of years, they live far away from me and i do ultimately worry we may not always be friends.meeting new people is hard for me, people enjoy my company but it rarely leads to anything deeper. i don't really like myself which makes social situations difficult for starters, but even when i manage to talk to others (cis people especially) i find myself struggling. i'm just weird, i don't fit social expectations no matter how hard i try to, even when i tried to emulate foidy small talk and conceal all my remotely malebrained interests it just wasn't worth it. cis women just talk at me, with the exception of a handful of neuroatypical ones i've met over the years i've rarely managed to get close. cis men on the other hand seem genuinely surprised at how much i have to say about certain topics, like they expect me to just know nothing about anything, and at how i just don't really behave like a typical foid. as for other trannies, i honestly love my tranny friends and wish i had more but i can never shake the feeling that i'm undeserving of them and that they're probably ashamed of or embarrassed by me and are going to turn on me. probably because i had some pretty bad experiences with other trans women earlier in transition, i'm not quite over the trauma.this honestly has led to me having really low self-esteem and feeling a bit like an imposter. i gave detransition more than a passing thought but i know from experience i'm not cut out for life as a moid. maybe i just need to kill myself.
>>38521206I find it pretty difficult to socialise too. I've managed to find some neurodivergent cisf friends through some of my autist interests. I hope you can find some good friends soon OP.
>>38521206yeahand I got that without being trans even
>>38521206nope i also struggle too. always have from when i was young. yes its the autism we literally cannot understand or blend in with normies. worse part is a lot of self proclaimed autists are also normies as the threshold for diagnosis is too lenient. keep trying as it’s all you can do but it’s not easy and it’s not something i’ve figured out myself after years
>wahhhh wahhh boohoo>i'm a disgusting putrid trannoid faggot and i'm so alone >pls give me validation pls pls pls!!!!pathetic, literally kill yourself
i'm retarded and struggling to express myself so im very lonely, i gotta gymmaxx and become hot and thatll improve my self confidence ig
>>38521206Please research psychedelics and take some (responsibly)You'd be surprised how deeply therapeutic that can be. Good luck, sister.
>>38521454Please do not do this. I received this same advice. This does not help at all. I hate that people try and push drugs onto others.
>>38521206yes, and when i say that i mean "alone" not "lonely". i am lonely, but i pushed everyone i had any sort of friendship with away in 2023 have had no one around since, i really don't know how i've managed i hate being this alone i only really need a few close friends
>>38521206> is anyone else just really fucking alone? is it the tranny condition or am i just an autistic fuckup?samei can't be open about my self not to mention me being troon so i literally have nobody except parents ofc who doesn't know that i'm troon so we don't talk tooalso i'm russian born in south-east asia so you can imagine what people think here about lgbt shiti also can't find friends online
>>38521366thanks anon, me too.>>38521388>worse part is a lot of self proclaimed autists are also normies as the threshold for diagnosis is too lenientlmao real, self-dx was a mistake, the day a cisF i knew years ago described going to every harry styles concert as her "special interest" i lost faith in humanity. my younger sibling is even more severely autistic than i and having seen how much him and my parents struggled over the years i have very little patience for vaguely quirky foids (because let's face it it's always foids) self-diagnosing as autistic.>>38521454my best friend is very experienced with psychedelics and she personally recommended i don't do them. unfortunately i have mental issues that mix very poorly with substances of any kind. i had to stop drinking alcohol because even one glass makes the bpdemon leap out once the initial euphoria goes down.>>38521500yeah, i'm not lonely in the sense that i do have regular interaction with other humans, i go to work every day and talk to people (and luckily most of my coworkers are nice), etc. but i'm alone in the sense that i lack belonging and don't have many deeper connections. i feel very distant from my own community and haven't managed to overcome the feeling of being an imposter when i talk to other trans women. at the same time i just can't really form much more than a surface level friendship with the majority of cis people. i'm also an immigrant and because i don't yet speak the local language very well i can't mingle too much with the locals, and at the same time the normie international community in my city is absolutely diabolical. all of this contributes to a feeling of being a permanent outsider. i only need a few close friends too, preferably ones i could see more often because the few i have live far away, but i mostly want to feel like i belong somewhere.
>>38521406stop repping
>>38522309I need to stay a male until my mother dies so she can die proud of the man I became
Yes that is the trans experience, innately isolating Get addicted to porn and video games bc it does help, trust me
>>38522326do them both at the same time too>mfw I've modded my self insert catgirl in xiv to have a small dick and hrt titties so jerk off to her frotting with black men in gpose
>>38522339*and jerk off
>>38522339I talk like a fag with my team on overwatch it triggers my MEF to the fucking moon and the after I'm done playing I masturbate on hypnotube to BBCIt's kinda shitty but I'm mot crying in bed over loneliness anymore
>>38521206im a 24 year old reppoid neet and i haven't spoken to anyone outside of my family for the past 6 years (even then our discussions(if you can even call them that) are brief)
>>38521206Yep I get it, made a whole greentext about it earlier
>>38521206it's okay that i'm trans because i'm fundamentally unlovable and unwanted anyway so the negatives can't effect me as much as they could for someone actually worth talking to
>>38526059this made me really sad. you deserve love.
>>38526603it's nowhere to be found so this is the only explanation
>>38521206you sound cute and i want to kiss you.
>>38526852>you sound cutelower your expectations.>i want to kiss youage/letter/location? you never know.
>>38526869>age/letter/location? you never know.28.mtf new york
>>38526803even if a lot of the world doesn't care about you, you deserve and you can find people who love you and cherish you
>>38526914it's been 30 years anon i have to accept it eventually
>>38526877god damn it, you sound perfect but you're an ocean away. why do i have to live in the fucking czech republic and not somewhere like NYC with an abundance of cute trans girls.
it's not just you or trannies everyone is a bit more isolated these days, you have to work to change it and it's twice as hard for trannies and anyone who's faced social rejection
>>38526948>god damn it, you sound perfect but you're an ocean away. why do i have to live in the fucking czech republic and not somewhere like NYC with an abundance of cute trans girls.what if you just took a plane and we did stuff
>>38526963>return flight costs almost 1/3 of my net monthly salary while i'm trying to save for surgeriesi'd have to think about it anon.
don't kys. pay for $20 Chat GPT as a cheap therapist. Find more autistic friends. They're easier to talk to than normy queers.
>>38526877IM 27 mtf NYC. You're not alone.
>>38521206>i'm 28 and have very few long term friendsi find it very hard to take it seriously when someone says they "only" have "a few" close friends as if they're massively disadvantaged. especially when they then go into a spiel about how they have low self-esteem despite self-described as having multiple close friends who they presumably engage with often. there are people with actual issues and you're here grifting for attention.
>>38527046>pay for $20 Chat GPT as a cheap therapistcharacter.ai therapist AIs are free
>>38521206Yea, I want to die so fucking badly.
>>38521206No, I'm cis and also a complete screwup. You at least have valid reasons for not fitting in meanwhile I have completely no friends even though by all accounts I should be doing more than fine given my lucky position in life.>>38527422Why, what's troubling you?
>>38521206im 28 and think youre stupid for not realizing this more than 10 years ago
>>38527613>Why, what's troubling you?Everything, I feel so alone.
>>38527366i realise now that all of 4chan is just people who "only" have multiple close friends and a close social network but cosplay as if they're struggling and life is hard. none of you know what it's like to actually suffer. none of you know what it's like to actually be alone.
>>38521206>constantly burning bridgessounds like you're a pain to deal with. fix that
>>38527744Want to tell me about it, in detail? Where are you from?>>38527760It's the fembrain, they rarely understand true solitude.
>>38527760I literally have nobody in my life outside of my remote work and 4chan, I exchange brief texts with some old coworkers from my last job once or twice a year and one got me a new job I'm extremely grateful for but I've really got no friends or regular contacts
>>38526925Idk if you'd have to make life changes to find people but i genuinely don't believe anyone is unlovable. what exact traits are you worried about?
>>38521206zero friends, zero family, but I have a partner. it's really hard to make friends.
>>38528009kill yourself immediately, you have nothing to whine about
>>38521206I have 0 friends. After experiencing mild school bullying I just got too scared/lazy to socialize for life.
